give you a soft spot

After nearly 10 minutes, the car completely left the urban area and finally reached the suburbs, and finally approached the villa I was looking for.

Because I have never been here before, I am not sure whether the building with only one corner exposed not far away is my destination. I can only be sure after repeatedly confirming with the driver in poor English.

After getting off the car, I walked along the winding bluestone road. With the change of perspective, the whole picture of the villa gradually appeared.My first feeling was not to admire its undisguised luxury and grandeur, but to feel inexplicably familiar and friendly.

Maybe there is someone I love here.

On the way here, I thought about seeing Xi Zhuo's scene and thinking about what to say to him, but the closer I got, the weaker I became. The bunch of keys in my hand weighed a thousand catties, and my steps fell down.

The villa is very large. The blue and white exterior is particularly clean and eye-catching under the shade of greenery in the sun. The semi-open courtyard pattern and the lawn are newly repaired.

After opening the door with the key, I pushed the door body open. As I slowly approached the villa, I kept scanning the front windows, hoping that the noise I made on purpose would let me see someone leaning against the window. Check out the familiar figure.

I, who didn't see Xi Zhuo, rang the doorbell a few times when I was looking for the door key to enter the villa among a few keys, thinking that it would be good if he could come to open the door.

Disappointment followed me through the door after the key was turned.

The shoes on the floor at the door made me sure that Xi Zhuo lived here. I walked in quickly and stood in the huge living room, not sure which direction to go.

I raised my head and yelled at Brother Zhuo twice but got no response. The pattern of doors within doors was the basic reason for my turning.

When a figure flashed by in the corner of my eye, I immediately chased it, walked through the carved double doors in the living room, and when I got closer, I saw that the figure I mistook was just a light gray window curtain fluttering around in the wind.

As far as the eye can see, some furniture is still covered with a protective bag, which is obviously brand new and has not been used.The only trace of human life is the glass with some water on the bedside table in the bedroom.

When I approached, I saw a white pill on the dark smooth table, and my heart ached instantly. Did he start taking medicine again?

It is not ruled out that Xi Zhuo is hiding from me, and I also believe that he is in this house.

I have never done an idiotic move, I walked from the first floor to the second floor, and then to the third floor, leaving footsteps on all the stairs.

"Brother Zhuo, I know you are here, come out."

"You left the key to me, isn't it just waiting for me to be ready one day, I'm ready, Brother Zhuo," I said loudly to the air, "I'm here to find you, come out!"

"I know you are angry with me because of Yan Yiyun's matter. I was wrong. I shouldn't be glassy. I shouldn't think of others besides you. I haven't had a good time for more than a month. I miss you every day, especially You, but I can't find you," I took a deep breath and continued walking, "You said I was stupid a long time ago, I won't refute you now, I am stupid, that's why I didn't find you until now."

I stopped talking while I was talking, and stood on the spiral staircase leading to the third floor on the second floor and said in a soft tone: "Are you still angry with me, or don't want me anymore, you have to tell me in person, you If you let me stay, I will definitely stay, if you let me go, I will definitely go, as long as you speak out, don't hide from me like this, okay?"

I sat on the stairs, put my arms on my knees, and looked at the oily green potted plants downstairs: "I don't want to be a well-known fashion designer anymore, and I don't want to devote myself to developing Kakang Siyao. I only want you now, Go fuck your shitty dreams, without you the rest of my life doesn't work. I mean, Brother Zhuo, let's live our own lives, live as we want, waste time and waste life, as long as it's with you Together, I am willing to do anything."

There was no response at all in the interval I deliberately left, and the sound of the clock could be heard very clearly in the silence of the room.

"Didn't you say that we should talk about love several times until we succeed in the end? Why don't your words count?"

"Brother Zhuo, let me chase you this time, let's start over, shall we?"

......

I was like a lunatic, sometimes loudly and sometimes softly, sometimes laughing and sometimes sad, and finally tired of talking, I just sat stupidly, my senses and vision became extremely sensitive, waiting for Xi Zhuo to be exposed in a certain direction, I rushed over.

But he didn't move, and I even started to worry whether he would be depressed enough to do stupid things after living here alone for so many days.

The source of the cranky thoughts is always unknown, I got up and quickly checked the entire villa with closed or open doors.

I feel that my approach is very funny, especially when I see Xi Zhuo as the co-pilot of the car coming in from the yard from the window on the top floor.

Holding the shopping bag in his arms, Xi Zhuo smiled and said a few French words to the driver, and then the yellow car backed up and turned around and drove out of the gate.

He stood in the yard and looked up at the upstairs. The sun was so harsh that he couldn't open his eyes, so he raised a hand to block the light. The sleeves of the white casual shirt were rolled up to the elbow, and the cuff buttons were shiny.

The few loaves of bread in the paper bag he was holding were in an arc of his line of sight towards me who was standing at the window looking down.

Everything is still, I don't move or he doesn't move, but the eyes locked on each other are flowing.

"Hey!" Xi Zhuo yelled at me, "You don't even close the door when you enter the yard?"

My nose was sore, I pursed my lips and smiled.

Then we started almost at the same time, one running into the villa and the other downstairs.

I blamed the stairs for too many steps, and I blamed myself for running too slowly. I hugged Xi Zhuo in the middle hall on the second floor, and the things in the shopping bag at his feet rolled down to the first floor.

I didn't ask him if he was still mad at me, the way he hugged me said it all.

He didn't ask me how I found it, my presence here is the best answer.

Maybe people who really love each other should have such a gesture. They can treat each other with 100% sincerity without hesitation when they meet again without saying a word.

A long, long hug, so long that my arms were sore and I didn't want to let go.

"Do you like it here?" He broke the silence with a very soft voice.

I squeezed hard into his arms: "Yeah."

"It took me a long time to find someone like this."

I was confused, and raised my head from his arms: "Huh? Something similar."

Xi Zhuo lowered his arms around my waist and put them on my shoulders instead. He turned his head and asked, "Don't you think this villa looks very similar to the one in your dream?"

My body froze, and I tried my best to get closer to his words, but to no avail.

"I tore off a picture on the last page of your notebook..."

When he reminded me, I suddenly realized: "I remembered."

I remembered what my last lost page was. It was the scene I had dreamed about once. After waking up, I couldn’t remember the content of the dream, but I remembered the scene very clearly. I really liked that kind of living environment at that time. Just draw it to remind yourself to try to live that kind of life in the future.

Later, it was just a painting, and later, I forgot its meaning.

Xi Zhuo remembered it from the very beginning, which really surprised me, after all, we had only just known each other at that time.

I looked at him incredulously: "Did you actually want to come this far with me at that time?"

He smiled and bent down to pick up the lost items one by one and put them back into the shopping bag: "Almost, from the moment I fell in love with you, I thought about where I would live with you in the future."

I looked at the figure who kept walking down the stairs, and stood still and sighed: "But I never know anything."

"This is the same as the dream you insisted on. Before you have achieved it, you have thought about every step after the future may be brilliant, and I am the same," he turned and smiled, "Before I was really with you, I I can't help myself to think about our future life, and try my best to keep it within a controllable range, but one thing I have to admit, it's not because of my intentions that we can get here together, but because of your peace of mind. Cheng Ming , as a lover, you are really worry-free, you never make me feel tired, I don't need to deliberately maintain the relationship and I don't need to spend time with you, you are too sensible."

This is different from what I thought, I thought a heart-wrenching apology was inevitable after coming here, but Xi Zhuo is praising me sincerely?I even said so many incoherent and illogical words in an empty room with fear, and in the end Xi Zhuo was saying that he was very optimistic about me?

"It's so boring to be here alone during this period of time. I think that you can come to accompany me every day, but I hope you can come later."

"why?"

"I haven't tidied up here yet," Xi Zhuo sighed softly, "I haven't bought all the furniture, and even some rooms haven't started to be decorated. After more than a month, I only finished half of it. The color of the study carpet is uncertain." Come down, the style of the kitchen ceiling has not been chosen yet...The climate and environment here are very good, the weeds grow fast, I just repaired it in the morning...there is nothing in the refrigerator, I will go You came home when you were shopping, and I was very excited when I saw the door open from a distance." Xi Zhuo leaned against the pillar at the stairway and looked up at me, "Standing in the yard and looking at the window upstairs. You smile at me, I think the happiest thing is to have you waiting as soon as I get home..."

This man is talking non-stop. Although he speaks clearly, I can still feel his emotional confusion. He still expresses his feelings with all his heart. But this time I feel that he is different from before. He is not confident. .

He seems to be afraid that I'm fake, he seems to be afraid that I will leave, he seems to be afraid that I don't like this place...

Yes, he was afraid, I could feel it.

I don't want him to be afraid, I have to tell him what's on my mind.

"Brother Zhuo!"

I stopped him loudly, but I stopped my voice and didn't know what to say. I wanted to say so much that there was nowhere to speak, as if if I opened a small mouth, everything would be thrown away, turning into pointless nonsense.

So after a pause, I combined everything I wanted to confide into a very solemn sentence.

"I'm not leaving."