Snow scene

"How did she drink like this?" Sister He vomited on the toilet, Li Lulu patted her on the back, I held the warm water in my hand, and couldn't help my curiosity.

"Just be her aunt. She does this at this time of year." Li Lulu rarely hurt her.Sister He, who was drunk, didn't know how tired we were carrying her. She frowned in pain and kept shouting two words. She spoke vaguely, and I didn't hear clearly.And Li Lulu's expression for a moment is hard to describe, it's the first time I saw her expression, if I had to describe it, it would be helpless sadness.

I think those two words should be the names of people.

I didn't ask about the specific reasons, and helped Li Lulu move Sister He to the bed, so I didn't care about her anymore.Li Lulu stayed here tonight. The two of us sat in the living room drinking hot tea and eating snacks. We looked at Mr. Bean, and we didn’t say much except laughing. This is the time I’ve known her for so long. The quietest time is quite rare.

When it was almost two o'clock in the morning, Li Lulu couldn't bear the drowsiness and lay down on the sofa to sleep.I turned off the TV, cleaned up the trash on the table, and lost all sleep.When I calm down, I just like to think wildly, thinking about some messy things, about the re-reading mentioned by A Lin and about Liu Feng.I want to get busy right away and not think about it, and I want to find a quiet place to be quiet and organize my thoughts.I can't even paint, I don't want to do anything.I simply put on my coat, moved a stool and sat in the yard looking at the sky, and held up an umbrella to watch the snow that was swirling.

I hate snow, but the falling snow unexpectedly gave me a rare sense of peace.

"Still asleep?" Sister He woke up at some point, standing next to me in her nightgown.I said I couldn't sleep, and she said it was just right, let me go shopping with her.I thought I had nothing to do, so I agreed.We tidied up a bit and went out, each holding an umbrella and walking on the road, this is not a city, even if it was Christmas, there were only a few people who came back from the church at this point.

"Going to the park?" After walking for a month, I am familiar with the road here. On the way to the vegetable market, I will pass a park. There will be many old people and children in the park in the evening.Sister He nodded in response.Things started to get interesting. It was the first time to go to the park so late, like an adventure.

The result was really the same as the "exploration". Sister He took out a plastic bag from the pocket of the down jacket, and she walked to the flower bed in the center of the park. There was a small table next to the flower bed, which was a place to sit down.I thought Sister He was going to sit on it to rest, but she bent down and started digging up the snow. Is this going to be a snowball fight in the middle of the night?

"Come and dig together," she urged me.

"Oh, what are you digging for?"

"You'll know later." She said mysteriously.I am even more curious about what is buried in the snow.

The snow was not deep, and we dug quickly and came across something. I opened it and saw it was a wine bottle.Sister He opened the plastic bag and asked me to throw the bottle in.I can't believe it, come to the park in the middle of the night to dig wine bottles?It may be that my expression is too speechless, Sister He explained to me that she drank too much and threw the garbage here, so it is better to clean it up before dawn.

"You are really good at educating people. As expected of Sister He who is a teacher, she really leads by example." I read this sentence and dug harder. I thought it was too boring, and I had to sleep.After digging eight wine bottles and digging for a while, there was nothing around.But Sister He was still digging, as if she was looking for something.

"What are you looking for?" I can help.

"It's nothing." She said lightly, with her back turned to me, the street lights in the park were dim orange, and I couldn't see her expression clearly.I heard a heavy sigh, and she then said to me, "You go back first." Then I went back, I am not such a kind person, and I would not let myself suffer in such a cold situation.

The snow finally stopped halfway, and I ran into Li Lulu under a streetlight ahead.I waved to her, and she took the plastic bag in my hand, and the white gas she exhaled melted into the air.

"Where's Mu Jing?" She glanced back, but didn't see anyone.

"She's looking for something."

Li Lulu asked me about the situation, and after learning that Sister He had been searching in the snow for more than an hour, she muttered about being a fool, took out her mobile phone and dialed Sister He, and the phone rang for half a minute before answering. "Don't look for it. It's on the table in the living room at home. I brought it back for you." After she said this, she ended the call. I didn't hold back, but asked her what Sister He was looking for.

"Shackles." Li Lulu said indistinctly and with a bit of non-mainstream literary color, she would start to pretend every time at this time.I saw that she didn't want to say anything, so I didn't ask any more.Looking up at the sky, the sky in the east is a little orange-red, and the morning is coming soon.

Not long after Li Lulu and I got home, Sister He also came back. She ran back, looked at the empty table, and said to Li Lulu out of breath, "Where are the things?"

"I don't know, who knows where I went." Li Lulu played with her phone without even looking at Sister He.

"you--"

"What's wrong with me? Is there any point in keeping that thing?" Li Lulu stood up suddenly, which startled me.She ignored me, but went straight to Sister He and grabbed her by the collar, "It's time to put it down, He Mujing, today is Christmas, let's go see her together, shall we?"

I don't know who this TA refers to. I was surprised by Li Lulu's expression of about to cry. I sat on the sofa blankly, neither leaving nor staying.

Sister He lowered her head, her face was pale, and she said weakly, "I'll continue to look for—"

"He Mujing! You're enough!" Li Lulu tugged at her collar a few times and shouted, "How many years? How many years did you say? It's understandable that you didn't let go of the previous year, but this is the third year You are still like this! The person you are waiting for will never come again! Never again!"

Li Lulu cried, and Dou Da's tears flowed down, dripping onto her clothes and onto her own hands.

"You don't understand anything." Sister He held her hand, her voice trembling, and her eyes glazed over.

Li Lulu stopped crying and froze in place, Sister He pushed her away and went out.

"Damn!" Li Lulu angrily punched and kicked the sofa, uttering all kinds of obscenities.I was a little worried that the sofa would be kicked, so I calmed her down. She calmed down and asked me to cook a bowl of clear noodle soup for her.I looked at the snot-sniffing person in front of me and decided to act like nothing had happened.

The two of us ate noodles without talking.Li Lulu is a straightforward person, and her emotions come and go quickly. After eating, she drank the noodle soup contentedly, "Aren't you curious?" she asked me.I know what she is referring to, but rather than being curious, I feel pity more. Although I don't know what happened, something very painful must have happened to make both of them so abnormal.One has been unable to let go, and the other has always wanted her to let go.Both of them are not feeling well.It must be uncomfortable, because it is not a satisfactory ending.

I told Li Lulu my true thoughts, she ruffled my hair and laughed.I thought of Liu Feng, for a second I wanted to cry, but it was only for a second.Li Lulu stood up, put on her down jacket, and thanked me before leaving.I was not used to her politeness for a while, and felt very awkward.

After sending Li Lulu away, I checked the time, it was past seven, it was still early.I cleaned up the living room as usual, and went shopping with a vegetable basket. When I passed the park, I went to the place where the wine bottles were being dug, and Sister He was indeed sitting there.The golden sunlight sprinkled on the silver snow, emitting a dazzling light, and for a few moments it shone on Sister He's tired face, and her messy hair seemed even more unreal under the sunlight.She was smoking, and there were several cigarette butts on the ground.The corners of her eyes were red and she glanced at me. I walked over to say hello to her and asked her what she wanted for lunch. She took a puff of smoke and said to me, "Noodles in clear soup."

I should be good, read the weather forecast, there is still snow today.

The days that followed seemed to be back on track, and we all tacitly did not mention the incident that day, but Sister He's face became worse and worse, indicating that something had changed. During this period, I contacted Li Lulu and told her about Sister He's body. The situation, but she said that it will be better after a while.I didn't care.

It will soon be New Year's Day, and the children will be off for three days, so we can rest too.On the night of New Year's Eve, Sister He's house was very lively. Li Lulu brought three friends, two men and one woman, and one of them was a couple.Listening to the conversation, several of them are college classmates, and this is a rare gathering.

I am not very familiar with them, so I hid in my room and continued to draw after I greeted them.From time to time, the sound of their fights could be heard outside the door. I was sitting in the room, and the pencil was always stuck on one spot on the white paper, unable to draw.I turned on my phone to change my mood, but I received a text message from Alin happy New Year's Day, but I didn't reply right away.Is college life really fun?right.Every day before going to bed, I think about when to go to play, instead of thinking about food and clothing the next day; I can meet a lot of people of all kinds, instead of only communicating with these few people day after day; It should always be wonderful, not like me, feeling tired and helpless with this reality of my own choice.

If I go to college, will I still have these few friends after a long, long time?It shouldn't be possible, I'm such a boring and boring person.

—Are you going to repeat it?

The words of my friend rang in my ears again.

— Do I want to go to college?I ask myself that.

My head suddenly hurt, and many pictures rushed into my mind, connected in a series.The image of Li Lulu grabbing Sister He's collar, the image of Li Lulu crying, the cigarette butts in the snow, Sister He's pale face...these images were twisted together, messed up like waste paper, and finally turned into a black ball Stains splattered on the white drawing paper, which is disgusting.

——I don't want to.That was painful, like high school.

My stomach suddenly hurt. I miss this familiar pain. Fortunately, I have always prepared stomach medicine.When I went to the kitchen to pour water, I passed the living room. There were wine and a bunch of appetizers on the table, and several people were playing games around there.I played lightly so they wouldn't find out—if they were found out, they might be caught playing games.Fortunately, from the angle of the living room, it is difficult to find my existence. I didn't even turn on the light when I entered the kitchen.But my stomach hurt so badly that I couldn't help squatting by the sink.Someone walked into the kitchen and turned on the light. I wanted to get up, but I heard Li Lulu's voice.

"Mujing is hopeless." Li Lulu said with sarcasm.

"Why, haven't you been clamoring to cure her heart disease?" It was a man who spoke, and this man was the one who didn't have a date among the friends Li Lulu brought.I remember what it was called, it seems to be Peng Yun.

"Why, I don't want to care about her anymore, are you unhappy?" Li Lulu's tone gave me goosebumps, it was the first time she spoke to a man with this tone, like a spoiled child.

"Of course I'm happy, but it depends on whether you really don't want to care about her."

"It's fine for Mu Jing to be happy on her own. I think she's only identified with Ye Li in her whole life. The good school girl we two cultivated made me eat my hair like this. Is it worthy of saying that it's Ye Li? What a sinful woman." Li Lulu's tone was not as relaxed as the content of these words, I could hear the regret and helplessness in her words.But who is Ye Li?Is it Yeli?Or Ye Li?Is it still night?Sister He must have been chanting this name when she was drunk that day.But the key to everything is that this person is Li Lulu's junior, a girl.The amount of information is too large, and in an instant I made up a youthful love lily drama.

"What you said, didn't you support the two of them very much back then?" The man smiled, "The days before were so good."

"Yeah, that's great. Back then, you were not like you are now." Li Lulu smiled sinisterly, and I could feel the resentment coming to my face.

"What's wrong with me?" The man was very innocent, "It's obvious that you have never accepted my marriage proposal..."

"Ahem!" Li Lulu choked on his words, "Obviously, it's you..."

Li Lulu was actually being chased by someone!No, Li Lulu actually has a boyfriend?No, the sudden change in this style of painting is simply amazing!Seeing that the small theater in front of me is about to turn into a pink bubble mode, my stomach hurts even more.At this moment, I deeply understand that eavesdropping on others is not correct and improper behavior, so I immediately stood up and interrupted them.My stomach really can't take it anymore, I'm cold all over now, and my head is a little dizzy.

"Bai Yu, when were you here? I don't like your face..." Looking at Li Lulu who was walking towards me, my eyes darkened.

My stomach hurts.