city ​​of angels

When Ning Yu was silent across from him, Ah Chong was thinking about Buddha.

Master said that when we practice, what we cultivate is not merit, but compassion.When we recite sutras, what we recite is not Buddhist stories, but the purity of the six sense organs.I put my palms together and bow my head, not to be inferior, but to be in awe of living beings.Belief in Buddhism is not belief in the gods themselves, but belief in karma and retribution.

Ah Chong didn't believe the rest, but only believed in the sentence of karma and retribution.He knew what the third sister said was right, when traveling in the rivers and lakes, one should avoid touching the truth, and besides, he was not a very clean person, although he didn't have a life in his hands, they were still dirty and couldn't be washed clean.

His mother planted on a love character, his father planted on a righteous character, and the ending was not happy.According to the third sister, and the way of life that the third sister taught him, it is best to go all the way to the dark. It is better to trust a dog than to trust a person. From the perspective of Ah Chong's past experience, this sentence is actually correct .

Things have cause and effect, people have retribution, Ah Chong believed in this sentence.So this Ning Yu who appeared in his life node should actually be said to be a big trouble.

This is destined to be a restless night.

Ning Yu has been restless and depressed.He wondered if this would be the last night he could come to Ah Chong's house.He was even thinking that if Ah Chong rejected him because of the third sister...he would no longer have a valid reason to stay.It doesn't matter anything else, but if Ah Chong is to be treated like the third sister, Ning Yu will only feel sad.

He was in a daze, and heard Ah Chong suddenly say to himself: "Did the third sister scare you?"

Before Ning Yu could figure out how to answer, Ah Chong said again, "Don't pay too much attention, that's how she is."

Ning Yu frowned, and his tone was displeased: "Although you say this...but your mother is too fierce, and you are still injured, how can this be done?"

"She's not my mother." After Ah Chong finished speaking, he thought about it again, and changed his phrase, "Half mother. Me and her... That's it, I'm used to it, don't worry about it, don't worry about it. She's not angry because you're a man, she would do it to anyone else."

Half mother?This... But then this habit made Ning Yu suddenly sensitive, and his face became extremely ugly, "Did she... used to beat you like that?"

Ah Chong thought to himself that I really picked the wrong topic, why did I talk about this.As a result, Ning Yu over there suddenly became excited, and before Ah Chong could speak, he asked again: "Did you fight before?"

Ah Chong immediately shook his head: "No."

"But--"

"My relationship with her...is very complicated, she is also pitiful, don't blame her." Ah Chong interrupted him directly, "I won't mention this, okay?"

Ning Yu looked at Ah Chong quietly for a while, then nodded slowly.

Ah Chong opened the pizza box brought by the third sister on the table with one hand, and said, "Try it, she made it, it should taste good."

Pizza is really delicious, with residual warmth, moderate sweetness, soft and delicious, but Ning Yu lost his appetite after eating only one piece, he is still having a hard time calming down, so he can only drink all the time, trying to suppress the restlessness in his heart .

Ah Chong nestled on the chair, suddenly pointed to a box under the cabinet, and said to Ning Yu: "It's too quiet, go get a CD and play it."

Ning Yu agreed, walked over, looked through, and found that this small box was full of Faye Wong's albums.He picked and picked, and finally took the top few, which were a bit old, and seemed to be the ones Ah Chong had heard of.

He asked Ah Chong: "Did you buy it?"

Ah Chong shook his head, "I knew a Cantonese person before, and he sent it to me."

Ning Yu paused before pressing the play button.

The song started to play, they clinked glasses, drank silently in the singing, and swallowed their respective thoughts.

Several songs were played, but no one spoke.

The wine warmed up his body slowly, and when Ning Yu calmed down, he began to listen to the lyrics.For some reason, under this atmosphere, Ning Yu began to feel a little tired, and also a little unspeakably stuffy.

Faye Wong is singing: the taste of the first cake, the comfort brought by the first toy.The sun goes up, the sun goes down, and the ice cream weeps.

The lyrics are also unclear.Ning Yu felt annoyed and cut the next song.He actually didn't want to listen to the music, but if he didn't listen, it would be too quiet.

Ning Yu said in a low voice: "I was thinking, maybe I should give you something too. But I don't have any special hobbies. If I like it, you probably won't like it."

After drinking, Ah Chong's eyes became a little cold and blurred.Ning Yu couldn't see the emotions in Ah Chong's eyes clearly, and couldn't see clearly, so he was depressed.

Chong said: "I thought you were going to ask about my past with the person who gave me the album."

Ning Yu paused before saying, "Do you want to talk?"

In fact, I dare not ask.

"I can tell you, it's nothing." Chong's tone was very indifferent, "He came to vacation after being broken in love, and asked me to be his private guide, and we met. He is a photographer, very interesting, likes Faye Wong and Ryuichi Sakamoto. He returned to China Send me a case of albums later and we're done."

Ning Yu was so upset that he took another sip of wine.After drinking it, he thought, this wine is undrinkable, sour.

Ah Chong was amused by Ning Yu's expression, "Ask, what else do you want to know, I still have many such stories."

Ning Yu squeezed the cup and said in a low voice after a while: "...I'm just someone you slept with, just an inconspicuous person, right?"

"It's okay, I haven't slept with many people, and I don't have many, I'm a bit picky." Achong said, "And you don't have to sleep when dating. Some people like sex, and some people don't." Like, like that Cantonese, we never slept. Who do you think I am?"

Ning Yu took another sip of wine.

He was distracted, and this time he heard Faye Wong sing: You just missed a thought, and I fell in love, what a fantasy.

Ning Yu put down the cup and said, "I know, you are very good, and many people like you."

Ah Chong snorted, and asked, "Tell me, what's wrong with me?"

The reception gave birth to courage, but it was also easy to be frustrating. Ning Yu's thoughts began to wander.

"What's so good..." Ning Yu lowered his head and smiled, "I don't seem to be very good at this kind of topic. People can talk very emotionally, and I might make it a little funny."

Ah Chong looked at him patiently: "It's okay, but you have to speak slowly, you speak Chinese too fast tonight, I can't hear you clearly."

Ning Yu exhaled and nodded.

"Just... When I was in school, I really wanted to study liberal arts, but my dad asked me to study theory. At that time, I didn't dare to say no, so I kept learning. I was relatively slow, and after studying for so long, I didn't know what I wanted to do. I don't like what I'm learning."

Ning Yu spoke slowly, "But once, I was touched by my subject, that is... we have a course on programming, and on the first page of the textbook, we are taught to write "Hello? World" with programming. I I felt that this poked me, and at that moment I seemed to see a new world."

Ah Chong nodded and asked, "This is talking about yourself, what does it have to do with me?"

Ning Yu said: "If you want to ask me what is good about you, I can't tell. I only know that you are a brand new world to me, just like the first page of a C language textbook."

After hearing this, Ah Chong was stunned for a while, and then smiled.

Once a person who is usually stern-minded says this kind of thing seriously, he will appear very sincere.

"You're pretty good at talking." Ah Chong didn't comment too much, he lowered his head and poured some wine for Ning Yu, "Did you stay with me for a long time, and I feel that you are not so reserved."

"What's the use of being reserved." Ning Yu's tone was very light, "Reserved can't catch up with you, so I can only try to be shameless."

Ah Chong laughed: "You still call my princess shameless, you are similar to her."

When the princess Ning Yu was mentioned, her face turned dark, and her speech was very eccentric: "I have to learn from her, I don't have such good luck as her."

Ah Chong still laughed, and asked him: "Then you can't catch up if you have no skin or face?"

Ning Yu didn't even lift his eyelids, "Keep chasing."

Ah Chong didn't seem to want to talk about this anymore, so he started a new topic.

"Actually, I don't think what about you, I just... Ning Yu, don't you think that people give too many additional words to relationships?" Achong said, "Everyone has to set up, what should children be like, what should boyfriends be like , What should a girlfriend be, what should be a husband, what should be a man, what should be a woman..." Ah Chong said while shaking his head.

"I hate being defined by relationships." Ah Chong felt that he was speaking in an orderly manner. "It has nothing to do with you. I just don't like to maintain long-term relationships with others. It's so easy...to hurt each other. Do you understand?"

After Ning Yu listened carefully, he nodded, "Let me put it this way, your statement is logically unreasonable. Your hypothesis was overturned and denied without factual verification, so it is not valid. In addition, I came to you, yes I want to be nice to you, not to ask for your relationship, I hope you can understand. So don't confuse me with the little boy who cried and asked you to hug and watch TV. Recently, I hugged you to watch TV. "

A Chong couldn't help laughing.

Interesting, it's much more comfortable talking to people with better brains.

Ning Yu has an advantage that Ah Chong quite likes. He has a very firm personality in his bones. Although he is sometimes stubborn, his energy is very masculine... Think about it carefully, isn't this person thinking about it all day long? Want to fuck yourself once, son of a bitch.

"Ning Yu, let me teach you a truth. If you like someone, you can think that the other person is rich, you can think that the other person is good-looking, but if you want the other person to treat you well, then you are a fool." After finishing speaking, Ah Chong felt that he was too straightforward, But he had to finish, "This is also my position. I am a person who is difficult to be moved, and I don't want you to treat me well. I don't lack this."

Ning Yu nodded: "I know, but I came to you voluntarily. Whether it succeeds or not is up to you, and whether you come or not is up to me. You taught me a lot in the past, and I don't lose."

He paused and added: "And... I didn't want to move you, what I want is that you like me."

interesting.

Achong nodded: "I've said it, I like you, but probably not the kind of liking you want. Now our place...is like a serial drama all day long, don't you feel uncomfortable?"

"So you're going to end early?" Ning Yu actually sneered, and he drank the wine in the glass in one gulp, "I'm so laughing, you're not me, how do you know I'm chasing you like this, am I not happy?"

"That's right," Ah Chong glanced at him, lit a cigarette with one hand, and said casually, "Don't you just like being hung by me?"

After hearing that sentence, Ning Yu's hands trembled, and he almost lost his grip on the cup.

He looked up at Chong, but found that Chong was not looking at him.

Ah Chong smoked with his face turned sideways, his head swaying slightly to the music, and his movements were so beautiful that it was outrageous.

This dialogue is actually not soft, but the atmosphere of the whole room is a bit blurred-a cat is sleeping on the corner of the table, there are pizza and cakes on the plate, ice cubes in the wine, and Faye Wong singing in the speakers.

She sings, give me a pair of hands, rely on you.Sing, give me eyes to see you go.She still sang, like a butterfly cannot fly through the sea, no one has the heart to blame her.

She seems to be singing about Ah Chong's current state.Ah Chong sat opposite him, Ah Chong's face blended with the indifference and boredom in Faye Wong's voice, a perfect fit.He seemed to have put on an impeccable expression and posture, waiting for Ning Yu to look over and sink in.

He said, don't you just like being hung by me? It's such a plain sentence, as if to say, no matter what posture I put on, you will be defeated by me.

it is good.Ning Yu drank that glass of wine, he thought to himself, you are right, I lost, I have never won, and I don't plan to win, I lost myself to you anyway.

After a while of silence, Ah Chong suddenly said: "Ning Yu, I used to listen to this album a lot. It's called "Only Love Strangers". I like this album."

Ning Yu stopped talking, he felt that he shouldn't speak.

Ah Chong didn't seem to want him to answer, and said to himself: "I always think that strangers will make me feel safe. On the contrary, people who have known each other for a long time will make me panic. I think... strangers are actually the most beautiful day." This kind of meeting, I met you at that time, just want to treat you as I met, a beautiful stranger. We get along politely, comfort, I will leave you in the next second, we are eternal in memory, you don’t Do you think this is good?"

Ning Yu was silent for a long time.He felt that he was a little drunk, and he was drunk when he spoke.

"I can't treat you as a stranger... My mind is now full of how to take you as my own." Ning Yu's voice became more and more trembling, "You came to recruit me, I don't care..."

"Don't talk about this yet, just relax and listen to the song." Ah Chong interrupted Ning Yu, his tone was very light, "Listen, this song is called "Butterfly"."

Butterfly.

Ning Yu also once had a butterfly, which Ah Chong painted on his neck, and he once wanted to use that butterfly to forget Ah Chong.The butterfly may not have flown across the sea, but it has flown to Bangkok.The butterfly disappeared on the neck, maybe it flew back into Ah Chong's hand, Ning Yu thought, yes, I want to get that butterfly back from him.

Ning Yu was stunned for a moment, and then slowly said: "You are also a butterfly, I can't catch you no matter what."

Ah Chong smiled and shook his head, jokingly encouraged Ning Yu: "If you try harder, you might catch it."

Ning Yu felt that he didn't have the energy to answer Ah Chong, but he finally said: "I'm afraid you ran away..."

Ah Chong raised his eyes and looked over, with a smile on his face, but his tone was still casual: "Then you should catch up too, and run faster too."

"It sounds like I've been politely turned down yet again."

Ah Chong held back his laughter, and spoke vaguely: "It's hard to say, keep working hard, who knows that a miracle will happen someday."

Ning Yu gently touched the princess under the table with his foot, and said in a low voice, "I have been unlucky, so I can only work hard. But I have worked hard... I don't really feel that you like me. This matter... Hard work really helps ?”

Ah Chong shook his head, "But if you don't work hard, you will have nothing."

Ning Yu smiled and sighed, he looked up, and sent a helpless look that seemed to be filled with "what else can I do".

Looking at it under the light, Ah Chong felt that this scene was very gentle.

He smiled: "Why are you in a hurry, play slowly."

After saying that sentence, Ah Chong suddenly realized...

His ruthlessness is the cause, and Ning Yu's intention is the result.Ah Chong doesn't understand love, he only knows that the way Ning Yu looks at him now is the motivation and cause and effect for continuing to play this game.

People will become greedy when they get it, and they can't give too much at one time.The more precious things are, the more we must be cautious. All things need to be conserved and cannot break the balance.

Later, their conversation stopped for a long time, and the room was filled with Faye Wong's voice.

Ning Yu seemed to want to get himself drunk on purpose, and drank cup after cup. Ah Chong was thinking about something and didn't bother to stop him, so he just watched this man drink.

When he found out that Ning Yu was drunk, he had already emptied two wine bottles, one bottle of red wine and one bottle of whiskey, both of which were good wines, and Ning Yuniu drank them down.

Ah Chong discovered it late because Ning Yu looked very... normal when he was drunk, and he couldn't find it without careful observation, and it was very funny.

At the beginning, Ah Chong called him a few times, asking him to change another album, but Ning Yu didn't move, holding the wine bottle in his hand, looking straight at himself.

Ah Chong yelled again, but Ning Yu suddenly said: "Can I go to Ah Chong's house tomorrow?"

Ah Chong smiled and teased him: "Guess."

Ning Yu seemed to have forgotten what he just asked. He squinted his eyes and thought for a while. There was nothing strange on his face, but a string popped out of his mouth: "3.141592653589793238462643383279502884197..."

"..." Ah Chong propped his head up and laughed. After laughing for a while, he still couldn't help laughing, and asked Ning Yu, "God, are you drunk?"

Speaking of which, I have never seen Ning Yu really drunk.In the past, the two of them in Pattaya only drank a little drunk, and they didn't get up.

Ning Yu's voice of pi reading stopped immediately, and he said, "I don't."

Ah Chong suppressed a smile, pointed to himself, and asked, "Who am I?"

Ning Yu looked at Ah Chong carefully, and answered quickly: "Jay Chou!"

Ah Chong: "?" He just finished being surprised, but in the next second, Ning Yu started singing Jay Chou's song.

Ning Yu is still very clear about his own position. His singing is really not good.He sang a few words in a low voice intermittently, shaking his head, looking silly in a silly way, it was so funny that Ah Chong was on the other side laughing like crazy, this was the first time Ah Chong felt that someone was cute when he was drunk, and he was serious about being funny.

Ah Chong actually drank a lot, but he was quite sober.After Ning Yu finished singing, Ah Chong asked, "Did you deliberately get drunk and want to stay?"

Ning Yu didn't answer, Ah Chong pointed to himself: "Do you know me? Who am I?"

Ning Yu tilted his head, stared at Ah Chong for a while, and slowly replied: "I'm dreaming again."

Ah Chong had no choice but to say, "I'm real, come and touch it!"

Ning Yu turned a deaf ear and began to dig around himself. Ah Chong was curious, and saw that this person touched a coin and came out.

Ah Chong was in a daze, Ning Yu suddenly stood up, leaned closer to him, held the coin between his fingertips, and said in a serious and mysterious tone: "Turn to the numbers, Ah Chong likes me, turn to flowers, Ah Chong doesn't like me."

A Chong was startled.

Although Ning Yu looked quite normal when he was drunk, he began to speak and act like a child.

Ah Chong suddenly remembered that Ning Yu had told himself that his father had been a soldier before he changed jobs and started a company. Because of this, Ning Yu always felt that he was not his father's son, but just the other party's soldier at home.

So...will you be so cautious about everything?

Ah Chong didn't know why he thought of this at this time, he just felt that Ning Yu looked a little pitiful at this moment.

He is quiet even when he is drunk, he doesn't play tricks or make noise, he only knows how to recite pi, and he sings very quietly, as if he is afraid of disturbing someone.

While Ah Chong was in a daze, Ning Yu had already tossed the coin.But probably drunk and slow to react, Ning Yu didn't catch the coin when he tossed it.

Ah Chong helped him catch the coin.

Seeing that the coin was gone, Ning Yu reflexively came to grab it.Ah Chong took the initiative to spread out his palm, pointed to the palm with the chrysanthemum pattern facing up and said to Ning Yu, "It's a number."

Ning Yu got closer, took a closer look, and his face collapsed: "It's a pattern, Ah Chong doesn't like me."

Ah Chong moved his hand slightly, he smiled, and said to Ning Yu, "Look again."

Ning Yu was puzzled, he looked down again, and found that the coin this time was actually numbered up.

Ah Chong smiled and asked, "Is that the 1 you want?"

Ning Yu carefully took the coin from Ah Chong's hand, put it in his hand and looked at it for a long time, his eyes slowly turned red.

Ah Chong looked into Ning Yu's eyes, feeling sore for no reason at all.

It's not heartbeat, it's not moving, it's not throbbing, it's sad.

Ning Yu held the coin, looked at the number 1, and whispered, "It's fine if it's true."

Ah Chong was speechless, and Ning Yu repeated in a low voice: "Fake, I can't catch butterflies."

He got drunk and started talking nonsense.

Faye Wong sang on the speaker all night, and at this moment, the singing voice was extremely clear in Achong's ears, as if reminding herself of something——

She sang, either it came too soon, or it came too late. Beautiful mistakes are often the closest to the truth.

Ah Chong looked at Ning Yu, and he found that he couldn't laugh anymore.

It was also at this time that Ah Chong realized that in some games, once both sides start to be serious, there can be no absolute winner.Everything has a cause and effect, and his relationship with Ning Yu started with a coin, and now it seems to be entering a new cycle because of a coin.