[1bitHeart] The closed world of you and me

Although Men thought about it all night yesterday, in a way he can also say that he didn't think clearly about anything. Strictly speaking, the things that went through his mind last night were just guesses, and at this moment, there are too many questions that suddenly popped into his head. , he didn't know where to ask, and what he really wanted to know, so he paused, picked out the question that caused him a lot of guesses and doubts, and asked:

"Naisi, do you know the prototype of this puppet?"

"Well, yes, I know."

Nanessi didn't intend to hide it, she nodded and answered simply.Seeing Naixi's happy answer, Men felt a little complicated and asked:

"When did you have such a good friend who would make such a doll? Why didn't you mention it to me before?"

Considering that he didn't check Naixi's information, he didn't know how he met these two people. Even if he thought that some of Naixi's actions before coming to Naixi were indeed strange and unreasonable, the door still chose to maintain 'Brother Mode', asked in a gentle and slow tone like in usual chats, hoping that Nanaixi would not be disgusted by his questioning tone too strongly.

"Because I didn't meet recently, I haven't told you, brother, and there was no suitable time to say it before."

And I don't know if the method of the door is effective, or it is not something that needs to be concealed, Nanessi replied in a relaxed tone, with a very natural expression.And seeing Nanessi's attitude, the door somehow relaxed a little, and then asked:

"Is it like this? But I don't see this child's name in your friend list. Why is that? It makes me a little bit that you can spend so much money on that child, but you don't log in as friends with each other." Worry, and wonder if Nanaixi was scammed by someone, right?"

Because before taking Naixi away from their hometown, their parents specifically asked Naixii about his wishes before giving the door the right to view his son's friend list at will, and Naixii knew and agreed, so the door did not hide him I've read about Nanessi's friend list, so I asked this question openly.

Men are not good at doubting people, and naturally they are not good at interrogating people. It is rare for Nanessi to share the relevant information with him happily after he just said the beginning, but it is so concise. Let him reply with unclear details. It is not that he has other things that he wants to know, but since he has not torn off the mask of "brother", he asked for the time being out of concern. Normally speaking, he should continue to ask and worry. Things---Although it is said that after the management process is in place, if the network message involves words that may be fraudulent, it will be automatically intercepted and recorded in the warning list, but everyone says that the height of the devil is as high as that of the devil. When people really intend to move What kind of contingency will he come up with when his brain is twisted? Even if his brain is not bad, even if he tries his best to standardize what he thinks of, he still dare not say that he can think of everything they can think of. The language loopholes that were exploited, now that he talks about it, he also feels that the possibility of online fraud cannot be ignored, and he is a bit worried when he talks about it.

It is not uncommon for people to be hooked on dating sites with false identities and fake photos that are not their own. After the two people have a deep relationship, they ask for expensive gifts and then sell them to make money after receiving them. It is difficult to judge whether it is this kind of scam by intercepting the key words of the conversation without knowing the real situation, so even if the door has such a situation, it is difficult to effectively prohibit it, so it is not impossible to exist.Especially now that the child is about the age to go to elementary school, and the tutoring seems to be very strict. I don't think she will casually go to a place too far away from home, and have a chance to meet Naixi, it is more likely that this is the reason. This is not my situation.

"It's not a scam! I haven't been able to deceive to such an extent, I still have basic judgment! There is no way if I don't add friends, because Ah Xin doesn't know me yet."

Seeming to be slightly dissatisfied with being treated like a stupid child like this, Nanessi refuted the guess of the door, and at the same time naturally said the strange information that the door almost missed.

"She doesn't know you yet? What's the matter?"

The door froze for a moment, before he had time to think about the meaning behind it, he asked subconsciously.And Naixi also replied in a very ordinary way like when he was asked for his opinion before ordering takeaway:

"Because the time for Ah Xin to come to 'here' hasn't come yet, so even if I know her, she doesn't know who I am now."

The door knew what was going on without guessing at this time, but he was somewhat surprised by Nai Naixi's calm attitude. After looking at Nai Naixi for a while, he saw that he did not change his words or smiled and said, "I'm just kidding!" ' After saying something like that, he sighed and asked directly:

"You know about the 'future' right? Nanessi."

"Well, yes, I know. Like Brother Men, I am also the '[-]' who returned to the present in the future, but I only have the 'consciousness' to go back to the past, and I don't go back to this place with my body like my brother. It's about time."

As for Men's question, Nanessi also answered straightforwardly. If it wasn't for Men who was willing to spend some time on analysis and could judge whether a person was lying by the numerical values ​​he saw, he himself would have a certain degree of doubts, otherwise he would Maybe it was Nanessi joking again.

"...Didn't you just know about the 'future' in the past two days? Why did you suddenly decide to tell the truth?"

The door can only accept the reality - just like he planned to have a final showdown at the very beginning, telling Nanessi all the ins and outs of the matter and letting him make a choice, Judging by his attitude, the door also knew that Nanessi planned to find him He finished talking and explained the things he had concealed during this period of time, but he was also a little puzzled, so he asked.

In fact, if Naixi still finds a suitable reason to perfuse him like before, even the door may guess that Naixi is a lie. As long as he can't find a logical problem, he is willing to continue to believe and continue to maintain peace between brothers friendly faux pas.

Although it is a bit contradictory to say it, he himself has the intention of confessing everything when the things he should do are almost done, but before that, he doesn't want to destroy the peaceful and stable daily life before him too early.Just like he has always been very sleepy, although he will get up honestly when he has to get up, but before that, instead of choosing to get up earlier to do other things, he would choose to lie in the warm bed until he is quilt. The last second allowed, and he is also very nostalgic for the ordinary life where nothing happened. Even though he knew that the final ending was destined to destroy everything, but before that moment came, the door was not mentally prepared to let everything shatter in advance. .

"Because the time is ripe. Ah Xin is coming soon, and my brother is almost ready to start action, right? So I think it's time to talk to my brother. I'll just say it, my brother intends to hack all human beings." Can the plan be suspended? I think that is an unnecessary move──”

Unaware of the slightly subtle mentality and thoughts in Men's heart, Nanessi just stated his reasons directly and straightforwardly, and made a request.Now that Nanessi knows the future, and that future may be the future created by the current him interfering with the past, this door is not too surprising--according to their personalities, knowing that someone is going to do this kind of thing will not go It's impossible to stop, even if they respect the wishes of others, they still have a basic idea of ​​what is good and bad, so they just say:

"I don't know what kind of future you experienced, Nanessi, but, judging by the situation, you should have stopped me at the beginning, right? But even if you don't experience the future that I experienced, you still return to the past── ─I think something must have happened, so you had to choose to do this, right? Use backtracking time and space to change the future again. Although I don't know exactly what happened, but since this is the case, you also insisted that you stopped me in the first place Was it the right choice to do this?"

Although Nanessi didn't say the age when he regained his consciousness in the past, but based on his own situation, the analysis of the rules of the world and his understanding of the rules of the world are probably at least about the same age as him, or even older. The older ones are probably at the age after entering the society. Rather than praying for time to turn back and let them start over, they would choose to find a solution to the problem right now. The only way to make them choose is They really had nothing to do to change the status quo, and they planned to do so because they couldn't find a solution that didn't hurt anyone, so Men asked Nanessi in this way.

After hearing Men's conjecture, Nanessi froze for a moment, and then seemed to have a wry smile but also seemed a little embarrassed, he coughed dryly, and explained:

"It's not like this! My life is very happy. I got married smoothly with the person I like. I have a few cute children, both boys and girls. The society is very peaceful and stable. I also have friends who I still keep in touch with when I get old. , although I have encountered many thrilling and exciting incidents, but in the end they all saved the day──I will go back to the past, but I feel that I am almost at the end of my life. Before I die, I decide to mess around and try it. It has something to do with serious things happening in the future. So what Brother Men did was unnecessary, I can be sure of that."

Probably because he was afraid that Men would not believe him, Nanessi gave a rough account of his life history in the next ten years──and Men knew that Nanessi was not as old as he thought he was when he decided to go back to the past. It was the age when he was older than the eldest, and after he had lived the old retirement life he had longed for since he was young. However, those many experiences that sounded as if they were made up to him were so beautiful that they were unreal, if it weren’t for Nana With the kind of happiness and joy from the bottom of his heart inadvertently shown on Xi Naixi's face when he was talking, he might really think that Nai Naixi was lying all over the place in order to persuade him to stop.

Men quietly listened to Nanessi's narration, and seeing the radiant expression on his face that he thought he had never seen before, he suddenly felt that the two of them were completely different in a certain sense. Naixi is "Qiqisi", but not the "Qiqisi" disguised as "Aisakamen"──now in his heart, Naixi is undoubtedly different from himself and completely independent Another individual.I also probably understand why it was a showdown, and even knowing his true identity, why Naixi still called him "Brother Men" instead of "Future Me" or similar titles.

But maybe I should have expected it?Even if Nanaixi has no memory from the "future", but has experienced a different life path, even if it is the same "July 14th", she should have a different appearance, and it is impossible to be completely the same.And when I was really [-] years old and decided to live in simplicity, I didn’t meet a distant cousin who took me to live in another place. Even if there was only this difference, it should have caused some differences—just to a degree. It's just a difference, but Nanessi will also become a "Qiqisi" different from herself.

For some reason, when this idea was fully established, the door felt suddenly relaxed, as if the vague clouds that had been chatting in his heart were blown away, and all the worries and confusions he had because of this matter before were lifted. And troubles are like a lie, after he was convinced of this, he didn't have similar emotions.

The door didn't know why he had such a reaction, but he vaguely understood something, but he couldn't describe it in a precise way. He just watched Naixi say this and realized that Naixi had such an almost 180-degree Who is the core figure of the change, but he couldn't help feeling a little emotional.

Is it the result of the child's efforts? ...It's amazing. Although I was optimistic about this child's growth before, I still treat that child as a child who needs to be taken care of. Maybe I underestimated her too much.Leaving Nanessi aside, even if I want to do this kind of thing, no matter how many times I try, I probably won't be able to do it, right?

Realizing this, Men felt a little relieved and a little happy, but seeing that the smile in front of him was no longer empty like his, just a fake smile, but filled with real emotions such as happiness and joy. Nanessi, who appeared to be smiling very vividly and genuinely, also felt a somewhat indescribably wonderful mood at the same time.

"Since you have said so, well, I believe that you can create such a future, and it is not impossible for me to terminate the plan. But I have a question. Listening to you say that the 'futures' you have experienced do not feel like it. There’s nothing that makes you want to start over and fix it, so why would you try to see if you could go back in the first place? In this way? It’s not unusual to even do it before you die.”

This is the biggest question in the door's mind after listening to Nanessi's description──Although they are different from ordinary people in many ways, they are just ordinary people who are greedy for life and afraid of death, but they haven't reached the point where they are dying because of certain things The kind of person who used to do whatever it takes to survive, obsessed with "life" to the point of being a little crazy, and Nanessi also said that he was "end of life", and he was not murdered or died in an accident. , should not have left any question of wanting to figure it out before dying, and the door doesn’t feel that hearing what Nanessi said just now is there any regret in life that makes him want to ‘go back to the past and make a different choice’ idea.

Because of this, the door really doesn't understand why Nanessi wanted to experiment before he died, something that he hadn't practiced yet and only existed in the theoretical stage. Ask the question that the future has seriously deteriorated in other aspects because of what he made, as he guessed before, or whether he has encountered irreversible and unforgettable events in his life that made him choose to go back to the past to change everything like him That's okay to say, but obviously life is happy, although there are occasional twists and turns, but it doesn't cause any regrets in the end, Men can't figure out why Naixi would do this.

Although Saimen finally admitted that they are already two different people, some of their essential dispositions have not changed. It is also derived from this, but other than that, there are not many differences between them, and the concepts in many places still have a high degree of overlap. Otherwise, it would not have taken so long to really confirm Naixi A fact that is completely different from oneself.

"It's for you, Brother Men."

But Men didn't expect that Nanessi answered his question almost without thinking, which made him stunned, and asked subconsciously:

"for me?"

"Just like what you said, Brother Men, I have almost nothing that can be said to be regrettable in my life, or now I should say in my previous life. Only every time I think about what happened when I was 14 years old, I feel a little bit similar. At that time, I didn't know that my brother's identity was false, and I really got close to you as a brother. Although I knew that my brother was actually the future me, I was confused for a while, but after I calmed down, I found that compared to the brother who is the door You are regarded as 'another self', and I really still regard you as a relative who is very similar to me. So I will occasionally regret that you made the time machine to go back, and did not keep you when you left with Xin You stay and let you see what my future will look like, probably like this, even if I am not sure about the success rate, but at the last moment of my life, I still took a gamble."

Probably because of the surprised reaction of the gatekeeper after the direct answer, she felt a little embarrassed. Nanaixi blushed a little so lightly that it was almost an illusion, but she quickly returned to her normal expression as before, and she was still straightforward. But he expressed his thoughts seriously and explained the reason.Naixi then changed the topic, and the content became sharper than the tenderness just now:

"Actually, I also have something to say to Brother Men—Brother Men, although you probably don't have such self-awareness or meaning, aren't you a little too arrogant? Why do you think that just by erasing your own existence, the world will definitely be destroyed?" Get better? It is true that the 'management program' made by my brother is very useful, and even if used improperly, it will cause big problems, but this problem is not caused by you alone, brother, and my brother does not have such a big influence! The reason for Brother Men's future is not just because of his existence, but because of multiple factors mixed together, right? If my brother thinks that his own death can solve the problem, then he is too naive !"

Nanessi's words were very sharp. Men were stunned for a moment, subconsciously wanting to refute, but after thinking about it carefully, they had to admit that his decision and actions might be the same in the eyes of others - arbitrarily thinking that sacrificing himself would be the answer. Saving everything, arbitrarily taking responsibility for all tragedies on yourself, and arbitrarily believing that it is all your own fault, these ideas may seem to some people like another kind of self-indulgent thinking that they think they are great and the protagonist of the tragedy. It shows that although the situation of the door was influenced by the overwhelming curse management program eight years later and the voices blaming him for making this program, it is only now that Nanessi pointed it out so sharply. I realized that maybe my thinking was a little bit off.

...Will it be misunderstood like this?Although that's not my intention.

Realizing this now, the door can't help but feel a little distressed, but he is not sure if he really has no similar thoughts at all. He was still young before, and he didn't use all kinds of illusory storylines for the setbacks he suffered in interpersonal relationships. To comfort and encourage myself, it is not impossible to treat myself as the protagonist of tragedy to let myself accept all misfortunes when I don’t realize it.

However, when Men couldn't help but want to start thinking about this question, Nanessi hadn't finished speaking. Maybe it was because he had held back these words for a long time and couldn't find the right owner to confide in them, or maybe he wanted to take advantage of his arrogance to make himself uncomfortable. Habits and accusations of others finished speaking in one breath before he flinched. He didn't wait for the door to think and respond after listening to his words, and then continued:

"If my older brother could look at himself more squarely and see clearly his real situation, I think you will be aware of this too! That's why I want to let Brother Men be yourself like Ah Xin did back then. I also gradually changed myself, and I was able to focus on myself, instead of just looking at others, and then see clearly what kind of person "Qi Qi Si" was, through objective or subjective feelings about myself, through Through the objective or subjective impressions of people around you, through the objective or subjective evaluation of people who like you, through the objective or subjective criticism of people who hate you, and gradually figure out what kind of person you are based on the above. Rather than simply relying on data or relying on other people's casual or deliberate speeches to arbitrarily determine what kind of "[-]" exists and how much weight it has──So I want to go back to the beginning and let Brother Men stay. Come down, really understand these, and also like the existence of 'myself', and then see what kind of path the changed 'me' will take in the future."

After finishing speaking in one breath, Nanessi paused for a moment. He seemed a little nervous. After taking a deep breath, he looked directly into the eyes of the door and said:

"Brother Men, I'm glad that you believed in me and stopped planning for so long. Then I can ask you, this time, you would like to stay in the world eight years ago, and accompany you as "Feng Sakamen" now. By my side, let's see for ourselves what the changed future looks like?"

After listening to such a sudden turning point in the middle, even if the door didn't finish digesting it immediately, he quietly looked back at Nanessi's sincere and earnest eyes-although those eyes were the same pink as his, but It's not as quiet and dim as he is, but it's clear and bright, reflecting his current posture, making him unknown and a little strange, but the emotions he has been familiar with since this time surged up, disturbing his heart again. .

──So it’s like this, maybe in some respects, I’ve started to care about and like “myself” a little bit.

After knowing that there is a decisive difference between the two of them, and hearing Nanessi say something that made him want to go back to his childhood and change, almost in an instant, Men inexplicably realized what he had been thinking and thinking about during this period. Annoyance, what was that strange emotion he had for Nanaishi?

Even at this conclusion, even he felt a little surprised and unbelievable at once, but unexpectedly, he didn't have the previous resistance and subconscious thoughts of trying to avoid not to notice it, but he felt relieved.

"──Alright, now I'm also a little interested in the future of a '[-]' like you, Nanessi, since you invited me so, I'll stay."

Seeing that due to his long silence, Nanessi's expression was difficult to classify as good or bad, and his expression became a little disturbed. The door couldn't help laughing, and replied to Nanessi's question with a relaxed tone, and then with a bit of a smile Mischievous, but obedient, after hearing what he said, Nanessi's face lit up with surprise and surprise, but before he could say anything, he leaned over and gently touched Nanessi's cheek a kiss.

"Then, please give me more advice in the future."

After a shallow kiss like a dragonfly touching water, the door straightened up as if nothing had happened, and faced Nanessi who froze immediately, as if he hadn't reacted, he smiled innocently, as if he had just He didn't do anything strange, so he said that.

Although after listening to Nanessi's "future experience", the door thinks that he probably has more weight in his heart than that child, and probably can't become a unique existence in his heart like that child, but this time he wants to Try to be positive for a while, try to see if you can have the same emotions for him as Nanessi has unconsciously occupied an important part of his heart.

So he decided to regain his new life in the world eight years ago as "Feng Sakamen" and tried a future and life that he had never thought of before. After he made this move with little hesitation, he did not worry too much or Worrying about what to do next and hesitating like before.

Hmm--Didn't Naixi want me to pay more attention to and like myself?I think he shouldn't object to my act of obeying my true inner thoughts this time, right?And he also said that he wants me to continue to be by his side, so he shouldn't hate me so much that he doesn't want to have too close contact with me, right?

After making these inferences arbitrarily, he maintained his superficial innocence with peace of mind, and began to look forward to the new development and life in the future.