Kneel to the white lotus

At this point in the story, Shen Xuzhi suddenly smiled, looked at An Yixing and Xiuxiu and said, "If you think this is the end of the story, you are too naive."

"If it ends here, it can actually be regarded as a Happy End." After careful consideration, Shen Xuzhi came to such a conclusion.

"However, the fact is that my death is the beginning of my real sorrow."

Shen Xuzhi's method of jumping off the building is better. He hit the ground with his head upside down. His head was smashed to pieces by the impact in an instant, so he died without suffering any pain.However, the moment Shen Xuzhi died, his soul drifted out of his body, and the light and transparent soul began to float up uncontrollably.

At the beginning, Shen Xuzhi enjoyed this feeling very much, and did not resist at all, letting his body slowly drift with the current.Until when he floated to the second floor, he ran into Gao Ge who was leaning half of his body out of the window. He saw Gao Ge's bloodshot eyes and red eye sockets, saw Gao Ge's tears flowing uncontrollably, and saw Gao Ge's bloodshot eyes. He stretched out his hand hard, as if to hold back something...

Subconsciously, Shen Xuzhi grabbed Gao Ge's and stretched out his hand.

Shen Xuzhi originally thought that he would pass through Gao Ge's body like a shadow, and grasp the void.But something unexpected happened, Shen Xuzhi actually held Gao Ge's hand.The sweaty palm with the familiar temperature transmitted the warmth to Shen Xuzhi's weightless body.

Shen Xuzhi suddenly had the urge to cry, and he held Gao Ge's hand even more tightly.Although Gao Ge who was held was obviously ignorant, Shen Xuzhi also felt satisfied.At the same time, Shen Xuzhi also discovered that he stopped floating upwards, and was just wandering around Gao Ge like a cloud.

Shen Xuzhi stared at Gao Ge's face for a long while, his body leaned closer to Gao Ge, and his palms did not relax at all.

In this way, Shen Xuzhi began to eat and sleep with Gao Ge.

On the second day after Shen Xuzhi jumped off the building, Gao Ge's parents made Gao Ge give up the college entrance examination and went abroad for Gao Ge.

This made Shen Xuzhi feel that his death was still very meaningful, at least let Gao Ge end early the days of being treated coldly by people wearing colored glasses.

Very smoothly, Gao Ge flew to the United States before the college entrance examination and started his new life.Although Gao Ge's parents could not accompany Gao Ge to go abroad due to work reasons, they also entrusted Gao Ge to the care of their trusted relatives who settled in the United States.Not only that, but Gao Ge also began to receive psychological treatment. Everyone hoped that he could get out of the shadow of Shen Xuzhi's death as soon as possible and adapt to life abroad as soon as possible.

It was an elegant and beautiful Chinese psychiatrist. Her gentle accent of the motherland successfully soothed Gao Ge's anxiety and fear of being in a foreign country, and Gao Ge soon opened his heart to her.

Shen Xuzhi was very satisfied with all of this.He was happy to see Gao Ge return to his original cheerful and generous appearance, and start a new life in the fresh air of a foreign country.

There is not that much prejudice against homosexuality here, and perhaps some people still hold extreme views, but fortunately, Gao Ge and Shen Xuzhi did not meet such people.The girl from the relative's family didn't treat Gao Ge cautiously because of what happened to him. She would happily ask Gao Ge and Shen Xuzhi's story, and would naughtily want to introduce Gao Ge to a new boyfriend.

In the short three months since I came to the United States, everything is developing in a good direction.Gao Ge has been able to bravely face his own sexuality, and he can calmly tell Shen Xuzhi about his life in the diary, and the smile reappeared on his face.Although he would still cry and be sad, Gao Ge was able to face the fact that Shen Xuzhi died in front of him.

Gao Ge has not forgotten Shen Xuzhi, because he loves him, but Gao Ge will not live in the past forever for this.

Shen Xuzhi was very happy about this.Because he is not afraid that Gao Ge will forget him, nor is he afraid that Gao Ge will have a new boyfriend, what he is afraid of is that Gao Ge will have a bad life.Because Shen Xuzhi loves him, when he leaves this world, he still hopes to live a good life.This boy who gave him infinite warmth and support, Shen Xuzhi couldn't bear to see him have a bad life.

Shen Xuzhi thought: When everything returns to calm and Gao Ge's psychotherapy is over, I will let go and leave.

This peace and tranquility was suddenly shattered by a new Chinese/international transfer student in Gaoge's class.

That was a person that Gao Ge and Shen Xuzhi would never forget in their lifetime——Jiang Qiuyu!

Shen Xuzhi's soul trembled and almost dissipated, he even wanted to let go of Gao Ge's hand immediately to strangle him to death, as much as he loves Gao Ge, he hates Jiang Qiuyu.

Gao Ge's reaction was similar to Shen Xuzhi's, except that during the days of receiving psychological treatment, Gao Ge had learned to adjust his mentality, and did not show any extreme reactions in class.

At that time, Shen Xuzhi and Gao Ge had the same idea.They thought it might be a coincidence that after seeing Gao Ge, Jiang Qiuyu should hide away and avoid Gao Ge like garbage.

But in fact, it was a big joke, Jiang Qiuyu came here just to sing.And his purpose turned out to be redemption!

Let Gao Ge be beaten and scolded, Jiang Qiuyu still expressed his apology with blood on his face, he hugged Gao Ge's thigh, even if Gao Ge was really kicked to death, he would not let go.

Shen Xuzhi, who was watching coldly from the sidelines, didn't feel pity for him at all, and even felt sick to his stomach, wishing to sing and kill him directly.But he knew that Gao Ge couldn't beat him to death, Gao Ge's life had finally started again, and it must not be ruined again because of such a person.

Obviously, Gao Ge knew this too.After beating Jiang Qiuyu until he couldn't resist, Gao Ge turned and left.

Shen Xuzhi originally thought that Jiang Qiuyu, who was severely beaten by Gao Ge, would never appear again, but since that day, Jiang Qiuyu has become Gao Ge's little tail.

Let Gao Ge not fight back when hit or scolded, and gradually Gao Ge became tired, no longer obsessed with Jiang Qiuyu's behavior, and didn't bother to fight him anymore, it can be said that he acquiesced in Jiang Qiuyu's behavior.

Afterwards, Jiang Qiuyu became Gao Ge's shadow-like existence, where there is Gao Ge, there must be Jiang Qiuyu.He runs errands for Gao Ge every day, prepares three meals for breakfast and lunch, even though Gao Ge has never moved; prepares umbrellas and raincoats for rainy days, and let Gao Ge choose...

Another three months passed, and Jiang Qiuyu learned everything about Gao Ge.Gao Ge's taste, Gao Ge's hobbies, and even the size of all Gao Ge's clothes.

Shen Xuzhi is a complete bystander who cannot speak but can only watch.From being agitated with hatred at the beginning, he gradually changed to watching with cold eyes.

Because he witnessed Gao Ge's transformation from resistance to indifference, from indifference to acquiescence, and from acquiescence to acceptance.

If it wasn't for the part between me and Gao Ge, this would be a vigorous scumbag sadomasochism, and it would definitely have a Happy End in the end.

Such a life lasted for more than five months, and Jiang Qiuyu did not show up that day.

Gao Ge, who had gotten used to Jiang Qiuyu's presence, was a little restless. Shen Xuzhi seemed to be able to feel that every cell in Gao Ge's body was expressing the word uneasiness—he was afraid that something would happen to Jiang Qiuyu.

Shen Xuzhi hasn't shown any emotional expression since his attitude changed when he played Gaoge. At this moment, he is watching coldly as usual.The reason why he is still holding Gao Ge's hand is just to see if the person he loves deeply will break the window paper with the person who killed him in just one year after his death.

Finally, Gao Ge still couldn't hold back the get out of class, so he skipped the last class and ran out to find Jiang Qiuyu.

It's a pity that after leaving school, Gao Ge didn't know where to find Jiang Qiuyu, because he had always silently accepted Jiang Qiuyu's kindness to him, but never paid attention to Jiang Qiuyu's affairs.

At that moment, the remorse emanating from Gao Ge's body almost overwhelmed the repentance of the soul body.

Shen Xuzhi still looked like that, indifferently grasping Gao Ge's hand, watching everything indifferently.

In the end, Gao Ge just hugged his knees and squatted at the school gate, as helpless as a wronged animal.

The school bell rang for the end of the last class. Gao Ge raised his head in a daze, ready to get up and go home, but he didn't expect that he saw Jiang Qiuyu walking towards here dragging a box and saluting.

Gao Ge didn't move, just watched Jiang Qiuyu staggering towards him, watched him walk up to him, watched his face full of tears and said: "Gao Ge, I have to go, I'm sorry, I might like you."

"When I was in elementary school, I was visited by relatives..." At this point, Jiang Qiuyu closed his eyes before continuing: "Sex/aggression...Since then, I may have been a little perverted...also Maybe, I'm a pervert...I hate homosexuality very much, I wish all homosexuality would die..."

"That's why I did such stupid things to you and Shen Xuzhi..."

Speaking of this, Jiang Qiuyu touched the tears on his face: "However, maybe I have fallen in love with you a long time ago... Maybe it's the jealousy in my heart?" With tears in her eyes, Jiang Qiuyu stuck out her tongue, and Jiang Qiuyu showed a smile Self-deprecating smile: "I can't understand how you and Shen Xuzhi are so happy...but I am so...that's why I...I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...I know how much you hate me, I killed Shen Xuzhi ,I am really sorry……"

"Whatever you think of me...it's fine...I just, want to explain..."

"Maybe you won't listen, but I just want...in your eyes, I'm not really that bad..."

Gao Ge suddenly pressed the sobbing Jiang Qiuyu into his arms, and said in a low voice, "Don't go."

At that moment, Shen Xuzhi finally let go of Gao Ge's hand, and two thick lines of blood and tears suddenly flowed down his expressionless face.

'He is pitiful, am I not pitiful?He is at least alive?And me?And me?Gao Ge... Is that why you love me so much? ! ! '

'Poor, is that a reason to wantonly harm people? '

'I get it, heh... I get it...'