[Comprehensive] Danger Investigator

In Yuriko's memory, regarding how to define sadness, Yuriko thought tears were the most effective way.Although there is a saying of crying with joy, more often, tears are always combined with words related to grief.She never thought of such a moment in the past, there is a person, he is very sad, but he does not shed tears.

He just smiles, and occasionally his face goes blank, but most of all... is still a smile. Every time he pulls his muscles to make a smile, Yuriko doesn't know if there will be constant wailing in his heart?

"...The dean who once adopted us believed that what kind of education can be implemented to create the talents needed by society. The so-called education is just an experiment." Ge Lima seemed to be answering Yuriko's question Slowly.He didn't look at Yuriko and said, but looked at a distant direction with both eyes.It seems to be avoiding Yuriko's gaze, or simply not wanting to give Yuriko a chance to ask questions.

"Every child in the 511 Orphanage grew up under this kind of education. What we are most afraid of...is forgetting who we really are, because the director uses brainwashing education every day to tell us that we should grow up What it looks like. From the day we were sent to the orphanage, each of us was deprived of our names. He hoped to create a superman, but he didn't expect that after completing a series of steps he designed, it was by no means a superman, just A..." As if thinking of something funny, Ge Lima's eyes were filled with ironic laughter, "In the end...it's just a monster!"

Yuriko didn't speak, and her brain seemed to freeze up again. Whenever IQ support was needed to interpret information, Yuriko would always burn out the CPU due to insufficient brain capacity.Ge Lima didn't expect Yuriko's answer either. He unscrewed the cap of the mineral water bottle, poured his hands wet, dipped in the water on the ground, and wrote something.

He wrote very seriously, Yuriko moved a little closer, and seeing that the other party did not object, she began to read the words written by Ge Lima in a low voice.It seems that in order to take care of her, Japanese was deliberately chosen for the text.But after Baihezi finished reading the text written by Ge Lima, she wished she didn't understand it.

"Location, increased number of happy killers--discovering happy killers--brainwashing--making them kill purposefully and mixing with them--highest disguise--full crime established... … ...This..." Yuriko opened her mouth, not knowing how to understand the meaning of these words.

Ge Lima smiled, poured some water again, washed his fingers, and said indifferently: "Now in Luenheim, there is such a guy there, he is my target."

"...Actually, it's not just a name. When I was sent there, someone said...I was 14 years old, and they gave me a name. The living environment is very public, and everyone can't leave this area. There is the role of father and the role of mother. I was forced to learn a lot of things, and language is only one aspect.” Ge Lima pointed to himself and smiled: “Ge Lima, that’s the name I got at that time. To be honest, I can't remember my real name..."

"At that time, all the children were talking about their names and stories with their companions. They were all afraid that one day they would forget who they were... At that time, I was the only one who was silent. Because I couldn't say, Only I am like this, my past cannot be shared with others, so....I am far more afraid than them...." This is true, because he has more memories of his life than others, which is A memory can be a life-saving prop at a certain moment, but more of it is a cumbersome existence at that time.

"This is not the most painful..."

Ge Lima froze for a moment, as if he didn't know how to describe this feeling, "How should I put it, do you know what is the most difficult thing to learn?"

Yuriko shook her head. She couldn't understand what Ge Lima said, but she still listened very carefully.

"It's the smile. The facial expression and the expression of human emotions are the most difficult." The revealing of the answer, coupled with the other party's brilliant smile, gave Yuriko an indescribable sense of weirdness.

"Are you wondering in your heart now, I obviously have the memory of another life, so laughing and expressing emotions should be very easy, right?" Ge Lima asked, one of his palms matching the speed of speaking , hold it tight...slowly unfold, hold it tight again...then unfold, once in a cycle.

"It's like telling a bad joke that isn't funny at all. If you don't laugh around you, you're too embarrassed to laugh. I used to think it was an easy thing to do, at least for me. !......but the answer is wrong, every child around me is blank with blank faces, in that environment, I really can't laugh....probably At that time, I lost my emotions..." Ge Lima shrugged, and didn't seem to care much about the past.

"I didn't pay much attention to it at the time, until I found that I couldn't laugh or cry, and even failed to make faces in the mirror, I gradually noticed what kind of terrible environment I was in... At that time, I suddenly realized..." Ge Lima suddenly approached Yuriko, and stopped at a place very close to Yuriko, at such a distance that he could clearly pay attention to the subtle changes of expression on the other's face, Ge Lima slowly Slowly said: "....I found out....I can't remember who I am?"

His head tilted, and some kind of confusion appeared on his face, "Then... when I graduated from 511, for me, I had only the choice of becoming Ge Lima, because... ..I can't remember other things at all, and even the most important plot, there are only some scattered fragments."

Ge Lima said in an admiring tone, "...I have to admit that our dean is a very powerful person. From a certain point of view, he really succeeded."

"Later, according to the order of my superiors, I became a reporter running around the world, helping the organization to collect intelligence and deliver news in the dark. Then an incredible thing happened..." Ge Lima's eyebrows Raised high, his tone became passionate, "Can you believe that a colleague of my newspaper office actually confessed to me, she said she likes me?!"

"At that moment, I was not excited about her confession, but the plots in my memory began to appear. Those plots that I hadn't forgotten came in handy at this moment. Then I reported to my superiors, for better Cover up my identity, we got married..." It was too calm, when Yuriko realized that the other party's passionate emotions were due to some 'plot', not the woman who admired him, Yuriko had lost the ability to describe this feeling words.

Two people are together, married, and live together for the rest of their lives. Is there any more sad reason than this?

It's not that the person I love doesn't love me, and it's not that the person I love is using me...but the person I love doesn't understand what love is, and will marry only because of need.Absolute materialism, brutal blood dripping.

"In the beginning of life, she should be quite satisfied, because at that time, I had learned to have a perfect smile, and I treated her the way other husbands treat their wives. Later... we also had children, so A lovely boy..." Still flat, hardly telling his own story.

"Then...the story came to an abrupt end...it's over!" Ge Lima said, his lips moved a few times, but he didn't say a word.

Baihezi was full of questions, wanted to ask, but was afraid of saying the wrong thing.It shouldn't be like this, even if it's just because of the need to get married, but the child is different, he will become the bond between the husband and wife, that is the child who is connected with your blood, how can ordinary people be unfeeling, how can...?

Thinking of this, Lily's pupils shrank quickly, and a figure who left heartlessly flashed in her mind, and her cheeks twitched unnaturally.Also, not all parents love their children, accidents....always.

"When the child was just born, I felt shocked again, but this time it was not excitement, but the whole person fell into the icy water. Those memory fragments have told me the fate of the child.... will die..."

"When that day came, my wife called me to inform me that the psychological construction I had spent so long on had failed, and I thought I could face it. This is an irreversible story. But... ..Actually, my whole mind is blank, I actually need to think about how to react, I already know that he will die, I have always told myself so. But...but..." He faltered , I don't know how to describe it, the blankness reflected on the face deeply hurt Yuriko's nerves.

Yuriko put her hands behind her back, holding both hands tightly, as if she was suppressing some emotion, she asked in a calm voice as much as possible: "Aren't you sad?...Why can't you react, your Isn't it sad that the child died?"

Ge Lima twitched the corners of his mouth and said, "I don't know...I still don't understand, should I be sad, should I be sad after all, should I cry? But...I can't cry anymore... .”

Ge Lima chuckled, "You should ask me 'Why didn't you save him, right?' You're not curious, or..."

"You must...have...your reasons..." When saying this, Yuriko suppressed an emotion that even she herself didn't quite understand.Of course she wanted to ask, why didn't you save him, that's your child!But, how could she have the qualifications to question the other party.

"No, because I'm a coward, that's all. I'm disappointed, right? I'm just such a guy?" As if he finally revealed the truth that has been hidden in his heart, Ge Lima felt relaxed Quite a lot.

After all, he is just an ordinary person, afraid of death, cowardly, selfish...

The author has something to say: touching the chin, this kind of psychology is a bit like the idea of ​​cheating, because someone will give you the answer, and you will not work so hard during the exam. Relatively, you will become very dependent.Because there is a plot to rely on, I am particularly afraid of changes. Let's think about it differently. If you were him and saved this child, you might die. Would you do that?

This is like always saying that indifferent people are unreasonable, because the environment in which they grew up is different, and no one, including their parents, has ever sacrificed for him. He has no such awareness, and when he needs to choose, he will follow his instinct to live There is nothing wrong with it.

Today, this is just a passer-by character who appeared in the early stage to get a lunch box, but he has something interesting to say!

"When I was a child, I longed for a mechanical clock, that is... the kind that would have a puppet jump out at a certain time. I wanted it very much, so I went to the window of the watch shop every day to look at it. It was the first time I opened the lock and stole it. , also in that shop, I was immediately arrested that time, and I didn’t get the clock, but since then, lockpicking has become my profession, at first, I just wanted to get that clock, just wanted to get that clock, why would I... .”

Desire is a terrible thing....