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When she woke up again from the previous dream, it was already deep, and the sound of water dripping from the leak was the only sound in the silence. When she looked for the sound, she saw Yin Ran sitting in front of the couch.

Yin Ran seemed to maintain the same posture for a long time, staring at her intently, in the dark night, those pupils were still shining.

"Is the empress staying here all the time? I'm afraid it will hurt my body..."

"You called my name while you were asleep." Yin Ran whispered slowly. "Fourteen times, each Yin Ran you shouted has its own charm."

"Just now..."

"Just now you were insane after taking Hanshisan, I know." Yin Ran turned sideways, the moonlight was reflecting on the profile of his face, and sprinkled on the slightly trembling eyelashes. "For a moment, I am glad that you take Hanshi powder, so that I can hear those words that I have never heard before, those emotions and six desires that ordinary people should have... I have always been unable to see through you, or I have seen through you, but you don't Let yourself see through yourself."

"The most difficult thing to get in the world is your heart. But Lan Zhen got it, and other people got it, but I have the whole world but I can't get close to this heart. Yan Yan, tell me, this Why?"

In the silence, only the sound of water dripping to the ground remained, Yan Yan put away her gaze and turned her head. "Your Majesty is serious."

"Admit it once, is it really so difficult?"

Yan Yan's body was straightened suddenly, only to see Yin Ran holding her wrist, with tears still glistening in her eyes.Looking at the face so close at hand, she suddenly wanted to pull away──

"You ran away from me because you were afraid. Just like in the past, you ran away from me and wanted to enter the palace, and after entering the palace, you ran away from me and wanted to go to the Taiping Pavilion. In your heart, I am as terrible as a scourge... No, you are afraid of being locked up. The beast in my heart, you are afraid that you will lose your usual self-reliance and self-respect, and you will surpass the etiquette and dogma that you have never dared to surpass in your heart, and you are afraid that you like me."

Yin Ran whispered in his ear, but his thin voice was like lightning resounding, hitting his heart hard.

"Yan Yan, why is your body trembling? All along, I should be afraid of you. I am afraid that you will leave, that you will be innocently involved in the harem struggle, and even more afraid of your unpredictable heart." Yin Ran shook her head. Leaning against Yan Yan's chest, she closed her eyes. "I have lived in fear these years. In order to protect myself, I have to guard against everyone around me. For this reason, I got rid of my husband and brother, and I even wanted to get rid of Lan Zhen. I was never afraid of retribution, nor The fear of fighting anyone but you always makes me feel so insecure."

"Why do you never have a heart?"

After Yin Ran finished speaking, he poked Yan Yan's heart with his fingertips, and the latter frowned slightly in pain.

Suddenly, there was a chuckle.

Yin Ran looked up with puzzled eyes, only to find that Yan Yan actually laughed.

"Your Majesty, separation of love and meeting of resentment and hatred are nothing but illusions." Yan Yan's expression was already as usual, and she only said calmly, "If you can study Buddhism more, you will be able to understand the mystery of it."

"You!" Yin Ran sat up in shock and anger, and also put away the sad look on his face, only anger remained. "I did the thing of forcing you to stay by my side, and I have said all the good things. Why is your heart still as hard as ice, and you refuse to soften the slightest bit to me!"

"I have said before that if there are two paths to take, I would rather choose the dead path."

"You want to die that much?"

"Maybe what you should ask is, what choice do I have besides death?" Yan Yan propped herself up, straightened her clothes with both hands, her posture was gorgeous, and she ignored the cold snort coming from beside her. "My father, Yan Zheng, has always been ambitious, and he is the one you want to get rid of quickly. If I die, you will still sell a few thin noodles; if I choose another answer today, you will definitely Except for the Yan family. The same will happen to Lan Zhen."

"It's like this for everyone. Things that you can't get are often the most beautiful, and you love them and hate them. When you get them, every time you quarrel, you will gradually become defensive. Isn't this a reflection of you?" Yan Yan's eyes were gloomy, slightly It's a bit sad. "And I do have the fear you said. I don't dare to bet on what you think in your heart, and I don't bet on things that are never certain. As long as what you see in front of you can be as expected in your heart, the world is going smoothly, isn't it better than a mirror? good?"

"That's just your excuse! As you said, all things are empty, but you would rather believe in nothingness than take a step."

"Maybe you're right. I don't believe in my suspicious heart." Yan Yan just looked at Yin Ran calmly. "If that's the case, what are you going to do?"

Yin Ran looked at Yan Yan in disbelief, she thought she could control the world and manipulate the overall situation, but in front of this person, she was afraid because of love, so afraid that she became a pawn of the other party's orders.

"Yin Ran, it's a dead end between us." Yan Yan looked at her calmly, as if discussing trivial matters such as today's clothing. "Your collar is loose, let me fasten it for you."

Yan Yan's hand was tightly held by Yin Ran before it touched the skirt.

"What do you want me to do?" Yin Ran's voice trembled as if feeling something.

"Look, you've already called yourself Bengong."

Yan Yan raised her eyebrows and smiled calmly. "Consuming cold food powder for a long time will cause the soul to lose its color, and the body to look like a ghost. I heard that some people's tongues are retracted into their throats, some have carbuncles on their backs, and some have rotten spines. If they really change If so, what should we do?"

Yin Ran's eyes were full of regret, but he still forced himself to ask in a cold voice: "I just want to know one answer, have you ever liked me?"

"I like you." Seeing Yin Ran's soft expression for a moment, Yan Yan smiled and said, "But you definitely don't want to hear a hundred reasons why we have come to this situation."

"It's late at night, my lady, please go back to the palace to rest first." Opening the door, Yan Yan greeted the guests.Yin Ran's eyes were fixed, and she regained the stability and deepness of Wang Dafei, and she did not turn her head when she stepped out of the room.

The moment the door came to the door, Yan Yan let that sentence come out presumptuously.

──I like you, the only reason is that I can't get over my own demons.

Sowing causes and reaping fruits, everything is based on the mind, and the mind creates all kinds of demons.Human desire is a ravine, how can she lead others into the abyss?

When the first ray of dawn came down, she faced the light and would straighten up her appearance and write a letter with vigor.

Until the palace maid opened the door of the premises, Yan Yan sealed the letter and smiled at the visitor: "Please hand over these letters one by one, and the last letter will be handed over to Lord Danyang's mansion, and the housekeeper will reward you very much."

The palace maid tremblingly brought the copper plate to the front, and replied respectfully: "This jug of cold wine was given to Yan Shanggong by the Empress Dowager, I hope Yan Shanggong can drink it at the right time."

After turning to the plate, Yan Yan picked up the jug and poured herself a glass of wine. "Ma'am will you come later?"

"Your Majesty still has important work to do, I'm afraid..."

"It's okay, the wine has been delivered, you can leave first."

Yan Yan finished the whole thing with a smile, poured the remaining cold food powder into the wine, sipped the cup, and chanted softly: "Climb to Kunlun, eat Yuying, live longer than the world."

Not long after the wine was ingested, it was like a raging fire in the interior, Yan Yan suppressed the hot sweat from her body, and drank it all in one gulp, and immediately fell down in pain.

His viscera are burning, but his thoughts are spinning like a revolving lantern. The pictures of his youth are shining like gold-plated, and people can't help but want to touch...

"Yan Yan, will you hate me?" Yin Ran's voice sounded in a trance.

"Yin Ran, Yin Ran..."

She stretched out her hand to grab something, and only such a cry could calm her restless heart.

"After drinking this glass of wine, I won't feel irritable anymore." The glass reached her lower lip, and she raised her head to take a sip. The cold wine passed through her throat and her heart suddenly tightened. Yan Yan, who wanted to struggle, was caught into an embrace.

"You will know when the curtain falls. If the flowers are not flowers and the fog is not fog, if you and I change the beginning from scratch, will there be a different ending?"

Yan Yan lowered her eyes lightly, her voice gradually lowered: "The dream of spring never stops, there is a trace in the morning cloud, if there is an afterlife..."

If there is an afterlife, she will definitely not allow herself to dream about the afterlife.

"You can't do it in this life, and tell me in the next life..."

The sound of resentment and weeping gradually faded away, and when I looked back, the woman in the Nine Layers Palace should have been waiting.

Will it be like this until the next life?

Later history records:

King Wending was in charge of the government for eight years, the scholars were bleeding, the treasury was empty, the people were starving, and robbers were everywhere, causing disasters and chaos.Only with the revival of Buddhism, the sangha and the degree system were implemented again. In particular, the monk Puyu was appreciated by King Wending\ from time to time to enter the palace to explain the Dharma. skyrim.

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