secretly like him

Of course I am happy to get the first place, but even more happy is to get the first place with the person I like!

Gu Xun didn't know what he was going to do next, anyway, when he realized it, everyone else was already in the self-service barbecue shop.

Shen Yanzhi was sitting opposite him, with his eyes slightly lowered, using the barbecue tongs to flip the barbecue on the grill.

Gu Xun couldn't help swallowing, not sure if it was greed or something else.

Seeing that the meat was almost done, Shen Yanzhi said to Gu Xun, "Pass me the plate."

Gu Xun foolishly handed over the plate from his side, and Shen Yanzhi put the meat on it, and finally told him: "Be careful it's hot."

Gu Xun thought he was really caring...

Then Shen Yanzhi asked him again: "Has the soul returned?"

Gu Xun: "Um...then what..."

Shen Yanzhi nodded, it seems that he is back, no matter what he said just now, he smirked, but now there is an echo.

Gu Xun coughed, and proved with actions that his mind could move. After looking around, he asked, "Where are my parents?"

Shen Yanzhi: "I visited with the boss."

Gu Xun let out an "oh", and started to eat the barbecue in front of him. He felt that the taste was really good, and couldn't help stuffing several pieces into his mouth.

When his mouth was full, he realized that Shen Yanzhi's plate on the opposite side was still clean, and he didn't look like he had eaten a single bite.

When Gu Xun opened his mouth, he wanted to ask why Shen Yanzhi didn't eat, but then he saw that the meat was all on his own plate, and it was Shen Yanzhi who put it back on the baking plate.

Gu Xun suddenly felt that he only knew how to eat, which was too much, so he proactively asked for help with baking.

However, Shen Yanzhi stopped him: "You eat yours, and it's easy to mess up when two people roast."

Gu Xunxin said that roasting meat can still be messy?

Then he discovered that Shen Yanzhi arranged the meat very neatly when grilling, and when he turned it over, he turned it one by one...

Uh, forget it, he'd better be honest and forget it.

Shen Lan and his wife probably had a good time chatting with their colleagues. Gu Xun was half full after eating, and they came back.

As a result, Shen Lan was obviously not in a high mood when she came back, and her whole expression was broken.

Gu Xun cared about his mother: "Mom, what's wrong with you?"

Shen Lan didn't say a word, and didn't even look at him.

Gu Xun changed his target and asked his father, "Dad, what's wrong with my mother?"

Gu Jingyuan thought about it, and said to Gu Xun, "Your Aunt Liu and Uncle Chen are divorced."

Gu Xun was gnawing on a rib, but now the rib fell off the plate.

For nothing but pure shock.

If there is any couple in the world who will not divorce, in Gu Xun's knowledge, besides his parents, they are Aunt Liu and Uncle Chen.

Aunt Liu is very gentle and gentle. When Gu Xun was a child, he once wondered why Aunt Liu was not his mother, and Uncle Chen often took him to play with him.

In Gu Xun's heart, they are really a model couple even more exemplary than his parents.

How can we get divorced!

Gu Xun asked stupidly, "W-why?"

No one answered him this question, Gu Xun felt as if he had a lump in his heart.

After Gu Xun went back, he was still very frustrated because of this matter. He was lying on the bed and ready to sleep, and couldn't help but babble to Shen Yanzhi: "Why..."

Shen Yanzhi, who hadn't spoken for a long time, said softly, "Divorce may not be a bad thing."

Gu Xun replied subconsciously: "Could it be a good thing?"

After speaking, he also felt that this was wrong, but he still felt uncomfortable. It felt like something was broken. He was a little disappointed and a little scared.

Shen Yanzhi thought for a while and said, "My parents are also divorced, I think it's pretty good."

Gu Xun: "..."

Gu Xun really wished that today's topic had never started.

Shen Yanzhi sighed softly: "Divorce may not be a bad thing, but I hope the way they end will not be so ugly."

Gu Xun moved his mouth: "Ayan, your parents..."

Shen Yanzhi probably sensed his nervousness, so he softened his tone a bit: "They left very early."

In the darkness, Shen Yanzhi's voice was very calm.

Gu Xun heard him say: "They are all busy. When I was a child, I was always taken care of by a nanny. It was rare that we would quarrel at home. Suddenly one day, they said they were going to divorce."

Gu Xun didn't know if Shen Yanzhi's mood was as calm as his tone, but his heart ached.

Shen Yanzhi said: "Actually, I was quite happy at that time, because they started fighting for custody."

It's like remembering it all of a sudden, as if he still has his son suddenly, wishing to put everything in front of him to please him, as long as he nods, he intends to go with him.

At that time, Shen Yanzhi was still young, thinking that he was outstanding and his parents liked him, that's why he wanted to grab him.

In the end, he chose his mother. As for the children, they always have a deeper affection for their mothers.

It's a pity that after the dust settled, there was only the nanny by my side.

Oh, and then there were more dogs.

He also wondered if he wasn't good enough, so his mother didn't want to spend more time with him.

"I read a lot of books and learned a few foreign languages. I want her to like me more and stay with me more at home."

But it was useless, until his father wanted to take the custody back again.

Shen Yanzhi smiled: "Then I thought, will it be better if I change someone else."

But the result is still disappointing, they are simply grabbing for the sake of grabbing.

It may not matter who the son is, it just happens to be him.

Shen Yanzhi suddenly lost his mind when thinking about the past.

Gu Xun felt even more nervous because of his pause. He wanted to speak, but he was too daring.

Shen Yanzhi finally concluded: "Actually, I became what I am now because I just want others to like me."

He was not as good as he showed in his bones, he was just used to it, and he couldn't change it.

So sometimes seeing Gu Xun liking him so much, Shen Yanzhi would even feel a little guilty.

He actually didn't think about talking about these things with Gu Xun, but once he spoke, he was a little out of control.

Shen Yanzhi said, "Gu Xun, I'm not as good as you think."

Gu Xun's heart was like a frightened hedgehog, he curled up in an instant, and then subconsciously resisted: "Hahahaha, why are there no more! Don't chat, go to sleep! Go to sleep!"

Gu Xun felt that he was almost out of breath, and he felt that Ayan seemed to have something in his words.

He was very afraid that Shen Yanzhi would tell him next time, I'm not that good, so don't like me anymore.

As long as Gu Xun thought that Shen Yanzhi might already know that he liked it, he would feel scared and embarrassed.

Did this person see his overreaching?

This feeling really made Gu Xun feel suffocated.

But Shen Yanzhi still said softly: "You will meet better people."

Gu Xun's mind was buzzing, it seemed to be full of things, but it seemed to be blank at the same time.

Then he shook his head, tears had reached his eyes at some point.

Gu Xun said in a hoarse voice, "No."

After meeting Shen Yanzhi, there will be no better person, there won't be anyone who doesn't exist.

Gu Xun's tears came down, but it was unexpectedly quiet.

Then he thought of the night when he had just met Shen Yanzhi, and he also cried in front of Shen Yanzhi.

At that time, Ayan said that he had committed a foul.

Gu Xun quickly wanted to hold back his tears, he raised his hand and wiped it away, he didn't want Shen Yanzhi to feel like he was forcing him to like him.

It's just that he really couldn't help it, and the tears couldn't stop as if the gate had been opened.

Finally, he raised his arms and covered his face. Although the bedroom was dark without the lights on, he still wanted to hide the tear-stained face.

Gu Xun said: "I just... have no way not to like you, and I didn't think about it, really..."

If he could really dislike Shen Yanzhi, he would also like to dislike him.

This should make life easier, not so tiring every day.

But he was so tired, but he was still so happy, so he wanted to work harder.

He never thought about getting any response from Shen Yanzhi, he just wanted to be by Shen Yanzhi's side like this, he just wanted to like him quietly like this.

What he didn't expect was that Ayan was so smart, he thought he hid it well.

But it was still spotted by Ayan.

Gu Xun thought of the fact that he still insisted on sleeping with him, and felt that he must be very dirty and shameless in Shen Yanzhi's heart.

He opened his mouth, but he didn't know what to say, but something was revealed in his panting.

Shen Yanzhi sat up vigilantly, reaching out to turn on the light.

Gu Xun found the hand that immediately blocked him, and tightly grasped the hand that was about to turn on the light.

Gu Xun whispered under his breath, "Don't turn on the light."

He didn't want Shen Yanzhi to see his current appearance, he was already ashamed, and he didn't want to be more ashamed.

Shen Yanzhi felt the wetness of his palm, and immediately frowned fiercely.

He didn't know what happened to him, why he suddenly pierced the window paper.

He obviously can, obviously can keep silent all the time, just pretend like he doesn't know anything...

But suddenly he couldn't do it.

Shen Yanzhi was a little at a loss, he didn't know how to explain clearly to Gu Xun, and he didn't know how to make him feel less sad.

Silence spread between the two of them, and the atmosphere was like a balloon that was quietly inflated, as if it would explode completely in the next moment.

Shen Yanzhi heard Gu Xun trying to suppress the breathing, he knew that Gu Xun was crying.

He didn't want Gu Xun to cry at all.

Thinking that Gu Xun was crying, he felt very uncomfortable, as if something was stabbing in his heart, and the feeling of pain was very vivid.

In the end, he just said dryly, "Ah Xun, I'm not that good."

In the darkness, Gu Xun let out a "hmm", but he didn't know what he meant.

Shen Yanzhi felt as if he had messed up everything, he took a deep breath: "I...I will move back to live."

After he finished speaking, he felt that Gu Xun's hand holding him strengthened.

Gu Xun said, "I'm sorry."