city ​​of angels

In Ning Yu's imagination, there is often a table in the dark.

The table was round and there was a lot of blood on it. His mother, Ms. Zhou Jiaxin, lay on it with her legs spread, screaming in pain.Blood flowed from between her legs, overflowing the tabletop, dripping down, like the color of red and black ink intertwined, Ning Yu opened his eyes from the black and red liquid, and saw the world.

He imagined, imagined, and listened in the intervals between his mother's wailing—

What is the emotion in Zhou Jiaxin's yelling?There is resentment.She resented the pain, resented that Ning Zhonghai did not come to the hospital when she gave birth to her child, resented that the lump of meat in her stomach that could never be born made her have stretch marks in the future, and resented her embarrassment during her pregnancy—that kind of Resentment is direct and sharp.

The Zhou Jiaxin in Ning Yu's imagination is only 20 years old, and she doesn't understand the relationship between mother and child so much, and cares more about her own life.

My father didn't understand either.Ning Zhonghai likes to be quiet, and he hates the sound of children crying. After being beaten a few times, Ning Yu seldom cried.Ning Zhonghai always likes to say: "Son, can you be quiet?"

Ning Yu could only put down the toy and said, "Okay."

"I hope you can keep quiet, I hope you learn to nod your head." Ning Zhonghai would say, "Don't be as noisy as your mother."

"I will."

I will, okay.These sentences are the two most frequent sentences in the conversation between the young Ning Yu and Ning Zhonghai.Can I do better next time?I will.Can you not be biased?I will.Can I stop being picky eaters?OK.Can I study science?OK.

I will, okay.I will, okay.

Mother Zhou Jiaxin has a bad relationship with her father, always quarreling, Ning Yu has long been indifferent.

He also didn't like his mother very much in his early years.Mother is not particular about life, she acts casually, never knocks when entering his room, and the summer is cool and cool, and she always wears only a small shirt at home, and the outline of her chest can be seen.When I squat down while doing things, I can see a few curvy black body hairs on the side of the flesh-colored underwear, which is not very good-looking.

When he gets older, looking at the girls with long ponytails in the class, Ning Yu will also stare and imagine what they will look like when they get old-there will be spots on the face, loose fat like his mother, and the underwear on the changed underwear. There will be a yellow-brown liquid.Looking at it, Ning Yu always felt a little unspeakable loss.

Boys of the same age watch movies with their mobile phones. Watching a man push his penis to a girl’s place will make his heart beat faster. Hearing a girl’s thin moaning will make him erect.But when Ning Yu looked at it, he always thought of his mother lying on that table with sticky blood flowing from her legs.

He didn't think the girls in the film would be comfortable, and his lower self didn't respond.He moved his gaze up to see the fingers of the captain of the basketball team in the same class holding the mobile phone-this hand is wide enough to hold a basketball in one hand, with sharp edges and corners.After waiting for a long time, he listened to the girl moaning like crying on the phone, and found that he actually reacted to a man's hand.

Ah Chong's hands are wider than those of the basketball team captain in his memory.

This is what Ning Yu thought when he kissed Ah Chong.

In the most chaotic gap between half drunk and half awake, Ning Yu couldn't tell who he was, who Ah Chong was, who Ning Zhonghai was, who Zhou Jiaxin was, where he was, and what he was doing.

When Ah Chong put his hand on the back of his neck and touched the butterfly king, Ning Yu remembered Ah Chong, himself, his past, present, and unpredictable future.

Ah Chong is the stranger who fell in love with each other during his journey, and he is a person who does not know whether he will appear in his future.

When Ah Chong raised his head and saw the expression on Ning Yu's face, he asked in surprise, "What's wrong with you?"

I think of my mother, and I can't always say that.

Ning Yu felt a little annoyed, he pushed Ah Chong to the bed, pressed him under him, and pulled his pants.

Ah Chong was taken aback by his appearance, and his words began to have some edges and corners: "Do you like this position?"

He ignored Ah Chong, stepped forward to tear off Ah Chong's pants two or three times, lifted the opponent's leg, kissed Ah Chong's knee while drunk, and at the same time wanted to push himself in like this.This time it was Ah Chong who was shocked. He immediately reacted after being rubbed twice by Ning Yu, and then straightened up and pinched the back of Ning Yu's neck, making him look at him.

Ah Chong: "What are you doing??"

Ning Yu's expression was quite natural: "What are you talking about?"

Ah Chong laughed angrily: "There seems to be a little misunderstanding, I think... you should be the one below?"

Ning Yu was a little impatient: "The ones above are tired, let me do it." He let out a breath of alcohol, and tried to pull Ah Chong's leg again.

The two chattered for a while at the foot of the bed.Ning Yu was very strong after drinking, and he pushed and shoved for a while without letting anyone else go.Ah Chong saw him as a child begging for sweets and only thought it was funny, but after a while, Ah Chong found that Ning Yu's teasing was out of order, and his movements were very rough and blunt, no matter how he looked, he looked like a baby.

After pondering for a while, Ah Chong pinched Ning Yu's wrist and asked, "...Don't tell me, this is your first time?"

"Well, it's the first time." Ning Yu was calm and calm, "So you can rest assured that I don't have any messy diseases. It's ok, legs... legs open."

It's getting more and more funny.Ah Chong smiled and sighed: "It's fresh, the first time someone said this to me, I was still a kid."

Ning Yu raised his head and looked at Ah Chong's face: "So you are very experienced, have you slept with many people?"

Ah Chong fiddled with Ning Yu's legs, and he was satisfied when the other party sat between his legs, and asked slowly: "What will happen?"

Ning Yu narrowed his eyes to look at him: "It's nothing, I'm just curious, what does it feel like."

"What does it feel like?" Chong said, "Do you want to talk to me about this in bed?"

"That is, what does it feel like to be with someone you don't like."

Ah Chong looked at him more tenderly this time: "I like you, you are very beautiful, healthy and clean, the first time I saw you, I liked you very much."

Ning Yu didn't pay much attention to this sentence, he fell into a confusion, he asked Ah Chong: "I used to think that if I like someone, I might be afraid to have sex with him. I am afraid that the other person will feel uncomfortable, and I am also afraid of myself Uncomfortable, I always feel that the place is unclean, I move in and out, and I always feel that it will bring blood... Regardless of men or women, it is ugly. Why do people like to do this? It is also because it is easy to be impulsive , moody. For a long time I was terrified of looking at women naked, it was always scary."

When he spoke, Ah Chong looked back at him seriously, rubbing Ning Yu's thigh while watching.

Ning Yu felt that Ah Chong was giving himself a massage. He used some techniques with his hands, and every time he pressed it, he felt very comfortable.After a while, Ning Yu couldn't hold back and leaned over to listen to Ah Chong's heartbeat——

Boom, boom, boom, from the place where they are close to each other, Ning Yu can feel... Ah Chong's heartbeat is steady and powerful, and it is slowly speeding up, boom, boom——

The heartbeat came through the flesh and became Ning Yu's heartbeat again.

It was a strange moment.Ning Yu felt that he was throbbing and tired, and he was so comfortably pressed by Ah Chong.Shoulders, legs, waist... seemed to be stretching, and he was completely relaxed.

The position gradually changed, and he was circled by Ah Chong in the middle, being rubbed up and down.Ning Yu started to feel his lips were dry and wanted to kiss, so he raised his head to look at Ah Chong.

But Ah Chong didn't kiss him, just said: "After you try it with me, you will know why everyone likes to do this."

After finishing speaking, Ah Chong lowered his head and kissed the butterfly on Ning Yu's neck.

First a kiss, then a lick, and then a kiss.That piece of skin was itchy, and Ah Chong's breathing was also itchy. Ning Yu heard the sound of Ah Chong unpacking the lubricating fluid package, and rustled for a while. Go down and poke.He put on a condom with one finger, rubbed Ning Yu's back with lubricating fluid, and his movements were very gentle.

Ning Yu twisted his waist, and Ah Chong put another bottle of inhalant under his nose, his voice seemed to be coaxing, but also like an invitation: "Take a breath and relax."

Ning Yu didn't want to smoke it at first, but the smell was very familiar, very similar to the lavender smelled when he met Ah Chong for the first time, better than the smell of wine and sweat.

He took a sip, the smell was so strong, it rushed straight to the top of his head and stimulated the nerve endings—so refreshing that his scalp tingled.Then all the sensations began to become so subtle—A Chong's breath, A Chong's fingers in his ass, A Chong's voice...

The voice made him stand up, turn his back on himself, kneel down, and crawl to the mirror.

Ning Yu hesitated.Ah Chong said again, "What's the matter?"

No emotion could be heard in his words, and his tone was still soft, "Can't you do it?"

Ning Yu was stunned for a second before saying, "Why do I have to kneel?"

"That way you won't be in pain." Ah Chong said seriously, "It's also easier to feel comfortable."

He took out a condom and said in a casual tone, "Have you ever used it? Shall I teach you how to wear it?"

Ning Yu took it and took it apart, and was about to send it to his lower body, when Ah Chong said, "I said help me put it on, you don't need to use it."

He still has that tone of being completely indifferent, the choice is yours.

But after Ning Yu listened, he could always hear the involuntary sense of dominance in that tone.The eyes are also, fixedly looking at you, erratic, just looking at you so that Ning Yu wants to say sorry, okay.

Ning Yu's hands trembled a little, but he still walked over on his knees, putting the condom on Ah Chong not very skillfully, and was laughed at a few times in the middle, and he didn't look up.

"Okay, is it okay to lie down?" After wearing it, Ah Chong touched his head, "It's very comfortable for the first time, don't be afraid."

He was kissed, dazed and knocked to the ground by Ah Chong.

When he saw his face in front of the mirror, he still couldn't react. He couldn't figure out how he became the one below, and he wasn't sure if this position was not easy to hurt.

But Ah Chong didn't let him think for too long, he was pressed in front of the full-length mirror, and he couldn't avoid seeing himself and Ah Chong leaning against each other and kissing.Two male bodies, naked and intertwined.

He swallowed, swallowed Ah Chong's breath and temperature.After Ah Chong replaced his lips with fingers, he continued to swallow, licking those fingers until they were wet.

Ning Yu felt that Ah Chong's hand suddenly became very big and strange, and filled his mouth very much.He closed his eyes, unable to eat anymore.Then, while breathing heavily in the dark, Ning Yu took another breath of the sticky lavender fragrance.

At that moment, Ning Yu felt that he saw a large expanse of gorgeous fireworks, so he could only unconsciously open his mouth and scream, and pinch Ah Chong's arm.

Ah Chong sucked his ears and said, "Scream, you have to learn how to scream."

His hands and feet were weak, and he felt that he had been melted by the heat and was falling off.

After the burst passed, Ning Yu realized that Ah Chong had already entered.

Achong looked at Ning Yu's expression in the mirror, pushed him up, touched his buttocks, and said, "Relax, take a breath."

His voice is hypnotic.

Ning Yu's legs were so soft that he couldn't help it, so he could only follow the movement and start screaming.Slowly, things started to go wrong, the place where it was rubbed started to itch, Ah Chong seemed to know how to make it comfortable, every stroke was so itchy, he wanted to scream, and his legs spread further and further apart.

Ning Yu even felt that he could see how the penetrating place devoured another male man's organ, sucking and biting to keep it, which was very comfortable and humiliating.

Ah Chong seemed to know what Ning Yu was thinking. He pulled out the little bit of shame that had nowhere to hide, rubbed Ning Yu's waist and slammed it in, and praised him: "You are not like the first time. Still suck me."

Ning Yu subconsciously raised his butt in response to his action.The panting sounds were entangled together, and there was really a popping sound, which was unbelievably loud, too loud, and sticky.

Ah Chong did not let him go, he must do it while telling him like a teacher:

"Is it embarrassing to do this? Look in the mirror, what's your expression? You're so happy that you're about to cry?" Achong said softly, "There's nothing to be shy about. Do you like a vagina or a penis? Your body will tell you." You answer."

Ning Yu was pushed into a daze.Ah Chong was playing with his tongue while his other hand grabbed his throat.He has become very strong since he came in, pinching Ning Yu to keep him from moving, desperately pushing inside.

His expression changed.

Become sharp, sharp and cold.If it wasn't for the thing inserted into Ning Yu's body that made him almost unable to kneel, just looking at Ah Chong's face, he would feel that the other party was going to kill someone.

"Doing this is not interesting in itself, it's all about venting your desires. Some people like to be a controller, some people like to be a submissive, it's just you. It's like..." Ah Chong paused, "Oh, look Look, aren't you very happy? You've shouted like this, and you still want to suppress me?"

Ning Yu closed his eyes, he couldn't speak, and wanted to scream when he wanted to speak, so he could only pant while pressing against the mirror.

"It's unbearably hot inside."

"I have a fever..." Ning Yu felt his voice was limp, he was almost suffocated by Ah Chong, "Slow down."

"It can't be slow."

After finishing speaking, Ah Chong went up even faster.

He firmly pressed the butterfly on Ning Yu's neck, looked at the man's messed up appearance in the mirror, and suddenly said, "Ning Yu."

Ning Yu could only look up at Ah Chong's face.

Ah Chong seemed to be laughing. He rubbed Ning Yu's ears and said in a low voice:

"The first time you were touched hard by me, you wanted to open your legs and let me do it, right?"

That sentence was like a hypnotist snapping his fingers, and Ning Yu was pulled into the ocean of shame again.In the next second, he shook his body and shot.

Strangely, Ah Chong stared at him in the mirror, as if he could see the shape, but didn't read the content.

Ning Yu began to feel that kind of collapse, which was a new discovery when he was pushed to climax by another person, and it was too different from his own.He finally fell to the ground from the air, and something flowed thinly in his body, like water.

In the mirror, A Chong pinched the back of his neck.

He saw himself kneeling in front of the mirror with his legs outstretched, his buttocks up and his mouth open, his body still trembling slightly.

Ah Chong seems to like Ning Yu like this.

He touched Ning Yu's chin and said, "That's right, that's it."