i think i still love you

He asked, "Why is Xiaohai doing this?"

Gu Yifei was silent.

"Is it... because of you?" Xiao Yifan suppressed his voice and remained calm.

Gu Yifei remained silent.

Xiao Yifan raised his head in despair and closed his eyes.

At 1 o'clock in the morning, Xu Chenhai pushed into the operating room. The chief surgeon was the authority of the hospital, and he sold the face of Mr. Zhang. Before entering the operating room, Xiao Yifan asked again, "He is a future painter, and he is not yet 20 years old. , I beg you to let him pick up the paintbrush again."

"We're all doctors. You should know that we can't promise any results. I can only do my best." After leaving these words, the door of the operating room was closed.

"What does the doctor mean? Does it mean that Xiao Hai may not be able to paint anymore? His favorite thing is to paint." Xu Chenhai's mother cried while dragging Xiao Yifan's clothes.

"Auntie, it's very rare for a doctor to promise so much." Xiao Yifan supported Xu Chenhai's mother.

"You! It's all because of you. If it weren't for your appearance, Chen Xing would not have died, and Chen Hai would not have committed suicide. Are you trying to destroy our whole family?"

Xiao Yifan knew that Xu Chenhai's mother was in a hurry to speak out, but his heart was also dripping with blood, but why didn't his heart ache right now.

The target quickly shifted to Gu Yifei, his emotions became more and more agitated, and he slapped Gu Yifei with his fist. Xiao Yifan vaguely heard Xu Chenhai's mother say, "Why did you bring him back last time? You clearly know that Chenhai loves you, but you still want to bring him back?" He came back to provoke him, you know he loves you, why don't you hide away! Isn't it enough to kill Chen Xing! What kind of Gu did you put them on?"

Xiao Yifan just watched helplessly, this is what Gu Yifei deserved, his stomach was a little sore, Xiao Yifan reached into his pocket and gently comforted the naughty boy inside, leaning against the wall behind him, his heart was filled with frost.

(29)

After that day, Gu Yifei stayed in the hospital for a whole week in black and white.Xiao Yifan would bring him a staff meal when eating, and every time he would leave regardless of whether people were there or not, and he would not leave too much time for one more sentence.

The condition of Xu Chenxing's hand has basically stabilized. Xu Chenxing's mother is going to be transferred back to the county hospital. Xiao Yifan didn't want to be so confused. The mental construction of the past few days was almost done, so Xiao Yifan took the initiative to find it. Gu Yifei.

Seeing Gu Yifei's heart was still hurting from a needle prick, it was the first time in a week that he looked at him carefully, the scabs left by the blisters on his lips, and the whites of his eyes were streaked with red blood, the last time Xiao Yifan saw him like this The time was when Xu Chenxing was in the hospital three years ago.There are a thousand and ten thousand questions and complaints in my heart, but the last thing I say is "Have you eaten yet?"

Gu Yifei raised his hand, wanting to touch Xiao Yifan's stomach, but finally lowered it again, and said with a smile, "Are you and the child okay?"

Xiao Yifan rubbed the adhesive tape torn from the back of his hand in the pocket of his white coat, and wanted to smile, but in the end he failed, so he said softly, "It's all okay."

Afterwards, the silence between the two, the two who were hugging each other under the quilt obviously a week ago, are indeed less distant than a stranger at this moment.

"In the afternoon, I don't have work. You can go home and have a rest. Tomorrow...tomorrow..." Xiao Yifan repeated twice, "I still have to drive."

Gu Yifei stepped forward and leaned forward, tentatively wrapping his arms around Xiao Yifan's shoulders, Xiao Yifan didn't hide, how could he be willing to hide, he has been crazy about this embrace these days.He hated himself for being worthless, just a hug could make him forgive completely, he closed his eyes, and wet the eyelashes under his eyes.

"I have nothing with Chen Hai, please trust me?" Gu Yifei supported Xiao Yifan's back of the neck.

"Okay... I believe it." The slender eyelashes still couldn't support the weight of the teardrops.

After parting, Gu Yifei called Xu Chenhai's mother to take over for a while, he really needed a good sleep.

Sending Gu Yifei away, Xu Chenxing's mother hadn't come yet, Xiao Yifan walked into the ward, Xu Chenxing looked like he had just woken up, his lips were light pink due to excessive blood loss, he looked at Xiao Yifan without any evasion.

"So that's how you look in a white coat. He said you look good in a white coat." Xu Chenxing said indifferently.

Xiao Yifan approached the bed, his eyes outlined Xu Chenxing's outline, except for the lack of a little bit of Xu Chenxing's sharpness between his brows and eyes, the rest of his facial features were very similar to Xu Chenxing's.

"Will he tell you about me?" Xiao Yifan asked.

"I will force him to speak." Xu Chenhai smiled.

"Since you know our relationship, why do you still do this?" After Xiao Yifan finished speaking, he felt a little regretful. He was not yet 20 years old, so such a positive question was a bit too sharp.

But Xu Chenhai raised the corners of his mouth and smiled, "You clearly know the relationship between my brother and him, don't you also love him with all your heart."

Xiao Yifan's hand in his pocket gradually tightened, he was speechless.

"We're married." Xiao Yifan felt ridiculous, he was competing with a boy who had just grown up for a man.

"I know, he and my brother are also married." Xu Chenxing still said with a smile.

"You...he was your brother's former lover!" Xiao Yifan was suppressing his emotions, and his breath became unstable.

"That's right ~ why is he my brother's lover? If someone is so nice, I can love him openly, and maybe we can be together." Xu Chenhai turned his head back, looking at the ceiling, as if Talk to yourself.

Xiao Yifan didn't want to say any more, and turned to leave.

The resistance behind him made Xiao Yifan stop, Xiao Yifan looked back, Xu Chenhai tugged at the corner of his clothes.

"What else do you want to say?" Xiao Yifan lost his patience.

"Actually, you know better than me, don't you?"

"What do you know?" Xiao Yifan frowned displeased.

"Neither of us can fight for his heart. His heart was buried with my brother in that piece of loess three years ago." Xu Chenhai's heart was full of tears, which made people feel distressed extreme.

Xiao Yifan's heart seemed to have been severely gouged out, and his hands were already trembling.He walked back to the bed again, pulled the corner of his clothes out of his hand, and put his hand on the railing beside the bed, "Even if this is the case, is it worth your life for it?"

Xu Chenhai raised his hand, touched Xiao Yifan's swollen belly with the tip of his hand, and said with a smile, "This is a baby, right? I saw him watching it on his mobile phone the day before yesterday. He is very lively."

Xiao Yifan didn't know what he wanted to express.

"He really likes children, otherwise he wouldn't bring you back specifically to make me give up. This is really a good bet. I'm afraid it's a bet I can't even fight with my life."

Xiao Yifan pushed away his hand and took a step back, accidentally knocked over the basin on the ground, the water immediately soaked the pant legs, shoes and socks, and the chill penetrated into the bone marrow along the skin of the ankle.

Xu Chenhai laughed again, it was a kind of pitiful but piercing smile, and continued the previous sentence, saying in a quiet but heartfelt voice, "If... I am not Xu Chenxing's younger brother."

Xiao Yifan escaped from the ward in embarrassment, met Xu Chenhai's mother head-on, made way, and went straight to the roof of the building.

Xiao Yifan held on to the railing by the wall and breathed heavily, his tears uncontrollably hit the ground in big drops with his breathing, gradually changing from silent tears to soft sobs.He leaned against the wall, stroked his swollen belly, and said in a low voice, "Baby, Dad didn't use you, do you believe in Dad? Dad really didn't, really didn't, didn't, didn't..." Xiao Yifan shook With his head down, his body slid along the wall, his shoulders shaking non-stop.

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When Xiao Yifan returned home, Gu Yifei was still awake. Xiao Yifan cooked some porridge in the rice cooker, pressed the cooking button, and stared at the little red light in a daze. Fall pain.

Xiao Yifan walked into the living room on his stomach, and heard a voice in the bedroom, and then the door opened, Gu Yifei didn't get dressed in a panic, and stretched his arms to cover the other sleeve.

Before sitting down, Xiao Yifan stood up again and asked, "What's the matter? Are you flustered?"

"Go to the hospital"

"The porridge will be ready soon, you can go after drinking it." Xiao Yifan followed.

"Xiao Hai is gone." Gu Yifei said while squatting down and hooking up his shoes.

"What?" Xiao Yifan walked up to Gu Yifei.

Gu Yifei wanted to leave but stopped, put his hands on Xiao Yifan's shoulders, and asked cautiously, "You...didn't talk to him this afternoon, did you?"

Xiao Yifan missed a heartbeat, "What do you mean? Do you doubt me?"

"No, Yifan didn't, it's just... Xiaohai's mood has stabilized these days, why did he suddenly..." Gu Yifei didn't continue.

"You still doubt me." Xiao Yifan felt the dagger in his heart being pulled out inch by inch.

"No, I didn't doubt you, it's fine if I didn't say anything." Gu Yifei couldn't wait to go out.

"Gu Yifei, I'll help you find him. I may use up all my human and financial resources to find him for you. I guarantee that he will come back safely, but... you are not allowed to go." Xiao Yifan finished gritting his teeth.

"Xiaofan, what are you talking about? Isn't it time for you to lose your temper?" Gu Yifei begged him.

"I've never played with your temper until now, and I'll do it this time." Xiao Yifan held the door frame with both hands.

Gu Yifei didn't dare to pull him too hard, "Xiaofan, I'll come back and let you handle it, can you let me go out now?"

Xiao Yifan bit his lip and shook his head firmly.

"I know you're angry, I'll confess one by one when I come back." Gu Yifei gradually began to intensify his efforts.

Xiao Yifan was naturally not Gu Yifei's opponent, and he soon lost his strength during the pushing and pushing. He began to cry and beg, "Gu Yifei, I beg you, please don't go? I promise I will be self-willed this time in my life, I beg you."

Gu Yifei didn't understand what was wrong with Xiao Yifan, but he didn't have time to think about it carefully, so he broke his