tell me

It is daytime outside the window.

The afternoon sun was just right, strands of wisps climbed onto the mattress through the shade, sending a piece of warm light to the two of them.

But Du Yu didn't melt because of this, he was as silent as the night.

After a long time, he let out a light and long sigh, and finally quietly stretched out his hands around his back to wrap around the person opposite him, and leaned his neck sideways on his shoulder.

He didn't cry, but he looked more sad than if he didn't cry.

His pain lingered in his throat for a full ten years, and he blamed himself and regretted every day.

The morning sun is beautiful, the wooden bridge plank road printed with flowers and plants is beautiful, and the vigorous pine branches covered with white snow are beautiful, but he is not beautiful.

Unfamiliar gratitude is wonderful, sincere care and consolation is wonderful, small and true kindness is beautiful, but he is not beautiful.

The sweet milk tea is beautiful, the rattling paper star is beautiful, and the soft and fluffy puppet is beautiful, but he is not beautiful.

He can never forgive himself.

You can never allow yourself to be happy.

Living for Du You has become his only goal for ten years. This is the compensation he decided to make, even if the price is himself.

it serves him right.

But why, why would someone forcefully tear open his rotten skin, take out the heart that has already been riddled with holes, and ask it cautiously but desperately: Do you like me?can you like meCan you like me a little more?

Like it!He likes it!

Yes I do!He wants to too!

but.

No.

Like that heart.

The heart can't speak, it can only beat.

The more it beats, the more blood dripping.

The more blood dripping, the more it wants to beat.

You shouldn't be dancing.

How can you jump?

You have already lost the qualification and right to jump.

Give yourself a break.

Why doesn't he want to?

But... can he really?

He did this... Will he really not be punished?

He didn't know, really didn't know.

They hugged each other for such a long time, and their steady and heavy heartbeats gradually converged in the silence.

"Do you know about parallel universes?"

Gently, Lu Yinke opened his mouth, and Du Yu's broken hair on his shoulders slowly floated in the air with the vibration of his chest.

"It is said that every time a person makes a choice, a corresponding parallel universe will be created. Each universe is logically self-consistent and does not interfere with each other. Each has its own joys and worries."

"Although you can't change things in this universe, in other universes, your family must be living happily with Hemeimei."

"Then let me think about what will become of my precious Yuyu?"

"The appearance must be the same. The personality may be a bit arrogant, a bit wanton, a bit willful, and will bully girls from time to time. But relatively, there will be a lot of love, and it will continue."

"He may have had his first love in junior high school, but he didn't do a good job of keeping it secret. His parents found out halfway, and he was forcibly cut off at the stage of kissing the little face."

"He may talk about a second relationship in high school, but time is too tight. He has already experienced kissing, and he still thinks that studies are more important, so he broke up politely and rudely. He will comfort each other, but he will never think that he is Incorrect."

"The third love will be at the university. His grades are very good. Even if he can no longer be admitted to N University, he can easily enter the next echelon. He will become a well-known starlet in the university, often appearing in various newsletters and reports In the past, the relationship with his girlfriend has always been very harmonious."

"He and his girlfriend are lovers, and they are also good partners who make progress together. In the end, they both secured graduate studies, and even went abroad for further study. Finally, they were accepted as executives by the world's top [-] companies, and they got married when their careers were stable."

"The relationship between their husband and wife is harmonious, their emotions are harmonious, and they gave birth to a child in the second year, and they have lived a peaceful and happy life ever since."

After Lu Yinke finished speaking, he tilted his head and kissed his eyelids, "What do you think of this version?"

Du Yu closed his eyes obediently, "Then I won't meet you." He said flatly, "I don't want to end up not meeting you."

Lu Yinke's movements stopped, his Adam's apple rolled twice almost invisibly, and there was some strangeness in his eyes when he looked at the other party, but in the end it all turned into a smile, "You still want to meet me after this? What a good thing Can I take it all for you? You really know how to dream."

"After all, I am arrogant, unrestrained, and willful." Du Yu repeated softly, "Then I think this universe can barely make do with it."

"But Du Yu, you know." Lu Yinke stroked his hair, and opened his mouth a little hesitantly, "From my personal point of view, out of selfishness, I don't think this universe is a compromise. On the contrary, because of you, I like this universe." universe."

"I know that I shouldn't say this, otherwise I will base my happiness on your pain again. But I still feel that without these coincidences, there would be no meeting between you and me."

"I'm not thankful for the coincidences, but I'm grateful for the end result."

"I'm a very selfish person. Of course I hope you are well, but if you don't have me in your beautiful life, I might not choose the one that makes you comfortable."

Turning his head under his palm, Lu Yinke suddenly became a little awkward.

"Sigh... I'm not very good at talking, and I don't know what's the use of talking about it except to make you angry."

"I may not be able to express clearly, but I probably want to tell you that this universe is a pity for you, but it happens to be a kind of salvation for me."

"You are needed. I need you, and Du You needs you too. Since the past can't be changed, it's better to cherish the present. Don't torture yourself anymore, I will feel bad."

At this moment, Lu Yinke showed a flustered posture, with evasive eyes, hesitating speech, and his voice was out of tune.

He clumsily poured out his preciousness, but he was afraid that his words would not express his meaning and lead to misunderstanding, his clumsy appearance did not have the usual arrogance.

Du Yu could even imagine that when he wrote the love letter, he revised and deleted it, deleted it and changed it, and finally copied it carefully with his neatest handwriting.

He sighed again, but this time he brought some satisfaction and peace of mind.

He thought he was emotional.

Lost to a straightforward person who didn't know what it was.

The moment he kissed Lu Yinke's lips, the sun just warmly illuminated half of his cheek.

He heard a crackling sound, like solid ice quietly breaking.

Is the sun in winter so warm?

He has lived for more than 20 years, why has he never found out?

……

After an unknown amount of time, the doorknob was unscrewed, and Cui Nanzhe's head sneaked in through the gap.

He saw Du Yu was lying peacefully on the narrow mattress with his back to him.Lu Yinke hugged him, with his arms gently around his waist.

He tiptoed in, as if he still wanted to spy, but met Lu Yinke's oppressive and deep gaze head-on.

They stood in a stalemate, staring at each other silently for a few seconds.

Just when Cui Nanzhe shrank his head and was about to leave, Lu Yinke suddenly lowered his eyes and raised the corners of his mouth, and slowly raised his index finger between his lips as a gesture of silence.

In the ear was Du Yu's even and quiet breathing.

The hands of the old-fashioned clock in the room are clicking and clicking, and every sound is very clear and every sound is very quiet.

Tireless, without rest.

It is as short as a millimeter, but it is also as long as eternity.