carol

Ai Ming scolded her over the overseas phone for about ten minutes. Ke Kailuo was really speechless, and in the end Ai Ming couldn't continue to scold her.

Kai Luo knew that she was sorry for Rui Xin, so it was very hurtful to say goodbye without saying goodbye.But she couldn't control her sad emotions, she couldn't support herself, how could she be Rui Xin's support?Rui Xin has had enough troubles, she needs someone to take care of her and treat her well.And the least I can do for her is to drive away Ke Kailuo, who has problems with living a strong life.

Do I know Rui Xin's mood?She likes me very much now, she can like me who is so bad, there must be someone more worthy of her liking.

Ai Ming talked about it several times, but he really didn't understand why he couldn't have a good talk with Rui Xin.

That's because I love her so much.She couldn't say this to Abby.Whenever she looked at Rui Xin, her heart became so soft as if the ice cream had started to melt.She can't think, is irrational, and just wants to give her the best, make her happy, make her happy, watch her smile, and hope that she will always be so bright and moving.

If possible, I really want to melt myself into a small talisman for Rui Xin to wear, so that she can overcome any difficulties and achieve anything she wants to achieve.I'm just a light, small pendant leaning against her chest, without any burden, and always with her, that's all right.

Carol deeply knows that she is not the person Rui Xin needs most, she is fragile and willful.What was the use of talking if she was always unable to be strong?Almost 40 years old, facing the person she loves the most, but unable to control her emotions is her own problem.Rui Xin's happiness should not be missed by her.

She told Abby, but it was useless.

"How did you know if you didn't talk about it?" Ai Ming asked angrily just now,

"I know best myself." It was originally my problem, that I am not worthy of Rui Xin, just like I am not worthy of you, it depends on how good you are with Lisa now.Carol thought so in her heart, but of course she didn't say it out loud.They shouldn't be mentioned anymore.

When Abby was silent for a moment, Carol was really worried that even this friend would be lost.As a result, Abby changed the subject and asked her how she got here, where she planned to go, how long she would stay, what time was it here, did she have dinner... and other questions.In the end, it was Carol who asked her to go to bed early and not to worry about her, so she hung up the phone.

Rui Xin... is she asleep?Reconfirm the time in Taiwan on the mobile app, it is past one o'clock in the middle of the night.

So be it.Rui Xin will be better without me.Carol took a deep breath, at least today I did.

Standing in the warm water, Carol suddenly felt tired, very tired.Yes, what a long day.

After taking a shower, she was thirsty. When she opened the refrigerator and saw the wine, she realized that she had been sober all day.Carol turned on the mineral water,

"Good," she said to herself, and that's a good start.People have escaped so far, there is no need and can't use alcohol to escape, I can do it.

The self in the mirror looked miserable and tired, but not so contemptible anymore.have a rest!Wake up tomorrow and call Zhai He again, by then it will be daytime in Taipei.

In fact, I don't know how long I will stay here, Carol thought as she dried her hair.Will Lingling miss her?Thinking of Lingling, Carol just told herself not to think about it.She will be fine, originally she would see me less and less... Carol felt that her heart was about to sink into sadness again, she quickly closed her eyes tightly, in the darkness, she wanted to think about other things quickly.

I’ve already come to Florence… Let’s line up some leather goods stores to visit, or find someone to cooperate with?Kailo changed the hair dryer to cold air, and she flicked her hair to let the moisture escape, and she had to wait for the hair to cool before going to sleep, otherwise it would be messy again.

Stay here for at least four or five days... Carol was planning to open the suitcase, then put all the clothes in the closet and hang them up, evaluating how to match the clothes tomorrow.Bending down, my body is so stiff... I feel uncomfortably aching, I really need to rest.

In the unfamiliar dark room, the undrawn curtains penetrated the street lights outside, and some tourists could be heard talking and laughing loudly. After all, the outside of the hotel is the busiest place in the tourist area of ​​Florence.I really took a good look at this place where the Renaissance started. After I got married, I accidentally joined an art tour group invited by Zhai He’s friends’ wives.Although not so often contact, some of them are very good friends.Abby happened to be busy that time, and Juanfen kept inviting her to go with her, and she stayed in this hotel.In Florence alone, they stayed for three days and took a good look at the Uffizi, the Accademia, the Bargello art galleries and the Pitti Palace.

Those friends, long time no contact.Still in the marriage, probably, the tour group always dined together, and Carol remembered talking about her husband during the first few meals, and it soon became clear that it wasn't a topic of real interest to anyone.It is much better to be able to discuss what you have seen and experienced in the day, and to talk about your dreams and interests. Some people will also talk about their previous jobs. When they chat in depth like this, they really feel a little intimate.

Now she is a woman who has a job, earns money and uses it for herself, and doesn't have to look at the face of her husband and her husband's family.Carol flipped over, but what's the point of work?What is she doing to make money?Carol's mind raced wildly.What's the use of appreciating these furniture or boutiques?Serving customers...and for what?At this moment, Carol suddenly felt that life was empty.

…Pointless.None of this makes sense.

Jiang fell asleep, her faint thoughts drifting.Only condensed into one thought, I miss Rui Xin so much.I can't see her, but I can't stop thinking about her, as long as I close my eyes, I can see her.She can fantasize, she can always fantasize.

Ruixin is by my side, she has a sweet fragrance, her sleeping face... like an angel who does not belong to this world.

Ke Kailuo was so tired that he fell asleep.

Seeing a few gray clouds quickly gather under the blue sky, Kailo by the window wondered if she should change into a pair of more rainproof shoes.

"Should I bring a folding umbrella?" She muttered to herself and went through her bag and suitcase.Meet with the local interpreter at about 11 o'clock in the morning.It's still early, maybe go out and hang around first.

Winter in Italy feels similar to that in Taipei, especially the rainy weather.But walking on the streets of this ancient city, the feeling is still very different.Kai Luo still walked towards the cathedral unknowingly. There were not many tourists, so she went directly into the cathedral.

The interior of the cathedral is an empty and simple space, which makes a pious heart spontaneously arise.The towering walls on both sides are inlaid with large pieces of stained glass, revealing the skylight, telling the miracles in a quiet and gorgeous manner.Not to mention the ancient times when there were no electric lights, even now, people are jaw-dropping in amazement.

At last she stood under the dome, looking up at Vasari's Last Judgment.Near the round window in the center of the uppermost dome, a circle of columns is painted, three-dimensional as if it were real.The prophets in the parapets looked down on her relentlessly.In the hemispherical space below, on circle after circle of clouds, there are angels and people of all kinds, surrounding the savior, and their stories are staged one by one.Kai Luo really wanted to hold Rui Xin's hand and watch this huge mural carefully, she would definitely like it very much.She will definitely pull her to tell her their stories, Kai Luo can imagine her excited and whispered expression, Rui Xin's face will be full of brilliance.

Or they should go see Michelangelo's Last Judgment in the Sistine Chapel.Carol thought of the Genesis on the dome, so beautiful that people would take their breath away. When she saw it for the first time, she was so moved that she almost shed tears.Who said there are no miracles in the world?Although these great works are only temporary creations of mortals, they have the power to shake countless hearts for hundreds of years, how incredible.

Carol has always admired artists, painters, poets, novelists or photographers, no matter what form of art, they can express the beauty endlessly, can record indescribable complex emotions, and can create from scratch dazzling.So she has always been proud of Rui Xin, she knows that she has many talents, she is smart and hardworking, and... is such a kind and perfect angel...

Ke Kailuo stepped out of the cathedral in a daze, and walked for a while unconsciously before realizing that it was already raining.She raised her head and looked at the sky expressionlessly.Suddenly, she remembered that she still has an appointment later, this is not the time to make herself feel embarrassed!She hastily pulled out the folded umbrella to prop it up, and hastily wiped the rain off her face with a tissue.Seeing that the rain might be getting heavier and heavier, Carol knew the way from memory, and after turning a corner, she arrived at the Plaza de Signoria. She hurried into the corridor next to the city hall to avoid the rain.

After taking a breath, she tidied up her appearance, took out the local mobile phone rented at the Italian airport, and contacted the translator.The other party originally wanted to find her in a hotel, but when they heard that she was in Plaza de Signoria, they kindly proposed to make an appointment directly in the corridor, so as not to get caught in the rain while waiting for someone.

"I'll try to go there as early as possible, so you can enjoy our Firenze specialties first!" Ms. Chen, the translator, said with a smile on the phone.

In this square, there is a replica of the statue of David, and there is Perseus displaying the head of Medusa.Among all kinds of vivid statues, Kai Luo was attracted by three distorted and vertically stacked figures.It was carved out of a piece of white marble, a dark and thrilling scene in the history of the founding of Rome-the plunder of the Sabine girl.At the banquet of the Romans, soldiers rushed out suddenly, took young women by force, ignored their husbands or relatives, wrote a cruel night in the Sabine family, and also started a war between the two groups.The creamy texture of marble, chiseled by Giambologna, can reveal the delicacy and tenderness of women and the muscularity of men at the same time. The agitated emotions at this moment are forever frozen in the smooth white stone statue.Carol stared at Sabine's terrified face, how frightened, powerless, and unwilling she must be...

Every statue has a long story, not just the fierce and terrifying Sabine catastrophe, or the Gorgon with magical powers that can make people petrified, but also David's fight against giants, and Sparta and Troy The history of love and hatred between the two countries.This square alone has shown so many stories, what a stimulus and baptism this should be for Rui Xin, she should really bring her here.

Carol deeply regretted it.Rui Xin did nothing wrong.What is she doing now?It must be very sad.She didn't know that Carol was regretting and thinking about her here.If Rui Xin is here, she will definitely take her to travel here, which will definitely help her development.

So... can I help her?still can not?I can really bring her here to see this without any burden, for her... ok?Kailo was confused, under the gray sky, next to the castle-like Palazzo Vecchio, she stared at Drizzling Rain, questioning herself.

The phone in his hand rang suddenly, startling Kailo.Just as she was about to answer, someone walked up to her,

"Miss Ke?" A woman about her age smiled and put down her cell phone, and Kai Luo's cell phone stopped ringing.

"Are you Ms. Chen?" The other party nodded, simple but capable, with a friendly temperament like a teacher.

Ms. Chen first asked her if she was hungry and if she had breakfast, she was very eager.Then I asked her if she had visited the statues and if she could help introduce them.It turns out that Ms. Chen usually also works as a tour guide. When she heard that it was not the first time for Kai Luo to come here, she just smiled happily,

"Firenze is really full of artworks, and there are artists everywhere! So I really like it here." It turns out that after Ms. Chen came to Italy to study, she first stayed in Rome and Milan, and finally settled in Florence.

"Besides, the food here is so good that I really can't leave here. Ms. Ke, how about we have lunch now?" She suggested eagerly,

"But I'm not very hungry, maybe I won't be able to eat anything." Carol shook her head lightly,

"You must try it! A little bit is fine, it's impossible not to eat at noon, right?" Miss Chen said, as if she didn't mean to make Kailuo refuse. She held a big umbrella and said that the restaurant is nearby , while guiding Kailuo to continue to move forward.

In a nearby alley, they turned into an inconspicuous restaurant. The restaurant just opened at eleven o'clock, but customers came in one after another.Carol suppressed the slight displeasure caused by being forced in her heart, and tried to open the menu calmly.

It's Italian, a similar word, but Carol can't be sure...

"Florence is famous for its steak, Bistecca Fiorentina! That's T-Bone... How do you say it in Chinese... T-Bone?" Ms. Chen gestured like an Italian, but at the end she only tilted her head thinking make the right statement,

"T-bone steak." Carol helped put an end to her doubts.She also remembered that leather goods and steaks are all products of Florence.

The translator introduced that the authentic Florence steak is meat from the T-bone, charcoal-grilled and thickly sliced, because it is a grass-grazing cow that is raw but does not see blood.Speaking of which, she swallowed her saliva, and Kai Luo smiled when she saw it. Doesn't she often eat it when she lives here?Or is it really tasty?Just like some people in Taiwan will not get tired of eating beef noodles every day.

When the steak arrived, Carol was taken aback by its size.It's too big even for two people.

"Haha! Ms. Ke, you must think this is a lot, right? It's for two people." Ms. Chen explained, asking if she would like to order a glass of table wine too?Carol hesitated for a moment, looking at the steak that must have a strong taste, she thought it would be better to pair it with wine, so she nodded.

She cut a bit and tasted it. It was tender and sweet, and it was indeed very delicious.She smiled gratefully at the translator, but she couldn't stop thinking about Rui Xin who loves steak.If they eat together, Rui Xin will definitely be able to eat happily, and she doesn't have to overeat.Thinking of this, she ate another piece. It was really delicious, juicy and very fresh.Paired with raw sesame leaves, it is slightly bitter with a little sweetness, and a delicate fragrance permeates in. Indeed, Italians know how to eat.It's just that Kailuo's mood is very bitter, and the person who should share this delicious food with her is cruelly left in Taipei.

Ms. Chen kept persuading her to eat more, but Kailuo's mood became worse and worse. She just shook her head with a wry smile, saying that her stomach was not feeling well recently and she couldn't eat more.She took a sip of the red wine, even if it was just an ordinary table wine, it already had a certain quality.Carol didn't want to drink too much, after all, she said she had an upset stomach, but it was true... she didn't have any desire to eat.

She politely sat and waited for the translator to eat, and sincerely hoped that her interest would not be spoiled, so she also asked her not to mind and to eat slowly.Kailo looked at the other guests in the restaurant, some seemed to be retired foreigners traveling with the nervousness of tourists, some might be locals, talking and laughing while gesticulating while eating.There was also a table of Asians, who seemed to be a family, the child was at least a college student, and the daughter seemed to be Rui Xin's age.

The waiter brought a large plate of what looked like vanilla ice cream to the Asian table, and everyone except Dad exclaimed, because it was really a big plate... Carol also thought that the appetite of Westerners is really different , what you eat is a large portion.The daughter's eyes widened when the waiter pointed to a small cup and gestured to them.Probably means that the glass of things can be poured on ice cream.

"Brother, you come to shower, I'll record the video, hot chocolate topped with ice cream, it's amazing!" It turned out to be Chinese, the little sister confessed to her brother in a soft voice, and picked up the phone to record the video.Kai Luo was also embarrassed to keep staring at her, so she turned around and chatted with Ms. Chen again.

But she couldn't help but look at the girl again, squinting at the lava ice cream.There was a pure and happy smile on her face.Carol not only felt déjà vu, but also felt strong remorse.

In this foreign restaurant, she looked up at the hanging paintings, the decorations, and the napkins, but she couldn't see anything, she couldn't blend in, and was rejected by the world.She shouldn't be the only one here, every good thing condemns her loudly.She tried to act nonchalant, covering her face slightly, hoping to calm herself down.

He seemed to hear some familiar voice, and also felt Miss Chen gently touch her,

"Miss Ke, is it your phone?"

In her bag, the ringtone of her mobile phone in Taiwan rang muffledly.She tried not to get too flustered and pulled out her phone,

It's Rui Xin calling.

After she gestured to the interpreter with her eyes, she quickly took the mobile phone, got up and wanted to go outside the restaurant, but seeing the people coming and going on the road at the door, it must be very noisy.She looked around the restaurant, stood in a relatively quiet corridor, and answered the phone amidst the sound of her own huge heartbeat,

"Carol? Carol?" The world seemed to stand still,

"Rui Xin." Hearing Rui Xin's voice, Kai Luo's eyes were wet with excitement,

"...Abby told me you were in Italy." It wasn't fantasy, it was real, her beloved.The appearance of her speaking vividly appeared before her eyes.

"Yes. I'm eating with the translator..." Carol blinked, and the world around her began to flow.

"Ah... are you working?" Rui Xin sounded flinched,

Kai Luo hurriedly replied: "No!... Just have a meal." I really hope Rui Xin can say more,

"When are you coming back?" Rui Xin suddenly asked,

"Rui Xin, have you read my letter?" Carol didn't answer, and asked knowingly,

"I see, but we need to talk..." Carol closed her eyes, she couldn't hear Rui Xin's voice enough,

"Um…"

"Carol, you can't make this decision for the two of us by yourself."

"Hmm." Carol listened carefully to what she said,

"Hello? Can you hear me?"

"I heard, Rui Xin." I miss you so much, what should I do... what should I do?Carol only thought so frantically in her heart.

The quality of the overseas calls was very bad, and hearing her voice, the feeling of missing her was overwhelming.

But she knew that it was she who made the decision to leave her and let her not be with her, so that she would have a better and more suitable object for her.Carol clutched the phone tightly, unable to say anything, she was flustered.

"Carol, I miss you so much." She seemed to hear Rui Xin crying over there.Kai Luo's own heart was instantly shattered into ten thousand pieces.

I miss you too, Carol wanted to say that. "Gosh...I don't know what to do..." But that's all she said, and it was from her heart, and she blurted it out in helplessness.

"...You eat first? Can you call me? Or should I call you later?" Rui Xin said softly.

"No..." No, didn't I want to leave you?Shouldn't we be separated?But Carol couldn't finish the sentence.Moreover, the waiter who delivered the food was blocked by her, and she walked to the other side apologetically.

"Carol?" Rui Xin called her again,

Seeing Ms. Chen looking up and smiling at her, this is a public place, and I'm working... I feel a little rational in my heart,

"I'll call you again." She answered first.

"...Okay." Rui Xin's voice was so soft, even if she couldn't hear her clearly, she could still recognize her voice.She could hear the emotion inside.She has endless love for Rui Xin, and she can build a whole of her with just a few fragments of voice.At this moment, they are on both sides of the earth, and this magical call brings her to her side.The next moment, when Carol hung up the phone, they would be 9,550 kilometers apart in an instant.

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to be continued.

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