sorry i want you

The memory of that time gradually became clearer.

He clearly remembered that when he entered the dormitory with the key Wen Jichen gave him, Xin Yue was curled up on the upper bunk.At that time, Xin Yue was still a teenager, with jet-black hair cut into slabs, standing upright flamboyantly, and sporadic white scalps could be seen.At that time, his eyebrows and eyes had not yet grown, and although he was not as attractive as now, he was still very good-looking.Delicate, gentle and sunny, he is the kind of boy who like girls would secretly send love letters.

He wore a white turtleneck, light-colored jeans that fell below the knee, and his lean legs were spread apart.Slender arms with slender fingers, holding a photo in one hand, and dangling back and forth between the legs with the other.

He frowned in pain, and bit his lower lip tightly, his white and neat teeth made his lower lip turn white.

There were fine beads of sweat on his forehead, and he shook his head in pain and comfort, wanting to vent it out quickly.

But at this moment, the door was opened, and the door hit the wall with a 'bang' sound. It wasn't a huge crack, but it was enough to scare Xin Yue out of his wits.

The little fat man standing at the door widened his eyes in shock, opened his mouth wide and was stunned for a while, then he shouted: "What are you doing!"

Xin Yue was terrified.He was a teenager then, and it was shameful enough to masturbate in the dormitory and get caught straight.His hands trembled in fright, and the photo in his hand fluttered down, like a leaf that had been sucked out of its vitality by frost, cutting off the last bit of vitality.

Although Ou Jiming was only in his teens at that time, he already knew a lot.

He naturally knew what Xin Yue was doing, and he was very curious when he saw the photos that fell down.

He wanted to see what kind of woman's picture Xin Yue would do this to, maybe it would become a stalk to laugh at him in the future.

So he went over, picked it up, and looked at it.

"Don't watch." Xin Yue frantically tried to stop him, but it was too late.

At that moment, Ou Jiming was shocked.He couldn't even put into words what he saw at the time.

He thought that only men and women could do that kind of thing, but Xin Yue was looking at the picture of his cousin.

man and man...

How could this be……

he is a pervert...

Such thoughts occupied Ou Jiming's mind at that time, and he couldn't think of anything else.

At that time, he didn't even notice how Xin Yue got out of bed, but when he recalled it now, it was very clear.

At that time, Xin Yue was in a hurry to stop himself, but was caught by his pants, and then fell off the bed in a daze.

Just like that, she fell down in front of him with her bare buttocks.

He curled up on the ground screaming in pain.

But his high spirits were still swollen.

Anger and shame took over Ou Jining's young mind in an instant.At that time, he was very angry, shouting and cursing: "Pervert! Disgusting!" while kicking Xin Yue.

With the first kick, he missed his head and brushed his neck in front of him.

The hot touch can be clearly felt through the fabric.His leg rubbed over, and then...Xin Yue released it.

Bai Zhuo shot out with an unpleasant smell, almost hitting his face.

He yelled and swore away in disgust.

It was also at that time that Ou Jiming knew that men could do that to men...

This idea has been deeply buried in his heart, making him fear, hate, and self-loathing.Later he started to try, and man.

But every time, Xin Yue's panicked face, as well as the expression of shame and pain would appear in his mind involuntarily.

He remembered that when he left, he scolded him: "Shameless, if you dare to do this kind of thing to my brother again, I will announce that you are a pervert, and let the whole school know how disgusting you are." .”

He left the school, and he can't remember what happened after that.

He only remembered that it was Xin Yue who personally told him that men can also be with men.Later, he started to sleep with men, but he always thought about Xin Yue, even after that, his appearance had become blurred.

He took a deep breath, it would not be an exaggeration to say that he was beaten by Xin Yue in his life!

Therefore, he has always remembered Xin Yue all these years. Even though his appearance has faded away, the stimulation he caused to himself cannot be erased no matter what!

At that time, I just wanted to scare him, not really want to do anything to him.

But looking at it now... I'm afraid it was really my own youth and ignorance that caused irreversible things.

How much did Xin Yue suffer in those years?

It's no wonder that after he knew that he was the little fat man back then, his attitude changed drastically, which made him refuse to accept himself now.

original……

All this is his own fault.

After Ou Jiming came out of the PUB, looking at the continuous flow of the road, he wished he could rush up immediately, and let the fast-moving car hit him to death.

He really wished he could travel back, slap himself twice, and teach himself a lesson.

He can't wait...

It's a pity that there is no medicine for regret in this world.

The friend looked at him worriedly: "Ji Ming, are you okay, how about I take you back to the hotel first?"

Ou Jiming shook his head and pushed him away: "Thank you for today, I have no problem, I want to walk first, you can go back by yourself first."

My friend wanted to say something, but Ou Jiming had already turned around and left.

The friend was really worried about him, and originally wanted to call Ou Jiming to stop, but after thinking about it, he finally gave up.He only drove the car and followed him far away to avoid any accidents with him.

Ou Jiming walked slowly along the sidewalk, and when he thought of the harm he had done to Xin Yue, he became afraid.

He was afraid that Xin Yue would become determined not to want him, so what should he do?

The sky was gray and it was raining lightly.

The cold rain slapped on the face, so cold!

But compared to the coldness in his heart at the thought of losing Xin Yue, what is this?

Ou Jiming wiped the raindrops off his face, and he sighed weakly.

He stood motionless in the rain, and after an unknown amount of time, he suddenly turned and ran towards the hotel.

Even if he knew that Xin Yue might never forgive himself in this life, but if he didn't try hard, how would he know the result?

He is not a person who gives up easily!

When he returned to the hotel, Xin Yue had already come out of his room.

His expression returned to normal, and he was nestling on the sofa in the living room eating.

The TV was on and there was a boring children's program on it.

Hearing the sound of the door opening, he turned around and said, "Where have you been? I ordered something to eat myself when I was hungry, do you want to eat?" He was stuffing a spoonful of salad into his mouth, chewing while talking, causing Affection is not clear.

His cheeks are bulging like a cute little squirrel.

After he smoked the thing in his mouth, he handed him a business card on the coffee table: "This is the restaurant where I ordered takeaway just now. It tastes good. You can try it."

He ate so eagerly just now that he didn't notice the white yogurt stained on the corner of his mouth.

It looks like a cute snack.

Seeing him like this, Ou Jiming's cold heart suddenly softened half.