How to become a qualified villain BOSS

Lu Xiuze looked at Wen Jing, just like Wen Jing stared at him.He saw Wen Jing's expression was blank, just like himself in Wen Jing's eyes.

When did Wen Jing come?

How long has he been here?

How much has he listened?

Lu Xiuze couldn't help but wanted to back away, to avoid Wen Jing's stare, which was actually not sharp, or to say something, so as to break the deadlock.

But his feet were rooted, and he could not move; his neck was stiff and frozen, and he could not turn; his thoughts were dry and withered, and he could not speak.

At this moment, for the first time, Lu Xiuze felt resentment towards that hidden fate: Why did you treat him like this?Why let him be smashed the moment before he made up his mind to confess to the one he loves?Why let everything go to the point of no return over and over again? !

Lu Xiuze felt a stabbing pain in the back of his mind. Countless pictures swarmed out, golden and black flames appeared alternately. However, he didn't want to look at those blazing fires and messy paintings. Instead, he was recalled several times by the pain. very sensible.

No... not right!

Lu Xiuze suddenly woke up: No!The current him is not the dancer Xiao Ran, nor is he the one who has a private life with Wen Jing.At this moment, he is dressed as a man with the face of "Lu Xiuze". Even if Wen Jing sees him, he will only think that it is a reunion with a senior brother from the same sect, and he will never think...won't think...

As soon as Lu Xiuze's expression changed by two points, he fell into the eyes of Wen Jing on the other side.

Wen Jing suddenly smiled, and opened his mouth to say something, but it was not until his throat rolled a few times that a breathy laugh escaped, and he said in a hoarse voice: "Have you finally figured out how to lie to me, big brother?" ?”

"I still want to call you..."

Wen Jing smiled silently, his eyes fell on Lu Xiuze's waist.

Lu Xiuze froze as if struck by lightning, and only then remembered that he had hung the cat's eyeball that Wen Jing had given to Axiu on his waist before he left, that is to say...

In other words, the first time Wen Jing saw him, he already knew his identity—no matter which identity it was.

It wasn't until this moment that the belated heartache finally rose from Lu Xiuze's heart. It flowed continuously and piled up layer by layer. Even every breath was like a sharp knife, piercing the flesh and blood and penetrating into the bone marrow.

It hurts so much, it's unspeakable.

Lu Xiuze's face was pale, all the words and ingenuity turned into nothingness at this moment, only the pain continued and could not be stopped.

This is Wen Jing's pain... Lu Xiuze clearly knows that this is not his pain, but Wen Jing's.

This made Lu Xiuze suffer even more.

——How could he make his Ah Jing so sad?

Lu Xiuze couldn't help but want to go forward and hug Wen Jing regardless, wanting to heal the pain even a little bit, but the endless guilt made him dare not even get closer to Wen Jing.

Wen Jing looked at Lu Xiuze like this, his chest rose and fell sharply, his eyes were red, as if he was about to scold or cry, but in the end, he gritted his teeth and said, "Eldest brother, I don't have anything to say to me. ?"

--explain?say what?

Pain and bitterness accumulated in Lu Xiuze's throat.

- Speechless, shameless.

Lu Xiuze remained silent, Wen Jing could hardly bear to hate him.He stared at Lu Xiuze, feeling that his eyes were burning, but he couldn't shed any tears.

He couldn't help but take a step closer to Lu Xiuze, and Lu Xiuze took a step back in embarrassment.

As he approached step by step, Lu Xiuze retreated step by step, until Lu Xiuze stood still by the river, and when there was no way to retreat, Wen Jing finally came in front of him and looked straight into his eyes.

"The things you... said to me..." Wen Jing's voice trembled, "The things you did to me..."

It was this person who held his face and said that he loved him over and over again; it was this person who knocked on the door of his heart and occupied all his thoughts; ... It was this man who broke everything in front of him.

"You just..." Wen Jing almost choked up, but he gritted his teeth and suppressed all his weakness before saying in a hoarse voice, "There is really no explanation?!"

Wen Jing looked straight at him, that look burned Lu Xiuze's eyes immediately.

Lu Xiuze turned his head away in embarrassment, Wen Jing laughed again, and said, "Or... lie to me, tease me, make me turn around like a fool, just to make you happy?"

——No, not right!

Lu Xiuze felt great pain in his heart, panic and guilt intertwined, admiration and bitterness intertwined.

--not like this!

He cherished Ah Jing so much, how could he want to tease him, how could he want to despise and trample him?

However, he had never thought of it this way, but he did it anyway.

Lu Xiuze's argument was incontrovertible, there was no way to retreat, and the pain was hard to come by.Those "I'm sorry" that I've recited thousands of times in my heart, and "I love you" that I've said thousands of times, have become light and light at this moment, making Lu Xiuze feel ashamed to say a few words.

What should I do?What should he do? !

Lu Xiuze could no longer bear such shame and pain, and could no longer bear such gazes, so he hid his face and went down the river under Wen Jing's gaze, fleeing in embarrassment.

He could feel that Wen Jing was standing firmly in place, his gaze was looking directly at his back without shifting in the slightest.But he didn't dare to look back, and he didn't dare to stop.

He walked frantically, until the sky turned black and white, and white and black again, before he was stopped by the huge lake lying in front of him.

Lu Xiuze looked down, only to find that his eyes had changed at some point, one turned into pure black, and the other turned into pure gold. On the one hand, it was terrifying like a ghost, and on the other hand, it was shining like a god.

Lu Xiuze's heart trembled violently, and his headache was about to split.

--monster……

He saw the farmer who abandoned him in the mountains talking to him like this.

--monster.

He saw the man who had taken his mother from him say this to him.

--monster!

monster!Calamity!

The source of trouble, the cause of pain.

It's all you!It's all about you!

Until this moment, Lu Xiuze finally remembered everything—everything he wanted to avoid and forget, but ended up facing in a more cruel and tragic way.

Lu Xiuze stared into the eyes of ordinary people in the water, the endless pain, resentment, entanglement and hatred in his heart finally broke through his reason, making him suddenly laugh and then cry bitterly.

"It would be fine without you..."

If it weren't for this pair of easy-going eyes, everything would not have happened from the very beginning!

is not it?

right? !

Lu Xiuze laughed loudly, mercilessly took off his eyes that were easy for ordinary people, and threw them into the huge lake with all his strength, but when he raised his head, he could still see the moon as clear as fog, and when he lowered his head, , he saw golden and black flames burning in his eyes, except for the different colors, everything was the same as before he was four years old.

It was as if everything went back to before he was four years old.

However, before the age of four, Lu Xiuze had no name and didn't know what pain was. At this moment, Lu Xiuze knew love and pain, and lost them again.

Lu Xiuze finally covered his face and cried bitterly, but when the moon was in the sky, he remembered something.

——A Jing.

The person who loves him the most in the world is also the person he loves the most.

He actually left him for the second time without any explanation, and fled from him for the second time.

Lu Xiuze couldn't help getting flustered, and walked up the Longshen River at a faster speed.

As he walked, he thought.For a while, I was thinking about Wen Jing's mood at this moment, whether he hated him and hated him, or would still love him, and for a while, I wondered where Wen Jing would be at this time, whether he was still waiting for him in Feihe City, or had already left, Tell him to never find him again.

Lu Xiuze was thinking wildly like this, with hundreds of years and thousands of guesses in his mind.But what he never expected was that on the third night after he left, when he came outside Feihe City again, Wen Jing was still standing at the same place, looking at the direction he left with the same posture.

The first moment Lu Xiuze saw Wen Jing's figure, he froze and froze on the spot. The next moment, he rushed to Wen Jing with all his strength, fearing that he would refuse, and hugged Wen Jing into his arms with all his might.

"I'm sorry." Lu Xiuze choked up.

For everything.

Wen Jing was silent for a while, and then said softly: "I thought, this time you will be the same as before, and will not come back again."

Lu Xiuze felt ashamed, but he couldn't think of anything to defend himself, so he could only hold Wen Jing tighter and said, "I'm sorry...it's my fault."

"Then do you have anything else to say to me now?"

Lu Xiuze felt unspeakable pain again.

"Yes, Ah Jing, I have something to tell you!" Lu Xiuze let go of Wen Jing, and said seriously, "I will tell you all the things you haven't heard and I haven't said tonight."

"Ah Jing...you should have guessed it a long time ago. Although I am entrusted to a human body, I am not a human race. I have no heart, so I have no emotion. I don't know how to hate, but my biological parents hate me, so I also I know hate; I don’t know love, but my adoptive mother loves me, so I also know love; I don’t know love, but..."

Lu Xiuze's voice was choked with sobs, but he smiled slightly: "But you love me, so I also understand love and how to love you."

"I love you, Jing."

"I love you, it's true."

Wen Jing looked at Lu Xiuze, gritted his teeth hard, but tears kept rolling down from his eyes.

Lu Xiuze tried to wipe away the tears from the corners of Wen Jing's eyes with his fingertips, but the tears could not be cut off and could not be wiped away.

Lu Xiuze said: "The first time I left you, it wasn't that I didn't take you seriously, just like the second time I left you, it wasn't because I didn't love you enough...

"Since I was a child, what I have learned is 'take what you like, grab it yourself', but when facing you, I always let go... Ah Jing, I don't understand why I only treat you Only when I was so timid, but later I realized that it's not that I don't love you, but that I love you too much."

Because I cherish him too much, I bind my hands and feet and stick to my spot, and because I love him too much, I am afraid that I will hurt him.

"That night I lost my head and did something wrong. When I woke up, everything was irreversible... But those things were indeed done by me. There is no excuse, no reason, it was me I violated the agreement, so I dare not face you, and I even think it’s okay to let you blame me for everything, and think that I am a heinous person, because in this way, you can hate me without any scruples, and you don’t have to worry about it anymore. Suffer because of me."

Lu Xiuze knew very well that after what he did, the sect would not tolerate him, and it was impossible for him to forgive the Zeri sect, so after this, Ah Jing must choose a position, but no matter which choice he chose, he must not It would make it easier for Ah Jing... In that case, he made that choice on behalf of Ah Jing, severed the relationship between him and Ah Jing, and pushed Ah Jing to the Chori Sect, thinking that this would be good for Ah Jing.

"But I did something wrong... I was wrong, Ah Jing, I shouldn't have done this."

He shouldn't have made a decision on behalf of Ah Jing, shouldn't have thrown the heart and trust that Ah Jing had given him to the ground, and shouldn't have hurt Ah Jing who was defenseless against him so deeply.He failed Ah Jing's trust, and also failed Ah Jing.

"So, I'm going to tell you all about it now. I know you won't forgive me, because the way I love you is really stupid and ridiculous, but, Jing, what I want to tell you is that I do love you .”

Wen Jing closed his eyes, but the tears rolled down even more fiercely.

Lu Xiuze couldn't restrain his heartache, and almost couldn't help wanting to hug Wen Jing into his arms again, but Lu Xiuze didn't know whether he would be so honest at the next moment after he stopped at this moment, so he Forced himself to continue: "Ah Jing, look, I am such an arrogant and cowardly person."

He looked down on everything in the world, but he also looked down on himself as a monster.His soul wants to break free from everything, but he is still bound by identity, by the past, by everything.

"I'm always running away. So when I fell into the Devil's Realm, I thought, if only I could start over and start over."

Lu Xiuze's amnesia was not only a system error, but also his escape.In fact, he was always evading, thinking that he could stop and restore everything in this way.

"But time won't come back, I can't start it all over again, but my memory has temporarily disappeared... I lost all my memories, that's why I didn't recognize you at first sight."

Wen Jing suddenly opened his eyes, as if he had expected it: "But you said you love me."

Lu Xiuze said: "Because I feel that you love me, or rather, your liking for 'Lu Xiuze' makes me think that this is love, so I want to catch you, I want you to love me."

Wen Jing's expression was shocked, as if he understood something, he looked at Lu Xiuze in disbelief, and was speechless for a moment.

"I know if you say it, you're probably going to laugh at me, but... Ah Jing, I want someone to love me, as long as I can feel a little bit of love, I will hold on tightly and never let go , because I am such a greedy person." Lu Xiuze said, "That's why I caught you."

Wen Jing said coldly: "Then why didn't you catch it to the end?"

Lu Xiuze was startled at first, and then felt a pain in his heart.

Wen Jing's eyes were red, he raised his voice, and said sharply, "Since you want to catch me, why didn't you catch me until the end? Since you are determined to lie to me, why didn't you lie to me until the end? Since you decided to tie me by your side, why didn't you catch me until the end? Don't make it to the end?!"

Lu Xiuze tremblingly said: "Because I dare not."

Wen Jing said: "Why don't you dare?"

Lu Xiuze said: "I dare not break your heart, let alone listen to your rejection."

Wen Jing smiled bitterly: "So you rejected me first?"

Lu Xiuze was speechless, and after a while he said hoarsely: "I'm back, this time I won't run away again."

Lu Xiuze wanted to hug Wen Jing tightly again, but Wen Jing broke free from his hand.

"Now that you've finished talking about what you think," Wen Jing said, "then do you want to hear what I think?"