give you a soft spot

Red-green color blindness is Xi Zhuo's natural humor. Every time he finds himself making a joke, he can shrug his shoulders with a particularly innocent face.

After getting along with him for a long time, the staff around me gradually reduced the words related to color, and replaced them with other expressions.

For example, Cindy, when she matched Xi Zhuo's clothes, she never directly said which color goes with which color, but would label each piece of clothing with a number and directly replace it with a number. The heart-warming gestures that I began to discover.

Although the car advertisement looks cool and tall, Xi Zhuo himself can't drive. His inherent defects do not meet the requirements for a driver's license test, so the scene of a handsome man with a beautiful car for more than a minute , what really plays a role is the post-production special effects, Xi Zhuo is only responsible for contributing his face.

CM is a clothing brand whose main design concept is the clever use of color. It is not a blind plan to let a colorblind endorser, but to leverage Xi Zhuo's reputation to the greatest extent.As a hot domestic first-line male star at present, he has too high commercial value, is a walking big data and ratings, and is an incomparable best spokesperson.

The places that Xi Zhuo and his staff went shopping late at night in Seoul were marked by netizens. The hat that he was fortunate to have became a hot item overnight, and was frantically hoarded by various purchasing agents.

Such a radiant man who can cause big fluctuations by doing anything casually, told me that he is also an ordinary person, and let me just love him.

I love him very much, but I understand that this kind of love is not qualified to be blatant, and it is destined to survive in secret.

The content of the next two days of shooting is very complicated. In addition to frequent exchange of scenic spots, it also includes a group of street shots. Xi Zhuo and Yin Hela are really a good match. Some shootings require very intimate plots and actions, just like a pair of envious people couple.

I have thought about this question before, what kind of woman Xi Zhuo will marry in the future, and how virtuous and virtuous she must be to be worthy of him.Later, he stood in front of me and said that he wanted to try it with me. Everything was unpredictable, just like the future direction of our relationship. He was obviously so affectionate and brave, but the longer he was by his side, the less secure he felt.

On the last day of filming, there was an impromptu kissing scene, I knew it the night before, Xi Zhuo sent me a voice message and told me with a smile that jealousy is not allowed.

It is a kind of consideration for him to ignore his group of fans who may go berserk and let me know first, it is his affirmation and respect for me. I replied without any hesitation that I will fully support his work.

However, I overestimated my psychological endurance, why I have seen so many kiss scenes of him before, but I can't stand it at the shooting scene.

It turns out that after being with him, I really care about it, but I can’t lie to myself if I want to admit it or not. I just can’t see him kissing others.

After leaving the shooting scene, I went back to the hotel, thankfully I was not the required on-site staff, otherwise I would have stayed there to feel the intense cruelty over and over again.

Knowing that he is an actor, he belongs to the screen, there are too many unavoidable things, but some emotions can not be erased by reason.I was depressed all night because of this incident, and I couldn't be interested in the whole dinner party celebrating the end of filming.

During the dinner, Yin Hela was sitting next to Xi Zhuo, and I couldn't help but look at Xi Zhuo every time.I don't know if he proposed to delete the last kiss scene because of my relationship, but I know he already understands that I care, otherwise he wouldn't call me over in the middle of the night.

I didn't fall asleep when I received his news. My first reaction was to go to see He Xiu who was asleep on the opposite bed, and then I quickly got dressed, picked up my phone, took my room card and left.

Xi Zhuo's room is on the top floor. When I arrived by the elevator, he was standing in his pajamas waiting for me at the elevator entrance. He almost dragged me into his room.

In the room without the lights turned on, as the door was closed, the limited light in the corridor was completely isolated. We stood at the door and were not in a hurry to go inside.

Quiet, very quiet.

It was I who spoke first.

"I said I would support you unconditionally, but I still care about it. I'm sorry Brother Zhuo, I'm not sensible."

Xi Zhuo pinched my chin to force me to look up at him, and I stared into his bright eyes in the dark, waiting for him to speak.

He smiled lightly: "I'm very happy."

I don't understand: "Huh?"

"You are not ignorant, but possessive."

He always thinks of me so well, but I'm just ignorant. If I really understand him, how can I give him problems invisibly.

"I'm just ignorant," my voice trembled for some reason, my chin was still in his hand, but my eyes turned away from his face, "I..."

"Then I also like your ignorance."

He is just too kind to me, no matter how harsh or indifferent he is, I won't be used to doing this.

I held out the words I suppressed in my heart: "Brother Zhuo, I actually don't feel comfortable being with you at all."

Xi Zhuo was obviously surprised by my words, he hugged me into his arms and urged, "Then tell me, what should I do, so that you will feel better."

The words that have been accumulated for a long time, I dare not speak boldly until today, and the words burst out of my chest, as if I was relieved.

"I'm under too much pressure. I don't know where we can go. I don't even believe that I can love without contradiction. I always feel that you are temporarily staying by my side. After all, I can't grasp it. , I have already started to become selfish and hypocritical, and I will become more annoying and unbearable in the future, if I can, I don't want to show this side to you..."

The choking in the throat blocked the words, and there was a knife stirring in the heart, it hurt so badly, it hurt so badly that I couldn't breathe.My face in his arms left the firm warmth, and I raised my head and asked him, "Can we..."

"No."

Xi Zhuo categorically answered me first, and kissed me very hard without even giving me room to react. The domineering invasion slowly moved down from my lips with his heavy breath, and I was nailed to the door panel. He didn't dare to move, he had never seen him like this before, he was like an irritated beast but with just the right amount of gentleness.

He must be angry, otherwise, how could he kiss so hard, the lips on my neck moved, but it was more like a sharp knife scraping, the hot feeling was spreading, very itchy and numb.

His hand reached into my clothes and clasped it tightly around my waist, and his single arm almost hugged me under the armpit.

After the quick movement, the world spun, I touched the spacious softness on my back, and lay on my back to watch his face slowly approaching.

He propped himself on the bed with one hand, and unbuttoned his pajamas with the other. His breath was not steady, but his words were hoarse and clear.

"Don't think about leaving me."