you came in time

Jin Jiayue's car stopped halfway, Ying Feng jumped out of the car and ran back.

Jin Jiayue looked back, talking to herself, and rarely reflected: "Did I say something wrong?" After reflecting, he looked again, and Ying Feng didn't even take his coat.

It was rare for him to reflect: "I seem to have done something bad?"

He felt that he had to tell Jin Shu, but Jin Shu's cell phone was with the assistant.At the moment of the award ceremony, Jin Shu had just finished walking the red carpet and took his seat, and his assistant Xiao Shi was also walking to the lounge. It was the busiest time in the venue, but Xiao Shi didn't hear his phone ringing.

Ying Feng got out of the car and started to run wildly, towards the scene of tonight's awards ceremony.

He knew where it was, it was very far away, but at this moment he even forgot how far the distance was, without using any means of transportation, he was running in that direction almost by instinct.He ran until he was almost out of breath and his legs could no longer be lifted, then he stopped slowly.

He looked up at the street signs blankly, and he still remembered when he first came to Nan'an.

Are you not afraid to start working immediately in a strange city?

I'm afraid.

It was also the first time he left home.He didn't find a job right away, and he went through interviews. At that time, he also stood on the road like this, looking up at the street signs in a daze.The street signs are clear, and the text is also clear. They are streets that have existed in the city for several years, but they are strange to him.

Just like his life at that time, there was an admission notice and the university he was waiting to attend.

How to go in the future seems to have a direction.

But he can't find his way.

The first direction he found was called Jin Shu.

But the first road he lost in his life, also called Jin Shu, was also his.

Even in the most painful and desperate times, he never regretted chasing someone like that.

But at this time, he was afraid, he was especially afraid.

He was afraid that the way he finally found would lead to nothingness and deception after all.

When he looked up at the street sign, the sky began to drift down with tiny snowflakes.

There were snowflakes falling directly into his eyes, he closed his eyes, the eyes were sore after all.

He reached out to stop the car, got into the taxi, and went straight to the scene.

Stopped and stopped all the way, finally stopped outside the overcrowded venue.

He suddenly walked down, and he didn't attract attention at all.But today's Ying Feng, in the end, is Ying Feng who has been carefully dressed by Jin Shu. Even if he is embarrassed and desperate all the way, walking from the shadow to the light, after all, it will attract people to look at him.

At this moment, most of the people surrounding the door were fans, holding various banners and lights of their idols in their hands.

Ying Feng didn't have the energy to look at these things, he walked straight in and was stopped by the security guards, asking for an invitation letter or a work permit.

Only then did Ying Feng slowly come back to his senses, he reached into his pocket for the phone.It was only when I was holding my mobile phone that I realized that my hands were frozen.With stiff fingers, he pressed the phone screen and called Jin Shu.

Xiao Shi heard it this time, and immediately picked it up, politely and happily said: "Teacher Ying? What's the matter?"

Ying Feng's voice was lifeless: "I want to see him."

"what?"

"I'm outside the venue, I want to see him." After Ying Feng finished speaking, he hung up the phone and stood there waiting.

About 3 minutes later, Xiao Shi ran out from the inside. Seeing Ying Feng like this, his heart skipped a beat. What's wrong?

He said a few words to the security guard, and took Ying Feng in first.

When walking inside, Xiao Shi kept asking him "is it cold" and what's the matter, but he didn't say a word.Walking to the end of the hall, Xiao Shi said again: "Mr. Ying, shall I take you to the lounge first?"

Ying Feng stopped, looked up at him, and said word by word: "I want to see him."

"..." Xiao Shi was a little dazed, this was the first time he saw Teacher Ying like this.

"I want to see Jin Shu, now, immediately, immediately, I want to see him." Ying Feng said again.

"...I, I'll go find him."

Xiao Shi couldn't help saying these words, and then he really turned into the auditorium through the side door, and walked down the stairs to find Jin Shu.Jin Shu was sitting in the middle, Xiao Shi touched his row, bent over and stood in the aisle to look anxiously at Jin Shu.

Soon someone who knew Xiao Shi reminded Jin Shu, and Jin Shu looked at him in surprise.

Xiao Shi didn't dare to talk nonsense, there were countless pairs of eyes staring at this place.Xiao Shi just blinked his eyes desperately, Jin Shu got up, and walked quietly to the aisle, before he could ask, Xiao Shi whispered anxiously: "Teacher Ying came here suddenly! He insisted on seeing you! I don't know why, I can't let go His face was flushed with cold! He—”

"Where is he?" Jin Shu asked calmly.

"It's just outside, insisting on seeing you, what's the matter? You—"

Jin Shu passed him and walked directly outside.

Xiao Shi stomped anxiously: "It's almost time for Best Actor! Even if you don't win the award, the camera will definitely catch it, what's the matter if you're not around?!"

But Jin Shu had already moved away from him.

Xiao Shi had no choice but to run out quickly, follow them, and help them watch by the way.

"Fengfeng—"

Ying Feng stood facing the wall with his back straight, but he could still see the loneliness and confusion all over his body.When Jin Shu saw the loneliness and confusion on him, he couldn't help but feel sad, so he went up and called him first.

Before he finished speaking, Ying Feng turned around.

Seeing Ying Feng's face, Jin Shu was suddenly speechless.He didn't know what happened, let alone what happened to make Ying Feng like this, it was a face that he couldn't describe too much emotion.

Just facing the wall, his palm was against the wall.Letting go of his hand at this moment, Ying Feng couldn't stand still. He leaned against the wall behind him and couldn't help taking a few breaths before he stretched out his trembling fingers, pointed directly at the maple leaf in front of him, and asked, "Is this a gift from the brand?" of?"

"..." Jin Shu was silent.

"It was given to you by the brand. You don't need money. You knew from Beibei that my teacher celebrated my birthday and my name, so you gave it to me as a birthday present?" Ying Feng continued, "Last September On the tenth, you came to my house to pick up Beibei, is this the first time you see me?"

"I asked if you were Jin Shu, but you didn't respond. I gave Beibei a Moleskine notebook, but you didn't respond."

Ying Feng was about to cry: "I asked you if you were Jin Shu many years ago! You told me you were many years ago! I also gave you a notebook many years ago, and I wrote on it my cell phone Number! You know everything! So you reply to my private message! You donate money to the Children’s Association, and you wait for me in Inner Mongolia! You take me to see the maple tree! You know everything! You even know that Jin Xiaoyu is me!"

"Liar!" Ying Feng's lips were trembling, "Is it interesting! Look at the weird private messages I send you, isn't it interesting! Look at the weird Weibo I sent you, isn't it interesting?! I am for that Broken Weibo account is about to collapse, is it interesting?!"

"Since you didn't come at the beginning, why did you show up now! Now that you have appeared, why did you lie to me again! If you lied to me, why didn't you collude with other people, why can't you lie to me for the rest of your life!"

"For the past eight years, I have revolved around you alone. If it wasn't for Beibei, would you never plan to show up again! You know I'm here, if you don't come, you see I'm sad and desperate for you. You Come and tease me when you're in the mood! This time, will you disappear again after playing enough!"

"Where did I go wrong? It's not because I like you!"

Jin Shu remained silent.

Xiao Shi was five or six meters away from them. Ying Feng's voice wasn't too loud after all, and he couldn't hear what he said clearly.

The place Ying Feng chose was also a coincidence, it happened to be in a dead corner in the corner, and there was no surveillance yet.At this time, the people at the venue, either inside the venue, or security guards and others, were all outside the door to maintain order.Here, there are only three of them.

Xiao Shi is in a hurry, the Best Actor award is about to be awarded.

The camera always has to scan Jin Shu, what should the people who can't scan him do?

Xiao Shi was so anxious that he looked back and saw Teacher Ying talking like a breakdown, the two seemed to be arguing.Xiao Shi was impatient and turned around in circles.After turning around a few times, he heard footsteps again, and when he looked up, it was Xiao Deng.

"Where is the boss! The awards are about to be presented!" Xiao Deng hurried over.

Xiao Shi hinted to her to look behind her, and Xiao Deng became even more anxious when he saw it.

But the time still passed by every minute and every second, and the introduction of Wei's movie had already started to appear on the big screen, and Jin Shu was still in the corner.

Jin Shu's face was not shown on the big screen, and the host made a joke to temporarily cover up the embarrassment.

Xiao Shi suddenly began to pray at this time, and Jin Shu must not win the award.

The more I don't want to come, the more I want to come.

Today's Best Actor really went to Jin Shu.

Xiao Shi and Xiao Deng looked at each other, not knowing whether to be happy or sad.

This is also the first time in history that when the winner of the award is announced, I am not there!The host was still trying to save him, so Xiao Shi went all out, stepped forward and grabbed Jin Shu's arm, and said to Feng, "Mr. Ying, I'm sorry! The boss won the prize!" After he finished speaking, he grabbed Jin Shu by force. go outside.

Ying Feng was leaning against the wall panting for breath just after finishing his Datong words.

Before Jin Shu could explain, he was dragged out by Xiao Shi.Compared with Ying Feng and the awards, Ying Feng has always been more important. Jin Shu shook off Xiao Shi's hand and wanted to talk to Ying Feng.

Xiao Shi was about to cry, Ying Feng said: "Teacher Ying, please, let him go and get the prize. Otherwise, I can't imagine what I will say tomorrow."

Ying Feng didn't cry, but his eyes were red, probably due to the sudden increase in pressure, and his eyes were also bloodshot.With those eyes open, he looked at Jin Shu, and his hearing gradually recovered.He heard the voice of the host in the arena. The host was joking and asked where Jin Shu had gone, and asked him to come out quickly to receive the award.

Only then did Ying Feng realize that this was the scene of the awards ceremony.

He actually came here to fight.

"Teacher Ying!" Xiao Shi called him again.

Ying Feng didn't look at Jin Shu again, but said, "You go to get the prize." His voice suddenly became lost, and he ran all the way, holding back so many things he wanted to say in his heart, he thought he might say it all day and night Endless, no one expected it to be so, after all, only these words were spoken.Anything else is meaningless.

He didn't want to stay here anymore, and the self-protection mechanism that hadn't been activated for a long time was activated again.

He turned to go.

"Fengfeng." Jin Shu stretched out his hand to hold him.

"Teacher Ying..." Xiao Shi also called him, with a crying voice.

Ying Feng shook off Jin Shu's hand irritably, turned around and shouted at him: "Go in and get your award!"

Ying Feng has always been a good-tempered person, not to mention Jin Shu, Ying Feng himself can't remember the last time he was really angry.He had that experience since he was a child. Although he was optimistic, he was always more cautious than others.Don't dare to be unhappy, and don't dare to despair easily, otherwise it will be difficult for you to come out with only yourself.

When he roared like this, the calmness on Jin Shu's face almost shattered.

Xiao Shi was about to collapse, and he couldn't drag it any longer. He forcibly dragged Jin Shu inward, but his strength was no match for Jin Shu, and Xiao Deng seemed to be coming up to help.But Jin Shu kept holding Ying Feng's hand, Ying Feng couldn't shake it off, he was even more angry: "If you have the ability to lie to me, why don't you have the ability to win the prize! Come in! Don't let me be more disappointed in you, if you win the prize again and again If I don’t even take it, if I let down so many people’s love and support, I really don’t deserve my blindness for the past eight years!”

As soon as he said this, Jin Shu's face was obviously more broken.

"Go in and get the prize!" Ying Feng pushed him again.

The 24-year-old Jin Shu really looked like a 24-year-old boy for the first time, even with a dazed look on his face.

He was afraid, afraid that Ying Feng would leave just like that.

Xiao Shi said directly: "Teacher Ying! You stay and watch him win the prize before leaving, okay? I beg you, really, please!" Both he and Xiao Deng wanted to kneel down.

Ying Feng has gradually come to his senses, it is his fault, he came here to fight.

But when he heard Jin Jiayue's words and guessed the truth of the matter, he couldn't hold back for a moment.

He nodded: "I'm here."

After winning the award, no one owes anyone else.

"Boss! Go in!" Xiao Shi persuaded Jin Shu again.

Jin Shu remained motionless.

Ying Feng shook his hand again, looked up at him: "Can you stop being so childish!"

Jin Shu seemed very hurt, his eyes immediately tightened when he heard this.

But he finally came to his senses, he let go of Xiao Shi's hand, and pulled Ying Feng forward.Xiao Shi and Xiao Deng were terrified, thinking that he was going to slip away!As a result, Jin Shu walked towards the entrance, and they panicked even more. What is this for? !

Jin Shu walked to the door, and the inside was full of bustle, various lights, and various scents mixed with male and female guests.

Jin Shu pushed Ying Feng to the wall, the bewilderment that flashed on his face disappeared, and he calmly said: "Wait for me here, I will explain to you."

Ying Feng's face was full of resentment.

"Wait for me." After finishing speaking, Jin Shu turned and walked into the arena.

As soon as he entered the arena, the host immediately spotted him and said pleasantly, "Our best actor, Jin Shu, is here!"

Ying Feng heard this clearly, he looked up, and there was a big screen on the wall in front of him broadcasting the situation in the venue in real time.Amidst the exaggerated applause, Jin Shu put a smile on his face again.Jin Shu is really a very mature actor, he has long been able to control his expressions freely.

Even if the two of them had just finished arguing.

Ying Feng smiled wryly.

Leaning against the wall, he didn't know what kind of emotion he was carrying as he watched Jin Shu walk up to the stage, accept his trophy, and then give his acceptance speech.The acceptance speeches are nothing more than those. Jin Shu has also won many awards, and he speaks calmly and inexplicably sincerely.

When a person can act sincerely with incomparable sincerity, it means that his acting skills are superb enough.

In the past, Ying Feng worshiped Jin Shu blindly.

At this time, he also suddenly became sober, and finally he was able to get out of the vicious circle called worship, and calmly watched Jin Shu's speech.

There was nothing wrong with Jin Shu's speech.

However, when Jin Shu was speaking, he kept looking in the left direction.

Ying Feng stretched out his hands to support the wall, stood up straight, turned around and walked to the door, and directly met Jin Shu's gaze standing in the middle of the stage.

Are you really looking at him?

Ying Feng laughed at himself, but who knows if he is real or not.

He was about to shrink back again, when Jin Shu's speech had come to an end, facing him, Jin Shu suddenly said: "At last, I have to thank one person."

Xiao Shi and Xiao Deng, who were accompanying Ying Feng, were suddenly nervous together. They couldn't help but think that Jin Shu said similar words when he won the award four years ago.

They can think of it, and Ying Feng can also think of it.

Ying Feng remained expressionless and lowered his eyes.

"I want to thank my first love."

The audience was immediately silent.

Back then, when Jin Shu thanked his first love, there was quite a disturbance.

After four years, thank you for your first love again?

Even the host and award presenters couldn't help but hold their breath.

But after all, it is different from four years ago.

Four years ago, after saying this sentence, Jin Shu bowed directly, and then walked off the stage.

At this time four years later, after Jin Shu finished speaking, he barely paused and said, "Thank you for his timely appearance every time."

After saying such a sentence more than four years ago, Jin Shu bowed again, and then walked off the stage before everyone could react.

Xiao Shi and Xiao Deng looked at Ying Feng nervously.They don't know why, their boss is so polite about first love!It's not like the two really want to break up!

Ying Feng kept his head down, not knowing what he was thinking.

Xiao Shi thought about it, and when he was about to speak, Ying Feng suddenly turned around and ran away.

"Hey!" Xiao Shi came to his senses and chased after him, but he couldn't catch up.Many of the fans waiting outside were Jin Shu's fans. When they heard Jin Shu's words, they were naturally heartbroken.The security guards were too busy, Ying Feng just ran out from the gap, the security guards blocked the door and refused to let in or out.

Xiao Shi stomped his feet anxiously, what is this called!

He turned around again, and even Xiao Deng was gone.

He was in a state of desperation, and Xiao Deng was anxious to call him.

"what happened?"

"Boss is gone! What should we do? There was still an interview today, but he left the backstage with the trophy, and drove to the parking lot by himself!"

"..."

Xiao Shi sighed, what's the matter!

Jin Shu, who has always been calm and self-controlled, unexpectedly has such a day?

What happened to the two of them?

It was so good before!

Ying Feng ran outside the venue, and there was still light snow falling outside, he walked a few steps in a daze and then reached out to stop the car.

After getting in the car, the driver asked him where he was going.

He was dazed for a long time, unable to tell where he came from.

The driver also felt that he was very understanding, and asked him, "Did you break up in love?"

Ying Feng twitched the corners of his mouth, maybe it doesn't even count as a broken relationship, it's even worse than having never been in love.The reason why he came here was because he wanted to know an answer.Unexpectedly, the answer did not come, but Jin Shu said "thank you for your first love" face to face.

So, what is he?

it's so funny.

He laughs.

Is he just playing with it?

He didn't want to believe that the person he liked for eight years would lie to him, but Jin Shu lied to him. Jin Shu always knew that he was him, but Jin Shu had never contacted him in the past eight years!

Even after the reunion, Jin Shu didn't tell him the truth!

Instead, lie to him again!

I have to remember my first love in front of him!

Seeing the changing expression on his face, the driver persuaded him: "Young man, you are so handsome, why can't you find a beautiful girl? Where is there no grass in the world?"

Ying Feng said numbly, "I'm gay."

"Uh, then you are so handsome, why can't you find a handsome young man?"

"Can't find it."

"what?"

"There is only one him in the world, and I can't find him..."

"..." The driver didn't dare to talk to him anymore.

In the end, Ying Feng went to Nan'an University of Technology.

Nan'an University of Technology, next door to Ying Feng's alma mater, Nan'an Normal University, is on the east and west of the awards ceremony.

It cost more than 300 yuan to take a taxi, and the city is too big.

When Ying Feng paid the money and got off the car, he was taken aback when he saw the balance in his Alipay.

Since he started chasing stars eight years ago, his savings have almost never exceeded five figures.As soon as he had money, he immediately spent it to support Jin Shu in various ways.

This time it was also because Jin Shu himself had spoken out, and none of their fans wanted to make Jin Shu angry, and they didn't dare to spend money for the time being.

Ying Feng also just finished receiving this month's salary, as well as some holiday bonuses and benefits, which add up to nearly 2 yuan.

It turned out that without chasing stars, he could be so rich in no time.

Ying Feng got off the car and walked to the University of Science and Technology.

The university is also on vacation, there are few people, the lights are less bright, and the door is dark.Since graduating, Ying Feng has always been very busy. She can't miss her star chasing, and she has to perform well at work. She almost never went back to her alma mater.This is true of my alma mater, let alone the school next door?

What's more, since Jin Shu disappeared that year, Ying Feng never had the courage to come to this school again.

It was still snowing lightly, and Ying Feng was frozen even stiffer.

It was only when he realized that his coat had been left on Jin Jiayue's car.

He's always doing stupid things.

He walked almost aimlessly, but he couldn't help but come to the place where Jin Shu and the others practiced singing.When he got there, he found that the old five-story building no longer existed, and now it was replaced by a brand-new and magnificent high-rise building with at least a dozen floors.

I heard earlier that the University of Science and Technology has built several new buildings.

Unexpectedly, the most important building in his mind had long since disappeared.

Ying Feng laughed, what is this?

He finally mustered up the courage to reminisce about his past, only to find out later that he didn't even have the qualifications to reminisce?

The things you care about may be nothing in the eyes of others.

He turned around, walked along the secluded path, stepped through the iron gate, and walked to the river where he jumped excitedly after talking to Jin Shu for the first time.

The bench by the river is still there, and the maple trees beside the bench are also there, but the branches are already bare in winter.

Ying Feng sniffled, walked to the bench, turned around and sat down, staring at the lake in front of him in a daze.

Eight years ago, on that day in early autumn, he was sitting here.

Sit from dawn until dark, and then sit until dark.The rain stopped, stopped and fell again.He finally managed to fall down on the bench. It was Feng Leilei who found him and asked someone to drag him back.

In fact, looking at it now, Ying Feng felt that he was very hypocritical at that time.

Why do you have to wait here? Jin Shu didn't promise him back then. Why do you have to wait?

He can obviously leave earlier, and he can also avoid the rain, but he has to lie down on the bench to feel comfortable?

When I was young, I always seemed to be extremely paranoid and self-righteous.

His anger has faded.

At this moment, he had nothing to complain about, and he was no longer angry with Jin Shu.

Although Jin Shu lied to him, even though Jin Shu didn't like him as much as he imagined, maybe he didn't like him at all.

It's like Jin Shu can say such sincere words in front of the camera, it's also like Jin Jiayue's good acting skills, and it's more like Jin Shu's politeness when facing everyone.

The Jin Shu he saw was not necessarily Jin Shu.

Also like what Feng Leilei said, no matter what, he is the lucky one.Who can have his luck to have such a romantic relationship with a big star?

It's worth it.

Really worth it.

He looked up again, squinting, at the whirling and falling snowflakes.The last time I sat here, countless raindrops fell from the sky.After eight years, it was another rare snowflake.

He smiled bitterly.

Seeing the snow, I couldn't help but think of the time when I went out to play with Jin Shu on New Year's Day.

Jin Shu carried him in the snow——

Thinking of this, Ying Feng's eyes immediately turned red, he twitched, lowered his head, and covered his face with his hands.

Will there never be another day like that?

His palms were getting wet, and the tears were hot, even warming his frozen hands.He wiped away his tears with the back of his hand, and finally got the courage to face all this, and first reached for the cell phone in his pocket.He turned it on, and almost at the moment of turning it on, Jin Shu called.

Ying Feng took a deep breath, cleared his throat, and picked up the phone.

Without waiting for him to speak, Jin Shu first asked, "Where are you?"

"I am here--"

Jin Shu, I love you!September [-]th is my birthday, if you like me too, can you come to the second iron gate next to the garden behind the school's three teachings?There is a bench there, and there are three maple trees beside the bench.I'm waiting for you there, I still have a lot to say to you, I hope you can come!

——This is a silly sentence written by Ying Feng who scored 138 in Chinese in the college entrance examination and nearly perfect in the composition after thinking about it for a whole week.

A paragraph that would be better not to think about.

A paragraph that is not even as good as a primary school student's words.

But at that time, he was flustered, nervous, excited, and full of emotions, so he could only write such a paragraph.

He wrote such a passage on the most common piece of paper, wrapped it with scotch tape, and stuck it on the water bottle. While delivering food to Jin Shu, he stuffed it into Jin Shu's arms, turned around and ran away.In order to make sure that Jin Shu had indeed seen it, after slipping away, Ying Feng turned back and hid behind the wall, revealing two eyes, and saw Jin Shu tear off the piece of paper covered by scotch tape from the water bottle with his own eyes.

Jin Shu looked down at the paper.

After reading it, Jin Shu pulled his lips and smiled.

Ying Feng's sneaky eyes immediately bent into crescents.

He turned around and jumped three feet high, just waiting for the arrival of September [-]th.

He thought, Jin Shu really likes him!

The mood at that time will never be forgotten, Ying Feng couldn't help laughing at himself again, he said: "I am in a place where no one can be found, no one will come, only me."

Before Jin Shu could speak again, he hung up the phone again.

No, still no.

He couldn't say "break up".

I just can't muster up the courage.

He was even afraid that Jin Shu's next sentence would be "break up".

He's still not brave enough.

He immediately turned off his phone again, still staring at the water in a daze.

As if it was just a change of season, a change of age, but he sitting here has not changed at all.

Eight years have been like a day, always spinning in place.

Ying Feng seemed to be thinking a lot at this time, but he seemed to be thinking about nothing.

But he knew that he still couldn't wait for anyone.

Unfortunately, fortunately, this time, he didn't wait for anyone.

He wanted to get up, he wanted to go back, he had already fallen here last time.Eight years older, he really didn't want to make the same mistake again.Life must go on, he must live a good life, his life is still very long, he must be responsible for himself.Grandpa often said that he is a lucky person, that his great fortune is in the future, and he will definitely live well.He repeated to himself, but he still couldn't get up.

It's not that I still have extravagant hopes.

He just suddenly didn't want to leave here, leaving this place that was both the end of the original dream and the beginning of the original nightmare.

Ying Feng stretched out his hand, but couldn't catch the snowflakes.

There is still no heavy snow in Nan'an.

Ying Feng sighed, trying to stand up while supporting the bench.But he couldn't get up, his feet were so stiff that he couldn't feel it, he bent down to look at his feet, when there was a sound beside him.He was so cold that his bones seemed to be completely stiff, and he turned around slowly. After his bones "creaked", he saw a tall figure bending over and entering the small iron gate.

He opened his eyes suddenly.

Jin Shu walked to the bench expressionlessly, took off his clothes first, then bent over to dress Ying Feng seriously.Ying Feng was completely stunned, and when he really pulled his arm into his sleeve, Jin Shu usually put on clothes for him, but at this time he cooperated like this, Jin Shu quickly gave the thick and warm down jacket to him. Ying Feng put it on.

Jin Shu pulled the zipper all the way to the top and put the hat on for him.

After they were all dressed, Jin Shu's waist was bent even lower, and his arms had already wrapped around Ying Feng's legs, obviously wanting to hug him up.Ying Feng finally came back to his senses, he pushed Jin Shu away.

Jin Shu took a step back and said calmly, "It's too cold, I'll catch a cold, go to the car and talk."

"..." Ying Feng was deeply puzzled, how did he manage to remain so calm at this moment!

Ying Feng was not angry at first, so he just pretended to be an idiot again.

But Jin Shu was so calm and even put on clothes for him. After thinking about it again, he became angry again.He asked angrily, "Why did you come here?!"

"Go to the car and talk."

"right here!"

"Go to the car and talk."

"You go."

Jin Shu stood up straight and looked down at him, Ying Feng raised his head and glanced at him, then lowered his head again.

Jin Shu suddenly said: "Jin Shu, I like you."

Ying Feng was stunned.

"September tenth is my birthday."

""If you like me too—"

Jin Shu kept talking, Ying Feng panicked and stopped him quickly: "Stop talking!"

But Jin Shu continued: "If you like me too, can you come to the second iron gate next to the garden behind the school's three teachers? There is a bench there—"

"I've said it all! Stop it!"

Jin Shu turned a deaf ear: "" There are three maple trees beside the bench.I'm waiting for you there, I still have a lot to say to you, I hope you can come. "

Ying Feng was still crying from anger, he was angry and embarrassed, and yelled at him angrily: "Stop talking! Is it interesting!"

"Sorry, I didn't come that day."

Ying Feng lowered his head and buried his whole face in the fur of the hat, tears instantly soaked the fur, and he cried so hard.

Jin Shu didn't bend down to wipe his tears, and didn't try to coax him. He just stood there and said calmly, "I'm going to come. Jin Jiayue suddenly fainted that day and nearly died. He needs my blood very much. Yes, I was born for Jin Jiayue. If Jin Jiayue didn't have those diseases, if Jin Jiayue wasn't that blood type, I wouldn't need to be born at all. I don't have a mother, just like Jin Beibei, I was born as a surrogate. I was born for others and raised abroad , just to contribute blood to Jin Jiayue, and even other parts of the body in the future."

"Jin Jiayue is a psychopath. To be honest, it's good for me. Otherwise, as early as ten years old, I might have to donate a certain part of my body to him. He refused to take it. After knowing the truth, he also told me Dad had a fight, he ran away from home, and brought someone to Yeeville to apologize to me. I didn't even know why he apologized to me at the time, until I grew up and knew the truth. Wait...these The matter is not worth mentioning. I can't ignore him. He, after all, is my brother. We used to get along like that when we were young. I thought it would be good to draw some blood that day, so I went, and Jin Jiayue almost died that day. "

"Jin Jiayue is my father's lifeblood, but to be honest, even if it wasn't my father's request that day, I would have voluntarily. I thought I was cold-blooded, but seeing Jin Jiayue lying like a dead person, I was willing to give it to him. Something. After all, he is my brother, and he also complained about me. At that time, I thought, I know your name, your mobile phone number, and which school you are in, so I can still find you. I thought, I will find you and apologize."

Hearing this, Ying Feng raised his head slowly and looked at Jin Shu with his mouth slightly open.

Jin Shu is still very calm: "Maybe you still remember that once you went to the hospital with me, that is, the time you said that I looked good when I smiled. At that time, not long after I returned to China, my dad and the others took me for a medical examination. Half of them were overheard by me. I knew the reason for my birth, and I also knew that I didn’t have a mother at all. The physical examination was not completed that day. It was also your birthday, and the physical examination was done again. The final matching result was that, apart from being able to I can't give Jin Jiayue anything other than some blood of the same blood type."

"I came out of the hospital, and September [-]th has already passed. I came here, but you are no longer here. I thought that tomorrow you would come to see me practice singing, and I also thought that tomorrow you would go to the place where I performed to find I, I thought a lot of things. But I didn’t expect that you never showed up again. When I called you, a girl answered the phone, and then the phone was never connected again. I found a girl named Ying Feng in the school. I don't know anyone. I even asked Jin Jiayue to help me find all the people named 'Ying Feng' all over the country, none of them are you."

"Later, an entertainment company wanted to package me and said they wanted to make me famous. I had a falling out with my family at the time, and I had no money and was very poor. I also hoped that this would allow you to see me, and I hope you could come to see me. As a result, I still haven't found you, and you haven't come to see me. The day the fight was blocked, it was because I saw a picture of the last person in the country named 'Ying Feng', and he wasn't you. I was desperate."

"My dad is like crazy. Jin Jiayue's life is a real countdown. He tried every method, but he couldn't save Jin Jiayue's life. Jin Beibei was born under such circumstances. When I was eighteen, Jin Jiayue passed out again on the hospital bed. On my birthday, my dad lied to me to go home, and then—" Jin Shu laughed, "Anyway, I have a Jin Beibei. If Jin Jiayue didn't know about it by accident and told me , I didn't even know all this."

"You may not know that when I knew the real reason for my birth, I really wanted to die. If you hadn't followed me step by step that day, I might have really died, and I had already thought about the way to die. I have Just shoot it straight to the head. Because of you, I know that there are people in this world who don't care about everything about me, but simply care about me and like me."

"But, I lost you."

Ying Feng raised his head to look at Jin Shu in a daze, his tears fell silent for a moment, then fell involuntarily again, continuously and continuously.

"I dare not confess to you, I am afraid that you will hate me and reject me. It took me eight years to find you again, and I cannot afford this possible result. I also dare not tell you about the past, I hope that I can be more perfect in your eyes. I have never lied to you, and I never thought of playing with you. I am just, also afraid. "

"It's hard for me to find you again. I'm very afraid of losing you again. I'm afraid that you hate me. I'm afraid that you don't like me. I'm afraid that you will abandon me."

"You are the best person in the world to me, and you are the person who loves me the most."

"I'm not some high-ranking, dazzling star. I'm really just an ordinary person who likes a boy named 'Ying Feng' very much. Occasionally, I worry about fear and cowardice."

"I often think, if I came to see you that day, what would you say to me, and how would we be different."

"It's a pity that there is no such day."

"I asked someone to customize the maple leaf. I was very poor at the time, and I borrowed money from Jin Jiayue. He asked me who to give it to, and I said I would give it to the boy I like. I really didn't know what it meant to like it. But I I like the word "like", and I would like to see you smile happily. I thought about what to give for a long time, and finally I thought, I will give you a maple leaf. I think, you will like it. I think, you see When you see this maple leaf, you will definitely smile happily."

"I also thought that I would never be able to give this gift in my life. I am very grateful to Jin Beibei and my son for letting me find you and allowing me to send this eight-year-late birthday present."

"It took me more than three months to read every Weibo of Jin Xiaoyu."

"I always remember your appearance, from the first time I saw you in the heavy rain that day. I also always remember your voice, from the first sentence you said to me."

"You said, accompany me to grow up, accompany me to become the most magnificent ocean in the world."

"I've grown up, have I grown into what you like?"

"Do you like him when he grows up?"