sorry i want you

Jin Shijie has been alone since he was born, and no one is willing to accompany him when he is dying.

I really don't know whether it's true that death is so terrible that everyone fears it, or it's too much failure to be a human being and is unpopular.

He froze for a while, and then Chunjuexiao woke up.

Shaking his numb arm, he saw that Jin Shijie had woken up.He looked at Jin Shijie, his eyes turned back and forth, and finally he ordered Liu Zixi away.

Chun Juexiao sat on the side of the bed, Jin Shijie saw that there was still lingering love in his eyes.

Chun Juexiao lowered her head, not looking into Jin Shijie's eyes: "I don't want to die."

Jin Shijie said: "I know, I don't want to die now either."

"Just take it as if I'm begging you, please let me go."

……

The air was suddenly quiet.

For a long time, Jin Shijie quietly closed his eyes without saying a word.

Chun Juexiao: "..." He knew that Jin Shijie closed his eyes to mean that he didn't want to talk anymore.

He was extremely disappointed, stood up and took another deep look at Jin Shijie, then turned and went upstairs.

Liu Zixi made noodles for Chunjuexiao, eggs, mushrooms and fungus sauce. Boil the noodles thoroughly in water, take them out of the pot, mix with the sauce and eat.

Chun Juexiao smiled happily after eating: "I just love this noodle made by you."

Liu Zixi held Chun Juexiao's hand: "Don't be afraid, no matter where you go, I will always be with you."

Chunjuexiao paused while eating noodles: "What do you mean?"

Liu Zixi replied with a reassuring smile.

Chunjuexiao's eyes were red, and tears rolled down uncontrollably: "I'm most afraid of you saying that." Isn't it good to live?

Liu Zixi said: "I am also most afraid of your rejection, I am already afraid of being rejected by you." He held Chun Juexiao's hand, "Stop pushing me away, no matter how Jin Shijie treats you, I will always be with you .”

Tears rolled out without disappointment, one after another.

Chun Juexiao wiped away her tears with the back of her hand, and nodded with a smile: "Well, I promise you."

Liu Zixi was very happy.

The night was spent quietly.

The next day, Xin Yue and Ou Jiming came to visit Jin Shijie.

Butler Cui couldn't refuse, so he had to invite them in.

From the time they entered the trouble to seeing Jin Shijie, Liu Zixi wanted to talk to them several times, but was interrupted by Cui Steward.

"Uncle Jin, how is your health?" Ou Jiming asked politely, "My grandfather is very worried about you, but he is old and in poor health and cannot come here, so let me come to visit on his behalf."

Who Ou Jiming and Xin Yue came to see, of course Jin Shijie knew very well, but he didn't say it out, instead he said to Ou Jiming: "Since you are here, I happen to have something to ask for your help."

Ou Jiming was hypocritically polite: "Uncle Jin, what are you laughing at, what are you saying to help, just say what you need, I'll run errands for you."

Jin Shijie said: "It's about Xiaoxiao."

Ou Jiming froze for a few seconds with a fake expression, and then quickly eased up.

Jin Shijie asked Steward Cui to drive Chun Juexiao and Liu Zixi upstairs, leaving only Xin Yue and Ou Jiming downstairs.

After a while, another car stopped in front of Chunjuexiao's house, and two people dressed in suits and ties came in.

Ou Jiming, Jin Shijie and others talked for a long time downstairs, until Chunjuexiao was impatient and wanted to go downstairs again and again.

But they were all stopped by the bodyguards at home.

And then... Ou Jiming and Xin Yue were sent away.

They never came and left, and hardly spoke a word to Chun Juexiao.

This is the best chance for Chunjuexiao to ask for help, he hopes that Xin Yue can guess his current situation, and then think of a way.

Now he put almost all his hopes on Xin Yue and Ou Jiming.

Chun Juexiao didn't ask Jin Shijie again, so even though Jin Shijie forced him to accompany him, he kept his head down and said nothing.

Jin Shijie didn't force him either, as long as Chun Juexiao sat beside him, he was already satisfied.

At night, Jin Shijie suddenly clamored to go back to sleep in the bedroom upstairs, and asked Chun Juexiao to sleep with him.

Chunjuexiao was naturally unwilling, but he didn't dare to be unwilling, so he could only accompany Jin Shijie.

'Father and son' were lying on the same bed. In the dark room, they could not see each other's expressions, only vague outlines.

Jin Shijie said: "I don't know how many times we can lie together like this."

Chunjuexiao kept silent.For him, he hoped that such a thing would never happen again.

Jin Shijie moved his hand weakly, holding Chunjuexiao's with difficulty.

Chunjuexiao broke free of his hand impatiently, and pressed her own hand under her lower back, making it impossible for him to grab it even if she wanted to.

Jin Shijie lost his mind, rubbed his hand on the quilt a few times, and then took it back regretfully.

After a long time, he sighed heavily: "Forget it." He whispered.

The two were silent, and the silence in the room was like an abyss.After a while, Jin Shijie suddenly said: "Xiaoxiao, I want to turn over, please help me."

Chunjuexiao lay still.

Jin Shijie knew that Chun Juexiao was unwilling, so he stopped forcing him, so he wriggled his body with difficulty, trying to turn over.After tossing for a long time, he also failed.

Chunjuexiao gradually couldn't bear it, so she turned him over so that he faced her, and put several cushions behind her so that he could sleep soundly.

Chun Juexiao turned her back to Jin Shijie, closed her eyes and clenched her mouth, not saying a word.

Jin Shijie looked at the back of Chun Juexiao's head and closed his eyes contentedly.

Chunjuexiao didn't know when he fell asleep at all, he kept his back to Jin Shijie's sleeping position all night.Until the next morning the birds chirped.

Chunjuexiao just woke up.

He moved his sleeping numb body carefully, and he couldn't control the strength and quickly lay flat on the bed.

His hand accidentally hit Jin Shijie who was sleeping next to him.

Jin Shijie didn't respond at all.

Chun Juexiao carefully withdrew her hand, and her fingers slid across the back of Jin Shijie's hand inadvertently.

cold……

so cool——

Chun Juexiao rubbed his eyes and sat up, ready to tuck Jin Shijie under the quilt. He usually has the habit of kicking the quilt. He probably snatched the quilt by himself to make Jin Shijie so cold.

He was even worried in his heart, Jin Shijie was so seriously ill, whether the cold would make his condition worse!

He pulled the quilt to cover Jin Shijie.

Paused.

Chun Juexiao looked at the quilt that was tucked under Jin Shijie's body, and he didn't recover for a long time.

The quilt was well pressed, how could Jin Shijie be so cold.

He slowly moved his hand under Jin Shijie's body, without any heat.

Touch his body again.

Already completely stiff.

boom--

Thunder exploded in his mind.

This... what's going on?

He put his hand on Jin Shijie's nose, no... not breathing.

Not breathing, his whole body is cold, is this... dead?

Then I... am I going to die too!