love marks

Chapter 140 Seven, the seeds of darkness germinated.

I don’t know if it’s a psychological effect, but since that night, I’ve been paying attention to my surroundings, no matter when and where, anytime, anywhere, I will notice those corners that no one will pay attention to, and I always feel that there is someone hiding there.

Of course there is always nothing.

Sometimes I will laugh at myself, who are they, spitting and smashing a hole, how can their words not be counted, they say they broke up, it is a breakup, they say that they will not communicate with each other, that is, they will not communicate with each other forever, I am still looking forward to it What kind of energy.

It's probably just a lowly mentality. I know it's unlikely, but I can't help but pay attention.

"Sister Song, what are you looking at?" Jiang Lubai couldn't help asking, and followed the direction of my gaze, "There's nothing."

"It's nothing." I calmed down and asked instead, "Is the announcement over?"

"It's over. The host I met today was very interesting and humorous. I'm not nervous at all."

"You are already a popular niche, and you still get nervous because of this kind of talk show."

"Hey, I don't like to talk about those scenes very much, and I'm not very good at speaking, so I'm still a little nervous. I'm afraid that if I say something wrong, I will get angry again." He felt a little helpless.

There is nothing wrong with his words.

I took out the next notice from the drawer, "The next one is an outdoor reality show, I'll help you pick it up, the recording will start next week, you still have a few days off."

"A reality show." He seemed reluctant when he heard the words.

"What's the matter, I don't want to go."

He bit his lip and asked, "Who are the permanent guests?"

"XX and XXX."

"Ah..." His expression collapsed, and his voice lowered, "I really don't want to deal with them..."

Although it was mumbling, I could still hear it clearly, and replied disapprovingly, "When you can't help it, you can fight with them, which is also an appropriate program effect."

"I have a bad temper, and I don't dare to fight, I am afraid that if I can't stop it, it will become a scandal at that time." He said.

I applaud, "Yes, self-knowledge is a plus."

Seeing that he was still unhappy, I said a word of relief, "It's okay, Gu Chenghao and them are also at odds with each other, but for the sake of the program effect, no one wants to tear their faces apart."

It took Jiang Lubai a while to react, and he said uncertainly, "You mean, Gu Chenghao also participated in the reality show?"

"Yeah." I replied, and saw his expression of uncontrollable laughter, "Are you happy this time?"

He was still a little worried, "The rumors of my affair with him were so fierce before, and now we are still participating in a reality show together, so we are not afraid of being talked about."

"False is true and sometimes true is false," I replied, "Frauding CP and making a fake show are two different things. It's okay to 'show affection' in front of people, but you still have to be careful in private, don't let others find out what's tricky. .”

Jiang Lubai's eyes were a little lost, "I see."

There was a moment of silence in the air, and he turned the subject back, "Well, Sister Song, are you here, waiting for someone?"

I was taken aback, "No."

"I see that you are always looking at the side, so I think you may be waiting for someone," Jiang Lubai added after thinking of something, "I heard from Gu Chenghao that you are dating the woman from ZY company, right? .”

I didn't talk to you.

"I saw the news of your coming out on the Internet before, and I thought it was just a rumor... But I did see her come to you a few times in the studio..."

"..." I still didn't speak.

"It seems like she hasn't come for a long time recently." He looked at my face, "Is Sister Song waiting for her?"

I raised my eyes to meet his curious eyes, and after a while he became a little unnatural.

"It turns out that we are all familiar with this level."

"what?"

"You also gossip on me." I said.

He babbled, stepped back and got up, "I'm going home first, and I'll call anytime if I need something."

Jiang Lubai left, and I was left alone in the office area.

Looking at the bright lights and the empty room except me, my heart was filled with someone again.

"Do you still remember why you broke up?"

"……do not remember."

"...How much do you remember about what happened a month ago? What did Fu Yu or Feng Ji say to you, can you still...remember her expression at that time?"

"……Can not remember."

The elder brother's reaction couldn't tell whether it was a sigh or a compromise, his voice was the same, "It's fine if that's the case, maybe this time she (he) really let go."

"But I don't think they've given up on me yet." I don't know whether it's a fluke or their affirmation of their "terrifying" paranoia about me. I just think it shouldn't end like this.

The elder brother didn't rush to answer, but asked instead, "Did they not give up, or did you not give up?"

"..." I don't know how to answer.

"Pine nuts," my brother patted my shoulder, and said meaningfully, "Psychological hints can't cure the root cause. Heart disease needs heart medicine, and the person who tied the bell needs to be untied. If you really want to forget all this, then you The relationship with them, it’s enough to reach this point, you don’t need to think about anything else, live your own life well, and don’t bother each other in the future, but if you are still not reconciled and don’t want to end in such a muddle-headed way, then go Whether you find her or not depends on luck.”

"Brother," I looked at him, "you know that, right, why didn't you tell me?"

"Instead of letting me tell you, it's better for you to think about it yourself and face your own heart, which is exactly what you should do now." The old man was serious.

"But it's been a month, and I don't know where to find them." I lacked confidence.

"If they haven't given up on you, they won't be too far away from you, and you will find them." The old man said with certainty.

I woke up from my sleep and found myself lying on the couch in the office with my coat still covering me.

But I remember that I sat on a chair in the office area before going to bed, and it was impossible for me to "travel across mountains and rivers" to the office sofa in my sleep.

"If they haven't given up on you, they won't be too far away, and you'll find them."

My brother's words still ring in my ears.

Could it really be Fu Yu (Feng Ji)?

I sat up abruptly. I just woke up and couldn’t keep up with my body functions. I was a little dizzy. At this moment, the door rang, and my brother came in with two cups of hot milk.

"woke up?"

"Ah."

"Just right, drink the milk." He put the cup in front of my eyes, and then sat aside to sip his own glass of milk.

I just thought that when I was still in school, my brother would warm a bag of milk for me every day. After entering society, I would not be able to enjoy this treatment every day, but when I had time, my brother would still maintain this habit.

My heart felt a little warm.

"If you don't wake up again, I have to consider whether you really want to sleep here," the elder brother sighed softly, and then said, "I intend to sell the house where my mother lives, or rent it out, but if you don't want to , let's keep it, you can go back and live whenever you want to go back, I've seen you always stay in the studio until very late before going home these two days, so I thought you might not want to go back to your current house, after all... ...Tomorrow I have nothing to do, I will go back together and tidy up my mother's house, you can move there first..." The old man stopped abruptly, and then changed his mind, "Otherwise... you and I will change, you will live until Fu Zhe Then, Fu Zhe and I will go back to my mother's house."

I thought for a while, but still refused: "No need, I'd better go back to my own home."

Although it will touch the scene and hurt, there is a breath left by them there.

The old man nodded, "Put on your clothes, and I'll take you home."

Turn off the lights and lock the door, we walked one after the other.

"Am I fat?" I asked.

My brother was stunned for a moment by my sudden question, and then he looked at me, "No."

I thought about it for a while, my brother never hugged me before, he always carried me on his back.

...the back and the hug, the weight is about the same;

In short, there is no such intimacy between me and my brother.

Just thinking about it, my brother suddenly said, "Why don't you draw the curtains when you sleep in the office? It's not that there are no curtains, oh, it's because it's too dark in the room after turning off the lights. Turn on the bedside lamp."

I thought of Fu Yu again, because Fu Yu was afraid of the dark, she would turn on the lamp when she slept, and she would not draw the curtains, because she said that when the light from outside came in, she would feel at ease;

Feng Ji is on the contrary, he is not afraid of the dark, he does not need to turn on the lights, and he will definitely draw the curtains, because he is afraid that there will be criminals peeping somewhere, and his privacy will be peeped by outsiders;

He didn't take it seriously when he dared to molest me in public at the time of Mingming University. Even if he killed someone, it didn't affect his behavior because of other people's opinions...

Now that I think about it, sometimes they really contradict themselves.

wrong.

I stopped abruptly, and the elder brother behind me was puzzled: "Why didn't you leave?"

I looked at him, "Brother, why didn't you wake me up when I fell asleep on the chair?"

The old man was taken aback, "Didn't you fall asleep on the sofa, what kind of chair?"

I was stunned for a moment, and then I laughed out loud as I expected, is that really the case.

"What's wrong? Pine nuts?" The old man was still puzzled.

I glanced around in a general way, as if nothing had happened, "It's okay, let's go."

For a stubborn person like Fu Yu Fengji, no matter how contradictory he is, how can he break it off with a single sentence? As I said before, no matter how distressed Feng Ji is, the promise he swears in his mouth will not be broken. No matter how violent she tends to be, once she gets angry, how can she care about so much;

His love, like his violent tendency, may want to be restrained, but it is always there.

Fu Yu may restrain herself, but her tolerant behavior is the breeding ground for his wanton behavior.

During Fu Yufeng's absence, I went home very late, probably because I couldn't accept the fact that we had broken up. I still couldn't face the time the two of us spent together, so I always avoided it subconsciously.

Probably because of this, I forgot the reason why I broke up with them.

But this time, I don't want to hide anymore and I don't want them to hide anymore.

I turned off the headlights in the room as usual, then went to the bedroom, hid behind the curtain and secretly looked downstairs, a strange car was parked there.

I've seen this car a few times before, but I didn't pay much attention to it. After all, there are many private cars in the community, but looking at it now, I feel kind.

I called Fu Yu's original cell phone number, but still no one answered.

I went downstairs, stood in front of the car, and continued to call her. We looked at each other through the windshield for a long time, and finally saw her take out her phone and press to hang up.

I restrained my restless mood and said calmly, "It's all here, why don't you get out of the car?"

"Why don't you go sit down?"

She stopped looking at me, turned her gaze elsewhere, started the car, and backed away in front of me.

I followed step by step, and she backed up step by step, and finally turned the car around and drove away in front of me.

"Where's your previous smugness! You coward!"

My accusation only got him a kick of the accelerator, and he didn't miss it.

I hadn’t had time to digest my heartache yet. When I was about to go out the next day, I opened the door and saw a person sitting at the door, looking sleepy. Someone saw me and immediately regained my spirits, and then walked away without saying a word.

I looked at the back of her fleeing in a hurry, feeling disdainful and complacent: I still care about it, even if I don't admit it, my body is still very honest.

I picked up the sports that I used to exercise when I was young: boxing, swimming, running, and even the close-quarters combat videos that I hadn’t watched for many years.

Although I am getting older, my body is not as strong as when I was young, and that is why I need to exercise more. I can't let my body age like this.

Only when your body is strong can you have the strength to keep them by your side.

I came to swim in the family swimming pool of the natatorium. Since my physical disability became known to the public, I didn't care much about people's opinions.

I haven’t been in the water for a long time, and I’m still a little unaccustomed to going into the water suddenly. Fortunately, my body gradually adapted after swimming for a while. I secretly looked around while swimming, but I didn’t see a familiar figure, but I’m sure she must be there. nearby.

With my heart in mind, I suddenly sank into the water and held my breath.

My lung capacity has always been very good. When I was swimming, I liked to hold my breath in the water. It was not a problem to hold my breath for a minute or two. I used this method to scare Fu Yu, and she was very scared.

Now I did the same thing again, lying quietly on the bottom of the water, holding my breath, and initially released a string of bubbles on the surface of the water, and then there were no bubbles.

Sure enough, after a while, someone lost his temper, and a figure lingered on the table for a long time, and finally couldn't help but plopped into the water, and swam towards me.

I closed my eyes and waited for her to pull me out of the water and lay me flat on the ground. After a while, my abdomen was pressed, but I didn't choke on the water, so naturally I didn't respond.

She seemed to hesitate for a moment, but she still came over to give me artificial respiration. I hugged her neck and poked my tongue in. Naturally, the artificial respiration turned into a deep kiss.

She struggled a bit, then pushed me away, and when I opened my eyes, I saw her resentful eyes, "Do you want to scare me?"

"But you get caught every time." I said.

She didn't speak.

"Admit it, you will never forget me," I gained confidence, "You can't even convince yourself that you will never see each other again, otherwise why are you still following me secretly."

She didn't care about me anymore, got up and left.

I wiped the water off my face and continued, "We haven't broken up yet. Your unilateral breakup doesn't count for me. Although Fu Yufeng and I are two to one, I don't agree with the breakup." Pass, so you don't hide, besides, who begged me not to leave her in a low voice? Why didn't it take a long time, and the attitude changed 180 degrees. "

Someone paused, turned to look at me, and said in a strange tone, "I've always maintained it unilaterally. In your opinion, it's difficult for others. Don't you forget that this breakup was also proposed by you. Last time you When we proposed to break up, we still pretended to be □□, but this time, I decided to let go, just to make you feel better, but within a month, you said that you do not agree to break up, Tang Song, are you playing with me? ?”

His words made me stunned, this time I also proposed to break up?Because the matter is only three, so the third time they broke up, did they give up when they knew it was irretrievable?

But this time because of what ah.

"I forgot!" I wanted to explain, but my words were incoherent, "I don't know why we broke up, I forgot that part of the reason that might be the key, I... I only know that this month is very tormenting, and you It’s the same, but so many things happened in the past, we’ve all survived, it’s the same this time, I miss you very much, really, miss you very much, even if I’m wrong, I shouldn’t propose a breakup, so, you ...give me another chance, huh?"

"Forgot?" They seemed to have heard a joke, "You are really playing with me, can you forget such an important thing? Tang Song, you really can't lie at all."

"I'm not lying, I really can't remember it, maybe it's just temporary, give me some more time..."

"Forget it, even if I give you time, you will still break up with me when you think about it. I'm tired, I don't want to try anymore, and I don't want to be worried about gains and losses by you..." Him?Said, "Let's all be safe."

"Liar!" I pointed out, "You don't think so at all, everything is fine, it's sunny, the whole shit is bullshit, if you let it go, I won't pay attention to my whereabouts at all times, like a follower You hide behind and don’t dare to meet me. You are a possessive pervert who is out of control. You wish you could stick to me 24 hours a day. If it weren’t for the harsh words you said before, you have to keep some dignity and restrain yourself. I can’t help but rush forward now, I’ve said what happened before, I don’t remember, if you want us to start over, I’ve already given you such a big step, if you don’t come down, it’s so embarrassing Is it important, what face do you need in front of me?"

His expression was a little uneasy, "Are you pitying me or giving me alms."

"Poor alms?" I just want to laugh, "Have I ever had face in front of you? I don't know where my bottom line has gone since I met you. What are you going to do now? Think of me begging in a low voice like you did before." You stay by my side? Is this what you want, okay, I beg you, anyway, it's not like I didn't have the embarrassment in front of my mother, I have nothing to be afraid of. "

His face suddenly became ugly.

Just when I crawled close to him with my leg without the prosthesis, and just as I put my arms around her calf, he dodged like an electric shock, someone said in a flustered tone, "Don't do this, I can't bear it, get up quickly! "

I didn't take it seriously, "Why can't you bear it, isn't it you who made me dress up like a fox in an apron and be tied to the bed like a dog?"

His expression was indescribable.

"This is a small family pool, there are no outsiders, what are you afraid of." I touched her leg, and I could feel someone trembling, "Actually, you don't want to break up with me, and I don't want to break up with you. Breaking up is just because I am afraid that it will hurt you, and now I want to understand that instead of becoming your burden, it is better to become your armor, just like you, you have always been my armor."

Someone didn't speak, and seemed a little moved.

Instead of continuing to be aggressive, I softened my tone, "We don't mind each other's past, and we are not young anymore. Haven't you thought about it, if we really broke up, what will happen in the future? We will end up alone or casually. Find someone to marry? Can you accept me to marry or I can accept you to marry? If so, I would rather you kill me and make a specimen, or..." I changed my mind and continued, "Or like you Dad is like your mother, you stewed my meat and ate it, and then killed yourself."

A certain person was astonished and unbelievable, and held back a sentence for a long time: "You are crazy."

"Anyone who can fall in love with a pervert like you can only be a lunatic." I kissed her calf devoutly, and a creepy smile crept to the corner of my mouth.

She shuddered, pulled her legs out and walked straight out without looking back at me.

"ZY University, at nine o'clock tomorrow night, the girls' dormitory building," I said, "I'll wait for you in the original dormitory water room."

She was startled when she heard the words, "We are no longer students, they won't let us in."

I replied, "You will come."

She didn't speak, and left with her whole body wet.

Not a question, but an affirmative statement.

I'm sure she'll come;

Will definitely come.