Turning point

Would he... like Mu Beidou?

Gin was at a loss for this sudden cognition.

If there was no plan for nearly ten years, Qin Jiu believed that he would pursue Mu Beidou without hesitation.but now……

What to do now?

Pursue him, make him fall in love with me too, and then the plan fails, and he dies with me.

Or as usual, pretending not to notice anything, gradually alienating him, leaving him, no matter what happens to him in the future, he has the shepherd behind him as a guarantee, nothing will happen to him.

One satisfied his own desire and dragged Mu Beidou to hell together; the other was painful, but it was the best way to preserve him.

Which to choose?

I don't want to choose either gin.

Because no matter what the plan is, Gin is sure that he will regret it in the end.

The most painful thing was this. Ever since he started planning that plan, it was impossible for him to simply do it arbitrarily.He needs to consider, weigh, and take into account the overall situation, and abandon everything that has nothing to do with the plan when necessary.Gin used to do very well, but now he doesn't want to.

Because it was his love that he had to give up this time.

The only one in this life.

Qin Jiu's eyes gradually dimmed, flickering with violent struggle from time to time.

Mu Beidou stood up early to find another shirt and put it on. Seeing that Qin Jiu was sitting there motionless, swallowing all the words he wanted to complain, he couldn't help feeling worried.He stretched out his hand and shook it in front of Qin Jiu: "Array?"

Qin Jiu came back to his senses abruptly, subconsciously grabbed the hand in front of him, looked up and saw Mu Beidou's brows and eyes softened unconsciously, and said with a smile: "Huh?"

Mu Beidou felt that his smile was a little weird, so he was silent for a while: "...what are you thinking?"

"Oh...it's nothing." Realizing his abnormality, Qin Jiu silently put back the smile on his face and put on a normal expression.

"I was just wondering if it's time to go back." He took a deep look at Mu Beidou, and couldn't help but sigh in his heart.

Although it was painful, Gin still made up his mind.

His soul has long been riddled with holes, and his body is covered with dirty blood that cannot be washed away. This kind of self is not worthy of Mu Beidou, who is clean and bright, and should live in the sun by birth.

Gin is determined to let go.

"It's getting dark, it's time for you to eat." Qin Jiu smiled, and stretched out his hand to rub Mu Beidou's soft hair.I feel bad thinking that this might be the last time.

Mu Beidou didn't hide, just stared at him blankly, feeling that Qin Jiu's smile was abnormal, very...bitter.

how could be?Illusion.

But even so, he still grabbed his sleeve unconsciously when the other party turned around and was about to leave.When Qin Jiu looked over in surprise, Mu Beidou frowned, and then said with little confidence: "Stay here, let's eat."

"Okay." Qin Jiu pulled the corner of his mouth slightly, making a smiling expression.

He is in a very bad mood now, but he still washes his hands and plans to wash the vegetables and cook.Mu Beidou took down the apron hanging beside him and was about to put it on, but Gin Jiu snatched it away.

"I'm cooking, why are you wearing an apron?" Gin raised his eyebrows, and wrapped it around himself with his backhand.

Mu Beidou looked at Gin in a green jumper and wearing a pink apron (the ghost knows why Uncle Mu chose this color), the corners of his mouth twitched unconsciously, and his eyes revealed a naked mockery.

Gin pretended not to see it, and when he turned to pick up the food, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up, and then fell down sadly.

The two of them did their own thing in silence, and occasionally their fingers touched each other, and it was Gin's unilateral evacuation immediately, revealing a strong alienation in their movements.

Mu Beidou couldn't understand why.He certainly didn't expect that the person next to him actually fell in love with him, and he absolutely never expected that he would be determined to cut off this strong relationship with his own hands for his own safety.Mu Beidou could only feel uneasy, constantly thinking about what went wrong.

It wouldn't be a matter of him knowing his plan, they'd talked it over; it wouldn't be a matter of just now, he wasn't angry, and Gin had nothing to be angry about.

What exactly is that?

Mu Beidou hated himself for not being able to see through Qin Jiu's thoughts.It's just... no matter what the reason is, wouldn't it be nice to say it?Why should you keep it in your heart?

Mu Beidou was thinking wildly like this, and Qin Jiu felt very uncomfortable.The person I like is close at hand, but he can't get close, and even needs to find ways to stay away. This strong feeling of helplessness and sadness is simply terrible.

Want to touch, want to kiss, even do nothing, just stay together quietly, but not like now, they are so close, Kexin seems to be separated by thousands of miles.

Qin Jiu hated all of this, and even hated his own plan.Without it, they wouldn't be what they are now.

But this is only if.

Gin's hand for chopping vegetables became more and more vigorous, violently venting his anger and feeling of powerlessness.Suddenly a hand was gently placed on it.

Looking up, Mu Beidou showed a slightly worried expression: "Zhen, if you have anything, you can tell me."

Qin Jiu suppressed all the storms in his eyes, and showed him a formulaic smile, as if wearing a hypocritical and inferior mask: "I said, it's fine."

"...Okay." Mu Beidou withdrew his hand and stopped talking.

Qin Jiu's attitude towards him suddenly became so estranged, what exactly happened, although Qin Jiu didn't say anything, Mu Beidou couldn't stop asking.

They silently worked together to prepare the meal, which should have been warm and pleasant, but they were embarrassed and indifferent by unknown events.

The food is as delicious as ever, but it tastes like wax in the mouths of two people with different thoughts.They ate hastily, and before going out, Mu Beidou handed the windbreaker to Qin Jiu, watched him put it on, and then couldn't help asking again: "Zhen, what happened?"

He watched Qin Jiu's body with his back turned to him slightly paused, then turned back abruptly, and then he was pinched by the neck and slammed against the wall fiercely.

His back, which has been troubled by many disasters, has suffered another seedling. The wound that was just wrapped up may be cracked again. This time there will be scars on his back, but these are secondary for now.Mu Beidou's neck was so painful that it seemed that Qin Jiu could break his throat, but strangely he didn't feel any fear.Mu Beidou just looked at Qin Jiu in disbelief, not understanding why he did this.Then came his familiar yet unfamiliar voice: "I'm so tired of asking you over and over again."

Mu Beidou's eyes suddenly widened.

Qin Jiu seemed to have suddenly changed his appearance, showing the appearance of the killer Qin Jiu who he had never seen face to face to Mu Beidou.

Cold, inhuman, and even able to kill him without hesitation.

Mu Beidou's body finally trembled.It's not the fear of losing his life, but the fear of... the gin he was familiar with, Kurosawa, disappearing.

Gin let go of his hand with a sneer, allowing him to slide weakly and slowly on the cold floor, and then drove away without looking back.

Mu Beidou kept watching through the wide open gate until the road was pitch black and there were no vehicles or pedestrians to be seen, and he kept watching.

My chest hurts like I'm dying.

Until dawn, Mu Beidou shivered, moved his numb limbs, and then dully found that his back was wet.

But this time no one bandaged him again.

The author has something to say: Alas, this chapter is well written...

Master Qin finally made a decision, and once he made a decision, it was impossible for him to leave peacefully

I have refined all the evaluations of little angel Huacheng and some good suggestions and jokes that I think. If you are interested, you can take a look~ I decided to seal Huahua as the first paragraph 23333