love marks

Chapter 87, good people are only abandoned.

I leaned against the door, pricking up my ears to listen to the voices outside:

"Grandpa, what is this?"

"Liquor."

"White wine? What are you doing?"

"Of course it's for the girl inside. She'll fall asleep after drinking liquor, so she won't make a fuss."

"It's been two days, she should go home."

"You are stupid! What if she goes home and tells the story, then you won't be able to see grandpa."

"But her mother will be anxious. Can we lock her here?"

"Unless she promises not to tell the story, I'll let her go, otherwise..."

"No, no, no! I still want to be friends with her!" The boy said loudly, "I'll go and tell her, she won't tell her family!"

"It's best if she listens to you."

The door was opened suddenly, and two figures, one large and one small, appeared in the sight in the sudden light.

I opened my eyes suddenly and saw the whitish ceiling.

In a blink of an eye, my mother's tired expression appeared. Seeing me looking at her, she breathed a sigh of relief, "You're awake, is your head still hurting?"

I didn't want to look at her, so I turned my gaze away, only to see the man coming in from the outside, and he smiled relieved when he saw that I woke up, "Wake up, it means that the problem is not serious."

When I saw him, my face tensed unconsciously.My mother was still saying, "You fell down the stairs, it was your Uncle Zhang who sent you to the hospital, why don't you hurry up and thank Uncle Zhang, I'm exhausted."

exhausted?How much effort can be spent behind you.

I reacted suddenly and sat up, "How did I get to the hospital?"

"Of course it was your Uncle Zhang who sent you here, otherwise my mother's strength wouldn't be able to carry you on my back."

"He carried me?" I opened my eyes wide.

"Yes, he has to carry you in and out of the car." Mom took it for granted.

I got angry, "Didn't I say I don't want him to touch me!"

The infusion was still in my hand, and I was about to get out of bed after pulling out the needle, but my mother stopped me, "Why are you going?"

"go back!"

"Where are you going?"

"go home!"

"No, the infusion is not over yet..."

"How long have I been lying down?" I asked again.

She froze for a moment and replied, "It's been a long time."

"No, I have to go back, or she should be in a hurry." Before I got off the ground, I searched again and again.

"What are you doing again?"

"Mobile phone, am I afraid of mobile phones?!" I said hurriedly.

My mother's face collapsed when she heard this, "Are you going to find Fu Yu?"

"Nonsense, otherwise she should be worried."

"No! You can't go there, just stay with me honestly and see a psychiatrist with me tomorrow." Mom said.

"See a psychiatrist, don't see it!" I was displeased, "Give me your phone!"

"No!" Mom refused to compromise.

"Mom, what time is it, don't be angry with me, give me your phone quickly!"

"No, don't contact Fu Yu again in the future."

"impossible!"

"Is there anything impossible? What is the long-term relationship between the two girls? To be in love is to deceive yourself and others. You see, you are in a daze now. You won't listen to anything I say!"

"I won't tell you those useless things, I'm leaving." Then I rushed out.

Mom grabbed me, "Don't go!"

I didn't care about that, I broke free vigorously and continued to run outside.

"Old Zhang, help me hold her!" Mom asked the man for help.

The man hesitated for a moment, then stretched out his hand, and before he touched me, he was dismissed by me: "Don't fucking touch me!"

"Xiao Song! Why are you talking to Uncle Zhang!" Mom was angry.

I don't show weakness: "I told you that I hate the opposite sex touching me, especially the elders, are you disgusting me on purpose?!"

"I..." My mother was at a loss for words for a while, and after thinking about it, she became ruthless, "It seems that your psychological problem is really serious, you have to listen to me for everything tomorrow, and ask the doctor to guide you."

"I'm not going. Haven't you heard a word? Psychiatrists have psychological problems. It's really weird to let patients see a doctor."

"You..." My mother was so angry that she couldn't speak, she just held on to me tightly, "Even if you don't go to see a doctor, you can't go to Fu Yu, I can't let you jump into this fire pit..."

"Mom, you are hurting me!"

"It's harming you to let you be together," my mother thought deeply, "I'm doing it for your own good, and you've been fooled by lard now!"

I was extremely depressed, and she couldn't hold back after breaking free a few times, and called the man, "Come and help me!"

"Xiao Song, don't lose your temper, listen to your mother!" The man hesitated, but seeing that I was about to run out, he followed my mother's advice and he picked me up and put me on the bed again without saying a word.

For a moment, the similar pictures of the two "incidents" that impressed me when I was nine years old overlapped and flashed before my eyes. The man's eyes were slightly bloodshot, and he looked like a sleepy beast, which might be suppressed at any time.

"Ah!!! Get the hell out of here!!!" I kicked the man hard, and quickly curled up into a ball, jumping out of the bed while my mother was slacking off, and was about to run. As soon as my feet hit the ground, I heard a "pop!" There was a crisp sound, and the whole room suddenly fell into a daze.

I stood there blankly, my ears were buzzing, watching my mother's mouth opening and closing, the voice was ethereal and hollow: "Your brother works in other places, and he doesn't come home once in half a year. Are you so angry with me?"

My brain was still a little dizzy except for the buzzing sound. I was unable to go far, so I had to sit down first, feel the solid sense of stability under my buttocks, and wrapped myself in the quilt that was at hand.

Out of sight out of mind.

"Xiao Song?" Mom's tone softened a little, and she softened a little, "Don't blame Mom, Mom is also doing it for your own good. If you don't think it now, you will understand my good intentions in the future."

"You are just afraid that someone will poke your spine and say you have a different child." I was not happy.

He was patted on the back indifferently: "What are you talking about?"

"You don't understand at all!" I hid under the blanket, feeling tight in my chest: Without Fu Yu...

The meaning of life has long been lost.

My heart hurts so badly.

Then I was taken to see a psychiatrist.

In view of the general doctor's one-on-one treatment, my mother retired and waited outside very wisely.

The psychiatrist is a stable young man who looks about 30 years old. He wears a pair of black-rimmed glasses and looks a bit gentle. He took out a pen and paper, and went straight to the point: "Then I will start. Yesterday your mother gave you a general overview Tell me, I preliminarily deduce that the main reason for your rejection of the opposite sex comes from an unpleasant experience in childhood..."

"Unpleasant?" I snorted coldly, "This generalization is really calm, but it's true, if I died when I was young, or you didn't tell me this unpleasant reasoning."

The man realized that his words were inappropriate, and smiled apologetically, "I just don't want to deliberately make you feel uncomfortable and remind you of your sadness..."

"Don't you psychiatrists treat you like this? First go over the pain, and then prescribe the right medicine," I said in a serious manner. "I knew I was going to come here, and I was already very uncomfortable."

The doctor was a little embarrassed by what he said, and changed the subject, "Let's relax first, let's listen to a song first..."

"No, I'm quite relaxed," I didn't buy it, "I don't know what my mother told you, and I don't want to know, anyway, I have nothing to say, and I don't want to hear you take things for granted, just let me Hold on for a while until this consultation is over."

He was a little surprised, and then embarrassed, "I charge by the hour, usually one to two hours per consultation, and you don't want to say anything, my fee is very..."

"Can't you buy peace and quiet with money?" I leaned on the chair and closed my eyes to meditate. "I'll tell my mother that things are going well and the problem is not big. I know what's going on with me. I don't need you to explain it. Come here." I also don't want her to talk nonsense, and you don't want to talk nonsense either."

"Well, I also want to ask, you reject contact with the opposite sex, how about contact with the same sex?" He asked again.

"I'm gay." I put it simply.

He comprehended and said nothing more.

At the end of the consultation, I walked out without further ado. He stopped me and said hesitantly, "About coming out, I advise you to have a good talk with your mother and give her time to digest slowly. Parents are getting older. Well, it’s the difference in identity angle, after all, the ability to accept is not as fast as that of young people.”

"I came out last year," I said.

He just choked there, and after a pause I added, "Don't worry, I won't come next time."

"How is it?" My mother greeted me when I left the door.

"It's not a big problem, please don't worry, as long as you adjust slowly over a period of time, it will be fine..." The doctor man said nonsense in a serious manner.

"How long will it take?" Mom asked again.

"It depends on the effect of each treatment and the degree of psychological shadow, as well as the length of the incubation period..."

While they were talking, I had already walked a long way, and when I heard my mother calling me from behind, I quickened my pace, and finally ran up to escape from my mother's sight.

It's been three days, if you don't go back to Fengji, you will go crazy.

Thinking of his sullen eyes made me shudder.

Sure enough, when she saw Fu Yu again, her face was covered with frost.

I walked over and was watched closely by her, and I couldn't help but smile: "Yu'er, I'm back."

Her tone was equally cold, "You still know how to come back."

Although this tone, this tone is very similar to Feng Ji, but it is not the same, so it is not Feng Ji, right?

As far as Fu Yu was concerned, he had never seen her particularly angry before.

When I was thinking wildly, she suddenly pulled me past me and dragged me directly into the bedroom.

"Answer me a question." After entering the bedroom, she directly pressed me on the bed, her tone was cold but uncertain, "Will you leave me?"

"You have asked this question many times." I was taken aback.

"Answer me." She looked at me with unquestionable determination in her eyes.

"No..." I want to say no, but I can't say it. Although it's what I think, but I may not be able to do it in the current state. My mother... has a long way to go.

"I don't want to leave you." I changed my words.

Obviously she was not satisfied, "Not wanting and not being able are two different things, can't you give me a good word?!"

"I want to too..." But what else can I do now, I dare not speak too much.

"You are smart, and you don't want to leave anything to say." She suddenly smiled bitterly, and hugged me, her voice was a bit bitter, "Songzi, I'm really scared, I'm afraid you will suddenly disappear one day, just like these few days It's the same day...you won't give me an explanation."

"I... went home to accompany my mother, she is not in a good mood." I replied.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

I'm at a loss for words.

She didn't ask any further, instead she kissed the corner of my eye, and slammed down warning words, "If there is another time, I won't let you off easily."

"Yu'er," I sensed that she had something on her mind, so I pretended to be relaxed and said, "You and Feng Ji have failed."

"A good person can only be abandoned." She said coolly.

It made my heart feel cold.