The director is too flirtatious

The mother was pushed out of the operating room with a pale face. Her feet had already been put in a plaster cast. It was distressing to see her lack of energy.My dad and I hurried up to meet him, and anxiously asked, "Mom, how do you feel?"

Only then did my mother realize that I was here, she seemed to be in a trance for a while, and then she focused on me.I saw that she saw me and was about to speak, but suddenly she saw her eyes closed, as if she didn't see me, and said, "Old Xu, I'm tired."

My father didn't expect that my mother would ignore me. He looked slightly surprised, and immediately shook his mother's hand, "Hey, okay, then you can sleep for a while when you are tired."

When I saw my mother like this, tears burst out of my grievances. The nurse pushing the bed next to me looked at our mother and daughter in surprise and didn't speak.I was so wronged, my heart was trembling, and I couldn't help but say: "Mom...don't ignore me..."

I thought about my mother scolding me, but I never thought that my mother would choose to ignore me.This was more uncomfortable than her choosing to scold me. I reached out to grab my mother's wrist, but my mother swung it away without opening her eyes the whole time.

When my father saw this, he patted my shoulder reassuringly, and said softly: "Your mother is tired, let's talk about it later."

My mother didn't want to talk to me, and my heart ached.I nodded, followed behind my mother, and pushed into the ward.

The nurse was lifting my mother's feet, while the attending doctor and my father were talking about precautions. I stood beside my mother's hospital bed and looked at her pale and thin face. The guilt in my heart made it difficult for me to breathe.

It has been more than a month since I left home last time.Although my mother said during the constant quarrels on the phone that she could not sleep all night and became thinner, but without seeing it with your own eyes, it is really hard for you to believe that there will be such a big change in more than a month.

The mother's face actually looked very kind, before she came out of the closet.With curved eyebrows and a kind smile, his cheeks are slightly fleshy. Although he is old, he looks calm and indifferent.

Everything changed after coming out and I never saw my mom smile after that.Every meeting is a hysterical quarrel, and the original kindness has become sharp and extreme.

But now, after my mother regained her calm face, I noticed that my mother had become so haggard under the cover of no emotion.Deep sunken eye sockets, gray hair on the temples, and the tightness of wrinkles can be clearly seen even with eyes closed.Her originally plump lips also became dry and wrinkled, tightly pursed, appearing a bit stubborn.

Originally, there was a little fat on the cheeks, but now all of them are gone.As the cheeks became thinner, the cheekbones appeared to be particularly prominent. As I watched, tears began to flood.

When I saw it with my own eyes, I realized how much I love such a mother.Wang Xiaoya said that coming out of the closet is a battle of selfishness, and now I have finally experienced it personally.

How cruel is it to be able to look at your mother's haggard look and be indifferent?

I want to hug my mother, I want to comfort her, I want to say that I am really fine now, and the director is also great and excellent.But at this moment, I really can't say a word.

I clearly know that my mother has never accepted everything about me so far, so how can I bear to bring it up again?In my mother's mind, no matter how good the director is, if he is not a man, isn't that the original sin?

I backed down, and it was the director who got hurt.I don't budge, and it's my mother who gets hurt.

I stood silently for a long time, and my mother didn't open her eyes.The doctors and nurses went out after finishing their own affairs, and there was no one else in the ward except the three of us.

Dad walked over and looked at mom's injured foot carefully, then leaned down in front of mom, and asked softly: "The anesthetic has not expired yet, let's sleep for a while now."

After the anesthetic wears off, the injured calf will definitely ache.Mom didn't respond to Dad, but it didn't prevent Dad from kissing Mom's forehead, "Go to sleep, I'm right here."

After my father said this, he greeted me and left the ward together.As soon as I got out of the ward, I faced my father who always doted on me, and tears fell. I covered my mouth, feeling so sad that I couldn't control it. "Woo...Dad, Mom...Mom, she ignores me."

The emotions of guilt, anxiety, and sadness were entangled together, turning into a black mist and wrapping my heart tightly.I cried softly and leaned on Dad's shoulder.

Dad hugged me distressedly, sighed and said: "Your mother is too... just can't think about it for a while."

I was on the verge of shaking from crying, "It's not what I thought...it's not what I wanted..."

Facing my mother's questioning at that time, I came out because I knew that I could no longer escape.I chose to face this matter, so I told my mother frankly.I thought of my mother's objection and the quarrel between the two, but I didn't think that my mother would have an accident because of me.

I really really have no way to forgive myself. My mother, who I have always respected and loved, had an accident because of me.

I couldn't breathe because of the guilt, and with my mother ignoring me, I really felt like I was going to die.I hid on my father's shoulder and cried in pain, and my tears soon wet my father's shoulder.

Dad gently stroked my hair, but didn't know how to comfort me.In fact, Dad really didn't mean to blame me at all?He has such a good relationship with his mother, but he saw everything turn out like this with his own eyes. Does he really not blame me at all?

I don't know, I don't know anything, but the "selfishness" that my mother said before keeps echoing in my mind, and I can't control it at all.

My body trembled slightly, those intertwined images and the word selfish were arguing in my mind, which made me have a splitting headache.

Dad kept comforting me until my body stopped shaking so badly, then he said slowly, "Yinian, Dad doesn't express any opinion on you and Director Yuan being together, but you also saw your mother, and you are What do you think?"

I was silent and didn't know what to say.Dad continued, "Are you really ready to go on the road of homosexuality? The gossip in the society, the incomprehension of family relatives, are you ready for all these?"

"Don't blame your mother for saying you are selfish. You can ignore it and be cool outside, but it is your parents who face relatives and friends. Your mother looks at other people's daughters. They are younger than you, and the children have already passed away. After being born, can your mother not feel uncomfortable? Not to mention, when your mother was suppressing her heartache, someone asked, Teacher Lu, has your daughter had a boyfriend?"

"You also know that you are smart and well-behaved since you were a child, and you are very popular with neighbors in the community. When those neighbors see your mother, they will ask about your situation and want to introduce you. Your mother is repeatedly treated like this by others. Ask, but you're gay, can your mother tell them that?"

"But... but mother can just refuse directly, just say that I don't want to get married..." My heart throbbed when I heard it, but I couldn't help but refute.

"Don't you understand? The difficulty is not how your mother rejects others, but that your mother has already started to feel sad when she heard these questions. Just bear with it, bear with your mother's heartache while smiling Explain, isn't my daughter in a hurry now?"

"It's still too difficult for your mother." When Dad talked about his mother, his face was full of distress.The love of my parents is well known. My mother has always been held in the palm of my father's hand and loves her very much, so he loves her very much. It has become a topic that she can't talk about, how can she not feel uncomfortable?"

"Dad...do you also find it hard to say?" I heard words in my father's words that I didn't want to believe.

"It's not difficult for me to say, but for others, isn't it?" Dad said calmly and cruelly: "Isn't it difficult for people of the same age to say that my daughter is gay?"

I parted my lips, but found myself unable to refute.In the eyes of most elders in the Celestial Dynasty, this itself is an unacceptable thing.

"You mother and daughter have quarreled to the point where, no matter what the result is, I will always be your father, and this will not change." Dad maintained his neutral attitude, "It's just what you should do, you should think about it It is."

After Dad finished speaking, he patted my shoulder again, "I'll go see your mother."

I nodded in a daze, and my father went back to the ward.

I stood outside the ward for a long time, and then I stood aside in a daze when I heard someone ask me to make way.Another patient in the ward came back, pushing a young man and a woman by the side of the bed.

I regained my senses, managed to restrain myself, and entered the ward.At this time, my mother had opened her eyes, and my father was talking to her softly.

I walked towards my mother anxiously, and called out in a low voice, "Mom."

My voice was very low, but my mother obviously heard it. She stiffened for a moment, but refused to answer me, and continued to talk to my father: "This orange is not delicious, how did you buy it? Didn't I teach you how to pick it? "

"I bought it in a hurry, so I didn't pay attention to it. I'll buy some more later." Dad comforted.

And the young woman behind me said: "Mom, are you tired? Do you want to sleep for a while?"

The woman lying on the hospital bed complained, but her tone was very relieved, "I'm fine, I've said it's just a minor injury, you guys are the ones making a fuss."

"That's not the way to say it. You've been hurt for a hundred days. Auntie, you still have to rest well and make up for it." The young man said.

"That's it."

"Hey, I can't stand the two of you, Aru, you really are, it's fine if you come here, why do you let Xiao Hu come here?"

"Hee hee, as your prospective son-in-law, shouldn't he take this opportunity to show more performance?"

Hearing this, my body trembled slightly, and then I looked at my mother.Sure enough, my mother's face became even paler, and her relaxed state became tense again.

My heart ached, my father winked at me, I was a little flustered, and said helplessly, "I... I'll go out first."

I almost escaped out of the ward, but standing in the corridor outside, I found that I didn't know where to go.It seems that standing here is wrong, my existence is wrong.

I'm so sad, I really want to hide in the director's arms and cry bitterly.But I dare not let the supervisor see me like this, otherwise she will blame herself.But I was so sad, so sad that I didn't know what else to do.

Trembling, I took out my phone and dialed Wang Xiaoya's number.

"Hey... little girl, are you free?"

I stood outside the ward again for a long time, until Wang Xiaoya hurried over.

Watching Wang Xiaoya jogging over on her short legs from a distance, it was obviously a funny scene, but my tears flowed down like a floodgate.

Seeing me like this, Wang Xiaoya was startled, and before she could catch her breath, she hurriedly asked, "What's wrong?"

I hugged her with trembling lips, and hugged her tightly, as if she was my only salvation.

"Little... Xiaoya, my mother was in a car accident... because I... was in a car accident..."