dust with light

Things always happen inadvertently, so quietly, so ignorantly.

Zhuo Yuchen didn't expect Zheng Yan to leave so quickly.

He has lived by the seaside for a whole month, and he has become a little lazy after getting used to Zheng Yan's meticulous care.In the past, he had a regular schedule, and his biological clock would automatically remind him to get up in the morning, but now... because Zheng Yan would call him every day, Zhuo Yuchen's biological clock has slowed down.

On this day, he slept until the sun was shining on the head of the pole before waking up.

Zhuo Yuchen opened his eyes in a daze, the sunlight on the beach was abundant, and it was warm on his body, making him feel tired, and he just wanted to lie down like this and sleep comfortably for a whole day.

"Zheng Yan...why didn't you wake me up..." He couldn't help rolling up the quilt.

As a result, Zhuo Yuchen heard a chuckle.

Zheng Yan's voice is very low, and when he laughs, his voice is deep and magnetic, but now the laughter he hears is refreshing and clean, which is quite different from Zheng Yan's voice.Zhuo Yuchen suddenly became bewildered, now he can already tell from the voice whether it is Zheng Yan... This kind of memory makes him subconsciously uneasy, he always feels that Zheng Yan is branding his soul forever Go imprint.

He was terrified of the feeling of engraving someone in his heart.

"Yuchen, you're awake," the person sitting by his bed smiled again, Zhuo Yuchen looked up, only to find that it was Zheng Haoran who came, "Cousin, he has something to do, he left early this morning, I He was transferred to take care of you."

"Where did he go?" Zhuo Yuchen asked subconsciously.

Zheng Haoran hesitated for a moment, before saying: "He has gone to deal with the Shen family's affairs...my cousin, he is helping you deal with Shen Ye."

"..."

Zhuo and Chen bowed their heads and remained silent.

Seeing his complex expression, Zheng Haoran felt a chill in his heart.He also knew the entanglement between Zhuo Yuchen and Shen Ye, and now Zheng Yan went to take revenge on Shen Ye... He was a little worried and uneasy, what if Zhuo Yuchen still cared about Shen Ye?

Compared with Zheng Yan, Zheng Haoran couldn't stand it even more, Zhuo Yuchen and Shen Ye were together.

Now he has no ability to get Zhuo Yuchen's nostalgia, so he can only endure the sourness in his heart, and guard Zhuo Yuchen honestly.

When the other party is happy, he is happy; when the other party is sad, he is also sad.

"I know about this," Zhuo Yuchen said after a while, "Zheng Yan told me, but didn't he ask you to deal with Shen Ye's matter? Besides Shen Ye, there should be other things to urge you Him, let him go back?"

This time, it was Zheng Haoran who was silent.

After a long time.

Zheng Haoran let out a long sigh of relief: "Cousin, he went back this time to treat mental disorders."

Zhuo Yuchen was startled slightly.

He didn't expect that Zheng Yan actually remembered what he had said.

Zhuo Yuchen's mood became extremely complicated.

He remembered Zheng Yan's promise to him again, and suddenly felt his heart throbbing involuntarily.He didn't understand why he was like this, grievance, sadness, astonishment... Countless emotions rushed into his heart like waves, catching him off guard and at a loss.

When Zheng Haoran anxiously asked him what happened, Zhuo Yuchen realized that his face was already wet.

He cried.

"Are you all right, Yuchen, what's the matter?" Zheng Haoran looked terrified, he suddenly saw Zhuo Yuchen crying silently, and was so shocked that he almost lost his mind.

Zhuo Yuchen cried without making a sound, just shedding tears silently, which made Zheng Haoran's heart ache.

He wanted to hug Zhuo Yuchen, comfort him, and tell him that he was here.But when he thought that he was not qualified to be close to Zhuo Yuchen, Zheng Haoran only felt a bitter taste in his heart.

"fine."

Zhuo Yuchen wiped his face casually, letting tears wet his sleeves.

"Did you make the medicine for me? I want to drink the medicine first," Zhuo Yuchen lowered his eyes, could he try to believe it again?He opened his mouth, "I... wait for him to come back."

If he can come back.

***

Zhuo Yuchen is not from the Department of Literature. He has always been unimpressed with poetry and distant places. In his opinion, those winds, flowers, snows and moons are just spring and snow, and have nothing to do with a humble person like him who is in the dust.

But the days of waiting for Zheng Yan's return at the beach were too boring. Zheng Haoran always maintained an attitude of wanting to get close to him but not daring to get close to him. He was timid, and Zhuo Yuchen had nothing in common with him The topic, all day long, can hardly say a word.

This gave Zhuo Yuchen a rare "leisure" in reading books.

He came across a little poem by chance:

i could have endured the dark

if i never saw the sun

But the sun has made me desolate

become a renewed desolation

——"Had I not seen the Sun"

At the beginning, he forgot after reading it, and didn't take the little poem to heart.

It wasn't until two full months passed and Zheng Yan didn't come back that he suddenly thought of this little poem in a daze.

He didn't understand why he felt a sudden and uncontrollable sadness in his heart.

Finally, one night he couldn't bear it anymore. After counting the deposits in his hands, Zhuo Yuchen simply walked to the door of Zheng Haoran's room, wanting to knock on the door and ask Zheng Haoran what's going on with Zheng Yan .

He has checked privately that the best cure for stress disorder is medication combined with psychological counseling. Zheng Yan hasn't come back for so long, and he didn't even make a phone call. Maybe the treatment has fallen into a bottleneck.

Zhuo Yuchen recalled Zheng Yan's appearance again, and that person persistently whispered in his ear, saying that he is the best medicine for the other party... If the treatment is really deadlocked, then he can go to Zheng Yan instead .

Anyway... try to believe it again?

As a result, he walked to the door, only to find that Zheng Haoran's door was half-closed, and there was still a muffled voice coming from the room.

Zhuo Yuchen lowered his eyes, and subconsciously hid by the door, eavesdropping.

"Yes...cousin, are you...really planning to reconcile with the Shen family, and then get engaged to the eldest daughter of the Shen family?" Zheng Haoran's voice trembled, as if he couldn't believe it, "No...I have no objection, I I haven’t even seen the face of the young lady. How can I have a crush on her...ah? What I want to say, why haven’t you returned to your place to help after so long? That...I...I’ll go back right away. Brother... can I ask you something?"

"Did you...forget that someone is waiting for you?"

"I didn't forget... I didn't forget anything... Are you serious... He's still waiting for you, it took him so much... Yu Chen, he's still waiting for you..."

Zhuo Yuchen closed his eyes.

In the silent night, he heard a faint voice.The voice was deep and magnetic, and he was extremely familiar with it.

"Yu Chen? Who is that?"

His heart is as desolate as a wilderness.