two cold

Yan Yan

"It rained heavily that summer."

"I watched her coming in the rain, and I was worried, so I dried her hair. She was afraid of thunder, so I covered her ears with my hands, and I said, it was a disaster..."

The most beautiful scenery at the tip of her heart has always been the worst weather and the most cloudy thunderstorm.It was the moon-white figure, walking across the fields, but this lightning bolt clearly pierced through the heart in the heavy rain.

"Is there anything you need to come see urgently?" She wiped Yin Ran's black hair, hiding her trembling fingertips from worry.

In front of him, Yin Ran replied indifferently: "I just said it."

"That's not a reason." Seeing Yin Ran raised his eyes, she lowered them. "Forget it, we'll go back when the rain stops."

Suddenly, there was a muffled thunder in the sky, and he felt the body of the person on the opposite side tremble, so he picked up a towel and covered Yin Ran's ears.

Her lips sighed softly:

──You are the catastrophe of my life.

Lightning shone through the room, and the face in front of him faded from color again, revealing a desolate and beautiful posture.Suddenly, Yin Ran's lips landed on hers, like lightning rushing into the heart through the rain.

Her hand obviously still touched Yin Ran's trembling, but those eyes were like unmovable rocks that were deeply embedded in her eyes.

"I'm scared."

She stared blankly at Yin Ran uttering such a cowardly sentence from her moist lips.

The thunderstorm outside the window was still rumbling.

From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear; apart from love, there is neither worry nor fear.

I don't know when it started, Yan Yan's only wish is to become a monk and practice. The Qingdeng Ancient Buddha ended this life, no longer has the framework of the world, and no longer has the fetters of human affection.She envied Huang Jinyi, who was born in an official family and still chose to become a geisha, so when she saw Lan Zhen, who had just become a geisha, looking at herself in the street, she felt like visiting. The promiscuity among many men, rather than being friends, can more or less fill the gaps in their hearts.

She has always liked Lan Zhen's waywardness, her ability to express love and dislike frankly, and she even liked the vicious side.She pampered Lan Zhen as much as she could, even though she knew how unbearable some things were, she still pampered her other self.

The stepmother knew that she was well versed in Buddhist verses, and when she was in contact with prostitutes, she had privately criticized deviant and apostate. She still ran to the prostitute's hospital when she had time, until she saw Yin Ran, and somehow remembered the phrase "deviating from scriptures and apostasy".How could she not see how dangerous Yin Ran was?How could such a person who yearns for power have a heart?No matter how scheming and scheming he is, he never expected that Yin Ran wanted to enter the Yan Mansion, but he came for her, and he seemed so focused and domineering at every moment.

"All love and affection are impermanent and hard to come by for a long time; life is full of fear, life is in danger of morning dew. From love comes sorrow, from love comes fear; if you are away from the lover, there is no worry and no fear..." She flipped through the book in her hand Master Yijing of the Tang Dynasty translated the "Buddha's Sutra of the Cause and Predestination of the King of Wonderful Colors", he suddenly raised his head and asked Yin Ran who was beside him. "Kaya is really interesting. She asked the Buddha a question, how can she be a lover who is separated from her?"

Yin Ran didn't answer, but she went on to say: "Buddha said, there is no image of self, no image of human beings, no image of living beings, no image of life, that is, the one who is separated from the lover. The separation of love and the meeting of resentment and hatred are just empty eyes. , an illusion."

"Since this is the case, then with an unknown fire, the monastery will be completely wiped out."

"Please be merciful to them. Isn't the Loutai Buddhist Temple in the midst of mist and rain beautiful?" She said with a smile to Yin Ran, but there was no smile on his face. "Your obsession with me is too strong."

The next day, Yin Ran accidentally rubbed the "Yi Lan Cao" she wrote.

In fact, what is a calligraphy book?What surprised her was that she would be happy because of Yin Ran's actions, but she cared because of Yin Ran's caring. A person who should have no love and no fear, at this moment, her heart is tossing and turning.

"Even if it is Shura's fate, are you willing?"

When Yan Yan woke up again, she saw Lan Zhen clutching\her hand tightly, so painfully.Looking up, I saw tears falling down the always strong Lan Zhen.

"You have been in a coma for a long time, has it always been like this these days?" Lan Zhen choked up and asked, for a moment she was in a trance and returned to her youth, when they were not so scheming, and everything was just a crazy joke.

She just closed her eyes and said softly, "I haven't slept so peacefully for a long time."

Closing her eyes, she kept thinking that before going to the Taiping Pavilion for work, Yin Ran came here in a dewy suit, with a pale expression that still contained a bit of hatred.

"You execute your own mind before your heart beats, you are the truly heartless person."

She just quietly put the gayaqin into the bag and smiled lightly. "The middle palace is already the mother of a country, so it should be magnanimous, just like the day before yesterday when I was able to forgive my slaves and servants in the palace."

Yin Ran sneered. "I wanted to kill you back then, didn't you realize it at all?"

"Yan Yan, what do I have to do to keep you?" Yin Ran walked up to her, bent\ body, staring intently at her face. "Is it to kill everyone around you, make you helpless and find no one to deliberately anger me, or kill you?──You will truly be with me forever."

She looked into Yin Ran's eyes and replied calmly and with a smile. "The latter sounds like a good choice."

Yin Ran's breathing was obviously stagnant, and before she had time to yell, she put away her joking expression and said seriously: "I'm dead, what else can you use to force me?"

"In the study room that day, the infatuation in your eyes and the kiss were all forced by me?" Even the mother of a country who never changed her face no matter how much strife in the harem, turned out to be fragile The sad gaze was intended to seek the slightest pity from the person in front of him.

She still looked cruelly into Yin Ran's eyes, and said Ling Chi word by word: "But I'm going to force you now──"

"Yin Ran, I want to force you to swear that unless I voluntarily return to the palace from the Taiping Pavilion, you will not force me to step into the palace. If I break the oath, I am willing to judge myself in front of you."

"You just push me like this, you've always pushed me like this!" Yin Ran's voice almost lost control, and the ending sounded into a scream, like a sharp spear piercing straight into the apex of his heart. "If you want to force me like this, why did you enter the palace in the first place, why did you appear in front of my eyes, and now you want to force me to make a choice!"

"Yin Ran, you have a really bad memory. You said that you would tie me up on a high platform and not allow others to get close. I just..." Yan Yan raised the corner of her mouth before uttering the last few words. "Be wise and protect yourself──"

"Mingzhe protects himself... It's ironic that this sentence came out of your mouth. You have always been smarter than anyone, but you want to hurt me like this! Well, I, Yin Ran, swear here, if it is not God's will to ask you to return to the palace, otherwise this palace will For the rest of my life, I will never force Yin Shanggong to submit to the foolish decision of dying in the Taiping Pavilion!" Yin Ran pointed to the sky with one hand, but said every word with hatred, and after finishing the last sentence, his eyes turned red. "Are you relieved? Are you satisfied with hurting me to prove your ruthlessness?"

As soon as she bowed down, she was no longer emotional. "Thank you, Zhongdian Yucheng."

Since then, she has been troubled by all kinds of miscellaneous thoughts every night.

She is indeed, as Zheng Shanggong said, the person who is most deeply bound by worldly views and normative dogma.She wanted to force Yin Ran to let her go completely, but she was unwilling to let her go, so she did all kinds of unconventional actions; she didn't want to care about Yin Ran's pitifully domineering mind, but she cared about herself and the power of the country in Yin Ran's heart Which is more important; she let herself forget Yin Ran, but she was afraid that she would only have a half place in Yin Ran's heart.

She said that Yin Ran is a balance of extreme tolerance and narrowness, so what about herself?I am afraid that she can smile at everyone, but she has become the blade of abandoning love to Yin Ran alone.

When the decree of transferring the palace was passed to the Taiping Pavilion, a place outside the palace, Yan Yan put away her usual smile and twisted her crooked willow eyebrows into a straight line.

"I will meet you in a better way next time." The first conversation after returning to the palace, Yin Ran said in a casual tone, as if they were still young. "It's just that I really want to see you now."

"...The order to return to the palace this time is Cui Shanggong's personal intention."

Yin Ran, who said these words, was much more mature than before, and she was both relieved and disappointed in her heart.Thousands of miles of rivers, mountains, and embroidered land may be what Yin Ran really should pretend to be. While enjoying power, how could she ever have the slightest thought of finding herself?How dare she believe that this person has her in his heart?

Asking her Yan Yan to lower her stature and compare herself with the fame and wealth that she has always disdained is tantamount to admitting that she has fallen short.If there is no love, there is no fear. As long as she falls in love now, she will plunge herself into an unstoppable abyss. If she cannot control her heart, she is afraid that it will be turned into clouds and rain by others, and will eventually be destroyed.

So she couldn't even take a step back, and could only step on the last dangerous rock on the edge of the cliff, but she didn't know that the bunker had already collapsed.

The author has something to say: This article is to pick up the flashbacks at the beginning and the middle, respectively pick up the beginning of the Fanwai (the beginning of the Fanwai is that Han Shanggong passed away, Cui Shanggong became the most noble palace, and Yan Yan was transferred back from the Taiping Pavilion for the sake of profit. Gongzhong), explaining why Yin Ran had to emphasize that "the order to be transferred back to the palace is Cui Shanggong's personal intention", and explained why Yin Ran kept Yan Yan in the Taiping Pavilion.

The other part is about the teenage years of two people. This part is around [-] characters after counting down at the beginning. That part happened to be after Lan Zhen made her first appearance. Ran's relationship started early.I repeated the same scene again, and those who are interested can compare and compare what is different.

For Yan Yan, these two memories are actually the two most important memories, so after taking Hanshi powder, these two memories first came to her mind.When you read the end, you still have to continue reading Lan Zhen’s chapter:

After taking Hanshisan for a while, Yan Yan's expression was slightly dazed, and Lan Zhen leaned lightly by her ear, and said with tears, "Yan Yan, can you tell me what's on your mind?"

"It rained heavily that summer."

"I watched her coming in the rain, and I was worried, so I dried her hair. She was afraid of thunder, so I covered her ears with my hands, and I said, it was a disaster..."

(↑The above two sentences are actually Yan Yan's answer to the end of Lan Zhen's chapter)

The most beautiful scenery at the tip of her heart has always been the worst weather and the most cloudy thunderstorm.It was the moon-white figure, walking across the fields, but this lightning bolt clearly pierced through the heart in the heavy rain.

……

In fact, what is a calligraphy book?What surprised her was that she would be happy because of Yin Ran's actions, but she cared because of Yin Ran's caring. A person who should have no love and no fear, at this moment, her heart is tossing and turning.

(↑This entire paragraph is a memory)

"Even if it is Shura's fate, are you willing?"

When Yan Yan woke up again, she saw that Lan Zhen was holding her hand tightly, so painfully.Looking up, I saw tears falling down the always strong Lan Zhen.

(↑In fact, Lan Zhen has always been very clear in her heart, wondering how she would feel when she grabbed Yan Yan, who was already in a daze?)

So this paragraph is a cross-answer between reality and fantasy of a guy who took drugs. Please forgive this guy who took Hanshisan, thank you.