love marks

Spoiler: She is the sunshine in my life.

I was born in an ordinary working-class family, my parents are ordinary working-class people, before I was eight years old, I was a little princess living in a honeypot, my parents loved me very much, I could be willful and willful in front of them, and I asked them all They will do their best to satisfy me, so I don't think I will have any troubles, and I am happy every day.

But one day, when I came home from school, I found that the house was unusually quiet, and both my parents had disappeared. I found the balcony from the living room, and the bedroom from the toilet, but they were still nowhere to be seen, but the bedroom was a mess. , the living room is also a mess, there is a large piece of blood-like red liquid on the ground, which has dried up.

I was a little scared, so I took out the mobile phone they bought for me and called them, but the ringing sound in the room indicated that their mobile phone was still in the room.

I don't know where they went, I can only wait for them to come back, until the evening.

I was very hungry, so I went to the kitchen to see what to eat. The cutting board had been used, and there were faint red marks on the edge. The kitchen knife was thrown into the basin filled with water to soak.

I saw the cooked stew in the pot, so I ate it with rice. The taste of the meat was a bit bland, but I was so hungry, it still tasted delicious.

After dinner, I was doing my homework while waiting for them to come back, but they never came back. When I was bored, I wanted to watch TV, but under the TV, I found a folded simple letter with my father’s handwriting on it. He told me that he I went to a far away place with my mother, it was beautiful and romantic, but it was only the two of them, I couldn’t take me there, they would never come back, if I want to see them, I have to wait for a long time until I grow up After finishing everything you want to do, you can go to them. During this period, uncle and aunt may take care of me, but uncle and aunt are not parents after all, so I can’t make willful and unreasonable demands like before, because they don’t have I am obliged to meet every request of mine. From today on, I will learn to be independent and try not to cause trouble to others. When I meet what I want, I must strive for it through my own efforts, but the effort may not necessarily be rewarded. So keep a normal mind and look down on the good and the bad. My parents are gone and no one will protect me. Others may help me in the future, but I also need to know how to be grateful; I also need to know how to protect myself and leave room for my words. Have reservations about people, don't show all of yourself to others, because not everyone is kind, and you must protect what you want to protect, and don't be bullied by others...

At the end of the letter, Dad also wrote: "When you meet someone or something you really like and want, you can have no reservations at this time, but the premise is to make sure that he will not hurt you. Think about whether you still want him that much, let him know your bottom line, that's all dad can teach you, hold on to what you get, don't let him lose or be robbed, because I know this must be what you have paid for, and you cannot let others bully you."

This letter said a lot, but to me who was only eight years old at the time, I didn’t understand a lot. I only remembered the last sentence in the letter: what you get, you should hold it firmly in your hands.My father often said this sentence to me before, so I was deeply impressed.

A little later, there was movement outside the door, and Wan Jin’s cry. I ran to open the door, and what I saw was not my parents, but uncles and aunts. They were surprised and worried when they saw my expression. They took them back to their home, and I lived there until I went to college.

I didn't show them the letter my father left behind, because my father said to have reservations about others, but at that time I didn't understand why he and my mother left me and walked away. Mention, it was not until I graduated from junior high school and on the eve of the summer vacation that I overheard them talking about the past, in a tone of regret and anger. Only then did I know the reason for the whole thing. It was my father who killed my mother and killed her. Dismember the body, cook it in a pot, eat it in the stomach, and finally commit suicide. The red liquid in the living room is the blood left by the two of them!

He also said that my parents started to have conflicts not long after they got married, and they always acted lovingly in front of me only because they cared about me, and my father had a tendency to violence and often used hands on my mother. Her father once said that if she wanted to get a divorce, she would kill her, even if she died, she would still belong to him. This is a fact that can never be changed.

What if, as they said, the murder had already happened when I came home that day, and I ate the meat of my mother who was dismembered by my father in the kitchen pot? !

So what is the picture of my parents loving and innocent, is it all an illusion? !

I naturally didn't believe it, and wanted to rush over to ask them where they heard these rumors, but was stopped by Fu Zhe, who told me with a serious expression that all this was true, because I was still young at the time, and they didn't want to tell me about it It caused an impact, so I kept silent in front of me, and said that my father had a perverted possessive desire for my mother, and did not allow her to have unnecessary contact and conversations with the opposite sex. , but my father got worse. Every time I quarreled because of this, the quarrel would start. Because I didn’t want to be seen by me, I never slapped my face. But it also had little effect. Later, he encouraged his mother to divorce his father, but was threatened by his father: "Whoever breaks them up will not let go!"

At the moment of the incident, they had a fierce quarrel, and in the end they could not escape the tragedy.

Fu Zhe also said: "The matter is over, so don't bring it up again, you just pretend you haven't heard about it, and my aunt won't think that your life will be affected, living in the shadows and pain, and you rushed over like this, you want to How will they face you in the future."

Thinking about what he said made sense, I fell silent.

Since then, I have been more silent than before. Unless Fu Zhe is at home, I basically don't talk to my uncles and aunts, and I live like a ghost all day long.

Later, when I was in high school, when I was taking a shower, I suddenly found a figure standing outside the bathroom. I yelled, and he left.

I knew he was my uncle, and this idea was confirmed shortly afterwards: in the dead of night, a figure flashed into the room, and someone’s hand touched my quilt carefully, and I trembled with fear, but maybe he also had concerns and hesitated After a long time, I finally left.

However, I didn't expect that there would be a second time. My aunt was not at home that day, and Fu Zhe also lived on campus. He was bolder and broke into my room directly. Fortunately, after I struggled hard, the second time also ended in failure. He Please don't tell my aunt and Fu Zhe, and I can't call the police, after all, family scandals can't be leaked.

After that, I didn't have a good rest for a long time, and my uncle didn't behave more politely.

Later, I found that I often forgot what I was doing before, and woke up halfway through sleep to find myself in the living room. They said that I might have "sleepwalking", and even scratched my uncle twice.

In such a state of entanglement and suffering, I ushered in the university, and I moved to the school as a matter of course, but the sleepwalking incident made my roommates flee away, and I felt isolated.

Wu Ziting was my classmate in high school and had a good relationship with me. When I encountered conflicts, I would tell her some things, but I knew that we were not close friends, just like she knew that I had "sleepwalking". It was just a few words of consolation, which didn't do much, but I had nothing to be disappointed about. My father was right. Others are not obligated to do anything for me. I still have to go on by myself.

Wu Ziting fell in love with a "little handsome guy". She was very talkative on weekdays and suddenly she became shy and asked me to confess her love for her.

That was the second time I saw "him", the first time I saw "him" was on the school playground, I saw "him" handsome side face through Wu Ziting's signal eyes, I admit that I was surprised, As a face control person, I am inexplicably picky about my looks. This may be influenced by my parents. They are all handsome men and beautiful women. Naturally, if you have a good eye, you will not pay attention to ordinary looks, and "he" is just a profile. The picky me was conquered, the second time in the library, when I saw "him" face to face, I felt like I was going to suffocate, but I still had to pretend to be calm and explain why I came, I was sending a message for a friend.

"He" is called Tang Song. He has slender and fair hands and perfect profile lines. I even like the shape of his eyes. Such a handsome guy with a perfect appearance may have a flawed temper. After all, how can there be in the world? 100% perfect people exist.

At this moment, I thought selfishly, hoping that "he" would reject it quickly. After all, to be honest, in my heart, I really felt that they were inappropriate and would not be a perfect match.

And my expectations seemed to let God know, it really gave me a buffer.

"He" actually took the initiative to ask my name. I was pleasantly surprised in my heart, but I couldn't show it. This would make "him" laugh, not to mention that Wu Ziting was also standing behind the bookshelf watching us.

"I will pay Yu." I replied calmly.

"Which Fu Yu?" "He" asked again.

"He" did he notice my rhythm?

"Delivery is paid, full-bodied."

"He" nodded, and then said, "You are more courageous than her, go back and tell your friend so that she can see clearly that I am a girl."

One second before, I was immersed in the tone of being suspected of being praised, and the next second I was beaten back to reality.

"He" turned out to be "she", and the male god turned into a goddess in a second.

I had a momentary feeling of being lost in love.

But Wu Ziting should be the one who lost love, so what does it have to do with me?

The third time I saw her was in the supermarket. We met unexpectedly at the door, and my Mala Tang also stained her pants.

That's when I realized that she actually lives next door to me. Is there anything more coincidental than this?

She compensated me for Malatang, and I helped her do the laundry.

Then everything is as natural as it will be, and our relationship is getting closer and better.

I also became more and more uneasy, because even though I knew her gender was female, I still fell in love with her uncontrollably. The relationship between Wu Ziting and me gradually became estranged. She blamed me for taking Tang Song away, and I didn't Rebuttal, in a sense, I did snatch Tang Song away, but even without me, Tang Song would not be a couple with her. I want to take back what I said before. Tang Song is not only handsome, but also has a good temper. How could such a perfect goddess fall into the love of mortals so easily.

Later, when I knew that her good temper was only aimed at me, I struggled again. I knew that it is very dangerous to give affection, because once you give it, it is difficult to take it back, and Tang Song is obviously special to me like this, but Does she know this.

My father said that when I meet someone I really want, I have to protect her, but in fact she has always been protecting me.

She took the initiative to move to live with me in my dormitory. She helped me solve any problems I had. She was punished by the teacher for speaking up for me in class. In order to protect me, I was beaten by gangsters, and I got involved in unnecessary troubles due to conflicts with school bullies...

One pile after another, no one helped me solve it before, and she couldn't do it before, but now she has done it.

After confirming her double standard from her elder brother, I was secretly happy and sweet besides being moved, but after I calmed down, I fell into conflict again. She treated me like this maybe because she regarded me as a good friend, because of our fit The degree is very high, in line with the standard of a girlfriend?

But I don't want to be best friends with her, how will she react if she knows that I covet her.

After struggling again and again, I confessed my confession. She was not too surprised. She seemed to have expected it a long time ago, but she didn't respond immediately. The days were spent in daily entanglement and laughter.

Fortunately, the days of entanglement have not passed for a long time, either because of rebellion or anger, or because she realized the direction of her feelings early. Under the stimulation of her suitor, Qi Meng, she actually expressed her opinion to me. Although it is not a serious confession, the meaning is already very meaningful. Obviously, the stone in my heart finally fell to the ground. Looking at the corner of her smiling mouth, I secretly made up my mind to go on with her.

But after a long time, I found that my initial concerns were right. No one is perfect. Although Tang Song had nothing to say to me, I could feel that she had something in her heart to hide...or even herself. I don’t know the reason, but when I met someone who seemed to me familiar, I said I didn’t know him. I left me halfway and went to another place with that person, and I didn’t give an explanation when I came back. I even avoided getting close to me...

It made me feel more and more uneasy.

My father said that you can have no reservations when you meet someone you really want, but whether she is really the right person, whether she will hurt me in the future, I can't be sure, and I can't be sure.

We are still getting along peacefully, or it is only on the surface, because Tang Song and I discovered my second personality during this period, and my so-called "sleepwalking" before was just a ghost of him.

Feng Jie also fell in love with Tang Song, and was domineering at one time. Sometimes I often see uncertain and tired eyes in Tang Song's eyes. I don't know what he did to Tang Song behind my back. I asked him But he has reservations about me. Is this also influenced by his father?

Besides Feng Ji, the other biggest obstacle is Tang Song's mother. She dislikes my relationship with Tang Song very much, but I don't want to give up our relationship because of her mother, but Tang Song has always been ambiguous. , I know she is in a difficult situation, after all, she is the closest family member who gave birth to her, I can feel her hesitant and even evasive attitude, and the alarm bell rings in my heart, if this continues, I will lose her!

I can't lose her. Before I met her, I wanted to live like a walking dead. I couldn't see the joy of life. After I met her, she let me know that there is such a pure feeling in the world, so I have the life to go on. I have taken her as my motivation to survive. As long as she is here, my every day is full of sunshine, and our relationship is also exposed to the sun. Almost no one in the school does not know our relationship , but I am not afraid at all, because I know that she will not let me be wronged.

But her uncertain attitude made me feel confused, and I started to be afraid again, I was so scared, I didn't want to lose her, and I couldn't lose her.

Feng Jie locked her up, I know he has a tendency similar to being imprisoned and smacking, and he must have been influenced by his father; but I didn't stop this time, I acquiesced, and tacitly allowed his rough behavior.

Feng Ji was afraid of losing her, and I was even more afraid.

Tang Song once said, I am Feng Ji, and Feng Ji is me.I can't deny it, because at this moment, Feng Yan and I have the same thought: keep her in our sight.

I think I can understand my father's mood. He loves his mother so much, almost to the point of sickness, madness, and heinousness, so he chooses to perish together in the end.

But I don't want to be like my father, it will hurt Tang Song, and Tang Song is not my mother, so I won't be so angry that I want to eat her like my father.

But I already love her to the point where I can devour her, Feng Ji is not the same as me.

So for this tragedy to happen, I made a wrong decision, which also led to another tragedy: let her go.

Knowing that she probably won't come back after leaving, and even if she comes back, she may bring news of breaking up with me, but I still have luck, I believe her, I am willing to believe her, she will give me a satisfactory answer.Although we hurt her, if she still loves me.

As I expected, she really didn't come back.

This life without her was more difficult than I imagined, and it didn't take long for me to bear it.

She refused to come to see her, her mother was firm, claiming that she would never let Tang Song meet with me again, because I had hurt her badly.

That's right, no one would be able to accept the scene of her willful behavior being seen by a mother like her.

After living like a year for two years, I swear that I really can't go on like this anymore. She is the center of my life. Without her, I can't bear the weightless days. I went to ask Fu Zhe, but I didn't expect him to hide in order to keep a secret. Get rid of me, not only avoid me, but I can't even contact Tang Song's brother Tang Ming.

Suffering like this for a while, I was extremely embarrassed, extremely decadent, and I could only use the Internet to relieve my worries. During this period, I learned to smoke. I was so drunk, and finally a chat friend on the Internet couldn't stand my decadent appearance and scolded me, he said, "If you continue to behave like this, what face will you have to appear in front of her in the future? Even if you meet her in the future. Do you think you still have Will the qualifications and ability keep her?"

A word to awaken the dreamer.

I began to pull myself together, put away all my emotions, and return to the radiant look I had before. It was time to work and rest.Slowly they thought that I had overcome the pain of being broken up, and gradually relaxed my vigilance, but only I knew that the refreshment was just an illusion, and my heart was bleeding in the dead of night.

I have been following Fu Zhe and Tang Ming's dynamics, because I clearly want to know Tang Song's whereabouts only through the two of them, and I can't startle the snake, so I have been suffering in silence for eight years, and finally I caught the opportunity: I I saw the traces left by Tang Song on Tang Ming's Weibo feed. This is a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity. I don't need to find reasons to follow Tang Ming or Fu Zhe's words. I don't know why their mouths are so strict and so They have refused to reveal any more information to me for many years, but this time they can't be perfunctory.

With everything ready, I went directly to Fu Zhe's house, only to find Tang Ming was there.They still didn't open their mouths, so I took out a knife and put it in front of them: "I still haven't let go after eight years, don't you understand? I know Tang Song still has contact with you. If you don't tell me, then you will Don't continue the relationship with me, your sister is still suffering, do you have the nerve to show your affection?"

Fu Zhe blushed: "It's been so long, why are you so persistent, it's good for you both to let go."

I didn't change my expression, "Do you still remember how my parents died?"

He was speechless and looked at Tang Ming, who could only sigh heavily in the end.

With my persistent persistence, Tang Song and I are together again. Some people may think it is worthless, but in front of obsession, everything else is second.

Even at the age of 30, Tang Song is still as charming as ever, and her suitors have never stopped. She is no longer "Tang Xiaojun" but "Tang University Executive Director", but no matter what she is, she will always be my woman , this time I will not let her escape my sight again.

But why is she in my sight, she is still so unrestrained, she has changed, changed a lot, the previous double standard "Tang Xiaojun" is gone, and now she has a tactful taste in everything, I know eight One year is enough to change a person a lot. In order to make a living, she has to smile and look at other people's faces, because I have experienced all these, because of the needs of work, I can bear it, but as an executive director, no, as an agent, Is there a need to treat an artist like this? She is very special to this Gu Chenghao. I'm still here. Is it really good to be under my nose?

Feng Jie said before that Tang Song's charm is astonishing, even if he just hooks his fingers, men will easily fall under her pomegranate skirt.

Oh yes, she doesn't wear skirts.

But it all went to bed!

You can't bear the familiarity, Gu Chenghao put away your hypocritical face, do you think I can't see your intentions for Tang Song, no matter what time, Tang Song is something you can't covet, not even a toe!

Originally, I was not that sensitive in my heart. If I were to say that I was the general manager of a media company, I hadn’t seen any scenes before. How could I be so narrow-minded? It’s because I heard two employees talking about a les couple passing by before I got off work After a love marathon, it ended in failure. I also said some homosexuals can’t escape secular marriage. I was so angry that I drove home. I saw Tang Song and Gu Chenghao hugging there downstairs. Hug, I really think the handsome little fresh meat is better than my paranoid girlfriend, don't you?

Hugging is not enough, you need a princess hug!Gu Chenghao, who gave you the right? I think I don’t give you enough cold eyes. If I knew I shouldn’t be soft-hearted, I should have kicked you out a long time ago. No matter what kind of status you are, you can’t get Tang Song’s attention. She is mine!

Compared with Gu Chenghao's hesitation, Tang Song's reaction is what I prefer to see. Yes, it is this kind of flustered, hesitant expression. You should reflect on who you are and who you belong to people!

But I still made a mistake. I almost made the same mistake as my father back then. Although it wasn't fatal, I still missed the point. I don't know when I became so violent and perverted. I obviously didn't want to hurt her. ,But……

I tried my best to calm myself down, I had already caused her to break her leg, and caused her to lose the self-willed capital to seek love like a normal person. I am in so much pain, but what I can be sure of is that she loves me and she still loves me. Based on this alone, it is even more impossible for me to let go, and I cannot allow my future rival to dangle in front of me and greet her with care. .

Compared with before, Tang Song has really changed a lot. She has become timid, unconfident, and even inferior when it comes to dealing with feelings. It may be because of this that she is very tolerant and conniving to my behavior, and she gave up rejecting me. s right.

She doesn't need to do this at all. You know, in my mind, she is like a goddess. She is unrestrained and natural in front of outsiders, with awe-inspiring temperament, decent manners, and well-protected herself, but she doesn't have any disguise in front of me. Like a hedgehog showing its belly to people, the softest part of its body, even if I act coquettishly and lose my temper with her, she will bear it all silently;

She felt that she was ashamed of me, so she wanted to make up for me, thinking that she no longer had the capital to refuse and resist me.

But why don't I think so, I blamed her, got angry with her, hated her for leaving at the beginning, if I hadn't gone to find her, she wouldn't have come to me again.

But Tang Song's mother was right, I made her daughter miserable.

If it wasn't for her low self-esteem because of her broken leg, how could she resist coming to me.

To love someone is to protect her, but in fact I always hurt her, and when I hurt her, I also hurt myself.

Do you want me to follow in my father's footsteps?

We are all scarred in this relationship, but even so, I still don't want to let go. I have come to this point, and there is no room for turning back.

Fortunately, although her mother still disagrees with reservations, she will not hinder us anymore, and everything will develop in a good direction, right?

If it weren't for this discordant episode... Songzi would feel a little more relaxed.

Gu Chenghao actually dared to look at me with that kind of look, it was a kind of disgusted look with unimaginable disgust, what did he mean by that, did he think I would kill Tang Song?

Uh... almost.

I know that recently Tang Song has become different from before, a bit weird, as if sick.I also know that I have lost my sense of proportion.

But even if Tang Song is stupid and even killed by me, he is still mine and has nothing to do with you.

What can I do, I'm desperate too.

She is the sunshine in my life, how can I kill the sunshine.

The author has something to say:

This is an extra episode, and the extra episode will look at the development of the story from the first perspective of Fu Yu, Feng Ji, or Gu Chenghao, which will also make the story look more complete and comprehensive.