unreachable letter

Little:

I want to ask you, what do people think when they are in love.

Rong Mei has been losing my temper with me recently, and I don't know why.I don't know who to ask for this matter, so I'll just write to you.Because you will not receive this letter, I will probably be even more unscrupulous.

She covered the walls of the house with posters of Britney, and I was dazzled as soon as I entered the bedroom.When I got home at night, I took me to listen to her singing "Toxic". As soon as the music came out, my ears became a little dizzy, and I simply buried my head in the sofa pillow.She thought I didn't want to hear her sing sexy songs, so she turned and hid in the bedroom, and didn't talk to me or let me in the bedroom all night.

In fact, it may be because I am not feeling well (I got off work late recently), the music was a bit too coquettish and too shaky for me that night.

The next day is Tanabata.This is the first Tanabata since I was with her.It's just that we each have to go to work, so we don't talk about it.

Originally, she usually went out earlier than me (it took two subway transfers to reach the company), but when I got up from the sofa that day, I saw that the bedroom door hadn't even moved.She didn't come out at all.

I went over and knocked on the door. "Are you not going to work today?"

There was no sound inside.

My head hurt slightly, but I unconsciously controlled my tone very gently. "Even if it's my uncle's company, people can't be lazy, right?"

Still no answer.

I shook my head and turned to wash up.After washing, the bedroom door was still tightly closed.

"Hey, I said—" I haven't raised my hand yet.

"Leave me alone..." She finally spoke, she must have wrapped her head in the quilt again, this little temper is really...

"Xiaomei—" After a while, I whispered again.

"...Big idiot Bei!" As expected, the bedroom door opened with a click, and a golden snub-nosed monkey with high sensitivity rushed out.The female monkey hugged my neck in a standing high jump, and wrapped her legs around my waist.

I tilted my head to look at the lotion in the palm of my left hand before it touched my face, so I could only hold him with one hand.

"Why didn't you call it earlier? If you called it earlier, I would have come out earlier!" She was complaining.She just wanted to hear me call her "Little Mei".

"It's just the two of us, and we still have names." I said.

"You don't like me like this, do you? Why don't you tell me if you don't like it? I'll change it after you say it!" She said it very seriously, but I know that some things can't be changed and don't need to be changed.

My waist started to feel a little sore.I answered her: "I didn't say I didn't like it."

"Hmph! You obviously don't like the flickering of your big eyes."

"Okay, okay, then if I don't like it, can you not like it if I don't like it?"

"I..." She knew what I meant.

"Are you stupid?" I held the person with one hand and "holded" the lotion with the other. If I wanted to communicate physically, I could only use my mouth.

Later, she blushed and touched my lips with her nose. "Why are you kissing me..."

I lowered my head and smiled: "I brushed my teeth."

"I know, it smells like peppermint, but I haven't brushed it yet..."

"Then you ask—"

"I'm going to ask!" Her arm made a sudden effort, and I had to retreat to one side of the wall to lean against it, with my heels sticking to the flower pot.As a last resort, I turned around abruptly and pushed Rong Mei against the wall.

She hugged my neck nervously. "Silly Bei, I seem to have distorted the switch sticker just now!"

I sighed and took a deep breath, and then said: "If your two legs don't get off my body, my whole body will be crooked—"

"No! Who told you that you are so much taller than me, I just want to stand on the shoulders of giants!" She gloated a little.

"Two centimeters is 'that much'? Besides, you are obviously wrapped around the waist of a giant, and the giant is almost wrapped around the waist by you!"

"It's as if you don't have a lumbar disc."

"Isn't there a 'prominence' missing? Why are you so good? Do you want me to buy oranges for you?"

"Then kiss a few more times first!"

"Kiss, kiss, my aunt..."

5 minute later.

"No, why is your mouth so hot!" She lowered her head and licked it again, and then realized her conscience, "I'm going to be cooked, you idiot! You have a fever!"

I nodded and smiled weakly: "Yeah, it burned last night..."

Rong Mei immediately asked for leave in a serious manner—she just made a phone call willfully, and then took me to Guangming Hospital quickly.

I seldom have a fever, but this one lasted for two whole days.Repeatedly, several bottles of water were hung up, and the doctor told me to pay attention to the diet, so when I was discharged from the hospital, there was an egg in my mouth.

Rong Mei asked me if there was anything I wanted to eat in particular, and when I said I wanted baked gluten, she laughed at my childishness.Unexpectedly, when she got home at night, she actually made the gluten roast herself.Of course, everything she does tastes, uh... not tasty.She sings well in English.Originally, I was going to go abroad after I took the IELTS test, and I don't know why it was delayed, so I asked her and she didn't say anything.

A few days later, Rong Mei's father came over again.He mainly came to see how Rong Mei was living.

Rong Mei's father looked down on me very much.He felt that I came from a small place, and I didn't have a big vision or great ability.He agrees with his daughter not to marry or even to live with the same sex, but he is worried that I will be capricious and finally abandon Rong Mei to marry alone, and Rong Mei will be too pitiful by then.

His concerns are justified.

So, one thing I've been doing is asking my parents for permission not to get married.After my stalking and stalking, my parents finally let go after another half a year.

My dad no longer forces me to go on blind dates anymore, because I told him everything the psychiatrist said (of course some of it is my own).Once he even came to see me (with my mother) in person, seeing how tolerant and pitiful I was living in a small house in this big city, he felt distressed for a while.

My mother kept crying, saying that she had given birth to such a heartless girl for nothing, not only did she not cherish herself, but also turned herself into a homosexual, and her good life had to be miserable.I hugged her and wept together: "No mom, I'm fine now, not bitter at all, and I don't feel bitter with you and Dad here!"

Dad glared at me with red eyes: "Don't say something so sweet, I haven't agreed yet!" He has met Rong Mei, so he must think that Rong Mei's dress and behavior are not decent enough.My father's style is tradition, and tradition means that it is by no means unorthodox.He still thinks that I am too childish.

It's just that when people get old, their hearts become softer, and there is nothing to say if they talk too much.

It is precisely because of this that my heart feels more guilty.Because I understand more and more that in many cases, the wounds suffered by children end up in the hearts of their parents.

Parents will bear too much and too secular vision because of me-admitting that their daughter is gay is tantamount to telling those who don't understand tolerance, care, respect and understanding, and like to see people's jokes that they have worked hard The daughters raised are mentally ill and heterogeneous, and even they themselves will be labeled as "crazy".Public opinion will always haunt them, and even break them someday.That's not what I want to see.

"They're not crazy, and neither are we, Xiaomei, do you understand?" During dinner, Rong Mei and I sat at the table, looking at each other, and the atmosphere was very dignified. "We can't pass on to our parents what we should bear, and that's not fair."

Rong Mei's face showed a rare entanglement and frustration. "I understand, but my dad told me to leave you again today—"

"You're being stubborn with him again, aren't you?"

"I don't want to be separated from you, what's wrong..."

"Listen to me, you can no longer force them, let alone turn against them. What we have to do now is to live a good life. They are the closest people you have been close to for more than [-] years, and you can no longer be cruel to them , remember?"

"But he said you're not good, that we can't last long—"

"It's been a long time, hasn't it? And your father's attitude is obviously much better than at the beginning. I believe that if it takes longer, they will naturally see that I, Sun Sibei, intend to live a good life with Rong Mei, not just fall in love Even if it's over, we-"

"Rose!" Rong Mei interrupted me abruptly.

"……what?"

"No matter what happens, I, Rong Mei, is your rose, Sun Sibei's, for a lifetime!" Rong Mei blinked her right eye and smiled decently.She only blinks her right eye.

I seemed to take a 3 minute long breath.

I put down the spoon in my hand, stood up and walked over.I leaned down and held Rong Mei's face with both hands, a small grain of rice stuck to her mouth.I leaned forward and rolled away the rice grain with my tongue.

so warm.I wonder.Why does this rose have no thorns?

"I know, little idiot." I smiled and pinched her delicate nose.

She is a woman of science and engineering, and she rarely speaks provocative words like today.I don't know how much power such a sentence gives me in an instant, and I don't know what to do for a while.

She is my own rose, and I am the bud of the rose, and perhaps we have become part of each other a long time ago.This may also be the telepathy generated by wanting to be together!

I probably understand the emotions of love now.

——Big Fool Bei

The author has something to say: Happy Chinese Valentine's Day!There is sugar~ I suddenly had an idea, so I wrote a note with my mobile phone. The number of words is not as long as the previous ones. Let’s take a look~