I have a date with the beast

Jiang Ze almost ran away that day.

When Xiaofeng's lips landed on him accurately, the string called reason in Jiang Ze's mind snapped completely.

And what frightened him the most was that instead of feeling the slightest disgust or nausea at the kiss of Xiaofeng, he still had a similar feeling.

This is not a good sign.Jiang Ze thought.

He leaned against the mottled wall, looked at the clean sheets blowing in the wind in front of him, and breathed out a smoke ring with his lips slightly parted.

It wasn't until the cigarette almost burned to the fingertips that Jiang Ze came back to his senses and threw the cigarette butt on the ground and stamped it out with his foot.

Jiang Ze clenched his fist, as if he had made up his mind.

When you see Xiaofeng again, you must give him a hard punch, no matter what kind of ancient beast or evil spirit beast he is, how dare you dare to kiss him!

He wants to get his losses back!

Thinking about it this way, Jiang Ze has been surprisingly energetic these days, so much so that even the Lin family and his wife were surprised by his huge change, and even thought he was stimulated by something.

But Jiang Ze never calculated that after that, the mocking wind never appeared again.

It's like disappearing out of thin air.Every night when Jiang Ze went home, he walked around to delay the time. The journey that took less than 10 minutes could be reduced to 10, [-], [-] minutes by him. But even so, he could not feel the presence of the mocking wind anyway.

Seeing that the Spring Festival is just around the corner, the Lin family couple are intermittently packing their luggage and planning to go back to their hometown for the New Year, while Jiang Ze is still waiting for Xiaofeng to appear.

He will come out.Jiang Ze thought firmly.

But until the New Year's Eve, Jiang Ze didn't wait for the mocking wind.The sense of loss in his heart was so obvious that Jiang Ze couldn't ignore it anymore.But he still stubbornly found an excuse for it, thinking that it was because he couldn't avenge the "kiss".

The flow of people on the street on the night of New Year's Eve was far from usual.That’s right, in this snowy winter, most people would rather stay at home and have a reunion dinner while watching sketches, rather than going out to experience the coldness and ruthlessness of severe winter.

Jiang Ze did not go back to the countryside. In the past, he only went back to visit his father. Now that his father is gone, he has no reason to go back.

At around [-]:[-] in the evening, Zhong Jiangze wrapped up his down jacket and went out. His stomach was aching from hunger, but for some reason he didn’t want to cook for himself a bowl of noodles in clear soup to relieve the pain.But the hunger only increased, and the associated abdominal pain became more and more obvious. In the end, Jiang Ze had to go out to find some food to fill his stomach.

In the end, Jiang Ze settled at a barbecue stall on the street.It was snowing heavily outside, and the huge crimson plastic shed carved out a safe haven for the barbecue booth. It was obvious that the wind was leaking from all sides, but staying inside could not feel the chill.

Jiang Ze watched silently as the boss lit the stove in front of him, spread ten or twenty strings of mutton skewers on it, and then put a pitcher of beer at Jiang Ze's feet.Before leaving, he glanced at Jiang Ze with a complicated expression, and hesitantly said a kind piece of advice: "Let's drink less."

Jiang Ze ignored it, and now he can't listen to any seemingly well-intentioned reminders.He felt himself immersed in a river of loneliness and despair, the cold water seeping through his limbs and bones.

He took a sip of the wine, held it in his mouth for a while, carefully felt the bitterness in the wine that was far beyond the mellowness, and finally swallowed it slowly. With his other free hand, he slowly turned the steaming meat skewers back and forth noodle.

The table next to it was a family of three, the girl looked like she was in her early teens, coquettishly said that she wanted to eat grilled fish.Her father looked helpless, but he couldn't bear to refuse her, and beckoned the boss to bring over two more grilled fish.

The girl kissed her father flatteringly, and let out a clear and melodious laugh like a silver bell.

What is the picture?

Jiang Ze suddenly wanted to ask himself, why did he fall into this situation?

In order to live a life that was not planned by his father, to resist his father's injustice to him, to prove that he is not inferior to his elder brother and second brother, or to escape from the home that never made him feel warm?

It seems to have a little bit.

But in the end, his father passed away, leaving him in the world.He didn't even know the meaning of his existence, let alone how to live in the future.

He has almost nothing.

Jiang Ze raised his head and poured several mouthfuls of beer in succession, a tear overflowed from the corner of his eye.The scalding teardrops instantly became cold when they encountered the bitterly cold air, and quickly slid from the temples to the hair like ice picks, causing a slight tingling pain.

Feeling the familiar Lengxiang suddenly appearing around him, Jiang Ze sneered: "Why, you came here to see my joke?"

The person who came did not make a sound, but looked indifferently at Jiang Ze's reddish eye sockets and the slightly invisible tear stains at the corners of his eyes. His usually silent eyes flickered, showing a trace of obvious distress and intolerance.

"Stop drinking." He said in a low voice.

"Who are you, you don't need to worry about me." Jiang Ze avoided his outstretched arm, and continued pouring wine into his mouth desperately, as if this was the only way to bring some comfort to his throbbing heart.He spoke vaguely, his voice hoarse due to the excessive intake of alcohol: "What are you doing for?"

"I have nothing to do with you, why are you following me?"

"Why are you kissing me?"

As the number of empty wine bottles on the table increased, Jiang Ze's brain was gradually paralyzed by alcohol.He shook his head, trying to see the person in front of him clearly in his blurred vision, the unhappiness that had been suppressed for many days spewed out in his heart, but it was like drunken gibberish.

"Tell me, Xiaofeng, why, why did my elder brother and second elder brother dislike me so, so much, and I didn't force mom to leave..."

"She is a very beautiful woman..."

"I'm worse than my eldest brother and my second brother. What's the difference? How does he know that I'm not talented?"

Jiang Ze's eyes began to loosen, but he was still drinking wine mechanically.The vision in front of him became increasingly blurred, and he closed his eyes in pain, tears streaming down his face.

"I'm homesick."

"I want to eat, to eat the dumplings made by my dad... But, but he is gone..."

"Where is my home..."

Xiaofeng wiped away Jiang Ze's tears with his hand, the expression on his face was so sad that it was heartbreaking at this moment, he said depressingly: "...Rufeng, don't cry."

Hearing these words, Jiang Ze seemed to wake up a little bit from the infinite chaos. He unceremoniously opened the hand of mocking Feng, and said angrily: "Who the hell is Rufeng, I am Jiang Ze!"

After finishing speaking, it seemed that it was not enough, so he added angrily: "You are stupid! You can't tell people apart!"

Jiang Ze didn't know how he got back home. The only thing he could feel and only want to feel was the familiar and reassuring warmth.

The man put him on the bed and gently took off his coat. Just as he was about to get up and leave, Jiang Ze grabbed his arm and murmured, "Don't leave." plead.

Xiaofeng glanced at the hand holding his arm, and then at the man lying on the bed with misty eyes and messy clothes, he paused, and then tried a little harder to break away.

Jiang Ze seemed to have sensed his movements, and simply wrapped his arms around his neck, trapping him firmly.He pressed his face against Xiaofeng's neck, rubbed it lightly back and forth, and said over and over again: "Don't go, don't go, don't go..."

The scorching breath brushed over the neck, and the mocking wind trembled all over.He looked at the person in his arms, hesitated for a long time before leaning down and kissing his lips.

"You didn't let me go."

That night Jiang Ze felt something soft slide over his lips, his neck, and his collarbone.Afterwards, the clothes on his body were also taken away, and he felt a chill, but in an instant, a warm body covered him.

Jiang Ze immediately hugged the body that provided him with warmth, and subconsciously rubbed against it, but he received a muffled groan from that person.

Jiang Ze subconsciously felt that he should stop the person on him, he should stop, but he opened his mouth but couldn't say a word of rejection, and he didn't want to push this warm body away.

A completely filled dull pain brought back Jiang Ze's scattered consciousness. He struggled to open his eyes, but saw that handsome face swept away the usual indifference and tranquility, replaced by madness and desire.

He closed his eyes, and couldn't help wrapping his legs around the man's thin waist, enduring the bursts of fine pain, and then the pleasure flooded in like a tide, drowning him in an instant.

Are you still alive?

...well, still alive.