BE Crazy Demon Survival System

Yuning was only ten years old when she followed her adoptive parents to live in Nice.

The beautiful scenery of Nice is like an oil painting. For a child, it cannot offset the invasion of foreign strangeness.The barrier of language barrier made him become more silent from his originally not cheerful personality.He couldn't understand, couldn't speak, and was born different from others. These differences made him feel frustrated. For several years in a row, he was in a difficult adjustment period.

He is a marginal person through and through, the part where the two worlds meet but cannot blend.

Adolescence is like a cold and endless winter rain. It wasn't until I met that person that the rain showed signs that it was about to clear up.

Yu Ning can't say what kind of feeling this is, his short life experience makes it impossible for him to describe this fatal attraction.As long as he gets close to this person, he can't help but make embarrassing actions, stepping out of his comfort zone without hesitation.

A coffee shop is a good scene for encounters, for love.But Yu Ning is very clear that the word love is not an appropriate word for him or that person.

I know it, I know it.

He parked his bicycle at the door of the coffee shop, walked through three or four open-air booths, and pushed open the glass door.The aroma of coffee condensed by the air-conditioning flowed out impatiently, soaking his whole body.

Yuning's unease has improved compared to the first time.Meeting Nan Ke for the first time was an extremely embarrassing scene. He was bullied to buy coffee for his "friends". He bought sixteen cups of coffee here by himself, and finally balanced the weight between the cups and picked them up. Still bumped into the clerk recklessly, both of them were covered in coffee.With a natural fear of socializing, he kept saying sorry, without daring to lift his head, but the other party took the coffee in his hand for him very gently and asked if he was okay.

When she looked up, Yu Ning realized that this person had the same Asian face as herself, but her facial features were more sharp, unlike herself, with an ambiguous underage look.

For many, many days after that, he didn't come to this cafe because of the embarrassment of the first meeting. Even if he was instigated by those people again, he chose to take a long way to go to another cafe.

Sometimes passing by, looking at the glass window of the coffee shop through the steaming heat on the road, I can always see the figure of that person. He looks very busy and looks very good-looking, with a sense of sunshine full of etiquette.People are always envious of what they don't have, Yu Ning attributed his excessive attention to this person to this point.

Finally one day, he felt that this person should have forgotten the stupidity of meeting him for the first time, so he pretended to be buying coffee for the first time, approached the coffee shop, finally got his mood together and walked to the counter to order, only to find that the person With a bright smile on his face.

"haven't seen you for a long time."

It turned out that he never forgot.The calmness that Yuning tried so hard to pretend collapsed in this man's overly warm smile.

The fake first meeting is just as awkward as the real first.

But as the number of times increased, this feeling faded away.Yuning just doesn't understand why the nervousness and palpitations when encountering him won't diminish as the number of times increases.

Seeing Yuning who pushed the door open as usual, Nan Ke showed a more pleasant smile than a professional smile.The boy in the field of vision was wearing a pea green T-shirt, like a juicy shallot, and a pair of growing legs were exposed under the white sports shorts to the knees. They were straight and slender, with well-proportioned muscles.

"What would you like to drink today? An iced Americano? Or a latte?"

In fact, such a question is quite redundant. This child will order a latte every time he comes. He probably prefers the smooth and rich milk blended in to the thin taste of coffee.

"Latte." Yu Ning glanced at the already familiar menu, but did not look directly at Nan Ke's eyes.

After ordering, he walked to an empty seat by the window, looking out the window and waiting for his coffee.

In fact, there was nothing novel outside the window, what he saw was Nan Ke's figure reflected in the glass.

"Your latte." Nan Ke put the coffee on his table, "I'm sorry I didn't add ice cubes today, you drink iced coffee every day, it's not good for your stomach, let it rest for a day today."

Yuning stared at his eyes in a daze, those dark black pupils seemed to have some magical power, making people have to believe every word he said.

"……Okay, thank you."

When Nan Ke walked away, Yu Ning looked at his slender back, his heart was pounding, beating scribbled and straightforward, as if he didn't belong to this awkward and hiding body at all.

Nan Ke is a college student who came to Nice for exchange and study, majoring in modern and contemporary literature. He is a few years older than him, so when getting along with him, he always has a sense of maturity higher than him. In other words, in front of him, he always seems to be a need Little ones who are given extra attention.

Sensitive and thoughtful, he had almost no friends who could really talk to him before Nan Ke appeared. This kind of disposition made him almost only sink his heart in literary books, and find his own from the stories written by others. belong.But Nan Ke's appearance changed this, Yu Ning thought at the first sight of him that they could communicate, not because of the same race and skin color, but a kind of heart-to-heart echo.

Facts have proved that this is true. Nan Ke also loves literature, but he does not have his own sense of sadness. He loves life and always smiles. To Yu Ning, who rarely gets warmth, such a person is like fire to moths. The attraction is irresistible.

Literature became the medium through which the two men established a friendship.Yu Ning often chooses to buy coffee when Nanke is about to get off work, so that he can naturally get an invitation from the other party, "I'm going to get off work soon, let's go to the beach in a while."

"Okay." Yu Ning always agreed seemingly indifferently, but in fact, he had already imagined the tone of Nan Ke's question in his heart.

Nan Ke and him rarely had physical contact, but even if they looked at him through the glass from a distance, Yu Ning's heart would beat wildly, and he felt as if he had a very serious illness.They often go to the beach to swim, go to the art museum to see the exhibition, and go to the Nice Observatory to observe the stars. They seem to be two close enough friends. This relationship that is defined by friendship seems to be somewhat inappropriate. Under the fermentation of time , making Yuning look forward to and panic.

One day, Yu Ning, who had a conflict with his adoptive parents, ran away from home and wandered aimlessly in the old city of Nice. Unknowingly, he came to Nanke's rented apartment. He threw his bicycle aside and walked alone in the night. Sitting in front of the steps, he didn't expect the other party's sudden appearance at all, and wanted to escape, but suddenly suffered from hypoglycemia because he didn't eat, and fell into his arms, and was picked up by him like a sick stray cat.

Nan Ke's room is neat and simple, even at night, it exudes the smell of sunshine.

The two exchanged their feelings about Camus and tested each other's hearts by playing charades.

[As always, the best parts of his life were inseparable from the worst. ]

[To love what never sees a second time, to love in flames and shouts, and then destroy yourself.People live in this moment. ]

Probably bewitched by Moonlight and Camus, Nan Ke kissed him that night, it was a very intense and deep kiss, which almost made Yu Ning, who was in high fever, faint.

In the early morning of the next day, Nan Ke, who left for the morning shift, only left a simple breakfast. Yu Ning, who was in a daze, had no appetite, but carefully washed the plate over and over again, and carefully put it into the kitchen closet and left his apartment.

For several days afterwards, he was afraid to go to that coffee shop because of fear.

One afternoon, Yuning, who was riding a bicycle, passed by the coffee shop, and was stopped by Nan Ke who suddenly pushed the door out. He stopped the car in astonishment, stepped on the ground, and looked back at him.

Could it be that he stayed here for half a day and was discovered by Nan Ke?Yu Ning thought to herself.

Panting, Nan Ke handed the latte in his hand to Yuning.Yu Ning was stunned, he forgot to hold the bicycle, and it hit the ground with a bang, he helped the car up and parked it in a panic, his eyes were full of doubt and confusion, "Is this... for me?"

Nan Ke stuffed it in his hand and smiled, "Today is also buying one and getting one free. I was very sleepy in the afternoon, so I bought a cup for myself and got an extra cup, just in time to see you."

Obviously there is no persuasive words, but he seems to be convincing when he utters them.

The kiss that made Yu Ning dare not move forward was covered up by this cup of latte, and the lives of the two seemed to be back on the right track of whitewashing the peace, and they continued to be friends with "spiritual ulterior motives".

Sharing the books they have read has become an excuse for them to meet.They always ride bicycles to a park with few tourists. There are all kinds of strange trees growing in this park. They are luxuriant and huge, like some kind of spiritual beings.When Yuning climbed the tree, the tendons in the sockets of his knees were always tense, and moved slightly as he climbed.

Nan Ke who was standing under the tree suddenly said something out of nowhere.

"Your legs are beautiful."

The foot that was supposed to be on a protruding bark stepped on a piece of slippery moss. The panicked Yu Ning fell off the tree that had been climbed many times, and was caught by Nan Ke, and the two fell on the grass together. superior.

Yuning felt her body pressed against Nan Ke's body, her arms were firmly grasped by his dry and broad palms, her heart, which was once so quiet that it could be compared with a stone, turned out to be so fresh and fragile.It's like an egg, under a certain tiny cracking sound, a weak, furry little creature breaks out of its shell.

Ignorant and helpless.

"Yes, I'm sorry." Yu Ning hurriedly got up from him and stepped aside, not even daring to look at Nan Ke.Nan Ke calmly sat up on the grass, patted the dirt on his body with a smile, "It's okay, why don't we stop climbing trees today? It's not bad to lean against a tree."

Yuning has never had much opinion on his proposal.He nodded kindly, and took out a notebook from his half-new bag. There was a dark blue pen in the notebook, shining brightly.

"What have you read recently?" Nan Ke looked at the notebook in his hand, "I don't have time to read long novels recently."

Yu Ning flipped through the notes hastily, the sound of the pages rustling and the leaves churning above her head merged into one.

"Actually... I didn't read anything..." Although he said so, he still turned to the excerpt he had carefully prepared for this sharing, and only after Nan Ke expressed his curiosity repeatedly, he read it out for him.

His voice was soft and clear, and when he spoke French, there was a hint of inarticulate limpness, which made Nan Ke unable to restrain his attention from listening.

After reading, Yuning closed the book in his hand and looked at him.

"Ah...it's really well written..." Nan Ke realized that it was over, and concealed his absence with embarrassment.There was a hint of urging in Yu Ning's eyes, as if asking him, "What about you?"

Nan Ke coughed, rummaged through his schoolbag for a long time, and found a piece of crumpled white paper with nothing on it. He used an old book as a pad, took out a ballpoint pen and pressed it. For a moment, he lowered his head and wrote something on that piece of paper.

Yu Ning stared at him blankly and didn't speak until he raised his head and smiled brightly at himself.

"I recently read a very good poem written by a female author in Taiwan, China. Look." Nan Ke said, putting the piece of paper in Yuning's hands.

This is the first time Yu Ning saw Nan Ke's handwritten Chinese, and the square characters made his handwriting more sharp.The first line is the name of the poem, seven characters, very interesting.

[Those who hesitate should be executed]

[Cicadas rise

Into the first day of summer

tidy up

All who hesitate should be executed

undecided

should return

Make a decision like this -

between you]

Yu Ning looked at the last line suspiciously.

between you...

He pointed to the last line of the paper, "Is it not finished here?"

Nan Ke smiled, and the sunlight flowed freely on his pretty face, reflecting a more dazzling light.

"Yes, I don't remember the last sentence." He paused, and then said, "If you are interested, you can go back and check."

On that day, Yuning left the park by bicycle quickly, went upstairs with this little poem in her hands, and entered her room, not even eating the seafood pasta made by her adoptive mother.With a snap, he turned on the desk lamp on the desk. Under the orange light, Yu Ning took the small piece of paper and looked at it carefully over and over again, his mind was full of images of what happened between the two in the park in the afternoon.

Tree shadows, collisions, sunshine, his smile.

The last line of the poem is missing.

Yuning turned on the laptop and searched for this strangely named poem, and soon, familiar square characters appeared on the page.

He moved the mouse slowly, afraid of missing it.

[Unresolved should be put in place

And so it was decided—

[…]

His gaze was almost fixed on the flickering cursor, his fingers froze, and his whole body's attention was fixed on the last line.

[With you, there can only be love. ]