Xiaoman

Liu Xiaoman didn't know what he was doing in the convenience store.

He looked at the fruit juice shelf for at least 3 minutes, but he still forgot what was on the fifth row when his eyes moved to the fourth row, and couldn't remember whether the fourth row was peach juice or grape juice when he moved to the fifth row .

It turned out to be apple juice.

He moved back and took another careful look.

Xia Liang doesn't want to talk to him anymore.

Liu Xiaoman stared at the carrot juice in a daze.

After being stunned for an indeterminate amount of time, even the clerk was leaning over in front of the cashier and secretly staring at him. Liu Xiaoman finally took a breath, suppressed the pain in his chest, and turned around to get a cheap big bottle of orange juice from the bottom of the container next to him.

When he went to pay at the cashier, the clerk looked at him like he was crazy.

Liu Xiaoman went out with orange juice in his arms. Before the door opened, he was a little nervous whether Xia Liang would still be there, but when he saw the empty door after he went out, he almost couldn't help laughing at himself.

Liu Xiaoman, you are really screwed.

He sniffed, his chest was filled with complex emotions like the juice sloshing in his arms.

Among all the emotions, the one that confuses him the most is that he finds that even if Xia Liang is too lazy to talk to him, he still wants to take another look at Xia Liang's face.

Xia Liang walked all the way into Xiaomaoku alley before taking out his mobile phone and dialing back to Luo Hao: "What's the matter?"

"Where are you?" Luo Hao's voice was not high, as if he was suppressing his throat on purpose, "I came to play with you, and I just walked in with you... Auntie and grandpa stared at you, come back quickly if you buy something!"

"It's 29 years old..." Xia Liang was a little helpless, "The door is open, we will be there soon."

Luo Hao couldn't sit still, he hung up the phone and went to wait at the gate of the yard. From a distance, Xia Liang saw him bouncing around in front of the house, bored.

"Why is your mother here?" Luo Hao greeted him and whispered to him, "Didn't she have to be busy until the [-]th year of the year? Good guy, I called 'Old Man' and went in directly. Your mother came over to scare me jump!"

It was true in previous years, but since last year, the focus has shifted to Xia Liang.

"Why didn't your mother give you a home when it was time for dinner?" Xia Liang pushed open the courtyard door and entered.

"Why don't my family sit in the manor this year? My grandma, second aunt, and uncle are all here to celebrate the New Year together. The children are so annoying..." Luo Hao complained, pulling Xia Liang's paper bag hanging around his neck, "What did you buy?"

"Eat." Xia Liang let him carry it.

"Eat your uncle!" Luo Hao took out a can to attract Xiao Guo, "This cat is so fat now, I didn't even dare to recognize it just now."

Xia Liang glanced at the fat little pot, and entered the room to say hello.

It wasn't the first time Luo Hao came to eat. Before Xia Liang transferred to another school, he always came here, and he knew his grandfather well, but he was a little scared of Xia Liang's mother, and it was the first time he sat down to eat together.

Mom also doesn't like Luo Hao very much. Although she doesn't show it on her face, Xia Liang knows that in her eyes, all around her are a little cronies.

Friends who go to other people's houses to grab a meal in the evening of New Year's Eve are a bit careless in the eyes of adults.

Hupenggouyouhao ate a meal that felt like sitting on pins and needles. He was asked many questions about the university one by one by his mother in a leisurely manner. Khan asked all the questions and poked Gu Xiahao under the table several times.

When Luo Hao was asked if he planned to take the postgraduate entrance examination, Xia Liang wanted to laugh, so he put down his chopsticks and said "go out for a stroll".

"Come back early." Mom gave him a look, "Don't go where you shouldn't go."

"Where can he go after the new year?" Grandpa stood behind the desk, brushing a pen, "Liangliang put on the scarf."

Xia Liang pulled the scarf from the hanger, casually wrapped it around his neck and face twice, and took Luo Hao out.

"Where are you going?" He asked Luo Hao.

"Just walk around and eat casually." Luo Hao didn't know if he was telling Xia Liang's mother, but he cleared his throat, "Why don't you go to school!"

Xia Liang said "hmm".

"Your mother is so funny." Luo Hao didn't dare to let go of his words until he jumped all the way to the entrance of the alley. "You're not a sophomore in junior high school. What's a place you shouldn't go to, Red Sun? Why don't you close your business today too?"

Xia Liang ignored him, went out from the alley, walked to the intersection where they used to go to school, and he glanced in the direction of Liu Xiaoman's house.

"Hey brother Liang, you said God is not magical." Luo Hao squatted down on the side of the road, waiting for the red light, "I used to be so tired of going to school. , I still feel a little nostalgic."

"What you miss is Guo Wei and the others who died with you." Xia Liang said.

Luo Hao started to laugh with a "fuck", and in the middle of the music, he suddenly jumped up from the ground, pointing at Xia Liang with an expression of "I fucking understand": "Your mother didn't mean to tell you not to look for me!" Small disability! I rely on her to know?"

"Your voice should be louder." Xia Liang looked at him, "Both of you can hear me coming."

"...day." Luo Hao stared at him for a long time before making another sound.

Xia Liang didn't know if his mother knew.

He felt that he should know. From what she said to her grandfather last year, he could more or less feel the clues, but he didn't mention it later.

Luo Hao is still struggling with the question that he didn't get the answer on the day of the college entrance examination: what exactly does he like about Liu Xiaoman.I kept talking on the road, and I kept talking when I insisted on climbing over the wall and entering the school for a walk.

Xia Liang didn't know what to do in Heidengxiahuo. The guards all went home to celebrate the New Year, and a school was full of darkness.But he didn't want to go home, and it didn't matter where he went, so he gave Luo Hao an ear, and walked around the school together while listening to his chatter.

"Actually, there are two in our department who are just like you." Luo Hao sat down on the table in the playground.

Xia Liang glanced at him.

It was dark, and I didn't see anything.

"But we are not a couple, so we didn't hide anything. We both think it's nothing. We get along pretty well." Luo Hao fumbled for a long time and took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and sucked on the end of the cigarette when he lit it. There was a spark, "Fuck", "Dang it upside down, it smells like salt."

"And then." Xia Liang said.

"Ah? It's nothing. Then, I just thought of what I said, don't interrupt me," Luo Hao thought for a while, "I felt that I was not good enough in high school. At that time, I was stunned all night when I heard you say it. Later, when I went to university, I found out There are all kinds of people, everyone is very tolerant, and no one said that this person likes men, so I will rush over and spit on him immediately."

"My bad school is like that, let alone you go to a good school later, Brother Liang." Luo Hao reached out to pat Xia Liang on the shoulder, and patted Xia Liang's shoulder twice before he didn't follow his arm directly. Slide down, "Your mother is in charge of you now, so let her take care of you. After you pass the exam, you can support yourself, and you will never turn back and go all the way to the dark. In fact, she can't do anything to you. She can't really beat you up." Die... I have been beating you for so many years, now you just bear it, not bad for the last few months."

Xia Liang didn't say anything, this was indeed a problem between him and his mother, but not the main problem between him and Liu Xiaoman.

Luo Hao didn't care whether he said anything or not, and said "hey": "Anyway, the vast world has a lot to do, so you should try your best to run into a bigger world. I've been asking you for half a year, and if you don't want to talk about it, I won't ask. Exactly, I love you, I just want to comfort you as a buddy, and I feel that you have talked less this year."

The vast world has a lot to do.

"College students speak differently from high school seniors," Xia Liang smiled. "Is this the way you use it?"

"Can you listen to the key points?" Luo Hao also laughed.

Afterwards, Luo Hao didn't talk about this topic anymore. Xia Liang knew that he really wanted to express his support, so he didn't say anything, and walked around with him twice in the dark.

On the way back at the intersection, he crossed the small path and stood for a while leaning against the streetlight where the boss was waiting for Liu Xiaoman.

Not long, the effort of a cigarette.

Luo Hao's sentence "The vast world has great potential" has been spinning in his mind like brainwashing. Xia Liang feels that he is a humanoid repeater today, and now he is replaying this sentence, and the first half is replaying Liu Xiaoman's arm that flinched at the end.

In winter, the clothes are thick, and scraping the light box with an elbow will not feel anything. Liu Xiaoman's reaction is so obvious, either because of stress or some kind of wound.

Xia Liang felt that he was awesome, and he was able to resist dragging him back to see what happened.

Nor can he pull.

Liu Xiaoman, who was dragged to his side by him, didn't dare to really hold his hand. If something went wrong and he was under pressure, he would just curl up and carry it.

Xia Liang was actually quite annoyed when he thought about it for a while.

He felt that Liu Xiaoman was really a jerk, his face was soft, but his bones were actually so hard that he could poke someone.

If you can bear it, you have to bear it. If you feel that you can't bear it, your first reaction is to push away those who may be dragged down first, regardless of whether you will collapse or not, and continue to carry it silently.

He likes Liu Xiaoman's stubbornness and tenacity, but this stubbornness and tenacity shouldn't exclude him.

After the annoyance was over, there was still an unspeakable distress in my heart.

Xia Liang knew that if he wanted to pull Liu Xiaoman back, he could pull it with his hand. He knew the way Liu Xiaoman looked at him today. The tone of Liu Xiaoman's last sentence "Happy New Year" made his heart churn, especially feel bad.

But he still decided not to pull.

Liu Xiaoman pushed him away, and he wanted Liu Xiaoman to find it by himself.

Otherwise, if something happened this time, he would be pushed out, and if there was another accident in the future, he would push himself out again.

Sorry, I was wrong, dare to do it next time.

Especially hateful.

Xia Liang didn't want to do it again.

He spent the past six months pondering over it, which means that Liu Xiaoman was willing to push him like this.

And the root of this "willingness" is actually Liu Xiaoman's inferiority complex deeply rooted in his bones because of his disability.

From the bottom of his heart, Liu Xiaoman couldn't believe that he could own good things, which should be seen from the "I only have one arm" he emphasized more than once.

But Xia Liang didn't think much about it at that time, because in his eyes, it wasn't a problem at all.

Thinking about it now, apart from being distressed, he still doesn't think it's a problem.

Not only is it not a problem, one arm is stronger than other people's two arms and can be carried. His little boyfriend... his ex-boyfriend, who is worse than him?

Although Luo Hao talked a lot without getting to the point, the "run away" is indeed not only applicable to Xia Liang himself.

The feasible solution between him and his mother is that he has to go out, and the same is true between Liu Xiaoman and him.

Xia Liang will try every means to walk towards Liu Xiaoman, and Liu Xiaoman must really be willing to get rid of his inferiority complex and walk towards him.

Only those things that you stretch out your hands to grasp can dare to truly hold them firmly in your hands, and you are reluctant to let go of them as soon as you say so.

come on.

Exhaling the last puff of smoke, Xia Liang looked at the light coming from the window of Liu Xiaoman's room, pulled the scarf over his face, turned and walked to grandpa's house.

Let Brother Liang take good care of your inferiority complex.