beyond the dawn

Lovesickness recalls, after parting several times, tears stained the clothes; reading melancholy, forgetting each other, adding to the desolation.Tonight, I will be by your side, and I know what I want with dim eyes; Meng Hexi, you are on the other side, expressing my true feelings from the bottom of my heart.Looking back at the Prime Minister, where are you?

Memory is something that I sometimes want to lose; when it is gone, I desperately search for it.Because Mu Xi couldn't bear it and lost the two most important people in his life at the same time, he chose to forget.After forgetting, he was haunted by nightmares, desperately trying to find the lost memory.Finally got it back, but forgot another more important thing.

If memory could be artificially screened, perhaps there would not be so much pain in the world.However, memory is controlled by neurons, and external force or psychological effects can indeed change memory storage, but it is not artificially selected.

When Mu Xi heard those voices, she knew that it was something buried deep in her memory, it was warm and sad at the same time.The mixed feelings of water and fire gushing from the bottom of his heart drove him to explore the facts.So when he stepped into the yard, he didn't follow the steward, and the emotional impact made him have no time to inform others.

Mu Xi followed the sound, naturally deviated from the direction of everyone's progress, and You Lu who was walking behind him immediately stopped him.But Moo-hee continued walking as if she didn't hear it.On the other hand, the others were stopped by the voice of wandering, and they all stopped.The steward saw that Mu Xi was going astray, and wanted to step forward to stop him, but was stopped by Mu Jing.

"Sir, Xier has his own deep meaning in doing this, let's go and have a look."

The old steward hesitated, not to mention that the young master of the Mu family ran around in the house and broke the rules. What kind of place is the neighborhood committee, how can he follow outsiders to mess around. "But……"

Before he finished speaking, he saw Yu Wenxin following him.In fact, since Yu Wenxin stepped into the yard, he also heard some sounds, but not as real as Mu Xi, just some vague vibrations that stimulated the eardrums.The subconscious told him that the obscurity was related to Mu Xi, so he immediately noticed the change of Mu Xi's expression, and was the first to rush out to follow Mu Xi.

Mu Xi walked around the yard following the sound, her steps getting faster and faster, her breathing getting faster and faster.The voice also changed from a monosyllable at the beginning to a guide, telling Mu Xi where to turn and where to push the door.The steward walking behind looked surprised. Although Mu Xi and Yu Wenling had a very good relationship, it should be the first time for Mu Xi to join the neighborhood committee. Why is he so familiar?

After turning seven or eight corners and crossing a courtyard, Mu Xi finally stopped in front of a very old door.The door was closed tightly, it should be cleaned frequently, the door was spotless.However, there were spider silk scattered in the cracks of the door, telling the visitors that the door had not been opened for a long time.Mu Xi stood in front of the door, staring blankly at the doorknob, his right hand trembling a little.

The old steward naturally knew what that room was, and what was in that room—that room was a Pandora's box for the young master, and it couldn't be opened.Although he couldn't stop the young master from approaching, he could stop Mu Xi from opening the door no matter what he said.

"Master Mu!" The old steward tried to say it at first. In a sense, he also watched Mu Xi grow up and knew Mu Xi well. He is not the kind of person who can't listen to words.But at this moment, Mu Xi was completely immersed in his own world, and could no longer hear the voice of the old steward, so naturally there was no reply.

The steward had no choice but to rush over to block between Mu Xi and the door, but after taking two steps, he found it difficult to move forward.Looking back, Mu Jing and You Lu were struggling to resist something, and Yu Wenxin was also forced to take a few steps back.Looking at Mu Xi again, his whole body has been shrouded in a layer of cold air at some point, and he is exuding coercion.

The steward who couldn't move could only watch, Mu Xi stretched out his trembling hand and placed it on the door.After taking a deep breath, he pushed hard, and the door slammed open, blowing out some dust with the wind.The old steward glanced at the door, except for the dust floating out, the ground was surprisingly clean.The room has not been cleaned for several years, how can it be so clean?

Before opening the door, Mu Xi still didn't know what was waiting for him at the back of the room, but the voice calling him was very joyful.Standing in front of the door, the memory of the voice gradually recovered. It was the voice of a group of elves, the voice of the elves I met when I was a child, and the voice buried deep in my memory.

In those voices, Mu Xi seemed to see the figure of his mother, and his mood began to waver. He forgot to control the power for a moment, and let him run out.The few seconds of taking a deep breath felt like centuries, looking at her trembling hands, Mu Xi finally made up her mind and pushed the door open.

The moment the door opened, a warm current surrounded Mu Xi, it was the love and longing from the elves, Mu Xi laughed with tears in the corners of his eyes.The surrounding cold air gradually gathered, and the coercion gradually faded away, but the others were still unable to move, probably because the elves' longing for Mu Xi isolated the others to the periphery.

After calming down a bit, Mu Xi stepped into the room, looked around, and with just one glance, he was attracted by the thing in the middle of the room, and moved towards it involuntarily.It was a necklace, the rope was made of very common grass, and the pendant was in the shape of a tear with a red maple leaf embedded in the middle.These elves are the accessories of this necklace.

Mu Xi looked at the necklace without blinking, tears could not stop streaming down, there was a throbbing in her heart, but she couldn't grasp it.Wiping away his tears, Mu Xi slowly stretched out his hand towards the necklace, and the necklace that was floating in the air slowly fell into his hand as if it had sensed Mu Xi.The moment he touched the necklace, the lost memories flashed through Mu Xi's mind one by one like a movie.

Then Mu Xi heard a woman's voice calling softly, "Xie'er." Mu Xi looked up, but it was her mother.Of course it's not the real Han Yutong, it's just a trace of concern she left on the necklace, which can also be called obsession.

Looking at his mother, Mu Xi was so nervous that he didn't dare to move, his eyes became a little dull, and only his slightly trembling lips showed his excitement.Han Yutong came over and hugged him, stroked his back gently like when he was a child, hummed a little song used to lull Mu Xi to sleep, with a smile on his face as always.

Mu Xi knew that it was just a wandering spirit, and probably no one could see it except himself, let alone touched it.But he still stretched out his hand unconsciously to hug him, but sure enough, he only grabbed air.Mu Xi finally couldn't help it anymore, sobbing uncontrollably, his legs seemed to have been sucked away, and he slumped to the ground.

Han Yutong squatted down and stroked Mu Xi's face, "Xi'er, why are you so sad?"

Being asked this question, Mu Xi's tears fell even harder, and she shrugged her shoulders, already crying into tears.The hand holding the necklace exerted all his strength, but he still couldn't say anything.

Looking at Mu Xi's tears, Han Yutong felt very distressed, even though he was just obsessed now, he had been sleeping before Mu Xi came, not knowing what was going on.But she never stopped loving Mu Xi for a moment, how could she not love him, that was her treasure, the one she swore to protect to the death.Tears rolled down the corners of her eyes and became crystal clear under the reflection of the light, but she still kept smiling and her tone was still soft.

"Xie'er, do you remember why mother named you Xi?" Mu Xi nodded, how could he not remember, his mother told him many times.Even before I was born, I was very powerful and caused my mother to suffer a lot. At that time, a friend of my mother who could test fortune told my mother that this child was destined to harm others and himself.

A friend suggested that the mother give up the child, but the mother disagreed and insisted on giving birth, and named the child "Xi", which symbolizes hope.And I keep telling my children that my fate is up to others, as long as I stay kind, how can I harm others or myself.

Mu Xi had indeed forgotten before that the pain of losing his mother made him seal everything related to his mother, but he still practiced his mother's instructions and remained kind.But what about the facts?He did harm others and himself, and even killed his own mother.Thinking of this, Mu Xi lowered his head, weeping uncontrollably.

Han Yutong sniffed, and hugged Mu Xi, "Xi'er, don't give up hope, even if you are in the mist now, as long as there is hope, the sun will always shine in." Mu Xi shook his head, looked up at Han Yutong , "I did harm others and myself."

Han Yutong put his right index finger on Mu Xi's lips, signaling him not to continue, "Xi'er, mom doesn't allow you to talk about yourself like that. I protect you because mom loves you. Even if you sacrifice your life for it, you'll do it. It's not a harm. , It’s love. Is it wrong for Xi’er to think that your mother loves you?” Mu Xi still shook her head.

"If Xi'er regards her mother's love for you as your harming me, do you think her mother will be happy?" Mu Xi shook her head violently, her tears gradually stopped, but she still choked up from time to time.

"Then don't say that you hurt others and yourself." Han Yutong held Mu Xi's hand holding the necklace, and whispered in Mu Xi's ear, "There is someone who loves Xi Er as much as her mother, Xi Er remembered Right?" Mu Xi looked at her mother in surprise, a little at a loss.I did remember, the moment the elves surrounded him, all the memories came back.It's just that it's still a little hazy, and all the fog finally dissipates until I hold the necklace.

Han Yutong's tears had disappeared, and she returned to her usual smile, "Go, mom should go too." Saying that, Han Yutong let go of Mu Xi, and her image faded a little.Mu Xi knelt on the ground, waving his hands in the air, trying to grab something, but there was nothing left.In the end, he just pressed the hand holding the necklace to his chest and wept silently.

After Han Yutong disappeared, the spirits became depressed. They called "Xiao Xi" and circled around Mu Xi, so that the people outside the door could move around.Not knowing what was going on inside the door, Yu Wenxin was very anxious, not only because the voice in his head gradually became clear, but also because he always felt that when he stepped into that room, many things could be explained without talking about it.So after being able to move, he was the first to rush into the room.

The moment he stepped into the room, those vague voices became clear all of a sudden, and those hidden memories also filled his mind.Then he saw Mu Xi, who was kneeling on the ground, holding something carefully, while the group of elves circled around him, chanting "Xiao Xi".For a moment, Yu Wenxin felt that Mu Xi had grown wings and was turning into a butterfly.

The room was filled with a warm atmosphere, and it was a little sweet, like the pistil heart that I secretly ate when I was a child.Mu Xi's surroundings gradually shrouded in a white halo, but if you look carefully, you will find that the light is emitted by Mu Xi himself.As the light increased, Mu Xi was so dazzling that it was difficult to approach, Yu Wenxin approached Mu Xi step by step, and finally squatted down next to Mu Xi.

"Xiao Xi."

Mu Xi stopped crying, but there were still tears on her face. When she heard Yu Wenxin's voice, she blinked and turned to look at him.Xu Shi's tight strings relaxed, and Mu Xi closed his eyes and fell into Yu Wenxin's arms, falling asleep.

The steward gave up struggling the moment the door opened, allowing the situation to develop in an unknown direction.Youlu looked puzzled, all he could feel was the pure atmosphere in this room, and he didn't think there was anything wrong with it.But Mu Jing felt Han Yutong's breath on the way, so he made a bold guess.Seeing Mu Xi's appearance and Yu Wenxin's actions, he was convinced of his guess.

Memory is a good memory, and it is also the source of pain. No one can completely determine whether he is good or bad.

The author has something to say:

It dragged on for too long, and made me mistake the necklaces of both of them... I only found out that the previous chapter was wrong after writing this chapter, so I quickly corrected it...

Also, I enjoyed writing this chapter, maybe there is no dialogue?

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