That Alien Feeling

"Adam has feelings for me," said Harry.

Samantha was wiping the counter, she stopped when she heard his words, and raised her head, "And then?"

Harry frowned, wondering why she was so calm. "It's just 'Adam has feelings for me'."

She raised an eyebrow. "What's new about this? Why do you think I said he was your boyfriend? He looked at you as if you were his own sun."

Harry's brow furrowed even tighter.She was wrong.Adam didn't see him that way.He felt that Adam hadn't looked him in the eye lately.

He shook his head. "According to my understanding, it's just physical attraction. He is gay, and he finds my body attractive to him." In fact, he doesn't quite understand what "physical attraction" is all about.At times like this, Harry felt even more strongly that he didn't fit in here.

Samantha rolled her eyes. "Yes, yes, I'm still the Queen of England. What's wrong, little huh? He's so handsome, hot, rich, kind, and has a good sense of humor, and he treats you sincerely. I'm really envious Jealousy." She smiled narrowly. "He must be fierce in bed, I bet you can tell by the way he looks."

Harry scratched the back of his neck and laughed a little. "Where did you go, Adam and I are friends, isn't it..." He blushed when he thought of extra-contractual sex.He still doesn't understand why people on earth can take "sex" so casually.When he found out that people on earth could have sex at the age of 12, he was shocked.In Kaluvia, most people don’t do it until after the wedding ceremony at 25; sex outside the contract is such a taboo that he’s embarrassed just thinking about it.It's not that the Kaluvians are sexually conservative, it's just...theoretically, they have little interest in sex before the marriage contract ceremony.There was a rumor that Harry also heard from time to time: that in cases of weak child bond, people may become sexually interested in people other than their bond partner.But Harry wasn't sure about the credibility of such rumors either.His own child bond has always been very strong, and he has never had even the slightest feeling related to "sex" towards anyone.He's never bothered about it.He shouldn't be bothering about what he can't feel yet—at least not yet.

But he's curious now.He wanted to understand Adam's feelings.For the first time in his life, Harry suspected that he was missing something because of his bond.

There is a reason why the Kaluvians practiced child contracting more than 4000 years ago.

A branch member of the First Clan kidnapped the Queen of the Third Clan and forcibly formed an ancient "Unbreakable Bond" with her.This is how it all started.Although there have been precedents of forced bond formation in the past, no one has ever dared to do such appalling things as forcing the head of a clan to form an "unresolved bond".This matter caused a huge dispute.There's a reason this bond has been lost - because no one can undo it - not even the best psychics; thus, a psychic torturer is crowned royalty.Eventually, the queen had to give way to her younger brother.The incident damaged the royal family of the third clan, while the first clan refused to fulfill its legal obligation to take responsibility for the actions of its members, and the incident continued to escalate - as a result, a political scandal turned into a military conflict and eventually dragged all clans together. Into it, set off the largest global war in Kaluvia's history.The biological weapons used in the war have affected the health and reproductive capacity of the Kaluvians, and the population is depleted.

The Great War went on for several years, and it was not over until all realized that they were on the verge of extinction.It took decades for people to recover from this disastrous war and its aftermath.

In order to prevent the same vicious incident from happening again, the Clan Union Council proposes to form contracts for children's spiritual cores in their infancy.The principle of child contract is different from other bond types, it is deeply rooted in the hearts of children, thus eliminating the possibility of forced marriage contract.If it were not for the historical context at the time, such a proposal would have caused controversy over licensing rights, because children could not choose to "agree" or "against"; but after years of bloody wars and decades of reconstruction, No one wants to see the tragedy repeated, and almost everyone is relieved that a solution has been reached.Well, not everyone.Some refused to abide by this law and broke away from the clan; but to the upper classes their existence was taboo and could not be spoken of.People privately call them "lawless".The Lawbreakers do not submit to the authority of any clan, they are a group of wanted outlaws, but no one knows their whereabouts.Someone said they lived somewhere high up in the "Master Hill", but Harry didn't believe it.If this is true, wouldn't modern technology be able to find them too?

In short, the lawbreakers are the only group of people in Kaluvia who have not formed a child bond.Harry had always thought they were wrong.The fact that no conflict like this has occurred since the introduction of the Bond Law is a sufficient proof of the justice of this law.Scientific research has also confirmed that after bonding children's spiritual nuclei, their telepathy is more stable and their personalities are more docile.Sociologists insist that the Pact of the Child essentially saved their society from self-destruction—there are too many examples of higher civilizations.

But how was he going to explain this to Samantha?Especially since Harry himself doesn't quite understand how bonds work - there's very little information about bonds in public databases.Why does bonding keep people from being attracted to others?Why do most people who form child contracts do not feel the slightest "sexiness" before the marriage contract ceremony, while some people can?What happened at the wedding ceremony?How does a child contract transform into a marriage contract?Once, Harry asked his brother, but Keza said it was better for Harry not to know the answer.When Harry went to ask his mother, she just gave him an odd look and changed the subject.This is so strange.Why are they so tight-lipped?Is there anything they don't want Harry to know?Why?

"I'm engaged, you forgot?" Harry could only find something to say.

"Please," Samantha scoffed. "She hasn't called you since you came here for work, Harry. What kind of love is this you're talking about?"

Harry flinched.He hated himself for not being able to defend Raylan 'Heaney' Goole.But he could not reveal his alien identity, nor could he make effective contact with the Terrans without permission, which would violate one of the most important intergalactic laws.Even if he hadn't been arrested, he knew the scandal would be used by his mother's political opponents to keep her in the dark.Even if his mother hadn't killed him for it, his brother would have.

"Layla can't get in touch with me, it's not her fault." Harry was telling the truth.Lately he has barely felt the bond between them.Their telepathic connection had been broken the moment he arrived on Earth, but subconsciously he could still feel their bond, which was always a comfort to him.But, as the months passed, the bond was weakening, and Harry feared it would soon disappear, like the bond he had with his family.Indeed, he had never heard that Tong Qi would disappear completely.Weaker sensory links often disappear when physical distance is too great; but Tong Qi is very strong and is not one of them.As far as Harry knows, there has never been a case where a child contract disappeared due to excessive physical distance.But lately his mind has been too quiet, like it hasn't been since he was born.Coupled with Adam's alienation from him, he really fell into the bottom of his life.

Thinking of Adam, Harry sighed.

"I don't believe it," Samantha said.

It took Harry a moment to remember what they had been talking about.He was "snubbed" by his mate.

"It doesn't matter." Harry shook his head.Why does Samantha always digress? "Adam has feelings for me. What should I do?"

She glanced at him. "What do you mean? If you don't want to be with him, just tell him and move away from him. "

"No." Harry frowned.He didn't want to move, he loved living with Adam, and he wanted to spend as much time with him as possible—while he still had the chance.Now he could be called back by his parents at any moment.

Thinking of this made him full of tangles.He misses his family very, very much, but the thought of leaving Adam makes him sad and anxious.

He noticed the strange look on Samantha's face and asked, "What?"

"Harry," she said slowly, "you should understand that he must... have a hard time, right? Unrequited love is no joke, and it must be hard for him to live with you."

"I..." Harry swallowed. "I understand. That's why I asked you for advice. I didn't want to hurt him."

Samantha sighed. "I don't know what to say, it's hard. Are you sure you don't have any feelings for him? Every time I see you together, you feel like you're in love."

Harry laughed. "Do not be silly!"

"Stupid?" She sounded helpless. "Xiaoha, I can tell from your every move that you also have feelings for him: your body leans towards him, you look into his eyes and smile, you are always clinging to him, and you touch him whenever you can—this is It's too typical. Just two days ago I saw you rubbing his neck, and you looked like you were about to cum on the spot! To put it bluntly, 'you don't have feelings for him' surprised me even more. Are you sure you didn't Feel?"

"I—I—" Harry stammered, his mind a mess, "I don't think so?"

She glared at him. "How can you not know this kind of thing?"

Harry wondered how she would react if he said, "I'm an alien with a completely different anatomy."Maybe now she is more willing to believe this than his ignorance and abnormal situation.

"Maybe you should think of me as 'semi-sexual,'" he said cautiously. "I'm closer to 'asexual'①. I don't feel attractive in other people. I can only feel sexually attractive...if I have an emotional connection." He must have a bond based on telepathy , and he obviously didn't—at least for Adam, no.

Note ①: It means that it does not show sexual orientation towards either male or female, that is, it lacks sexual drive.

Samantha looked sad. "Harry," she said slowly, "you mean you don't think you have a relationship with Adam? That's the most fucking bullshit I've ever heard."

Harry looked at her, completely bewildered.

"Can you describe what it's like to be attracted to someone?" He bites his lip and stammers. "It might be a stupid question, but please bear with me, will you?"

Samantha smiled. "It's not a stupid question if you're semisexual or asexual," she mused. "Well, I'm not a man, but when I'm attracted to someone, I feel excited around him, want to touch him, smile more around him, want to please him, want to dress up more for him Pretty, I want him to find me particularly interesting. Of course there are some physical signals..."

"What body signals?"

She glared at him. "You really want to know how I feel when I'm 'sexed'?"

Harry managed not to blush.He is really ashamed to see people.But he had to understand—because what she had just said sounded familiar.It was too familiar to confuse him.

Harry bit his lip and nodded.He is not a baby anymore, he has the right to talk about sex with others.It's nothing to an Earthling, and he should act like one.

"Okay then." Samantha blushed. "When he touches me, it's like electricity is flowing. My belly will heat up. I want his hands to touch me. I want to be close to him, without leaving any space. I want him to kiss me, my whole body." She His face was as red as a tomato. "If he's very attractive to me, I'll be wet, but men obviously don't respond the same way. Men will be hard." She smiled slightly. "I thought I'd have to wait until my kids hit puberty to say that."

Harry didn't smile back.Some of what she said didn't happen to him, and some of them were all too familiar.He always wanted to be with Adam, close to him.He always wanted Adam to touch him.He'd never imagined Adam kissing his body, but now he was, and the idea wasn't...disgusting.The thought made his heart beat faster and his skin burn.

But he still doesn't fully understand how being attracted to someone can be "wet" and "hard."Well, he understands how intercourse works, but without experience, it's hard to imagine what it's like.

"I guess you might think my parents were... conservative," Harry said, choosing his words carefully.He knew that in the age of Google, his ignorance must have seemed anomalous. "They are against premarital sex. They never talk to me about sex or educate me about it."

Samantha's eyes widened. "real?"

Harry nodded, deeply guilty for lying.His parents were less conservative.Kaluvians only talk about sex when necessary.

"...Harry?"

Harry flinched, looking back at Samantha. "Sorry, what's wrong?"

She shook her head. "I can't figure it out. If you've never felt that way about people, how did you get engaged to that girl?" she teased. "Don't say it's an arranged marriage. But after you introduced your parents, it's not surprising even if it was an arranged marriage."

"It was an arranged marriage," Harry admitted, though he'd never viewed his child bond that way. "But I like my fiancée very much, she is very nice."

"Honestly," Samantha said, "again, where are you from? Fifteenth century? It's all medieval."

Harry was amused.What would she say if she knew that the Kaluvians were thousands of years ahead of Earth in terms of technology?It is indeed strange that the customs of the Kaluvians are closer to those on Earth hundreds of years ago.

"Speaking of which, do you really have feelings for Adam?" Samantha asked.

Harry avoided her eyes.The answer to this question seems simple, but it is unclear and unclear.He did have strange feelings about Adam that he had never felt before; he did feel that Adam had a strange attraction for him.But does that mean he has feelings for Adam too?

No, maybe he's just confused.He was neither "wet" nor "hard" around Adam.Surely that means he doesn't have "that" feeling for Adam, right?

"No." Harry replied. "I don't think I have feelings for him." He sighed and rubbed his nose. "I have to figure out what to do. I don't like Adam's way of doing it."

"How did he solve it?"

Harry felt the corners of his mouth drop. "These days he has changed."

"changed?"

"He's, okay, friendly, but he's emotionally distant from me." Harry bit his lower lip, looking down at his hands.He said quietly: "He hasn't called me 'baby' or 'little boy' for two days."

silence.

"Let me straighten it out, huh," Samantha said dryly. "You want him to call you Xiaoguai, baby, and you won't be happy if he doesn't call you that anymore."

"Baby," Harry corrected her, frowning, "not baby."

She looked at him strangely, then laughed. "My God, you're so weird, Harry." But then she got serious again. "You want my advice? Figure out how you feel about him before you screw it up. Best friends don't necessarily have to use nicknames, and that could be my problem, but I wouldn't argue with that. It's sad."

Harry opened his mouth and closed it again.

She is right.He shouldn't feel bad about it.His family doesn't call him that, and he doesn't doubt their love for him.But Adam is different.He really likes being Adam's darling and Adam's baby.He wanted Adam to call him darling and baby, which... probably shouldn't be asked of a friend, too weird.

Harry buried his face in his hands, moaning in embarrassment and frustration, "I don't understand anything."

Samantha just laughed.