Rebirth: Finding Happiness

On September 25, my mother called Cheng Xiaoting, Cheng Xiaozhong's family and the aunt who took care of her to the bed.

"Xiao Ting, you go to my bag and take out the key of the suitcase, go and take out the red cloth bag in the suitcase, I want to share the contents with you brothers and sisters." Mom said in a weak voice write

"Mom, why are you so anxious, let's talk about it later, what are you sharing now, you can leave it alone." Cheng Xiaozhong disagreed when his mother said that he wanted to divide things.

"Don't talk about it anymore. I am clear about my own body. I will tell you what I have to explain while I am still awake, so that I can feel at ease. Xiao Ting, you go."

When Cheng Xiaoting took out the contents of the suitcase and returned to her mother's bed, her mother asked her auntie to open the cloth bag, but at this time the auntie was already in tears, so she had no choice but to listen to her mother's order to open the cloth bag. Some copper coins from the Qing Dynasty, silver dollars from the Republic of China, some old-fashioned banknotes, a gold necklace, and two gold rings.

"These things are my dozens of private houses. Except for a gold ring, your dad doesn't know about it. You bought this gold necklace for your mother, Xiaozhong. Now, mother, let him give it to Pengpeng, and there is this smaller one." The ring was left by your great-grandmother and also given to Pengpeng. This larger ring was given to your mother by your grandmother. Now give it to Xiaoting. There are three silver dollars. I originally wanted to buy another one so that you brothers and sisters could share it equally, but I didn’t have time. One with a dragon and two human heads, because the dragon one is more valuable, so whoever wants the dragon one will give the other two heads, and you can choose this one yourself.”

"Give the dragon-carved one to my sister. I have it myself. Give me the head one."

"Listen to brother, I already have the head carving."

"The other copper coins and old-fashioned banknotes should be divided equally between you two. And Xiaoting brought my bag." After Cheng Xiaoting took the bag to her mother, she took out an Agricultural Bank card from the bag and told Cheng Xiaozhong. Said: "The 20 in this card is the pocket money your sister gave me in the past few years. I know your sister has money and I took it without being polite to her, but there is nowhere to use the money and it has been stored in the Agricultural Bank. It hasn’t been moved inside, I’m afraid I can take it out when I need it, and now I’m useless, so I leave it to you to keep it well, your father is not very good to you, but he is your father after all and he is also old He likes smoking and drinking, so when he gets older, there will be something wrong with his body. At that time, save the money for his retirement, so that you can relax a bit. If he brings back the women outside at that time, you will be fine. Just do your duty as a son and daughter. If he loses money in business, don’t give him the money. He won’t be able to keep the money. Xiao Ting, don’t lend it to your father when he asks you to borrow money again. Yes, you gave him the 20 he did business in the past few years. I know very well that he has no money to pay you back. As long as you take care of the child and raise your mother, you can rest assured. And Xiaozhong you Although the second aunt is not forgiving and a little selfish, she has taken care of your mother after all, and this is what we owe her. If she has difficulties, you can help her within your ability. Think of it as repaying her favor and repaying the sisterhood between mother and her for the rest of my life. Sister!" Mother turned her head and looked at the aunt who had been crying.

"Here, Xiaofang, are you tired? We won't talk about it today, but we'll talk about it later, okay?"

"Eldest sister, let me finish my sentence. I'm afraid I won't have a chance. Elder sister, let me treat Xiao Ting as your daughter. Since you don't have a daughter and you have loved her since childhood, let her be your daughter. And we Mom, she's getting old, so I'll come and see her more when I have time."

"Okay! I'm really happy that Xiao Ting is my daughter. Don't worry about my mother, I will visit her more often."

"And you, if you are close to grandma, you should visit her more often, otherwise I'm afraid no one will even know when she's dead."

"Mom, we know. Don't worry, I will visit grandma often."

"That's it, I'm relieved, you can do it if you have something to do, I want to sleep again, Xiaozhong, please clean the downstairs and make the bed, and inform your father, uncle and cousin, I think Goodbye to them."

Seeing her mother fell asleep again, Cheng Xiaoting couldn't bear it anymore and ran back to her room to cry out her sadness.When eating at noon, Cheng Xiaoting saw that her aunt and her brother and sister-in-law had red eyes.After dinner, I cleaned the downstairs with my brother and sister-in-law and made up the bed. In fact, everyone knows that my mother's time is only these two days. Today's situation is like the Chinese medicine said.After the arrangements were made, the aunt said: "It's only been a few days for your mother to look at. You should buy what your mother will use when the time comes. Qingqing's shroud and some needs for those who will come to worship at that time." Prepare what you need first. Tomorrow, I will ask your cousin to accompany you to buy it. I will call your cousin first and let them come back to see your mother." The sister-in-law nodded when she heard what the aunt said.

"Hey, Jianping, come back soon with Jian'an, your aunt is not well, please come back and meet again." The aunt said and cried.

"Mom, why is this? Isn't it good that we went back to see my aunt last time?"

"The cancer cells spread too fast. Today she talked a lot as if she was telling her funeral, and said that she didn't have much time, and she wanted to see you again."

"Mom, I get it. Jian An and I will take the car tomorrow morning and we will be home in the afternoon."

In this way, my mother slept all afternoon as soon as she fell asleep, and didn't wake up until dinner. During dinner, she only ate a few mouthfuls of rice and her favorite braised pig's feet.I fell asleep again after a while, and I didn't wake up until nine o'clock in the morning the next day, no matter how my auntie and the others yelled.At this time, my aunt said to my brother: "Xiaozhong, take your mother downstairs." As soon as the brother heard what the aunt said, he immediately carried his mother downstairs and put her on the bed prepared yesterday. My mother woke up when she felt the pain, but then she couldn't eat anything, and when she was called, her eyelids would move slightly to make us feel that she was still alive.

It was like this until September 9 at 28 o'clock in the morning. My brother came up to knock on my door and told me to get up quickly. My mother was about to die. Crying, my aunt kept calling my mother's name to wake her up and let her see them.At this time, my uncle, aunt, and cousins ​​all came and kept calling for my mother. My aunt told Cheng Xiaoting to go and bring the child quickly so that my mother could have a look.Hearing what my aunt said, Cheng Xiaoting and sister-in-law went upstairs and took the children down, and then stood by her bed to let her take a look at the children. At this time, the two children seemed to feel that the life of grandma (grandmother) was passing away. She started to cry, and her mother seemed to hear the cry of the child. Cheng Xiaoting saw her move, and she went up to hold her hand and said with tears, "Mom, look at the child again." When she slowly opened her eyes, she looked at Cheng Xiaoting and the others once, then fixed her eyes at her father's place for a while, then slowly closed her eyes and stopped breathing. At this time, Cheng Xiaoting couldn't hold back anymore. With my own tears, I knelt on the ground holding the child and wept bitterly.

From the coffin stop to the funeral, Cheng Xiaoting was in a daze. The night before the funeral, Cheng Xiaoting and her brother didn't sleep all night, and even the child was carried to the third floor to be carried by her sister-in-law.On the day of the funeral, relatives came very early, until around six o'clock the relatives arrived one after another and the funeral home's car arrived. Cheng Xiaoting watched the staff take out a small coffin from the car, and then took her mother out of the crystal coffin Take it out and put it in the small coffin, and then cover the mother with a quilt. When the coffin was about to be closed, Cheng Xiaoting seemed to wake up and asked them to wait. She wanted to take another look. When the coffin was closed, Cheng Xiaoting's tears flowed down as if a bank had burst, and Cheng Xiaoting couldn't control herself anymore and burst into tears, thinking that her relationship with mother and daughter was so weak in her past and present lives, she cried Seeing Cheng Xiaoting, she felt dizzy for a while and then she didn't feel any more. When Cheng Xiaozhong saw her sister, she immediately came to hug her and then held down Cheng Xiaoting. Cheng Xiaoting woke up feeling the pain.When Cheng Xiaozhong saw Cheng Xiaoting woke up, he helped her up and told her not to cry anymore, kowtowed on her mother's head a few more times, injected incense, and sent her one last journey to let her go with peace of mind. After hearing what her brother said, Cheng Xiaoting held back her tears and told her Mom kowtowed three times, telling her that everything will be done well and let her go away with peace of mind, don't worry about everyone anymore.Next, the four cousins ​​carried the coffin to the car of the funeral home, and then Cheng Xiaoting and her elder brother and sister-in-law got into the car and went to the crematorium to watch her mother be cremated, and then her urn was buried in the grave.On this day, Cheng Xiaoting and her brother sent her mother off for the last time.In the evening, the relatives all left one by one. The next day, my father also left and the house suddenly became deserted. My brother and sister-in-law asked Cheng Xiaoting to move to the third floor to live with them and said that she lived alone on the second floor. Will be afraid, Cheng Xiaoting said no, there is nothing to be afraid of, this is her own mother and not someone else, so there is nothing to be afraid of.In this way, Cheng Xiaoting still lives on the second floor, and when she has time, she will take the children to her mother's room to chat and watch TV with her brother and sister-in-law.

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