love marks

Chapter 140 five, deep love, deep hatred.

For several days in a row, Fu Yu didn't go to work, but became a "housewife" at home, taking care of all the housework and taking me to and from get off work, inseparable.

I felt very surprised, but I felt that she had her own reasons for what she did, so I didn't ask more questions.

A few days later she suddenly asked me: "What do you think if I change jobs?"

I was slightly taken aback, but still didn't object, "Yes."

"Yes?" She was a little surprised, "You don't want to ask why?"

"I want to ask, it's better that you want to say." I was washing my hair, and I was not in a hurry to return to her. I didn't continue the topic just now until I wiped my wet hair with a towel after washing. "If you want to say, I will listen." , It’s okay if you don’t want to say it, anyway, you always have ideas.”

He seemed a little reconciled, "Then if I change to a very ordinary job, my salary will not be as good as it is now, and even if I have nothing, it will not be as good as a beggar..."

"what do you want to say in the end?"

He looked into my eyes, and his tone slowed down, "I mean, if one day I really have nothing or even be reduced to beg for food, will you...will you leave me?"

I didn't answer right away, his eyes were extremely serious, and there was a sense of entanglement and uncertainty.

"What do you think?" I asked back.

He stared at me for a long time, but he didn't hear the answer I said personally, so his eyes dimmed, and he lowered unconsciously.

I started to think too much again, I was a little ashamed, walked over and threw the towel on his face, "With me here, how could I let you beg for food, you're out of your mind."

I walked past him and came to watch TV on the sofa in the living room. He was still standing there, buried my face in the towel I used, and was intoxicated there.

"Hey," I said, "what are you doing there, don't you watch TV?"

He walked over, still a little absent-minded.

"With your ability, you won't beg for food," I comforted. "If that day comes, you can be a housewife at home, and I will support you."

He had a reluctance on his face, "I'm a big man, what kind of housewife is, you are almost the same as a housewife."

"You're still a big man, a big man is still so unconfident." I gave him a blank look.

He hugged my neck naturally, and replied emotionally, "My lack of confidence is only for you, I really love you."

I didn't answer the call, and I didn't ask them what happened again. They always had a plan. Unless it really got to the point where it couldn't be remedied, otherwise he wouldn't be able to sit here so peacefully, watching TV with me as if nothing had happened. up.

After a while, someone's hands became restless again, and he turned his head to meet Feng Ji's bite.

"Hey," I pushed him away with a disgusted look on my face, "Don't be like Teddy, you will be in heat if you disagree with me."

"No way, I can't help being so close to you."

"If you can't help it, get out of here." I pushed his face away.

He still didn't let go, and leaned forward cheekily, "I don't, give it to me~"

"Get up, I just finished eating, don't press me down, it's so uncomfortable." I didn't buy it.

"Just treat them differently. If it was Fu Yu, you wouldn't say that." He was a little angry.

"Because the fish is down there."

"I can be down there too."

"Don't fool me, I'm not a fool, so I won't be fooled by you."

He had already kissed me while talking, and his body smelled very good, a touch of indescribable beauty; I was immersed in his hot kiss, and he took the opportunity to skillfully take off my pants, and poked his fingers in.

"He said no, but his body was quite honest, obviously already wet." With a smirk, he parted my legs and leaned on me.

I thought about the camera, so I stopped it immediately, "No way! Turn off the surveillance first."

He didn't react, "What surveillance?"

"It's just a camera. Ask me about the good things you did yourself."

Feng Jie looked blank: "Where is the camera?"

"Don't you know what you've done yourself?"

He still looked puzzled, "What good did I do?"

I just sat up and half-believingly said, "Didn't you install pinhole cameras in every room, and ended up recording everything between us?"

Feng Jie was thoughtful, and then he looked innocent, "I'm wronged, I didn't install any pinhole camera at all, and even if I wanted to record this kind of thing, I would buy a DVD and shoot generously, there's no need to be sneaky , I thought you installed the camera because you were afraid of burglars in your house."

I was stunned, and then turned out the two CDs and handed them to him, "Isn't this yours?"

He blushed a little, "Yes."

"That's it."

"But I saw that the surveillance system was installed, so I wanted to see what was recorded, and then carved the indescribable images into a CD, thinking that it would be good to watch it when I have nothing to do..."

"You..." I didn't know what to say.

"Then I thought you knew about it, and besides, you've read all the diaries I wrote, are you still afraid of this..."

Seeing his disapproving expression, I really have no fuck to say.

and many more……

After a brief silence in the air, we thought of something at the same time: "Didn't you install the camera?!"

In the next second, we all rushed to the computer and turned on the monitoring screen. Our faces on the screen were serious.

"If we didn't install the cameras ourselves, then someone sneaked in and installed them while we were not paying attention."

"You said, who would want to spy on us?"

"...I don't know, but if we want to monitor us, why are we still installing video capture cards in our own computers and letting us know blatantly?"

"I don't know... You said that if that person is really monitoring us, isn't he monitoring us remotely? Didn't he see our every move?"

As soon as this remark came out, we all broke out in a cold sweat.

So without further ado, we immediately found tools to remove the cameras one by one.

During the demolition process, we were always thinking about this question, "Since we want to monitor, it's fine to sneak around, why is he so blatant, as if he wanted us to know on purpose."

"In addition, the fact that that person was able to find our residence and sneak in without destroying the doors and windows shows that the person has a good understanding of the laws of our lives, and there are only two possibilities, or he has been planning for a long time and is very professional, breaking in the door It will not be seen, or it is an acquaintance who committed the crime and has the key to the door, so he can enter and exit by himself."

But we consciously ruled out the possibility of the latter. We don’t have many close relationships, and there is no possibility of handing over the keys to outsiders for safekeeping. It is even more impossible for family members to say hello before they come.

Then only the former remains.

Anyway, we replaced the anti-theft door the next day, which is super cost-effective.

We have never understood what was the motive of that mysterious person to do this, did he want to smear us by breaking the news about our private life, this kind of behavior is enough once, smart people will not be so stupid as to use the same trick twice, and frequently The act of hacking the other party by breaking the news about the other party's privacy will also backfire and recruit hackers for yourself. People will question his character, and they won't buy it after a long time.

So... is this a warning?

In any case, at least the past few days seem to have passed without incident, and life seems to have returned to calm.

Recently, my memory has started to decline again. I always tend to forget what I was doing just now. Fortunately, Fu Yu has a good memory and she can help me think about it.

Fu Yu (Feng Ji) went back to the branch office. She just rested at home for a few days and did not leave her job. When she said that she was going to change jobs a few days ago, I only took her to be angry, although she seldom said it. angry words.

This day, Fu Zhe called as usual to inform him that the money he sent has arrived. Although I disagree with this, I am also very helpless; It starts, and it's not easy to end.

The card is bound to the mobile phone, and every time the card is credited, the mobile phone will send a text message reminder, but recently my memory is too bad, I don’t remember seeing this text message but it is displayed as read, and I have already adapted to this forgetful state.

My brother is planning to prepare a new work again. After all, for a big name like him, gossip news is not enough to hinder his progress, and there is no need to stop the process for a momentary hot discussion.

My brother went out to film a movie, and he won't be back for a while, and Fu Zhe seems to be entangled in the company's affairs, and he is a little bit overwhelmed. He called me this day and asked me to go to his house to get some things for the old man. Mom, I said that my mother forgot to take it when she left, and said that there are some tonics he bought and asked me to take them back, because I am too busy to spare time recently.

I went to Fu Zhe's house early after get off work.

Probably because I didn't read the almanac when I went out, and before I got to the place, I was thrown all over the garbage by a bad resident "Tiannv Sanhua". Before I could react, I was poured with dirty water head on, and I was very embarrassed .

I wanted to find the instigator, but I couldn't even see half a person;

I suffocated and went upstairs. I just opened the door and was blown with paper scraps all over my face. I was so angry that I kicked the wastebasket next to me.

My brother is not here, I don't know how to clean up, and I don't even close the windows when I go out. If I recruit thieves, it will definitely be a big news.

Helpless, I helped them tidy up, and then borrowed his bathroom to take a shower. Since I didn't have a change of clothes, I dug out two pieces of my brother's clothes and changed them.

This is Fu Yu calling: "Where are you?"

"I'm at Fu Zhe's family."

"What are you doing at his house?"

"Get something, I'll send it to my mother later," I looked at the time, and then said, "I might sleep at my mother's house tonight."

I don't want her to refuse immediately, "No, come back and live."

"Eh? Why not?"

"Come back when you come back," she didn't explain, "I'll pick you up."

"I don't need it today, I can go back by myself..." Before I finished speaking, the other end had already hung up.

I was stunned, what happened, she looked very bad.

Fu Yu is afraid of the dark, so he doesn't go out easily at night;

Is it exhausted?

I didn't think too much about it, and sent the things back to my mother's house. After staying for a while, Feng Ji came to the door.

"We're going back." He didn't talk nonsense, took my arm and walked out.

"Feng Ji, what's the matter with you?" I was a little displeased, his hands were like pliers, and it hurt my arm, "Let go first."

He was deaf.

Mom was a little surprised, "It's so late, let's stay here tonight."

"No need, Tang Song and I still have things to deal with." While speaking, he had already dragged me out.

If dissuasion fails, my mother can only give up, "Slow down on the road."

And I noticed that he just called me by my first name, not my nickname.

This is enough to show that he was angry.

None of us said a word the whole way until we got home.

After entering the door, he took off his coat and sat down on the sofa.

It looks like this is to ask the teacher to blame?

"What's wrong, who made you angry again." I asked lightly.

He looked at me, "No one deserves my anger except you."

I don't understand: "What's wrong with me?"

He went straight to the point: "When I'm not here, who are you getting close to?"

"No one."

"No one is everyone."

"No one is no one. Apart from work, who else will I deal with." Speaking of this, I couldn't help but feel depressed. He was just being jealous again.

"Who has come to the house in the past few days?" He asked again just as I walked over.

I was ashamed, "When did I bring outsiders home?"

"You can't keep someone from coming to you."

When I heard this, I was not happy, "What do you mean, do you still think I am the kind of person who hooks up with each other?"

He raised his head and looked at me with indescribable eyes, and his tone seemed to soften a little? "Is there nothing you want to tell me?"

"No, what do you want me to say?"

He dug out a pair of pants out of nowhere and threw them over, "Look for yourself."

I lowered my head to check it suspiciously. It looked like a certain pair of my pants, but it was wet and sticky with my hand inadvertently. The milky white unknown liquid stuck to the pants. I threw it aside in disgust, "What is this?"

"Don't you know?" His tone was strange.

"What do I know, don't be weird when you speak."

"Don't pretend you don't know, dare you say you haven't seen it?" He continued to ask.

I got a little angry, "I just haven't seen it, just say what you have, don't beat around the bush!"

"That's a man's semen, do you understand semen!" He stood up with his eyes wide open, "I've already given you a chance to explain, but you kept it secret, is it because you have a ghost in your heart?!"

"What do you mean I have ghosts in my heart? I didn't do anything wrong. How did I know that the thing was semen, and how did I know how it appeared on my pants? I'm still wondering."

"Do you think I should believe this? Don't you want to say that this incident is the same as the previous surveillance incident, and someone sneaked in while no one was home!"

"How do I know, that might be the case."

"Hehe," he laughed angrily, "the anti-theft door has been replaced, and the locks are all encrypted. Even if outsiders want to come in, it is impossible to leave no traces, even if he wants to masturbate temporarily, why? Don't deal with it, do you have to stay on your pants?"

"Maybe he didn't know whose pants it was, and he just wanted to do this, or maybe he was looking for your pants, but he wasn't sure, so he just took a pair."

"So you think he'd go to great lengths to pick the lock on the door just to get some semen on someone's pants?"

"That might be the case," I gradually calmed down, "You suspect that I have an affair with outsiders just because of this pair of pants, even if I take a step back, if I want to have an affair with someone else, I won't be at home , let alone leave the pants stained with the 'evidence' of the crime at home waiting for you to find out."

"Listen to you, it's the same person who did it this time and last time, that person took advantage of our unpreparedness, broke into the house again, left this dirty thing for us to discover, and then suspected and quarreled with each other? Would he be so boring? "

"Maybe it is! That person can run to the house to install pinhole monitoring, so why can't he leave other things behind? Although I don't know what his motive is, it will definitely make us anxious. Like now, you don't Listen to my explanation, insist that I have something to hide from you, the two of us are arguing here, but we don't think about the motive of that person, maybe we will quarrel and he expected it..." I suddenly had a flash of inspiration Shan, "That's right, maybe that's the case, maybe his purpose is to make us stiff?"

He sneered, "Don't you think you're shirking responsibility? You don't find the reason for yourself when something happens, but put the blame on that mysterious person. Do you think our relationship will be fragile because of other people's casual intervention? "

"But now you are arguing with me because of an outsider." I hit the nail on the head.

He froze for a moment and didn't speak.

"If you don't believe me, we can take these pants for a DNA test, and then we will know who this person is."

He snorted, "If that person is confusing us as you said, do you think he would use his own semen to commit crimes? Besides, your relationship is so complicated, how do I know that you and the owner of this semen Never had a conversation."

I just felt a stab in my heart, "Are you serious?"

He didn't look at me, stared at my clothes for a while, and said, "I remember you didn't wear this clothes in the morning, this clothes don't belong to you."

"My brother's." I have nothing to hide, "I got dirty on the way to Fu Zhe's house, so I took a bath at his house and changed my brother's clothes."

"Dirty on your body?" There was deep meaning in his tone, "You said it was your brother's clothes, but why do I look like Fu Zhe's clothes?"

Hearing this, I lowered my head and looked at it twice, so it seems that Fu Zhe also wore such clothes?

"Same style."

"So you don't know whose clothes you're wearing?"

"Uh... What's the use of being serious, that's not the point." I was impatient, "What do I have to say before you can understand, I don't have messy relationships outside."

"I believe it." He readily admitted.

"Then you still..."

"Get out your phone."

"What are you doing?" I handed him the phone, and after he tapped it a few times, the transfer reminder came into view, "What's going on here?"

My heart skipped a beat, as expected I was discovered.

But I didn't feel wronged: "That's the way it is, your brother Fu Zhe will send me money every month."

"Why did he send you money?"

"It can be regarded as a living allowance." I thought for a while and defined it.

"Why did he give you a living allowance, and give it every month?"

"It's not a matter of a few months anymore. It's been many years. During the eight years when we were separated, he has been doing this in this way. It can be regarded as a kind of relief, and it can be regarded as a kind of concern for me. I really did not feel good in the first two years. Had a good time."

"Concerned?" He took out a detailed list, on which were my call records in recent months, and he specially ticked off the call records between me and Fu Zhe with a pen, "The calls are quite frequent, According to what you said, I haven’t called you less in the past few years, and I’ve sent you money every month, and I’ve earned a lot of money over the years, it’s not just about caring, it’s time to catch up with the care.”

"What nonsense are you talking about!"

"What are you excited about, guilty conscience?"

"You..." I got angry.

"He sends you money every month, does your brother know?"

"……should know."

"What does it mean to know?"

I was discouraged, "He knew it at first, but he didn't know it later, and I didn't ask."

"why did not you tell me?"

"I'm afraid you'll think too much."

"If you don't tell me, I won't think too much."

"..."

"You can take this money with peace of mind." He tore up the detailed list and threw it into the trash can, "How much does it cost to keep a Tang Song, I have to figure it out."

"It's enough to seal you off!"

He looked at me suspiciously, "Why, think I'm annoying, think I'm difficult to deal with and have too many things to do? Fu Zhe is gentle and considerate, you can go to him."

"He's your brother!"

"But he's a man too!"

"But he likes men too!" I replied.

In the end, he snorted and said, "If it wasn't for your brother Tang Ming, he wouldn't be able to bend, Zuo is just a straight man, why is he so nice to you, and he cares more about his younger sister than Yu, you think he is just out of concern Then he can also care more about others; since he was in school, others have said that you and your brother are very similar. Fu Zhe likes your brother, so he will naturally like you who has a similar personality. Oh, I suddenly thought of a possibility, you Say, did Fu Zhe like your brother first, or you first?"

I couldn't laugh or cry: "Your brain hole is too big."

He curled his lips, "I've always been like this, the first day you met me?"

I'm a little tired, and I don't want to argue with him anymore: "I don't want to argue with you anymore, let's calm down."

"Take off your clothes." He said suddenly.

I ignored it, "I'm not in the mood now."

In the next second, she was pulled over by him, pressed on the sofa and began to take off her clothes.

"Feng Ji, what are you doing! I said I don't want to do it!"

"Take off your clothes, I won't allow you to wear other people's clothes!"

I also had no intention of arguing, "Crazy, you..."

His limbs were weak and let him fiddle with them. After a while, he started to move his hands and feet again like crazy.

I was already a little sleepy, and it was even more sleepy when I touched the sofa, but he obviously didn't want me to sleep.

"It's almost done. I said I won't do it today. I'm tired."

He buried his face in my neck, and after a while his shoulders trembled, and my neck felt wet.

He actually cried.

I patted his head lightly, "What are you doing, why are you crying?"

His tears flowed more fiercely, and he didn't speak for a long time.

I lay on the sofa with my arms around him, and after a while, I couldn't help being sleepy, so I fell asleep like this.

I don't know how long it took, but I heard someone ask me in a daze: "Tang Song, what do you think of Fu Zhe?"

In a trance, I felt that these words sounded familiar. Thinking about it, it seemed that my former roommate Guo Suling asked this question in college.

Just as I was thinking about it, it seemed like I was back in my college days. On that day, Fu Zhe came to me in the name of lending Fu Yu a cake. After he left, Guo Suling approached me with a convincing expression: "Who is that boy, no? Like our school."

"He's Fu Yu's brother."

"Brother Fu Yu, she's pretty handsome. Why does he want you? He gave you the cake back, isn't it because he's interested in you?"

"You're overthinking it. It's for Fu Yu. It's inconvenient for Fu Yu to give it to me."

"Shouldn't you say hello in advance before delivering something?"

"He made it on the spur of the moment."

"Oh... Then what do you think of Fu Zhe?"

"What do you think of Fu Zhe?" Just this sentence kept echoing in my ears.

"I don't know, it looks good."

"If he is interested in you, if he likes you, will you consider it?"

"will not."

"why?"

"I don't like men."

"Then you never thought about getting married and having children?"

"I haven't thought about it, and it's still early."

"It's already 37 years old, it's not too early."

A trace of surprise flashed in my mind, was I dreaming?

How could I dream of such a plot, still in college...

"At 37...it's too late."

"Does Tang Song have a marriage partner?"

Has Guo Suling asked such an early question? Besides, who can say what will happen in the future? Fu Yu and I hadn't spoken to each other when we were in college.

I choose not to answer.

There was a sudden pain on my lip, I woke up from the pain, and someone bit my body like a beast in heat again, and from time to time let out a "low growl" like a beast;

After regaining my sanity, I couldn't laugh or cry: "Feng Ji, are you finished?"

"Say, who are you going to marry?" he asked.

"What kind of marriage? Marriage, who can I marry, don't get angry, get off me, you will almost be crushed to death by you." I was stuck, and I didn't have the heart to discuss this with him.

He looked unwilling, "It's been so many years, we've been together for so long, why I still don't feel safe, haven't you ever thought about it, I know I have a problem, what about you, you haven't found it in yourself The reason? I just want a little sense of security, and you won't give me that little sense of security. "

I was completely sleepy, and an unknown fire came up, "Sense of security, sense of security, you know the sense of security, what should I do to give you a sense of security!"

"I..." He was at a loss for words, and after thinking for a while, he said, "Just keep a distance from those people, and don't have unnecessary negotiations except for work, and also, don't just smile at others, I will feel uncomfortable when I see it."

I sat up, "Apart from you, who do I keep a distance from? Those people are necessary contacts at work, but I'm sorry that I won't quit my job just because you are jealous, so please bear with me;" I breathed a sigh of relief, and then said, "To put it bluntly, you just don't believe me, so you feel insecure. Don't I love you enough? What should I do to make you feel that I love you enough and not make you jealous? , or do you think I am like you, my strong possessiveness is not enough for my love for you, and I will be suspicious at the slightest sign of trouble, so that it can represent that I love you, and you will have a sense of security, that's fine, I I can tell you clearly that I am also very possessive, and I don’t like my things being coveted by others, and I also have a strong desire to control, and I like the feeling of being in control. If I can’t control it, I will be out of balance, but this Everything can’t be played out with you, because you are not under my control, and you don’t need me to try to occupy me. You are controlling me and possessing me. My desire to control is nothing compared to you; you say You have no sense of security, but I have a sense of security. I don’t have to worry about you changing your mind, and I don’t have to worry about you leaving me. Even if I want to, I can’t get rid of you. With a lover like you, I have nothing to worry about. , because the initiative is in your hands, I became the passive one, and now you still tell me that you have no sense of security, how else do you think I can comfort you, what do you want? What do you want? I'll give you everything, I just ask you one thing, don't play childishly, okay, it's really childish."

He was stunned for a moment, and his tone gradually eased: "Then, isn't that still afraid of you leaving me, and if you always say you will leave me, I, I am afraid."

The air was silent for a while, and I spoke again: "Otherwise, let's switch positions."

"what?"

"From now on, I will take the initiative. You can just enjoy it. Whether you want to control or possess, or you are jealous or suspicious, I will do it all. You don't have to do anything, just enjoy my love quietly."

He was surprised, and suddenly refused after a while: "No."

"Why not."

"I'm TOP, of course I took the initiative. If you want the initiative, you actually want to attack me. Everything else is easy to say, but this is not enough." He spoke plausibly.

I laughed angrily, "Let's say you have a child's heart, you can figure it out."

He was proud: "You have to remember at all times, you are my woman."

"Okay, you are TOP, you are on top, I won't argue." I sighed, and then said, "I have said so much, can I give you reassurance?"

He heard the words and stopped talking.

"You bastard..." I was depressed, and dragged him into the bedroom.

When I entered the bedroom, I pushed him down on the bed, and my condescending gaze made him feel uneasy: "What are you doing?"

I didn't talk nonsense, I just pulled down her pants to show the luxuriant grass.

He was a little flustered, struggling to get up, "It's agreed that I'm up there..."

"Don't move!" I pressed his body, "Spread your legs."

While talking, I separated her legs, raised her knees, exposed the hole, then bent down, caressed the outside of someone's thigh, and buried my face in it.

That's right, I gave him (her) mouth.

This is the first time in my life that I have done this kind of thing. He was the one who gave me the mouth before, and I always felt that I was indebted to him. Today can be regarded as a kind of compensation.

The main purpose of giving him (her) mouth is to let him (her) know that I know he has no reservations about me, and I can do anything for them.

I haven't told them before, one is out of shame, and the other is subconsciously feeling that that kind of place is always unclean. strange.

Forgive me for skipping the show here, I remembered the allegorical saying - the export has turned to domestic sales.

For them, I gave up my sense of shame, and the bottom line disappeared. Doesn't he understand?

I was very shocked by my actions. He probably wouldn't have thought that I would do this even if he killed him. After holding back for a while, he pulled me up: "You don't have to force yourself so much."

I was displeased, "Don't you understand yet?"

"Understood, I understand." He put his arms around me, his voice trembling slightly, "I don't want to be jealous, but I can't help it, I love you so much that I can't stand the slightest trouble, good girl , don’t torture me anymore, I surrendered, I really surrendered, I handed up the white flag, okay?”

I didn't speak any more, and this time the conflict seemed to be resolved in a lingering battle;

But I know in my heart that the country is easy to change and the nature is hard to change.

Although he loves me to the extreme, which is a good side, but in relativity, the opposite of love is hate.

He loves me and hates me.

This hatred was as deep as his love.

His patience has reached its limit now, every time he gets angry, it will be a purgatory.

but me,

In this purgatory, the feet of mud sink deep.