before and after dinner gl

"Yeah, ok, ok, I know, I know, um, bye..."

After patiently saying goodbye to the person on the other end of the phone, Xiao Jingrui threw the phone on the small square stool angrily, and leaned on the rocking chair with one leg vigorously shaking the chair because of upset.This is no longer the number of phone calls from the elders in the family, all of which are to persuade her to obey her father's work arrangement for her.After finally going to the factory to be on duty, I deliberately did not bring my mobile phone, so that my ears were clean for a day. When I came back to see, there were more than [-] missed calls. In addition to her parents, there were also calls from uncles, aunts, and grandpa...

Everyone thinks that Xiao Jingrui is ignorant, everyone thinks that she is stubborn, naive, and dull, and she doesn't know how to be blessed when she is in the blessing. Only Zhai Qin understands her.

Speaking of Zhai Qin, Jing Rui realized that he hadn't spoken to her for a day. At this time, he wished that the other party was right in front of him, and he could hug her with his arms.

She picked up the phone again and called Zhai Qin.

The phone rang once, but was hung up by the other party.

Mostly busy.

Xiao Jingrui knew that if it wasn't inconvenient, Zhai Qin would never hang up on his phone.Forget it, take a shower and get some sleep. I was on duty all night, and I was bothered by those phone calls as soon as I got back.

Xiao Jingrui, who had just entered a hazy state, woke up when she heard the phone ring.It was her old lady who asked her what she wanted to eat at such a time. Needless to say, she would come over later in the evening, and she would definitely talk about work again.

She turned her phone to silent and continued to sleep.

In the darkness, Xiao Jingrui sensed someone coming in, opened her bedroom door and took a look, then closed it again, as if she said something, it should be talking to someone outside.Xiao Jingrui vaguely knew in her dream that it was her mother who came, and her father probably came with her.

It took a few minutes to force herself to wake up. Xiao Jingrui walked into the living room in her pajamas, and she saw her parents sitting on the sofa playing with their mobile phones. Looking at the dining room, there were several dishes of Xiao Jingrui's usual love on the dining table. eat dishes.

"Dad, Mom." Xiao Jingrui stretched and walked over.The pimple popped up immediately.

"Get up, go wash your face and eat." Xiao's mother stared at the phone, her hands were very busy, and various cheerful and intense sound effects of the game came from the phone.

Xiao Jingrui washed his face and poured himself a glass of water to drink.

"The rice is in the steamer." Mother Xiao shouted from outside.

Xiao Jingrui found the rice in the steamer, there was only a small bowl, and she measured it alone, "Have you all eaten?" She sat at the dining table with the bowl in hand.

Xiao's mother let out a "hmm" in her nose, and all her attention was on the game.

After the meal was over, the expected "heart-to-heart talk" came.

"Put the bowl there first, Rui Rui, come here." Xiao Ma finally cleared the game, put down the phone without hesitation, and the expression on her face became serious.

Xiao Jingrui brought in the small square stool slowly, sat on the small square stool and fiddled with the thick hair on the back of the pimple's neck, waiting silently for the second elder to give a lecture.

"Rui Rui, tell mom why you don't want to be transferred."

"What else is there to say, what should be said has been said."

"You child, you still don't understand. If you don't go now, you will regret it in the future. Your father has arranged everything. Now I just wait for your promise. Think about it..."

"I've thought it through very clearly." Xiao Jingrui interrupted Xiao's mother.

"You think it through, what are you thinking about?" Dad Xiao, who had been silent for a long time, opened his mouth. These days, his patience has been worn out by his stubborn daughter, "Xiao Jingrui, my kind words I have told you all the bad things, why are you so stubborn? I spent so much time trying to transfer you a job, and I will forget it if you don’t like it. Now you have been in that factory for more than two years. You should have had enough fun, you are not young, you have to think about your future! Your father and I are not high-ranking officials. If I want to be transferred next time, I won’t be treated as well as this time, and this time, that place, I know most of the leaders, and there are a few who have a good relationship. Let them take care of you when the time comes, and it will be easy for you to go up in the future..."

"Why should I go up, I'm in the factory." Dad Xiao was also interrupted by her.

Seeing his daughter's rebellious appearance, Papa Xiao, who is usually not very angry, suddenly became angry.

"Xiao Jingrui..." Papa Xiao stared at Xiao Jingrui, perhaps out of breath, the words were caught between his teeth and he didn't say a word.

Xiao Jingrui silently stared at Papa Xiao's wide eyes, his expression of defying power made the veins on Papa Xiao's forehead twitch with anger.Neither of them said a word.

"Rui Rui, you child, your father is not doing it for your own good, why are you so reticent." Mama Xiao said quickly, breaking the deadlock that was about to explode.

"I've already said I'm not going, I'm not going, I'm not going! Can you please stop talking and tell those relatives to stop calling me, it's really annoying!" Xiao Jingrui went crazy road.

"Hey, why did you talk to the adults, Xiao Jingrui, you can be patient, right? Your anger is getting bigger and bigger. What's wrong with your relatives calling you? Everyone cares about you and doesn't want you to go astray. It doesn't look like you are a relative, but a blood relative, who wants to care about you!" Xiao's mother was not happy.

Xiao Jingrui is tired of these so-called concerns, saying that she doesn't want to go astray, for the sake of a better life for herself in the future, but can these relatives ask themselves, are you living a very good life?Not good or not good enough, so can you stop telling me how to live my life?

Xiao Jingrui turned her head away impatiently, and told her old lady with the most obvious body language that she didn't want to listen any more.

"Yes, we are annoying, the whole world is annoying, but you, Xiao Jingrui, are not annoying. Do you know how many people envy you, how many people want to go to that place to get that position, but you, Xiao Jingrui, don't like it." Xiao's father He couldn't bear it anymore, he didn't want to say anything, sighed in disappointment, stood up from the sofa and told Xiao Ma to leave: "Don't tell her, let's go."

Xiao's mother didn't move, Xiao's father glanced at the sitting wife and children, and left by himself. When he arrived at the door, Xiao Jingrui stared at a corner of the coffee table, and said in a voice that Xiao's father could just hear: " Don't always use your ruler to measure me, and don't always use 'others' or 'most people' to tell me things. I know what kind of person I am and what I want. I am very clear. "

She didn't hear her father's answering voice, only the sound of "bang" closing the door.

"Come on, Rui Rui, sit here," Mama Xiao eased her tone, tried to soften her voice, and patted the sofa next to her, "Mom is asking you."

"Yeah." Xiao Jingrui sat down on guard.

"Tell your mother honestly, is there any other reason why you don't want to leave the factory?"

Xiao Jingrui's heart skipped a beat, what did her mother guess?

"I just like the factory, but I just don't want to leave." Xiao Jingrui replied evasively.

Who is Xiao's mother? She knows her daughter very well. When she saw Xiao Jingrui like this, she basically confirmed her guess and asked, "Is it because of someone?"

"So what if it is, so what if it's not, anyway, I just won't leave." Xiao Jingrui stood up from the sofa, took a few steps to the balcony, fell into the rocking chair, turned her face out of the window, and ignored Xiao's mother .It wasn't until she heard the sound of the door closing that she turned her head back and stared at the empty living room in a daze.

Yes, Xiao Jingrui felt guilty for a moment just now, but it was only for a moment, because she didn't expect her old mother to ask this question so persistently, she must have guessed something.After that moment, Xiao Jingrui began to hesitate, lying on the rocking chair and looking out of the window, thinking, why not tell them?Speaking of it, will it be the same as it was a few years ago?No, this time, they must be convinced that she wants to be with Zhai Qin, and no one can separate them.

By the way, why hasn't Qinqin come back yet?

Xiao Jingrui looked at the dark sky outside, wanted to see what time it was, and then remembered that the phone was turned off to silent and threw it on the bedside table in the bedroom.She went to the bedroom to find the phone, there were two missed calls and one message, both belonged to Zhai Qin.

Working overtime again, in such a cold day... Xiao Jingrui pinched her phone, recalling the clothes Zhai Qin wore when she went out this morning, and realized that she was in the factory this morning and did not watch her go out.But there are air conditioners in the company and the car, and there are blankets in her office, so it shouldn't be cold.

Xiao Jingrui wanted to pick up Zhai Qin, but after thinking about it, the other party said in the message that he would be back very late and asked him to go to bed first, so he decided not to go, it would distract her.Xiao Jingrui made a cup of coffee, sat on the balcony with the cup in his arms, and stared in a daze with Pimple's big eyes (Zizi's eyes are big, she has small eyes). He slept for a long time before, but now he is not sleepy at all. .

After sitting for a long time, Xiao Jingrui suddenly took out her mobile phone, scrolled down for a while, and finally found the group created by her mother.There are only three people in this group, she, and her parents.Xiao Jingrui seldom chats online, so she has never spoken in the group. After hesitating for a while, she finally decides not to speak in the group.Xiao Jingrui clicked on her old lady's profile picture and switched to a private chat.

"Mom, you guessed it right, I don't want to go, it's because of someone."

"???" Mama Xiao replied quickly, but there were only three question marks.

"I saw a sentence before, 'Any parents who let their children live according to their own wishes are hooligans', now you are like hooligans, insisting on making me live according to your wishes, whether it is work or love. "

The prompt "The other party is typing..." is displayed on the top of the dialog box, but the prompt disappears soon, but Xiao's mother's message has not been sent. After a few seconds, it starts to display "The other party is typing..." again.

Xiao Jingrui sent another message: "You have raised me, let me receive education, and grow up healthily. I can't repay these kindnesses in my life. I will support you, respect you, and fulfill my obligations as a daughter. My body, hair and skin belong to my parents, but this does not mean that I belong to you from my hair to my toes, and I have to obey your domination. I am an independent individual, and I have my own thoughts."

"We didn't dominate you, we just hope you can live better." Xiao's mother finally sent a message.

"Since I was young, almost all the important things in my life are decided by you. If I violate it, like this time, I will become the most wrong person." Xiao Jingrui pressed her phone cracklingly , She wants to say everything that has been held in her heart for these years, no matter whether they can understand it or not, at least she wants to say it.

I thought it wasn't enough to post one, and was about to add another when Xiao's mother replied: "A lot of things are decided by you."

Xiao Jingrui deleted the message she was about to send, and retyped: "Really?"

"Have you really given me a chance to choose? Many times, the so-called negotiation is not a negotiation, but a different angle to force me to compromise, isn't it? You so-called wish me well, but in fact 'hope' has long been It has changed, it has become 'command' and 'force'."

"Nonsense." Xiao's mother's typing speed couldn't keep up with Xiao Jingrui's rhythm at all. Xiao Jingrui knew that if it was said in person, in front of the eloquent and fast-talking old lady, he would never be able to speak well. Chance to finish what she wanted to say, that's why she chose to type.

"A few years ago, when I confessed to you, I also said 'I hope I am well', disregarding my feelings, thinking that it would be okay to let it go, but it didn't. You deceive yourself, and I cooperate with you to deceive yourself. You say I don’t want me to live in the dark, I don’t want me to live too hard, but do you know that your attitude is what makes me suffer the most. You keep saying that you are afraid of being discriminated against, but you are actually afraid of being discriminated against yourself.”

"The world's discrimination against me is not important, I don't care, I never care about other people's eyes, but you are different, you are my parents, I know it is difficult for you to accept, I thought that time can make you understand slowly Some, but a few years have passed, every time I take a step back, you take a step forward..." Xiao Jingrui's eyes began to blur, she wished her parents could understand her, even a little bit, if she couldn't support her, she wouldn't object That's fine, she just wants to be with the person she likes and live in the way she likes.

"What do you want to say?" After Xiao Jingrui's long paragraphs of news, Xiao's mother asked her.

Xiao Jingrui wiped her eyes so that she could see the words on the screen clearly. It had been backlogged for too long, and she wanted to say too much, so that her mind was a little confused.

"You always say that you are afraid that I will die alone, but you know that I will not be with the opposite sex, but you only allow me to associate with the opposite sex. You keep asking me to go on blind dates, and you try every means to make me get married, so you are really innocent. Worried that I will die alone?" Xiao Jingrui frowned tightly, and couldn't help but think back to the scene when she came out a few years ago, those quarrels again and again, even insults, and occasionally she would speak the truth earnestly, completely There is no "heart-to-heart talk" without democracy at all, and the messy psychological diagnosis and treatment eventually turned into ignorance.

During that period of time, she lived in great pain, even a little depressed, so this re-confession was more like an outbreak to some extent.

"What are you thinking, what do you want to do?" Mother Xiao's words seemed so powerless.

"I want to tell you my thoughts clearly. For so many years, you have scolded me, blamed me, sighed and lost your temper in front of me. When did you listen to me seriously?"

"You are my biological parents. I don't expect you to stand on my side and face the obstacles I encounter with me, but at least don't stand on my opposite side and say with others that I am a pervert, a heterogeneous, and a Outrageous."

Abnormal, these two words were words used by Xiao Jingrui's closest mother to scold her.Although Xiao Jingrui knew in her heart that she was just dizzy at the time, but every time she thought about it, she felt as uncomfortable as a needle prick in her heart.

After these two messages, Mama Xiao didn't reply.Xiao Jingrui's eyes were cold, and her skin was so dry, she waited for a long time on the phone, finally gave up, dropped the phone, rubbed her face and eyes with her hands, and leaned back in the chair...

……

At four o'clock in the morning, Xiao Jingrui woke up shivering and found himself sleeping on the balcony with cold hands and feet.

The light in the living room was on, and the acne was curled up into a meat ball not far away, and the hair around his stomach rose and fell with his breathing.Zhai Qin hasn't come back yet.

Xiao Jingrui slid the phone away, but her old mother never called her back, and Zhai Qin didn't have a message either.Quickly dialing Zhai Qin's number, Xiao Jingrui finally heard the voice that reassured her in a moment of anxiety.

"Hey, why didn't you sleep?" Zhai Qin's voice seemed so soft and kind in the cold and windy early morning.

"Slept, woke up," Xiao Jingrui hesitated, "Why haven't you come back yet, is there something wrong?"

"It's okay. It's the beginning of the new year. There are many things to do. You should sleep well."

"Hmm...Are you cold? Turn up the temperature of the air conditioner so you don't catch a cold." Xiao Jingrui hung up the phone worriedly.

"Okay, you too." Zhai Qin patiently agreed.

"Whatever you want to eat tomorrow morning, I'll buy it for you."

"No, you didn't sleep well, sleep more."

"If you don't tell me, I'll just buy it casually." Xiao Jingrui refused this time.

"Okay, okay, you can buy whatever you want," Zhai Qin coaxed her softly, "Hey, hurry up and sleep for a while."

"What about you, you haven't slept all this time, right?"

"I'll sleep in the office later."

"Don't wait a while, sleep now, if you have anything to do, wait until you wake up."

The other party hesitated for a moment, and agreed: "Okay, sleep now."

"That's good, good night."

"Good night."

After that, Xiao Jingrui never fell asleep again, and kept picking up his mobile phone to check the time. Finally, he got up at six o'clock, got up to clean up, fed the pimples and Mid-Autumn Festival, and then went out with warm milk.

She went to the convenience store downstairs of the company to buy breakfast, and sent it to Zhai Qin's office together with the warmed milk.He knocked lightly on the door, but no one answered. Xiao Jingrui listened carefully, but there seemed to be no movement inside.Grabbing Xiaowen who happened to be passing by, Xiao Jingrui asked her, "Where's Mr. Zhai?" It stands to reason that Xiaowen is in the company, and Zhai Qin shouldn't be having a meeting or something outside.

"It's inside, maybe it's asleep." Xiaowen pointed to the door of the office and said in a low voice.

Xiao Jingrui let out an "oh", and after Xiaowen left, he gently pushed open the door of Zhai Qin's office.The curtains of the office are drawn, and there are several documents spread out on the desk, as well as folders, pens, Zhai Qin's mobile phone, and a notebook on standby...

Xiao Jingrui glanced over the desk and looked back. There was a person sleeping on the sofa by the wall, with his body slightly sideways, one hand resting on his face, and the other hand hanging naturally outside the sofa. A corner of the blanket fell to the floor, and the bright colors contrasted sharply with the serious office.

Xiao Jingrui put the breakfast on the desk, walked over carefully, and picked up the blanket that fell on the floor for her.She knelt down and looked carefully at her face.The sleeping beauty looked haggard, and her frowning was particularly distressing.

Xiao Jingrui couldn't help stroking her brows gently with his hand, trying to smooth out the frowning brows, but the people on the sofa didn't move at all, and didn't notice Xiao Jingrui's touching.

It must be too tired.Xiao Jingrui leaned forward, kissed the still frowning brows, checked the temperature of the air conditioner, closed the door quietly and left.

When Xiao Jingrui went to his office, he suddenly found a problem. Why are there so many empty desks on this page?What about those people?

The author has something to say: the recent torrential rain for several weeks has caused the house to be soaked in rainwater several times, seriously affecting the lives of Qian Chuaner and Qian Chuaner's sons, so why don't you come to a chapter or two of benefits to change your mood: D.

(Don't worry, I'm just thinking about it first...