gentle and affectionate

Chapter 39.

The moment I woke up, I subconsciously touched the side, and the clammy emptiness of the tentacles finally woke me up.

Before dawn.

The short light sleep was not very useful for recovering physical strength, but it gave the nightmare an opportunity. I wiped the cold sweat from my forehead before I realized that my whole body was wet and cold.

The night after autumn is no longer as muggy as the dog days, but with the coolness gradually coming, it is a bit cold instead.However, this may also be due to my own reasons, I still feel a little cold after closing the unsuitable thin quilt, but the inside of my body is secretly hot.

Appears to have a fever.

It's really funny to think about it, I know that a vampire has this kind of human disease, let alone in this not cold early autumn.When I went back to my room at night, I had a headache that was about to explode, and I went to bed early, but I didn't get anything more valuable than nightmares.

The head still hurts, the joints of the whole body feel faint cold pain, and the knees seem to be blown in by the wind, and they will creak when they are lightly moved.

That's right, on the point of recovery, I lied to Heigan again.

It is not so easy to recover from exhaustion and dying due to ischemia. Even if Heigan snatched me back at the last moment a month ago, I still suffered from this injury and suffered from it every day.It's true that vampires' resilience is much higher than that of all creatures, but people forget that it needs to be built on enough blood, and how much blood should they owe for half a year?

And how much is the bottom line for human blood loss and death?

So, probably because of this, I had a fever today when the decisive battle was going to be tomorrow.I moved, my clothes were soaked in cold sweat, and it was uncomfortable to stick to my body. I wanted to wipe off the sweat and at least moisten my parched throat, but found that I didn’t even want to move, as if I even went to the coffee table I didn't even have the strength to pour a glass of water.

I tilt my head.The porcelain cup on the table was replaced with a new one. I couldn't tell what was inside, but it was much thicker than the previous one, probably because it was not easy to break, like someone saw that day.

The clothes hanging outside were collected before the rain, and hung neatly on the hangers in the corner, just like the man had always been used to.

The used wine bottles were put away, and the newly bought wines were arranged again. They were all somewhat sweet wines, not strong at all, and my taste was the same as he knew.

However, when I couldn't reach out to touch the warm body, and when I woke up without the hot water handed over by him with a look of disgust, I realized that everything had changed.

I clenched my hands touching the sheets, nails digging into my palms.

I can no longer enjoy his care as I should have done before, and now, I have completely lost him.

There is no deep black, now, there is only a wet and cold blank.

Obviously it took half a year to get used to walking alone, fighting alone, getting used to sleeping and waking up alone, getting used to talking to myself without anyone hearing... Obviously it was like this a hundred years ago, but because of that After only one year of getting along, I can still think of that person's tenderness even in my midnight dreams, and I am so lonely that I can't sleep.

So it's scary to get used to this thing.

It began to rain suddenly outside, which aggravated the dampness and coolness of this autumn night.A gust of cool wind made my body shiver involuntarily, and I realized that I forgot to close the window. Seeing that the cold was severe and the fever seemed to be getting worse, my body became heavier and refused to cooperate.

It's still dark, but I can't sleep.Thinking that the worst thing would be to sit all night, I made up my mind and moved my body to get up, but before I could move, I heard footsteps.

I quickly lay back and closed my eyes.

The door slowly opened without making too much noise. I think if I fell asleep at this time, I would not have heard anyone come in.

The man's footsteps sounded cautious.Sensing that he was approaching me, I suddenly became nervous, and I tried my best to slow down my breathing and pretended to be asleep, but he walked around my bed and went straight to the window.

I breathed a sigh of relief, and then heard the sound of the window being closed, and the warmth in the room finally began to accumulate.

He probably looked around the room, and then heard the sound of water. He seemed to be pouring water, but he didn't seem to fill a glass. Then he stood still by the bed, and I could feel his gaze on me. .

So, I also became nervous.

The man's aura was restrained deliberately, and even the sound of his breathing was suppressed, but he could still hear the long and even rhythm, which was no different from the rhythm in his memory. He and I just faced each other in the dark without a trace. Dare to move.

He looked at me for a long time, making people wonder if he was in a daze; but the result of pretending to sleep all the time was that his consciousness gradually blurred. There was a warmth that didn't belong to this world, and it was so gentle that it was slightly itchy. I shrank my body subconsciously, and then heard a soft sigh.

Not long after, when my body was lightly covered by a thin blanket, I realized that this person's gentleness had never left me, so those habits would probably never be erased... curled up tightly My body was relaxed due to the warmth, but my hands clenched the corner of the quilt tightly until I heard a very slight sound of closing the door. I couldn't restrain a choked sob overflowing from my throat, and tears rolled down the corners of my eyes, wetting the pillow towel .

Now even the air is full of his smell.

The last game was still the same black and white four-box arena, and it was still a four-person team-to-team confrontation match. It was just that today, when the game was in full swing, it was reasonable to say that the field should be full of people, but until now it was still empty, so there was no one around. People made the arena even more empty and silent, and the blood seeping through the cracks in the bricks made this place as terrifying as a Shura field.

Although to some extent, this place can be regarded as a small Shura field.

But that's nothing to fear.On the high and long steps, I helped Sakura to walk a little bit. On the day when the final battle was approaching, if I had no fear because I didn’t care, then Sakura was determined and fearless because she had someone who cared. , the look is almost more decisive than the first day.

Everything he has done in order to bring back the little wolf will finally come true today.With the joy of celebrating her, I helped her to the chess player's seat, but she held my hand when I was about to leave.

"Sakura?"

"Mr Fay..."

She suddenly changed her previous expression and looked at me like that little girl who didn't know much about the world. I couldn't help being a little surprised, and I couldn't help feeling a little nostalgic in my heart, so I gave her the most gentle smile possible and asked:

"what happened?"

"You told me you were willing to do what I wanted, right?"

Just like the promise a child asks for a birthday present from an adult, I was a little amused, and said without hesitation:

"If that's my princess' wish..."

"Then..." A trace of sadness flashed in her eyes, "From now on, please promise me that you will put yourself first."

The joking smile faded instantly, and I could only stand there in a daze.

- Take yourself first?

Did Sakura discover something?No, even if it was, she didn't need to say it at this point in time... There was a strange feeling in my heart, so fast that I couldn't catch it, and when I was shocked, I wanted to ask again, but the organizer sent a message at this time, asking us Whether it can start, I also have to endure the doubts in my heart.

When she looked back at Sakura, she was still the same as before, her gaze was calm and firm.

"Are you the last chess player?"

"Because I'm also the host anyway."

The chess player on the opposite side smiled easily, it seemed that he was the one who invited Sakura last night.I couldn't help but think of Sakura's strangeness when she came back yesterday, her firm rejection of "little wolf", and her determination with a hint of sadness... The uneasiness in my heart is even more intense, but now I don't know how to solve it, so I can only fret He frowned.

"Then," the host chess player calmly explained the rules, "In the final 'chess game', I want the chess pieces to fight one-on-one. What do you think?"

The four of us looked at each other.

"I agree."

The boy agreed very simply.Although we have no reason not to agree, but the organizers set the rules, the organizers personally become chess players, and the rules are changed to one-on-one; and it is obviously a profitable game, but the audience seats on the scene are empty, which is really contrary Common sense... I couldn't figure out what medicine was sold in the organizer's gourd, and I became more irritable, but I could only squeeze out a smile to reassure the two children, and then walked down the steps again with Heigan.

Before Hei Gang left, he gave the young man a few words, and then said nothing, making the already long steps seem even longer.I looked back full of unease, and saw the boy standing in front of the seat, holding the girl's hand with one hand, and the girl was showing an extremely gentle smile, as warm as winter sunshine.

Of course, she didn't blame him, but he was not him, just to hide her wish, but in fact, she was always grateful.

"Let's go."

The man's voice also showed a bit of relief. I heard the sense of peace of my companion in my ears. I suppressed the inexplicable uneasiness in my heart and continued walking with him.

Hei Gang, I, and the two chess players on the opposite side came to the open space below the arena. The high wall where the arena is located is attached to a screen monitoring the arena. I think the nearest auditorium is here.At that time, the boy had finished talking with the girl, and raised his short thorn to prepare for the challenge.

"About the weapon, isn't that the weapon you usually use?" The organizer said again, "Just use the weapon you are best at to fight, or you can use magic power or something like that."

As soon as these words came out, everyone had their own thoughts.

"Are they the ones watching us?"

Hei Gang said so, but he was only half right.As far as I know, Little Wolf hasn't used magic in Infinity City, even if it's surveillance, how could they even know this?

The strangeness in my heart was getting bigger and bigger, but it was so chaotic that people couldn't find a clue. I frowned, so I had to continue reading.

Being able to use magic, the little wolf can show its true strength, but the organizer said so, it also means that the opponent is strong.The expressions of the two people on the field were a little dignified, but they were still determined.After Xiaolang nodded to Sakura, he glanced towards us in the audience, then raised his hand and threw a short stab, which was easily caught by Heigan.

Clasping palms together, moving the heart at will, when the ancient sword is unsheathed in the young man's hand, he is full of vigor.

But no one thought that the chess piece sent by the opponent was actually a robot.

"That's for multiplayer battles! And the opponent is a child..."

Obviously he is the follower of the chess player of the organizer, but he is worried about our side. I have to say that this person is a bit straightforward and cute, and the other person standing next to him has calm eyes.

"Even if he is a child, he chose to fight according to his own will. If he loses here now, he will not be able to overcome the...bigger obstacles waiting for him in the future."

If the first person's reaction was surprisingly funny, then this person's words are actually a little strange.Hei Gang and I looked at each other, this person seemed to know something, we couldn't guess anything, but it was not easy to ask, so we could only suppress our questions temporarily, discussing about going to find out the details after the game is over.

The first person called him Landis.Lantis looked at the field calmly, the game was about to start, and we had to turn our attention to the field.

Following the announcement of the start of the game on the radio, the robot on the opposite side preemptively jumped high in an instant, and then swooped down with the momentum of the fall. The little wolf backed away and dodged it. Unexpectedly, she jumped up to a higher height again, so she had to block it with a horizontal sword.The moment when the attack fails is the easiest time to expose its weakness. The little wolf is about to counterattack, but the opponent retreats at a speed that is almost invisible.

So fast!

Hei Gang and I looked at each other. With such speed and strength, this battle might not be easy for the little wolf.

I pressed my eyelids that had been twitching all the time, and the uneasiness in my heart kept me unable to calm down. Hei Gang couldn't help but look at me more, and after I twitched the corners of my mouth at him, I turned my gaze back to the screen of the live event .

The unbelievable speed of the first attack obviously affected the little wolf. He seized the opportunity to attack this time, and I have to say that he was a little impatient. Both Hei Gang and I frowned, and sure enough, the next second saw the opponent stretch out his mechanical arm He blocked the move, and then elbowed the little wolf's right shoulder with the momentum of both sides. The little wolf's hand holding the sword immediately lost its strength, and was caught off guard by the opponent's flying kick and hit his jaw. The fatal blow came.

The two sides retreated to the side of the chess player before stopping, and even we off the court were able to breathe a sigh of relief.

"coming."

Hei Gang hadn't finished speaking, the little wolf had already jumped up, and after a feinted move with the long sword, he hit the opponent's abdomen with his knee. This kick was beautiful, and ordinary people could hardly expect it. Tacticians around.The heart that had been hanging all the time suddenly got some relief, I clenched my fists and continued to watch the battle.

As long as this man is still around, even if I leave, it won't have much impact on them.

Heigang rarely makes mistakes in his judgments about battles, because his opponents are generally human, and humans have weaknesses. His physical skills are not bad, and he is good at observing the state of mind of others, so it is difficult to make mistakes.But this time he was wrong, because the opponent was a robot.

"Is it possible to take that action because you can't feel the pain?"

It's no wonder that Heigang also misjudged.Just now, the little wolf's move directly hit the abdomen. If it was an ordinary opponent, he would lose his strength in the pain as early as that move. It is difficult to defend, let alone counterattack?But the opponent was a robot that didn't feel pain. Except for a moment of slowness in the attack on the little wolf, she raised her fist to fight back almost instantly. The little wolf was hit and fell backwards, and then the two immediately attacked again , the little wolf was a little faster, but the robot actually blocked it with its wrist!

Her left wrist was almost chopped off, but she was still able to fight back instantly.The little wolf fell from mid-air and fell heavily on the ground. A crack flashed across the girl's expression, but the persistence buried deep in her eyes was so strong that it seemed to be able to overcome everything. Even I, who knew everything, couldn't help but feel a little moved... The wish is too unfair and cruel to the "little wolf" in front of him, but I think he must be willing to protect it.

"Sakura..."

The boy who was knocked down to the ground failed to escape the attack from the robot, and was pulled by the neckline and fell to the ground again. The robot punched him straight, and he rolled to the side and got up, protecting the right half of his abdomen. Kneeling on the ground, the blood oozing from his back finally trickled down his arms.

This time, Sakura's face couldn't help but change.

And when all of us were sweating for the little wolf, he stood up firmly, told her to close her eyes, told her to let her not worry about herself, told her—let her only think about winning The thing is enough.

At that time, the boy's back was as strong as a green pine growing from the cliff.

……

And later, the huge ball of light that burst out on the field, the extremely dangerous mechanism, and how the boy won with a magic trick in the end, all were relayed to me by Heigang later, because I had no time to watch at that time.

Because at that time... I didn't expect to hear a chirp.

— Fay, can you hear me?

I didn't expect that after only a few days, the seal was almost unable to support; I didn't expect that the time here would pass so fast, the seal would be destroyed, the king would wake up, and once the king's magic power recovered, I...

The trembling that couldn't be suppressed even though I clenched my hands was suddenly stopped, and the temperature from my arms made me tremble, as if it had penetrated deep into my heart.I looked up and saw Heigan holding my arm, and those Danfeng eyes that had been avoiding for a long time were staring at me, seeing through my fear in an instant, and conveying his heart to me in an instant.

Obviously silent, but it is better than a thousand words.

I couldn't refuse his retention, but the voice in my mind kept urging me to leave.The magic in my body suddenly ran around like crazy, and it caused a strong dizziness for a moment. I couldn't help but staggered, almost relying on the help of black steel to keep from falling down.

And in the arena, the huge fluctuations caused by the magic power seemed to tear a gap in the world. During the dizziness, I heard Heigan say that the little wolf had won, so I managed to open my eyes, and saw Sakura from Struggling to get down from the seat, I dragged my injured right foot to his side and thanked him. I couldn't see Sakura's expression clearly, but I felt that the fluctuation of magic was getting stronger.

The battle is clearly over, but why——

The moment Ji appeared, I froze in place as if I had been slapped in the head.

The clothes are as pure black as this country, not a long Thracian dress, and the shape of her ears is also a mechanical ear that I am not familiar with; she fell from the sky with her eyes closed, and she is not like the person who has been silently with me and him all year round... But those eyebrows and eyes are clearly the one I am familiar with, the face of our mother that he and I have thought about and imagined for countless days and nights in the distant childhood.

"She is the only machine in this country that can be used to cross dimensions."

My heart skipped a beat.

——Transcending dimensions.

I saw the figure of Sakura slowly flying up, and the world of Ji was slowly shrouded in light.

"'She' can take you to other dimensions."

Regardless of the serious injury, the boy flew up to hold her hand, but she said that it would be too late.

On the other side, I heard a voice in my head——

"Fay, Ji's seal is broken."

……

I stared blankly at the girls in the arena——

Sakura, could it be——

You know I'm lying.

Could it be that... you want to find the little wolf alone?

The fear of losing Sakura quickly enveloped my whole body, and my mind was even more swallowed by the chaotic heart. I walked towards her as if possessed, but at this moment, a buzzing sound in my head made me stop thinking—— —

Close at hand is a tower that is too high to see the top.

In the deep valley so white that there are only corpses, I sit under the tower in the freezing cold.

I climbed again and again, slipped down again and again, the tower could not see the end, but my fingers were bloody.

I longed for happiness with the last ray of hope, but in front of me was a cruel multiple-choice question, and I made a decision that I would regret for the rest of my life.

I... killed him.

It's my... responsibility.

It's mine, damn it.

In the blindingly white snow, a man with a strange smile——

"When you meet someone whose magic power is above yours, you will put that person..."

……

Wang's familiar face appeared in front of my eyes, and the feeling of magic running wild in my body was so strange.I seem to have heard Heigang's anxious cry, but I don't know how to respond to him; while the surrounding scenery quickly descended, and then my right hand touched the cool hilt, I knew I picked it up, and knew that the sharp metal pierced the flesh Insensitivity, knowing that the blood sprayed the body temperature all over the face.

But I don't know who the temperature belongs to.

Because when he came back to his senses, the blade had already sunk into his heart, and the owner of that heart...

"You'll kill that man—"

The girl who always wanted to protect was pierced into the heart by the long sword, and the blood scattered, and the blood-stained long sword was held in my hand.

I, killed Sakura.

The curse cannot be lifted.

I can only watch all this, let the tears flow in vain.

Who knows how much I want to stop, I want to catch her, I want to ask the best doctor to help her treat, I even want Hei Gang to kill me, kill me, the devil, and save Sakura... But I couldn't even call for help.

I can only watch myself go on according to the fate I have arranged, go on forever, forever and ever, and I can never get rid of it.

"Don't draw your sword!"

……

I know.

I also... don't want to.

I can only scream heart-piercingly in Heigan's yell because of my disorganized hands. I put all my energy into this voice. I want to yell out all my anger and sorrow, but They are still too thick to melt.

In the past, all kinds of fast-forward movies were squeezed into my mind and shown. The 14-year-old princess, with a pale face, a complexion and mood that improved little by little, and a kindness from the heart, she has always looked ignorant. , the way of laughing, the way of crying because of worry, and the way of maintaining hope despite the difficulties... She is so dazzling, so beautiful that anyone will be moved by seeing her. The waking dream drips with a glimmer of hope.

Why, I was the one who killed her with my own hands.

Obviously, until the end, she still told me to put myself first.

...But I, a person who has committed a lot of sins, have no right to put myself first?

It wasn't until the blood gushed out from her heart like a column and sprinkled on my face and hands that the chaotic soul finally returned to this body.

I held a long sword covered in blood, and the girl fell in a pool of blood in front of me.

——I, killed Sakura.

The bright red in the white snow coincides with the girl in the pool of blood in front of her eyes, and the man's voice can't get away——

"It's a curse."

"You can never escape."

—I can never escape.

Even if it happens right in front of your eyes, you can only watch and do nothing.

The person I wanted to protect, but I killed her instead, promising not to hurt anyone again, but the other two took chances for me more than once.

I am born with a curse. I can only bring misfortune to others. The closer the person is, the more he cares about the person, the less likely he will die.

People who can't resist, are powerless, but still want to protect others——

Why don't people like me die.

After experiencing strong magical fluctuations, I was powerless and knelt down in front of a pool of blood, but my cold hands were wrapped by a pair of small hands, just like the girl who gave me hope countless times during times of depression and pain——

"Catch up—"

The soul leaping out of the blood-stained body seemed to be still alive. Facing me, a murderer, she still had the usual warm smile on her face, like the rising sun breaking through the sky and squeezing into this darkness and darkness. Bloody rain.

"Don't worry, my life is not gone, I'm still here."

She put her hand on my shoulder and gave me a warm hug like a smile, which I will never forget in my life.

That day, she said to me——

do not forget,

The future can also be changed.