you are the minutiae of the world

In this world, everyone has their own helplessness.

This is the insight I got from working in a small restaurant for four years. I thought that food and clothing would be worry-free, that parents would love them, and that students who could go to college would have no troubles or worries.But every time I serve food, I can hear the helplessness in their mouths.

There are too many papers, the courses are too full, and the exams are too difficult.

Their hardships are written on their faces and eyes, but their faces are white and clean, and their eyes are full of hope.

Only he is special. He seldom comes to small restaurants to eat. Even if he does, it is mostly when packing. He didn’t recognize me, but I locked him in the crowd at a glance. He has a good temper. So gentle, like a Confucian doctor - I once saw him in a white coat standing across the street on the phone, tall and tall, with clear eyes and a tall and straight figure.

The boss said it was Dr. Xiao Xu.

I turned my head while wiping the table, and asked the boss casually, is he already a doctor at such a young age?

Although Dr. Xiao Xu is young, he took the exam for the combined undergraduate, master, and doctoral courses. He went to the nearby affiliated hospital for an internship every holiday. Everyone in this street knows Dr. Xiao Xu. He is good at medicine, has a good temper, and is gentle with everyone. , never lose your temper,.

I bowed my head and felt happy for some reason. It turned out that his excellence was well known, and this kind of happiness came out of nowhere.

A small restaurant should not limit my life. This is what the boss said to me. After he finished speaking, he patted my shoulder and told me that I am still young and should not stay here to do this forever. After he finished speaking, I was at a loss, and there was a panic in my heart that I would lose my job. Before I could think about it, the proprietress handed me two packed lunch boxes and asked me to deliver the meals.

That was the first time I delivered food to him. He was still wearing a white coat, a mask, a few pens in his chest pocket, and a pair of blue sandals on his feet. He looked casual and chic.

So that's how he works, I thought.

He looked at me and said, "It's the boy from the restaurant." Then he took the lunch box and said thank you. His voice was laughing, but his expression was hurried. He carried two plastic bags of food and disappeared around the corner in a blink of an eye. I guess He definitely doesn't remember me, but he knows me, and he knows me as the takeaway guy from that small restaurant.

I didn't cause trouble for my boss, and I resigned after a short time. I haven't really achieved nothing in the past few years. I have learned a lot about the boss's craft, but I don't have any savings. After all, I send most of the money back. Once I got home, I couldn’t open a restaurant. I heard the food delivery knight in the store say that the salary of food delivery is not bad, and the threshold is still low. My eyes lit up, and I resolutely joined the army of food delivery.

Tired, very tiring, but free time and high wages.

And I often grab the list of affiliated hospitals, and I can deliver meals to Dr. Xu twice out of ten.

I worked for a few more years, and Dr. Xiao Xu gradually became familiar with me, and occasionally chatted with me when receiving meals. I also knew that he had changed from an intern to a formal doctor. His temperament It became milder, but the blackness under the eyes became heavier and heavier.

That day, after delivering meals to the hospital, I happened to see him on the night shift, walking unsteadily, as if he was about to fall at any time. I parked the motorcycle beside him and called him, Doctor Xiao Xu, are you okay?

He waved his hand feebly.

I drove the car away, but within a few minutes I backed up beside him. I said, Doctor Xiao Xu, let me take you back.

He was probably really too tired, so he didn't refuse. I vacated the seat behind the motorcycle, and Dr. Xu sat astride behind me. After speaking the address, he put his hands on my waist and put his head on my back. On the morning, I was still starting the car, and he fell asleep. He was still so gentle, and he didn't dislike me for delivering unwashed clothes that might smell bad. He leaned on my shoulder and slept very sweetly.

My car was driving very slowly. I have never driven so slowly since delivering food. I paid attention to safety. I successfully sent Dr. Xu to his community. I parked the car under the sycamore tree in the community and shook it gently. After waking him up, Dr. Xu’s eyes hadn’t opened yet. I smiled under the helmet and went upstairs with my arms around him.

This is a very old community, but it is a very desirable one, at least, I am very desirable, even though it has only six floors per floor, no elevator, and most of the people who live here used to live here Everyone is one of the top experts and directors of the affiliated hospital, but most of them have moved away in recent years.

It turned out that Dr. Xu came from a family of doctors.

I sent him into the house and left. Dr. Xiao Xu thanked me, I quickly waved my hand and said no, when I left, I saw the sign on the door opposite the house for rent.

All the takeaways that followed that day were delivered late, and many orders were returned. I even had three refunds at noon, one stewed chicken, one cake, and a cup of milk tea.

The milk tea is so sweet.

I lived in the opposite door of Dr. Xiao Xu, and Dr. Xu gradually became Dr. Xu. Only then did I know that he had a car all the time, but he didn’t drive it occasionally. I was probably lucky that day, but unfortunately, I never drove Xiao Xu had the opportunity to go home, but had the opportunity to stand under the plane tree and watch him go to work.

This delivery lasted for several years.

I don’t deliver food anymore. I rode a motorcycle through the city in four seasons, the cold wind and rain made my knees protest to me. I changed another job. I finally spent all my savings and opened a A simple breakfast shop, very simple, but I feel very at ease.

Since then, I can not only watch Dr. Xu go to work, but also greet him when he is off night shift. He often eats my steamed buns, and he likes meat buns the most. When he comes, the meat buns I give him are always the best. The thin stuffing is the biggest.He smiled and said, thank you.

Ordinary people live in a muddle-headed way without any big goals, as long as they can fill their stomachs, as long as they have roofs to cover the rain and clothes to wear.I am quite satisfied, not only do I have these, but I can often see Dr. Xu.

I watched and watched, and suddenly one day, I saw him and his girlfriend.

He brought her to my store for breakfast. He said that the breakfast in this store was the best he had ever eaten, especially the meat buns, which were very real. He said, and shouted into the store, Master Wang, give me Here are four meat buns and two bowls of soy milk.

I wondered why the person who usually eats two buns suddenly wanted to eat four. I turned around and put the buns on his table, and I saw the beautiful girl opposite him.

Exquisite makeup, long dark hair, and a good figure make her smile and smile.

I went back to my shop and watched them chatting and laughing behind the steamer. The backs of them leaving together were so good. They were both talented and beautiful. Everyone who knew Dr. Xu in the store said that Dr. Xu’s girlfriend is so beautiful. Blessed are doctors,

That's right, that's what the person who should stand by Dr. Xu's side looks like.

Dr. Xu sent me a wedding invitation. I could clearly see the clear and powerful font on it. I was in a trance under the light. It was sent together with the invitation. It was a box of exquisite wedding candies, which looked very classy. I ate them all one by one.

Hey, bitter.

I didn't go to the wedding, I didn't have the nerve to enter, and I didn't want to. I saw the invitation and realized what kind of feelings I had for Dr. Xu and Dr. Xu for so many years. So at this moment, I can't be calm and full of blessings to see his dreamy wedding.

I went crazy with jealousy. From the day I received the invitation, I couldn't help thinking too much about the possibility that the wedding could not go ahead.

Maybe the bride was in a car accident.

Maybe the bride doesn't like Dr. Xu.

Maybe the bride doesn't want to get married at all.

Maybe Dr. Xu hates that woman.

……

Why didn't that woman die.

If she died, Dr. Xu would come back again.

I'm so vicious, I'm going crazy with jealousy, I... have really turned into a pervert.

But that's okay, no one knows anyway.

I followed the gift, no more, no less, just within the range of ordinary friends, and I saw with my own eyes that the recipient wrote my name into the gift book stroke by stroke.

I seem to have got a little comfort.

I thought that as long as Dr. Xu opened this gift book in the future, he would see my name in it, and I was finally embedded in his life in some form.

Dr. Xu moved. That day I opened the door to sell breakfast as usual. I was very busy. My shop seemed to be becoming famous. I was alone and I was so busy that I didn’t see the moving company’s car driving into the community.

By the time I closed the stall in the afternoon, the moving had already come to an end.

Dr. Xu did not come to supervise. I stood at the opposite door and saw workers transporting neat cardboard boxes one after another.

My heart suddenly became empty. I wanted to make a call to Dr. Xu. I knew his phone number by heart, but the moment I took out my phone, I realized that my existence was about the same as that of a passer-by. No matter what I said in the past, it was not appropriate.

The opposite door was closed with a snap.

Several years ago, I worked in a small restaurant. Although the salary was low, I felt gentle because it was close to his university.

A few years ago, I was delivering food, because I always grabbed orders from affiliated hospitals, so I felt very satisfied.

In the past few years, I lived opposite him, sent him to work, and made him breakfast, so I felt very satisfied.

Now the door is locked and there will be no more tenderness.

He seldom comes to breakfast anymore, I think because his wife cooks it for him.

One year later in the winter, I saw him again, he was the same as a year ago, gentle and gentle, he called me from a distance, Master Wang, old rules, here are two meat buns.

I smiled, and handed him the meat bun that I had been preparing all along, which belonged to him.

He took a bite and was very satisfied. Your steamed stuffed buns are more affordable and delicious, he praised.

I nodded and said yes.

The price of my buns has actually increased, but I make his big buns with thin skin and meat filling every day, and I keep them every day, so I'm afraid that one day he wants to eat them but doesn't come over.

After he finished eating, he left without taking any pictures. To him, it was just buying a regular breakfast.

I bowed my head and continued with my work.

A boy in his early 20s wrapped in a thick down jacket suddenly said to me, boss, are there any more meat buns?

I silently filled two meat buns and handed them to him. He took it with one hand, took a bite, frowned, no, why is the skin of this bun so thick, I think the uncle’s bun is much thinner, boss, I I want his one, his one looks delicious.

I looked up at him, shook my head, and said, no.

No, how could there be, his share is the only one.

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