city ​​of angels

Ning Yu is a person with strong execution ability.If one thing is decided, there will be a plan to implement it in an orderly manner, including feelings.

Far apart, little can be done.Ning Yu’s plan for himself is: every morning, noon and evening, he will greet Ah Chong at a fixed time every day, send a gift by post every half a month, and chat with Ah Chong every now and then.He takes everything seriously and knows that his experience is blank, so he prepares himself and learns how to pursue it.

He signed up for a Thai language class, and took about two hours to listen to online classes and take notes every day after work.

After hearing Ah Chong's words, Ning Yu made several dinner dates with Senior Sister Ya Ya in private. At the beginning, she always hit a wall when asking her out.

It took a while to get acquainted with Yaya.There was probably a layer of alumni affection, and after a while, Yaya finally told Ning Yu why his company was always neglected by the project team.

It was an incident when Ning Yu first came here.The team leader who took him was on a business trip, and the boss just came over to ask for a copy of the data. After reading it, he asked about the progress of a project he was following.Ning Yu had a pretty good memory, he kept everything in his head, and when the boss asked him, he opened his mouth and reported it.

Boss was very satisfied, and patted him on the shoulder before leaving, saying it was good.

Yaya sighed, and said to Ning Yu: "You are called a leapfrog report, a big taboo in the workplace, do you understand? Lao Yang sat in that position until his ass was on fire. You can report the results of the project for half a year, and you can just open your mouth." The report is over, what do you make Lao Yang think? We all work with Lao Yang, if you offend him, do we dare to show you good looks?"

Seeing his bewildered expression, Yaya pointed out a few words to Ning Yu about what he did not do well, every sentence made Ning Yu blush and repeatedly said to change.

Ning Yu does things straightforwardly, where did he expect to get these twists and turns at first.Although his father is in business, he has always been indifferent to Ning Yu, and he doesn't want Ning Yu to work directly. He always wanted him to read more books and do a leisurely job. He never thought that this obedient son would graduate as soon as he was young. It is rebellious to say that you have to go to work if you don’t go abroad or go to graduate school.

If you think about it carefully, how many parents really understand their children.

Ning Yu also felt very guilty for accidentally stealing the limelight from his superiors, so he could only do his best to win everyone's favor.Fortunately, most engineering men are straightforward. After Ning Yu sincerely apologized to Lao Yang after a dinner, his company life finally began to be harmonious.

A company is really different from a school.What Ah Chong said, Ning Yu felt more and more deeply in just a few months. He quickly adapted himself to the fast-paced work and life, and his growth was rapid, but a string in Ning Yu's mind was also tense. It's getting tighter.

Want to escape, want to escape, want to go to Bangkok.

Ning Yu's plan is to earn some money, gain work experience, and so on.

Work started off smoothly, but relationships didn't go well.

I don't know if his attitude is more eager than before or what, Ning Yu always feels that Ah Chong's attitude towards him has always been neither salty nor weak, and there is no disturbance at all.Achong would thank him when he received the gift, and then gave Ning Yu a special product with a similar price in return, so Ning Yu had a bunch of Thai bird's nest snacks at home.

Every time when chatting with Tian Ningyu and wanting to confess, Ah Chong would immediately change the subject and say, "I'm a little sleepy, why don't you read to me?"

To put it bluntly, in summary, one is sentient and the other is unintentional.Ning Yu didn't know how Ah Chong felt about him, but he knew that Ah Chong didn't want to fall in love.He couldn't force Ah Chong, so the two of them kept entangled for more than half a year.

During that period, Ning Yu had already learned Thai and could communicate in simple conversations, but he didn't tell the other party that he was learning. After all, he felt that he was not ready yet and needed a regional environment.

Before leaving China, Ning Yu had read a total of 32 books for Ah Chong, including ancient and modern Chinese and foreign poetry, prose and novels.

When Ning Yu was reading, Ah Chong never commented on a single word, and just listened quietly all the time.Can Ah Chong understand?Did you listen to it, or was it purely a hypnotic reading?Ning Yu didn't know, but he vaguely felt that when he read those words, the distance between Ah Chong and himself was very close, although he couldn't say why.

On that day, Ning Yu handed in his resignation report to his boss, and the documents for applying for schools in Thailand came down. He was going to tell Chong about his intention to study in the past.

As a result, he called and found out that Ah Chong was not in Thailand.

"I'm in New Zealand, this place is called Tekapo." Achong's voice was very quiet, "I was very tired after bringing a few big groups a while ago, so I found a few friends to travel here. I just arrived the day before yesterday. Last night Look at the stars and see that I forgot to reply to your message at three o'clock in the middle of the night, don't be angry."

"Ah...it's okay." Ning Yu was suddenly envious, Ah Chong's life was really wonderful, "Is it fun?"

"It's not fun, but this place is very interesting." Achong said, "This place has been restricting lighting pollution for decades. All the lights installed must be professionally metered, and the street lights are installed at a particularly low level. , darker than a desk lamp, and the whole city is dark at night. They do this to reduce light pollution, so the Milky Way here is really beautiful, and the sky is full of stars..."

Ning Yu thought, probably she is really beautiful.I really want to watch it once, with Ah Chong.

"Today we camped by the lake to watch the stars, the surrounding is very quiet, isn't it?" Ah Chong asked with a smile after finishing speaking, "That's right, what do you want from me?"

Ning Yu was quiet for a while before saying, "I might go to Thailand some time later."

Ah Chong paused, then smiled and asked: "Will you still report to the group after a few days?"

Ning Yu tentatively asked: "I don't know how many days to stay, maybe a long time. Do you want me to go?"

Ah Chong gave an ambiguous answer again. He didn't answer whether he wanted Ning Yu to go, but said: "You are so busy with work, let's work hard first."

Ning Yu still didn't give up, and tried again: "If I go to Thailand to continue my studies, we will have more time to meet. I checked, Chiang Mai is also very convenient to Bangkok, trains and cars..."

But Ah Chong directly cut off the topic, saying: "I'm lying on the grass now, the Milky Way is so beautiful, Ning Yu. This place is still suitable for couples, find a place where no one is there, and do it under the starry sky, it's quite romantic .”

Ah Chong's voice was soft and soft, and it came through the phone receiver, like a feather brushing over.Ning Yu subconsciously bent his fingers and fell silent.

After a long time, Ning Yu said, "I want to go with you."

Achong's tone was laid-back, slow and leisurely, with an upward hook at the end: "Come here."

It will come, it will come soon, Ning Yu thought, anyway, you recruited me.He said in his heart, don't try anything, just say it, I like you, I am going to find you, I will take care of you in the future, I can take care of you, please give me a chance, I have already learned what you like to eat Dessert and Cantonese food, Hunan food, Indian food, I will clean your home, I can do whatever you want, on the bed I can be on the bottom, as long as you need me.

The world keeps asking men to be brave, but I don't want to see you brave. I want to see if you need me when you are tired.

Ning Yu let out a deep breath, his voice trembling: "...Brother Chong, I want to say that I..."

But Ah Chong interrupted Ning Yu, he said, "Ning Yu, can you study?"

His tone didn't sound like a request.

Ning Yu thought, probably Ah Chong knew that he would not reject him.

It was the last book that Ning Yu read for Ah Chong before leaving China.

The title of the book is "The Stranger" and the author is Albert Camus.This is a gift of 99 books for 7 yuan from a certain website’s book purchase event last time, and it is also a book that Ning Yu has kept and never read, because I always feel that Ah Chong will not like this kind of book that makes people feel confused after reading the introduction.In the books I read before, Ah Chong seemed to like Lu Xun very much, because sometimes Ah Chong would laugh after reading it.

Ning Yu opened the book restlessly, took a deep breath, and began to read "The Outsider".

"—today, mother died."

"—maybe it was yesterday, I don't know."

Ning Yu began to read the story of Meursault, which had nothing to do with him or Ah Chong.

Ning Yu's mother who read Meursault died, but Meursault didn't cry. After the funeral for his mother, Meursault immediately slept with Mary.

It's very abnormal, because when Ning Yu read about Meursault's murder, Ah Chong commented for the first time:

"This book is really interesting."

Where's the fun?Ning Yu paused, obviously he had also read the story, but he didn't find it interesting, he just thought it was written in a weird way, and he didn't know what the author wanted to express.But Ah Chong actually said it was interesting, so he has been listening carefully all the time?

Ning Yu continued to read this absurd story.

The second time Ah Chong interrupted Ning Yu was when Ning Yu read that Meursault was being tried.

Chong said: "I think Meursault is a cool guy. If I can get to know him, I will sleep with him."

Ning Yu choked, a little surprised: "How cool?"

Is it cool for a mother to die without shedding a single tear?Is it cool to smoke during your mother's vigil?Is it cool to sleep with girls the day after their mother dies?Is it cool to be accused of murder?How cool is this attitude that the whole world has nothing to do with me?

A Chong said: "He is very transparent, he doesn't care about anything. Mary asked him if you love me or not, and he said it was a meaningless question, which is really good, isn't it? Meursault looks emotionless , because he knows that what is important to him is 'now', not what has happened. When his mother dies, she and her death become 'past', and he has no right or obligation to cry for his mother. He killed What kind of ending a person will have is the 'future', which is too far away. The meaning of his life is himself, the present, he dominates himself, but he is also an outsider of himself."

Ning Yu was dumbfounded when he heard it, and said after a long while: "You...are amazing."

Ah Chong changed the subject: "Ning Yu, do you think killing or stealing is more serious?"

"Of course it's murder."

"From the perspective of evil, they are all evil. Why do you die if you kill someone, but live if you steal something?" Ah Chong said something strange, his tone seemed a little sad, "Did Meursault really kill someone? People don't care at all. He's being tried, is he going to die?"

Ning Yu's tone became more careful because of Ah Chong: "Why... use the analogy of stealing things?"

"because……"

Ah Chong lowered his tone, "I have stolen many people's things before."

Ning Yu was startled.

However, in the next second, Ah Chong changed his tone again, it was his usual, relaxed tone: "I stole the hearts of many people. Although, I didn't mean it."

Ning Yu couldn't help laughing: "Yes, you know it too."

Ah Chong stayed in Tekapo for a week, watched the stars for a week, and finished reading the "Outsider" in that week.

Ning Yu is already handing over work and is about to go abroad. He has found many opportunities to tell Chong, but Chong seems to like the story of "The Outsider" very much. Not only did Ning Yu talk more when he was reading it, but he basically answered the phone every day. The first sentence is: come and read Meursault.

He didn't have a chance to say it, so he could only follow Ah Chong and start paying attention to that indifferent Meursault.

"—there is no difference, everyone is guilty... What does it matter if Marie sends her lips to another Meursault today?"

Meursault was sentenced to death.

In the second half of the reading, the rhythm became tense, and Ning Yu found that Ah Chong became very silent.

When reading the last page, Ning Yu reminded: "Brother Chong, it's almost the end, there are only two paragraphs."

Ah Chong on the other end of the phone held the phone and looked at the stars above his head.

It's almost over.Ah Chong suddenly felt that he was being shattered by this story and turned into a sky full of stars above his head.

He said, "Okay, please read slowly, thank you."

Ning Yu said yes.

"— I threw myself on the bed, exhausted, and I thought I fell asleep, for when I awoke I found the sky full of stars falling on my face, and the silence of the fields came to my ears. The smell of the night , the smell of the land, the smell of the sea, chills my temples..."

A Chong closed his eyes, he felt that he had become that Meursault, and everything that Meursault saw appeared in his mind.

"—for the first time in a long time, I thought of my mother. I seemed to understand why she was looking for a 'fiancé', why she played the game of starting again. There, too, after a life died sadly Around my nursing home, the night was a sad interval, so close to death, Mum must have felt relieved...”

Ah Chong thought to himself, Mom.

Ning Yu has been preparing for this passage for a long time.His voice began to be gentle, peaceful, with some soothing——

"—no one, no one has the right to cry for her. And I, I feel ready to go through it all again now. It's as if the anger just now has cleared the pain from my heart, emptied my emotions and desires , now I open my heart to this indifferent world for the first time on this night of stars and revelations. I experience this world so like me, so friendly and harmonious, and feel that I was once happy, I am still happy now. In order to start well and end well, so as not to feel that I belong to another category, I am looking forward to the day when I will be executed, and many people will come to watch the scene, and they will all shout out hatred at me."

After listening to Ah Chong, he suddenly felt relieved.After so many days, it is finally over, so fun.It seemed that something evaporated and disappeared in his body, and he felt his body became lighter.

Ning Yu whispered, "Brother Chong, it's over."

ended.

Ah Chong sighed softly on the other end of the phone, suddenly feeling a little tired.

In the next second, Ah Chong opened his eyes, under the endless stars of Tekapo that Ning Yu couldn't see, tears streaming down his face.