[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

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Unlike the door that opened a window that I hadn’t noticed before and just felt bright because of the light coming in, Nanessi realized the hidden meaning behind the door’s behavior and reacted. After questioning himself, he also confirmed After this point, I just feel that my head is completely messed up by this unexpected and strange development.

It turned out that when he had a showdown, it was not so much that the time was ripe, it was better to say that if he didn’t talk about it, there would be no right opportunity, and he didn’t want to let things happen again, and let their friends who were harmed by hackers suffer the same trouble again, so After he decided to expose the dolls of the three of them as tokens in advance on a whim, he took advantage of the situation to clarify everything, and by the way, took a gamble—see if he knows his "future" backdoor even if it is Will he agree to his request because of curiosity, or because he doesn't know to what extent the relationship has been cultivated during this period of time.

But the development of the matter is not so much smooth as expected, it is better to say that it ended up running in a strange direction. He didn't expect that the relationship between him and the door during this period of time was that kind of relationship, and then the door decided to pursue him knowing that he still wanted to spend his life with Ah Xin.

──And the most frightening thing is that from the attitude shown by the door, Nanessi knows that he is completely serious, and he is not deliberately joking to tease him.

And it was probably because Nanessi might not be able to accept this all of a sudden, but the door did not suddenly change his style and pursued him very excessively or ostentatiously. It can even be said that at first glance, after the surprise kiss that day , the two of them still maintained their daily routines as before, and they even slept together at night—although Nanessi hadn’t thought about going back to his own room to sleep, but when he found out and at the beginning he forcibly ran to sleep with the door and by the way The situation was the same as the chat, after the door naturally moved to the sleeping place, after communicating with the door and getting the assurance that "we will not do strange things to him regardless of his wishes", he was troubled for a while, thinking about it When he was facing the 14-year-old Ah Xin's own situation, he decided to believe that the door would do this, so he didn't continue to persevere or go to a friend's place to spend the night, and accepted it with a blind eye. this point.

It’s just that it’s not entirely correct to say that the lives of the two of them are exactly as usual. Nanessi can clearly feel that the door is better than before, staring at him more often when he has nothing to do, and his attitude is more gentle and considerate, and he cares more about him. The details of life, but it is such a not particularly drastic change, which makes Naixi feel a subtle feeling that is unclear and difficult to deal with, and because he knows that the door has such thoughts on him, many times he can't help it. Some people will care about some words and deeds that may not be felt at all before opening the door, and don't know how to deal with it.

But even so, they still maintain the rhythm of daily life. Let’s not mention this for now. If there are other things worth mentioning, it seems that the gate dismissed the hacker and the others as agreed——Hazel and the three of them Nana Xi hasn't had a chance to get to know each other yet, so I don't know how they reacted, but Nanaixi thinks that Hu was probably relieved. Hearing from Lu that Hu was in a good mood for a few days after that day, it seems that something good happened.

In such an ambiguous but very ordinary day, Naixi’s longing and anticipation for the arrival of her heart are still getting stronger and stronger, so in the previous chapters, only the 14-year-old Shenqin who was not seen by her was heard. When Xin finally came to the world eight years ago, Naixi greeted her arrival as if she had seen the savior finally come, and was very moved.

"──So that's it. After that person went back to the past, did these things happen before I came here? I probably understand."

As soon as I went back to the past, I saw someone flying in front of me, and I almost threw Naixi out reflexively, but after a while of confusion, Xin finally sat down and listened to Naixi explain the cause and effect, and asked her for help. , probably because of the large amount of information in any aspect, there were some subtle emotions on her face that were difficult to explain, but after all, she has always been relatively calm, even though she might not be able to digest the information all at once , but at least she regained her composure quickly on the surface. While letting out a sigh, she put down the mug of hot cocoa in her hand, and looked at Naixi, whose forehead was a little red and swollen (just hit the foot of the bed), Asked calmly:

"Then I'll ask you, Mr. Nanessi, how did you feel when Mr. Qimen...kissed you on the cheek that day?"

Maybe it was because I didn't know how to address the two people who had the same real name "Qiqisi" eight years ago, and after a pause, I called them according to the two people's current names for each other, and then asked.

"Crispy and numb, a bit like an electric shock──huh? Ah Xin?"

Recalling the wonderfully stimulating touch that he couldn't describe until now, Naixi blurted out almost subconsciously, but after seeing Xin's expression, he realized that he seemed to have answered something wrong, and asked a little nervously. .

"... What I want to ask is your mood at that time, not the tactile sensation, Mr. Nanessi. But forget it, this answer is also obvious in a certain way."

Pausing for a few seconds, her heart sighed almost as if deliberately letting him notice, and her eyes drifted to the distance for a moment, but she quickly retracted the slightly erratic gaze at that moment, as if reorganizing and tidying up her mood, she He simply replied:

"Although I don't know how the 'I' who once helped you will make suggestions in another future world, please forgive me for not being able to solve this problem for you. I am not like you, Mr. Nanessi, who can analyze The ability to think out other people's ideas, so I can't decide what to do for you without authorization. But I think Mr. Nanessi, rather than asking for help with me, it is more appropriate to figure out your heart and thoughts on this matter first. Way."

"Ahaha...that's exactly what I said."

Listening to what Xin said, when she was anxious to find someone to talk to before, but now she calmed down a bit, Nanaixi also felt that what Xin said was right—not to mention that Xin, who had just returned to the world eight years ago, hadn't gotten along with him yet, and hadn't been with him yet. Cultivate feelings, originally you should solve the emotional problems by yourself, if it wasn't for the special status of the door, and Nanessi didn't expect this kind of situation to happen, so he was a little panicked, he wouldn't bring this kind of thing. Ask people.

Moreover, the most important thing is that although in the eyes of the 14-year-old he thought of a way to change his heart image at the beginning, it was very glorious and great, and he was very used to relying on her advice when he was young, but now his heart is still just a 14-year-old after all. She was just a [-]-year-old girl, and she was not as omnipotent as he remembered invisible and beautified——After realizing this, Nanessi couldn't help but feel a little depressed, but on the surface he smiled dryly and tried to confuse the matter.

"...Although it is like this, if you have something you want to talk about, you can just tell me. Even if I don't know how to deal with it, I can still listen to your troubles."

Probably because I noticed the change in Nai Naixi's expression, because I knew that Nai NaiXi and the door were also "[-]" that had a special meaning to me no matter what, my heart had just heard him say such a big call when I just traveled here. The somewhat stiff and unnatural attitude softened a bit, and he said this soothingly, and his tone softened.

"No matter what kind of heart you are, you are really a very good person. I know, if I have troubles, I will talk to you again!"

Hearing Xin's words, Naixi's heart warmed up, and she couldn't help but smile, and her mood improved a lot.And maybe it was unexpected that Nanessi would praise her suddenly, her heart seemed a little startled, her face blushed a little, and she didn't know if it was embarrassment or shyness, but before she could say anything, the door at the entrance of the apartment There was a slight sound, and the door that went out to work came back.

"I'm back──ah, it's Ah Xin? You're here too?"

Seeing Xin and Naixi sitting side by side on the sofa, Men was a little surprised, but he didn't seem too surprised. After saying hello, he went to the sofa and sat down next to Naixi.

Now, after listening to what Naixi said, after the showdown, the door did not destroy the "management program" or how to work in the management room normally, but began to post recruitment notices to recruit people to help--probably if Naixi If you need to use the 'management program' for assistance, you can't go there and use it freely in the management room like now.It was also today that he had just returned home from get off work in the management office.

Nainaxi paid special attention to the reaction when the door saw Xin. Although she expressed her willingness to pursue him, even knowing that she was his wife in another future center, the appearance of the gatekeeper did not seem to have any malice towards her because of this. The appearance of negative emotions, the reaction is like seeing an acquaintance who was once acquainted, a little surprised but also with a touch of joy of reunion, the smile is soft and there is no trace of reluctance.This made Nanessi feel a little relieved, but at the same time, thinking that before going back to the past, she could make up her mind to follow her, and the friendship between the two of them was probably good, so she felt a little delicate.

But on the contrary, Xin saw the door's natural and familiar attitude and didn't react immediately when he talked to her. She looked at him suspiciously for a few seconds before realizing that this was the 22-year-old '[-]' after a disguise. Then he asked with some hesitation:

"That—Mr. Qiqi?"

"Well, it's me. But right now, there's someone else in the '[-]' at this point in time, just call me 'Gate'."

It seemed that Nanessi would tell Xin about the things between the two of them, and she was not too surprised by Xin's tentative inquiry, but just smiled and said in a kind tone.

"Brother Men, you came back early today, what happened?"

Nanessi always felt that when the person who was the subject of the conversation just appeared, the atmosphere at the scene became a little strange, so he asked as if nothing had happened, and changed the topic.

"It's not a big deal. I just remembered that I forgot the gift I was going to bring Miss Yu today, so I came back."

The door answered Naixi's question, and it was only then that Naixi remembered that after revealing all the hidden things, probably because of a change in mentality, the door agreed to his request to try to make friends with people again. I also tried to contact or communicate with people I knew but didn’t have much contact with. I also said that I might go to Sweet Beach after work today and come back later.

"It's like this, then come back early after meeting Miss Yu, it's rare that Ah Xin is here, I think the three of us can order a hearty takeaway for dinner to celebrate."

After thinking about this incident, I was a little uncertain whether I should temporarily open the door for a while to calm down my mind that seemed to be a little confused, but Nanessi immediately calmed down, explained something, and didn't say anything more .

After the door nodded and accepted the matter, he didn't stay at home for too long, and quickly found what he wanted to take and left the apartment.And when Naixi waited for the door to leave, she turned her head and noticed that Xin was looking at him with a very strange look. She couldn't help touching her face with some doubts, and after making sure that the cocoa she just drank didn't get on her face, she asked:

"What's wrong? Xin."

"No, I just feel that after knowing that the two of you are actually the same person, even if Mr. Seven...Mr. Men's appearance is a little disguised, but seeing that you really get along like ordinary family members or brothers, it feels a bit strange. It's just amazing."

I don't know if it was his illusion, but she was a little hesitant to speak for a moment, but she quickly answered Nanessi's question, with a thoughtful look on her expression.

"It may be that at the very beginning, after I met Brother Men, I really regarded him as my brother for a long time. Even if I found out the truth later, it would be difficult to forget the first impression? And now my brother maintains this appearance. , I am also used to getting along with my brother in this way... Thinking about it this way, it really is a bit strange, right?"

Naixi didn't think much about it, she just thought that it was the first time Xin encountered such a situation and felt emotional. In fact, after he knew the truth in his previous life, he also felt uncomfortable for a long time. If it wasn't for that period of time, the door would have avoided him , didn't get along with him day and night like before, otherwise he didn't know what attitude he should use to face the door. At this time, he recalled that if the door had lifted the disguise after the conversation between the two, what should their current interaction be? What a bizarre scene, after explaining, he couldn't help but nodded in agreement with Xin's point of view.

In fact, compared to this now, Nanessi feels that the door seems to be interesting to him, which is even more weird——If two people don’t know each other is themselves at different points in time, that’s all, they are actually more or less subconscious They all have the idea of ​​looking for their own kind to be their companions. They will naturally have a good impression and closeness to people who are very similar to their own ideas and weirdness. They feel that the two are inexplicably compatible, and if they can get along with each other for a lifetime, they don’t have to worry about breaking up. Possibility, just like himself when he didn't know it at the beginning, he even seriously considered the absurd idea of ​​becoming a girl and marrying his cousin.

But the door happened to have a strange feeling for him when he was fully aware of it, which made Nanaisi reflect on whether he had made a mistake when he swiped the door's favor, which led to the belief that even the door itself always Unexpected results.

And Xin didn't continue to talk about this topic, but turned to ask him about the door - although Nanaixi felt a little complicated about this, he also knew that the heart that just came to the past was indeed for the door Yes, she has friendship with her in her mind, and what she wants to save is the 22-year-old "Qiqisi". The method quickly superimposes the cognition of the two people who are quite different in appearance, and treats the two of them as the same person and puts them in the same sequence relationship.

Considering this, although Naixi felt a little lonely and lost, she didn't say anything or show it, and answered her heart's question as detailed and kindly as possible. Before she knew it, it was time for dinner , The door also came back home at the right time. After they ordered the long-lost pizza set, they spent the dinner time in a pleasant atmosphere, and the day was almost over.

And when assigning a room to sleep at night, knowing that Naixi and the two of them are now sharing the same bed, Xin once again showed the inexplicable eyes that Naixi saw earlier, but she didn't do it this time either. What to say, after simply accepting the arrangement, he politely said good night and entered the room to rest.

Lying on the bed as always, hugging the long pillow that has not been moved by anyone between them for a while, and still blocks the two of them in the middle, probably a little earlier, his long-awaited heart ruthlessly pierced him' As long as Ah Xin came, everything can be solved' delusion, Naixi finally got rid of the delusional feeling that he was always a little flustered during this period, unable to calmly think about the delicate relationship between him and the door now.

Just as Xin said, this kind of thing is something he has to think about and make a decision on his own. When he encounters a problem that he really can't figure out, he has to seek help from a friend who can talk about it, not without thinking about it. Just waiting for someone to bring him out of troubles and predicaments. During the eight years when he was absent, he should have understood and learned this, so that he can become an adult who can be relied on again after reunion in the future. It's not that he's messed up, and he shouldn't have such a naive and stupid idea. He didn't realize it until Xin said so.

For the door, Nanessi does not dislike it, and even has a good impression and nostalgia. Otherwise, he would not regret the permanent absence of the door in his later life. If life can be repeated, see if it can It's a silly idea to change this matter, but he also knows very well that his longing and closeness to the door in the past is the general affection and affection for his 'brother' and relatives, not the special affection between men and women.

It's just that after being asked by Xin, she realized that she didn't feel disgusted or disgusted with the kiss on the door, and even felt her cheeks were numb and hot and her heart was beating like when another heart kissed him back then. This cognition is also somewhat uncertain.

Nanessi subconsciously touched the place where his cheeks were touched by his lips, and he didn't know what it felt like in his heart—he had been avoiding thinking about that moment all this time, trying to maintain a calm surface, but for some reason Yes, but he didn't forget the impact and touch it gave him at that moment, and he can still recall it clearly now.

If it were me who hadn't confirmed each other's intentions with Xin in the previous life, maybe she could simply decide to be with the door now, but Nanaixi's appearance at various ages and the past two appeared in Naixi's mind. The various memories of getting along with each other, but he became a little confused - he was sure that he loved Xin, otherwise he would not have chosen to spend his life with Xin at the beginning, and now he could not quickly decide to accept the heart of the door.

Alas... Let's save these for later, shall we?Maybe Brother Men will change his mind after making more friends and changing his concept, thinking that his feelings for me are just a temporary illusion caused by being lonely for too long.

In the end, there was still no way to make a decision, Naixi sighed, and decided to put this matter aside and focus on the matter in front of her.

Deciding to focus on dragging the door out of his own closed world as well, and temporarily putting aside irrelevant relationship issues, he turned over, stopped thinking about the issue, and fell into a deep sleep.