city ​​of angels

That coin caused Ah Chong to be in a bad mood.

And he didn't like to talk to drunks, and then Ah Chong stopped talking and looked at Ning Yu who was opposite him holding a coin.

Ning Yu is different from other people when he is drunk. He doesn't go crazy with alcohol. After a while of excitement, he is very quiet, with his head down, holding coins in a daze, not knowing what he is thinking.

Ah Chong saw that this person didn't need to worry, so he went to the bathroom to wash up.

It was inconvenient for him to operate with one hand when wiping his body, and it was only then that Ah Chong realized that he seemed a little coquettish, probably because he was used to being taken care of these days.

When he came out, Ah Chong found that Ning Yu had cleaned up the table and was sitting on a chair with his back to him, writing something at his desk.

This picture is a bit weird.Ah Chong walked over lightly to have a look. On the table was the schoolbag that Ning Yu carried every day. This person had a copy of XXX Advanced English Grammar by his hand, and there was a teaching PPT on the iPad, and Ning Yu seemed to be... English essay.

Ah Chong was puzzled for a moment before he remembered that this person was working part-time as an English teacher.

... I don't know if I'm really drunk or fake drunk, I start reading when I'm drunk... There aren't many normal people who would study while drunk... But if they're not drunk, they don't seem to choose to study at this time.

He patted Ning Yu on the shoulder: "Why? Like studying so much?" He even learned to come to me.

Ning Yu raised his head and looked at himself, his eyes were a little scattered.

He looked at Ah Chong for a while, as if trying to identify him.

Then the person said: "I'm reading a book to sober up." He paused, changed his tone, and said, "Baby."

???

Ah Chong was stunned for a moment, and then asked: "What did you call me? Think about it carefully before speaking."

Ning Yu also looked a little embarrassed, but he still called out: "...Baby."

"..." Ah Chong squinted his eyes to confirm, "Are you really drunk?"

"You think it is." Ning Yu looked calm and nodded, "Well! I'm drunk!"

Grass.Ah Chong thought to himself, I'm going to get drunk too.

...The words that came out of Ning Yu's mouth were fatal, and the tone was silly and naive, the kind that made people want to laugh.

But Ning Yu always speaks very seriously, so when he said this kind of tired and crooked title, he inexplicably has a sense of weight that is hard to describe.It's as if... the father who is not good at words in the family called his child this once at a certain moment, which is rare and precious.

Come to think of it, no one ever called himself that.Others at home will be mother's baby, father's baby, grandparents' baby, and others must be tired of hearing it.Ah Chong thought about it, and the titles he got seemed to be little bastards, oil bottles, money-losing goods...

Ning Yu may not be much better at home.Pity him and Ning Yu, baby, no matter whether he is called Ning Yu or Ning Yu calls him, they will probably find it a little strange.

Ah Chong stretched out his hand to touch Ning Yu's head, but he hesitated before touching it.

That feeling came again.

He withdrew his hand, lowered his head slightly, and said, "Call again."

Ning Yu nodded, "Achong, baby." After speaking, he pointed to Achong, then pointed to himself, "Mine."

……Grass.

When others are drunk, they pester and act like a baby, but he calls him a baby, where did he learn it, disgusting, disgusting.

Ah Chong thought that this person should sober up, so he turned Ning Yu's head back and said, "You should continue to sober up."

Going smoothly, Ah Chong had already walked a few steps towards the sofa, but for some unknown reason, he stopped again by some mysterious circumstance.

He walked back, poked Ning Yu's shoulder, and pointed to himself, "Who am I?"

Ning Yu turned his head and looked at himself.

After drinking, Ning Yu's eyes became black and shiny for some reason.

Ah Chong was stunned for a moment.

In fact, Ning Yu's appearance is considered to be the best, with regular facial features and a heroic look between his brows and eyes. This is more in line with Ah Chong's aesthetics, and it is the kind of liking with appreciation, otherwise it would be impossible to fall in love with him at that time.

It seems to be more pleasing to the eye when drunk.

Ah Chong smiled when he saw this pretty face, and said, "It's Ah Chong."

Well, it turns out that I did not admit the wrong person.As soon as Ah Chong was about to speak, Ning Yu said again: "Do you think I'm drunk and insane."

Ah Chong frowned, he found that he couldn't tell Ning Yu's state now.It looks like drunk, but it doesn't look like it if you look closely.

Ning Yu, who was in sight, smiled, "I'm almost waking up, and I just read an English model essay on philosophy and psychology. I called you that on purpose. You called me baby once before, and then you didn't I've called. If you don't call, I will."

Well, you are great.Ah Chong tilted his head slightly, and asked Ning Yu: "Then do you think I am the real Ah Chong, or a fake Ah Chong?"

They looked at each other for a while, Ning Yu's eyes slowly focused on Ah Chong's face, and he smiled.

"Sometimes it's true, sometimes it's false. Usually it's false when you're laughing outside, and it's true when you're eating snacks at home." Ning Yu spoke slowly, "All make up you, a part of you, but not completely you, theory In general, the whole is greater than the sum of its parts.”

Ah Chong shook his head and smiled: "I don't understand. Why are you stupid and smart at the same time after drinking?"

"For me, doing difficult work while drunk is the fastest way to wake myself up." Ning Yu looked serious, "We can discuss the whole and part of the problem."

Ah Chong suppressed a smile, thought for a while, and nodded: "There is no need to discuss, you talk, I will listen."

Just listen to it.Ah Chong pulled a chair over and listened to Ning Yu.

"For example... just like when observing and understanding a person's affairs, shortcomings don't mean everything, and advantages don't mean everything." Ning Yu spoke clearly, his tone seemed to be lecturing, "Venus doesn't have arms, but people Appreciate her incompleteness. We must learn to see the whole, not the parts..."

He talked for a long time.

In the beginning, Ah Chong was a little impatient, but Ning Yu spoke very slowly and seriously. Ah Chong thought, anyway, this person seems to be drunk, so I can let go of my arrogance in front of knowledge occasionally.Ning Yu kept talking, and Ah Chong listened in silence.

In fact, I can't understand it very well, I can only understand the general idea, and I don't like listening very much, after all, this kind of thing is easy to make people sleepy.

Ah Chong just likes to listen to Ning Yu.Why I like it, I can't say.Just like he can't understand why he likes to listen to Ning Yu's reading, maybe people feel that what they lack is beyond reach?But whether you want it or not is another matter.

He thought, if he had met such a patient teacher as Ning Yu before, maybe his life would be different.

Faye Wong's songs are playing all the time.Ah Chong didn't listen carefully to Ning Yu's speech, but went to listen to Faye Wong's singing instead.He hummed a few words, wanted to light a cigarette, and was wondering whether to disrespect this 'teacher', when Ah Chong noticed that Ning Yu's rambling voice had stopped.

Maybe the atmosphere is a bit suitable for doing something, so I started to feel awkward after looking at each other.

But Chong is a veteran at breaking embarrassment.He thought Ning Yu's appearance was funny, so he thought about it, and said, "Stop it? Let's not talk about it, how about we guess the brain teaser?"

Reciprocity, you talk about philosophy, I talk about brain teasers.

Ning Yu nodded after reacting. He subconsciously nodded to Ah Chong.

Ah Chong smiled and asked: "Watermelon, cucumber, wax gourd, pumpkin, cantaloupe, there are so many melons you can eat, what kind of melons can't you eat?"

Ning Yu frowned, he didn't pay attention to listen, looked at Ah Chong, he couldn't hear the sound.

Ah Chong looked at Ning Yu with a half-smile, and said, "Fool."

The princess glanced under the table at this time.

Fool, Ning Yu repeated these two words in his mind.He stared at Chong, thinking why his body seemed to be floating up, without real feeling, there was a gravitational force pulling his consciousness towards Chong, and he couldn't pull it back.

"The second question." Chong said, "This time the question is, you can do it, I can do it, everyone can do it, one person can do it, two people can't do it together, what is this?"

Do whatever you want.

Ning Yu didn't want to answer the strange brain teaser, he looked at Ah Chong, and said without answering: "From the beginning, I have hallucinations... I can't see anything else clearly, I can only see your face. With your mouth, you say it's strange or not."

Ah Chong raised his eyebrows.

After speaking, Ning Yu stood up, and he pressed over directly, as if he wanted to ask for a kiss.

Many things happened that night, some things probably scared Ning Yu, and some things disturbed and annoyed Ah Chong.So Ah Chong chose to push Ning Yu away directly, rejecting this possibly inappropriate kiss.

Ah Chong leaned against Ning Yu's shoulder and said lightly:

"The answer is, dreaming."

That refusal made Ning Yu embarrassed for a long time.

Achong looked amused, opened his mouth lazily, and asked, "Can you still guess the brain teaser?"

Ning Yu shook his head.

Ah Chong asked again: "Are you sober?"

Ning Yu shook his head, nodded, then shook his head hesitantly.He knew that Ah Chong was unhappy, but he didn't know why.

Ah Chong said, "What do you think you should do when you wake up?"

time to go.

Ning Yu was stunned for a long time, after thinking for a while, he glanced at a few books exposed in his bag from the corner of his eye, and immediately walked over as if he had caught a life-saving straw, and said hastily: "I... let me read to you , I'll leave when you fall asleep."

Ah Chong was startled, "Did you bring the book?"

"Bring it, I don't know when you want to listen to it, I bring a few books every time I come." Ning Yu turned out three books and showed them to Chong, "Is that okay? I'll leave when you fall asleep."

Ah Chong looked at him for a long time before slowly nodding.Ning Yu seemed to breathe a sigh of relief.But only after he breathed a sigh of relief, Ah Chong stood up again and said, "Go to bed and read."

Ning Yu looked up in surprise.

Ah Chong raised his eyebrows and smiled, "Don't you want to read it until I fall asleep and leave?"

Ning Yu bowed his head and slowly answered: "Well, good."

After entering the room, Ah Chong leaned against the head of the bed, pointed to the seat next to him, and said, "You can be next to me."

Ning Yu leaned carefully beside Ah Chong.

Their shoulders touched each other, Ning Yu held the book and thought to himself, this seems to be called "shoulder to shoulder", which seems to be a better word than you hug me and I hug you.Shoulder to shoulder means leaning against each other, not who gives more and who gets less, just leaning together.

Ning Yu took out the book and asked Ah Chong which book to read.

A copy of "Farewell My Concubine", a copy of "Black Steed", and a copy of "1984".Ah Chong raised his eyes and glanced over. He thought the book cover of "Farewell My Concubine" was the prettiest, so he pointed to that one.

"It's quite famous, and there's a movie, but I haven't seen it." Ning Yu asked Ah Chong, "Have you seen it?"

Achong shook his head, "Looks like a literary film? I don't often watch literary films."

Ning Yu nodded, "Me too."

At that time, none of them knew what this random book would bring them.

Ning Yu opened the book and read the first sentence: "——Bitches are ruthless, actors are ruthless."

"——Bitch should be affectionate in bed, actor, you can only be righteous on stage."

Ning Yu didn't notice that Ah Chong sat up slightly when he heard the first sentence.

At first Ning Yu didn't take the content of the book to heart, he just wanted to find an excuse to stay and stay with Ah Chong for a while.Moreover, Ning Yu felt that this book was a bit difficult to read, and he couldn't find the language sense.When he was stuck, he turned to the author's introduction and saw that the author was from Hong Kong.

Ning Yu thought to himself, why is this writer writing a book in a weird way? He was afraid that Ah Chong would not understand.

But probably the power of a story is not the words, but the plot itself. Anyway, while reading it, Ning Yu began to get into the drama.

Ning Yu has never encountered such a situation.He didn't like listening to stories, especially fictional ones like this one, but as he read it, he began to feel that Xiaodouzi, who was cut off by his mother and brought to the theater troupe...how so pitiful.

It may be that the wine made this night and them more emotional. As I read, Ning Yu became more and more involved in the drama.

"—Only Xiaodouzi, in a strange environment, in the dark. The wound started to hurt. All of a sudden, a piece of connected flesh and blood was missing. It was gone, and he hurt even more."

When he was brought to the theater troupe, the master beat him every time.

"——with eyes wide open, dazed, gritted teeth, and endured. In the quiet night, Wuer whimpered, chirping intermittently, like a ghost crying. The little scorpion was on the other side, thinking of mother: '...Mother, I can't take it anymore... just beat me to death...'"

Kill it?

Ning Yu was very depressed when he read this paragraph, what did he think of.After reading this paragraph in a daze, he looked up, and found that Ah Chong actually sat up straight, looking at himself with a strange expression.

Ning Yu was still thinking that he might have lost his composure, but Ah Chong actually opened his mouth and said: "...Why are you so pitiful."

As soon as those words came out, Ning Yu's hands trembled inexplicably.

Ah Chong added: "The child is still very young, isn't he?"

Ning Yu subconsciously squeezed the book tightly in his hand. After drinking, he was less cautious than usual, and asked Ah Chong directly: "Where did those old scars on your body come from?"

A Chong didn't speak.

Ning Yu squeezed the book tightly, "Did the third sister hit you?"

"Ning Yu..."

After finishing speaking, A Chong sighed.The voice of Ning Yu sounded like a stop.

But at night, his voice sounded a little fragile, which was rare.

"You..." Ning Yu endured and endured, and still said, "Little Douzi and Xiao Shitou feel distressed, you don't even say it, who do you want me to love?"

Ah Chong was quiet for a while, then he raised his head, hesitated for a while, and then said, "I don't feel any pain anymore."

Doesn't hurt anymore?

Ning Yu didn't realize that his hand holding the book was shaking. It was difficult for him to control his emotions at first, and his words seemed to be gnashing his teeth: "I'm in pain, is that okay?"

A Chong didn't answer that sentence.

After a long time, he patted Ning Yu's head and said relaxedly: "I forgot. Keep reading, don't stop."

Ning Yu stared at Achong for a long time, and vented his anger to no avail, so he turned his face away and continued reading sullenly.

and then.

Then he read that Xiaodouzi misspoken the scene between the girl Jiao'e and the boy, Xiaodouzi was pierced by Xiaoshi with a cigarette stick, Xiaodouzi and Xiaoshitou met Zhang Gonggong, Zhang Gonggong took Xiaodouzi...

The more Ning Yu read, the lower his voice became, and the more Ah Chong listened, the more silent he became.

While reading, Ning Yu began to have illusions.

In the drunkenness, on this night of excessive emotional consumption, at the moment when his nerves were tense and he seemed to be slowly losing himself, Ning entered the world in the book in a daze, and he felt...as if he had become that little bean .I can't tell where I found the similarity, I can't tell.The sorrows and joys of human beings may not be connected, but human beings are inherently lonely, and they will cherish those who are similar to themselves.

The storyteller puts himself into the book, but he can't tell who is who.

Who are you, who am I, and where are they? They all seem fake. The wine pushed emotions onto the stage. The illusion was so real. Ning Yu suddenly heard the voice of a Danjiao in his head, and then Suona , baner, erhu, sheng, qin, drum, so loud, so noisy.

He thought, at this moment, I seem to have turned into that little Douzi... I became that little Douzi in the remaining drunkenness, I became that lonely and helpless person who only had drama in his life, only his senior brother... Cheng Die Clothes.

"—People who admire him and admire him are all in love. Who is he?—Men treat him as a woman, and women treat him as a man. Who is he?"

Who is he?

who are you?

who am I?

"——everyone is fixed in the frame, the earth is forever, under the eyes of the patriarch, each has his own destiny, each has his own destiny... One stroke, two strokes, the youth is changed secretly... White sugar is mixed with honey—sweetness is sweetened. "

Ning Yu was a little choked up reading.

It's obviously sweeter and sweeter, but he seems to have sensed something in the dark.The old days and the vicissitudes of life are just a joke.

Ning Yu paused for a long time, he didn't know how to read.

It's obviously someone else's story, but he seems to have lost himself, forgetting who he is.Reading, I read that Xiaodouzi has become Cheng Dieyi, and Xiaoshi has become Duan Xiaolou, they began to change, and I read that the story probably has parting, life and death.

Why... a story must have an ending?Ning Yu thought drunkenly, why?He couldn't figure it out.So what about the story between him and Ah Chong, where will it end?

He stopped.Alcohol stimulated the blood in his body to heat up. He tried not to cry, but the hand holding the book began to shake.

At this time, Ah Chong suddenly stretched out his hand and held Ning Yu's arm.

"Continue reading." Achong's gaze was a bit complicated, but his voice was steady and comforting, "I'm listening."

Ning Yu stared at him blankly, then turned his head to read in a daze, and read on——

He read that Duan Xiaolou was going to marry Juxian.He read about Cheng Dieyi and Yuan Siye... He read about Duan Xiaolou taking the sword Yu Ji committed suicide, Cheng Dieyi took the sword and went to see Duan Xiaolou get married.

"—and only this sword is his own. There is nothing else. He didn't have to pretend when he went, he knew it, but he went. Tonight, stumbling back from a man's hand, It's not about escaping back, it's about going all out. He resolutely and without regret, took revenge on another man's change of heart."

That's right, he doesn't have anything from Ah Chong either, he only has a pair of shoes from Ah Chong.But if Cheng Dieyi could look for Fourth Master Yuan, who else could he look for?He loved Ah Chong, how could he fall in love with someone else?

Ning Yu knew that his voice should be terrifying now.He broke out in cold sweat while reading, and always felt that his body was cold and hot for a while.Ah Chong kept holding his wrist, his strength getting tighter and tighter.

The story hit them, but for different reasons, and in this moment, they let go of their pretense and some persistence.

They maintained this posture, as if they were supporting each other, and continued to listen to the story.

Drunkenness rushed to his head completely, and Ning Yu finally found an outlet for his emotions. He began to resent the Xiaolou Duan in the book.

He read faster and faster, listen carefully to his tone, it seems that there is hatred, it seems that there is madness, mixed with a little love, and more of it is unspeakable resentment.

"——Dieyi looked back, with a faint face. 'Brother, you are married, and I have to sing a one-man show from now on'."

married.

When reading this sentence, Ning Yu was in a daze.

Ning Yu thought, Duan Xiaolou is married, and Ah Chong.I have to leave soon, when will I disappear in Ah Chong's life?What about after disappearing?

With Ju Xian's Duan Xiaolou, Cheng Dieyi became a lonely Concubine Yu, and they could no longer sing a good farewell concubine.

What about Ah Chong?Will Ah Chong do it too?It is not clear whether he will go to a certain place, tired, want to stop, and want to find a chrysanthemum who loves him.What about yourself?

What about myself.

Ning Yu put down the book, put down the book numbly, and turned his head.

Between him and Ah Chong there is a book of Farewell My Concubine that cannot be read.Ning Yu looked at Ah Chong blankly, relatively speechless, but seemed to be caught in something.

They stared at each other, the air was so quiet, there was no sound, but it was tidal, as if someone had already wept the air.

Ah Chong raised his eyes, only to realize that it was Ning Yu who was crying.

He didn't cry loudly, but wept quietly in a daze.This is the first time Ah Chong sees Ning Yu cry, it seems to be for a story, but it doesn't seem to be.

Ah Chong knew that the tears of people like Ning Yu were very few and rare, so they were very precious.

Ah Chong didn't think Ning Yu was ridiculous this time, because he was also a little depressed and sad.

He heard Ning Yu ask himself: "Will you marry Juxian?"

Achong frowned: "?"

Before he could answer, Ning Yu asked again: "Why do you want to marry Immortal Ju?"

Ah Chong: "..."

"Can you not marry Immortal Ju?" Ning Yu's tone was trembling, "Third Sister doesn't love you, I love you, and I won't let others beat you!"

"I can take good care of you, I'm much better than Immortal Ju!" Ning Yu's tone was sharp, his eyes were so red that he started to speak incoherently, and he pulled Achong's hand in grief, "If you get married, I... don't know How can I... I can't forget you..."

Speechless.

Ah Chong sighed, Ning Yu was probably frightened and drunk after several stimulations tonight.

Fine.

Achong thought to himself, if an actor has no righteousness and only has righteousness on stage, then I should only play a play with him.When it comes to acting, there is one episode after another, sex and love, one night after another, whether it is serious or not, isn't that the way it is.

"You even lifted my hijab, what kind of Juxian do you want me to marry? Don't cry, if you cry again, I'll fucking kick you out of bed."

Ning Yu was stunned.

Ah Chong looked at him coldly—crying, crying, what's the use of crying?Lao Tzu was beaten so badly back then, it's not like he didn't shed a single tear.

Chrysanthemum fart fairy.

Ah Chong wiped Ning Yu's tears, and said in an impatient tone, "There is no chrysanthemum fairy tonight, the play is over. Take off your clothes, we want a bridal chamber now."