tell me

Du Yu put his hand without the needle in his pocket, and lowered his gaze to the ground.There are reflections of lights on the bright white tiles, which make the eyes sore.

A dark gray ellipse wandered back and forth on the three square bricks in front of him, stretching and flattening with the angle of the light, flattening and stretching again.

"Can you stop moving?" Du Yu said slowly, "Come here and rest for a while."

"Don't move? Am I not in a hurry?" Lu Yinke's voice was a little choked up, and he looked at him almost fiercely, as if trying to find out the germs that wantonly invaded through the flesh, "Du Yu, do you have a fever? Why didn't you tell me?!"

"It's been a month, a whole month, and you still don't need me. How capable are you, can you handle everything by yourself?!"

His voice was like molten lava flowing under the rocks, quiet but hot, more painful than scolding, more like muttering to himself than pouring out.

Du Yu looked up at his infusion bottle, as long as the last thin layer of water line went down, he would be able to leave this sickly white place.

When Lu Yinke came to his side, he reached out his hand, and put his cold and dry palm on his wrist, pulling him to the seat beside him.

"It's just a trivial matter, why are you so angry?" He rubbed his wrist bone with his thumb soothingly, and whispered in a slightly apologetic tone, "You've been too tired recently, I don't want to disturb you to catch up on sleep."

"A small thing? A fever of 39 degrees is a small thing?!" Lu Yinke stared at him with bloodshot eyes, but he took his freezing right hand into his palm with his backhand, like a The boa constrictor that swallowed the egg, "Then I dare to ask you, what is a big deal to you? Is it a big deal to be hospitalized?! I don't think it's a big deal in your eyes! There's nothing to bother me!!"

"If it was you! Whether it's two or three or four in the middle of the night, whether you just fell asleep or fell asleep, I will rush to your side immediately, do you know?!"

Du Yu clearly didn't feel that he was in the wrong, but he couldn't refute for no reason, so he could only try to compare his heart with his heart: "But you don't want me to accompany you to the hospital if you have a fever?"

But he didn't expect that the other party not only answered quickly, but also unexpectedly and reasonably.

"I will! Don't say it's a fever, even if I have a cold, I would like to drag you to the hospital to accompany me to pretend to be pitiful! Think about it for yourself, don't you?"

Du Yu thought about it carefully, it might be true, so he obediently kept his mouth shut.

Lu Yinke frowned and looked at his left hand with a few tapes and purple needles stuck in it from the air. His nose smelled of hospital-specific disinfectant, and his resentful expression gradually evolved into deeper frustration and pity.

"Why can't you rely on me a little more, what do you think of me?" His voice became hoarse, his tone was difficult, like a dense fog that could not be dispelled, "It's been more than a month, and you still don't care about me?" need me."

"Du Yu, when will you need me?"

"Can you be more selfish, think more about yourself, and stop giving blindly all the time?"

"Can you make me feel that I'm important to you, not just a non-existent existence?"

"Ha... It's been more than a month... I still can't determine the answer to this question... You seem to be in a state of leaving me all the time. I can't catch you, let alone keep you. "

"I know your independence has long been a habit, but can't you change it a little for me? People always change, don't they?"

He gently rested his forehead on Du Yu's shoulder, "... I really beg you."

long time.

It took a long time for the hanging bottle to shed the last tear, and Du Yu finally bowed his head and kissed the top of his hair.

"……I will try my best."

He said softly in a voice that only he could hear.

Very strange.

This world is supposed to promote selflessness, and dedication and sacrifice seem to be synonymous with nobility.

But there are always some people who will put benevolence, righteousness and morality aside, ignore common sense, break through all the shackles of the world, and think of you first.

They can embrace your willfulness, kiss your selfishness, melt away your flaws, love your imperfections, and even wish you could ask for more.

Just because that person is you.

But in fact, there is no such thing as the best of both worlds and a win-win situation. It is just that someone is willing to carry forward for you, and is willing to do so.

When the nurse was pulling out the needle, Du Yu was rarely able to hold back, and Lu Yinke caught him when he turned his head carefully, and laughed at him.

"Are you afraid of injections?" He wanted to hug Du Yu, but was pushed away by the other party, "You haven't had a fever yet, no matter if you have class or not in the afternoon, don't go to class. It happens to be Friday, you Since you have already taken a taxi here, why not just stay at my house for two days, I just happen to take care of you."

"I'm not afraid, it's just that I have a sharp phobia and can't look at needles." Du Yu was stubborn, and Lu Yinke only let Lu Yinke hold his arm despite his limbs being weak.He is so sleepy now, he just wants to sleep.

"You take care of me? Do you really know how to take care of people?" He opened his lips and yawned. "Then I'm afraid I'll come back to hang the water in two days, or seven days."

When Lu Yinke heard it, he tacitly agreed that he agreed, and immediately lowered his head and rubbed his face against it like a puppy, but was pushed away by Du Yu mercilessly.

"Cold, don't get so close to me." He spoke in a muffled voice, the tip of his nose turned pink from frequent wiping, "It can spread through the air."

Lu Yinke smiled nonchalantly, "Not only do I need air transmission, but I also need bodily fluid transmission... Hey! Why don't you say hello every time you pinch someone?!"

"Who told you to talk nonsense all the time and make fun of your body." Du Yu took out the mask and put it on, opened the bag and handed it to Lu Yinke at once.

"Look, you just allow the state officials to set fires and prevent the people from lighting the lamps, right?" Lu Yinke waved to stop a yellow taxi on the side of the road, opened the door very gentlemanly and invited Du Yu in, "Let's go home."

Today is Friday, and the time is not the rush hour for commuting. The road that should be unimpeded is inexplicably congested. The cars in a row can't move at all, and they all turn off their engines.

Lu Yinke frowned and looked out through the car window. A red fire truck was lying across the road. Several orange figures hurried out of the car, picked up something and threw it on the ground in front of him.

"What's the situation...?" He pressed the car window and poked his head out, "Life-saving cushion? Someone is going to jump off the building."

Putting one arm on the handrail, Du Yu leaned over Lu Yinke and approached the car window.

I saw a group of people, men, women, young and old, walking, biking, and driving, stacking circles around the life-saving cushions, looking up at a middle-aged woman who was stepping on the gap between the window sills upstairs.

This is a simple residential building built on top of roadside shops.In fact, it is not very high, it only looks like four or five floors, but once you really want to jump off, the consequences will be disastrous.

"No one stop me! Tell the firefighters to go away!" The woman shouted loudly, but the distance was too far for people on the ground to hear clearly.

"The firefighters have already gone up! Hold on for a while! Even if you have something to worry about, don't make fun of your life!" Someone in the crowd echoed her from a distance.

The driver glanced at it for a while and then decisively pressed the horn, but even if the horn was honked again, the road was already full of ups and downs, and the caterpillar-like convoy did not move at all.

"Tsk!" His throat moved, and he spit out a mouthful of phlegm, "These people are the most annoying! They don't really dance, and they disturb the traffic order. They are so mobilizing, and they have to be treated like monkeys in the end! You say, Why bother?"

Because it was the driver's question, although Du Yu twitched the corners of his lips, he was not ready to answer.Instead, Lu Yinke nonchalantly took out his mobile phone and snapped a photo, zooming in and absent-mindedly replied: "Who knows? But people should be responsible for their own actions. I would be annoyed if I were a firefighter."

Du Yu was stunned, his fingers holding the handlebar were curled together unintentionally, he turned his head slightly stiffly, staring at Lu Yinke with some incomprehension.

"...What did you just say?" He suddenly lowered his head, coughed twice with tremors on his back, his voice was hoarse but forceful, "What is the difference between what you said and asking her why she still doesn't dance?"

"Huh? No, I didn't mean that..." Lu Yinke hurriedly took out the thermos cup in his bag and unscrewed the cap, "Don't get excited, don't get excited, drink some water, you're still sick. Why don't you come and lie down for a while, just in time If you don’t have a car, you can sleep a little first.”

"This is yours, I can't drink it." Du Yu shook his head to signal him to take it away, but there was a hint of confusion and irritation in his tone, "But how could you say such mean words?"

Lu Yinke twisted back the bottle cap embarrassingly, "But we really can't change anything? Could it be that you shouted a few words over there with a loudspeaker so that she doesn't want to dance anymore? Impossible. This is her own decision. In case Does she just feel that living is more tiring than dying? Could it be possible to save her and get better?"

"But as long as you are alive, there is hope. Anyway, it can't be worse than it is now, right?" Du Yu nervously observed the situation outside the window. A firefighter dressed in orange and yellow was hanging from the rope quietly from top to bottom. Climbing, "No one is decisive in the face of death. If she really wanted to jump off, she would not choose such a short building, such a time, and even less such a way."

"She doesn't really want to jump, she obviously wants someone to help her. Unfortunately, what she got in exchange was a group of more disheartened bystanders."

"...you don't mean to include me in this group of people?" Lu Yinke frowned listening to his thorny words, "Yes, what you said is indeed reasonable, but after all, she is just strangers to us, What are you thinking about so much? You might as well think about how to cure your illness when you have this time. "

Du Yu stared at him without any threat, and said pointedly: "I can't control other people, and you and I can't talk about it? I just don't understand why you can put on such an insignificant attitude in the first place." Posture? Why do you make it sound like she deserves it?"

"Don't misinterpret my meaning! I didn't say she deserved it! I just said that she should bear the consequences she brought. If she really jumped, no matter whether she was killed or injured, it would be her consequences; being watched is also a consequence, and so is being on the news. Consequences." He paused, "Maybe she just wanted to be on the news to protest society?"

"There are too many people like this in society, and there are too many things. You can't manage it. There's really no need to work yourself out. Go and sleep for a while, and you'll be home when you wake up."

Du Yu didn't have time to pay attention to him, because the firefighters had already quietly descended on the woman.

The sudden appearance of the firefighter startled the woman. She panicked and trembled and threatened, but the firefighter ignored her, picked her up quickly, and pushed her back to the window next to her. The reception staff waiting by the window quickly pushed her back into the room.

When the farce finally came to an end, Du Yu couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

He pushed Lu Yinke sideways, put himself back in his original position with the thrust, put his hands in his pockets and fell asleep again.

"If everyone in the world is your idea, there will be no warmth to speak of in society, only indifferent relationships and interests." He closed his eyes and said to himself, "Don't easily deny the value of other people's existence. Even if it's not worth mentioning to you, someone will cry about it."