long evening

Xu Ruyu lowered his eyes and didn't say anything.When Li Linghan arranged for Xu's mother's funeral, Xu's father said it, and his son said it before his mother left, and his son was handed over to him. That's what he meant. I have never dared to tell anyone about it, and I never expected to meet someone who treats him well. The two of them don't ask for anything, as long as the wife is happy, let him go!I didn't talk about it before, mainly because I was afraid of the embarrassment of the two young people... Now there is nothing to avoid, and the mother-in-law has also left.

Xu Rukui didn't know that his father said such things to others. He was always by his mother's side, and he had never heard her say such things... Maybe he didn't hear them.Now that's the case, there's no need to figure it out.

Li Linghan never contacted Xu's father again, his thoughts were all on Xu Rukui, now that Xu Rukui is back, with him, that's enough.Xu's father remarried half a month later, Xu Ruyu knew about it, but he didn't go.The old house of his family was simply repaired and some furniture was added to make it the new house of the old couple.

The marriage was very low-key, so we set up a few tables, and the neighbors went to have a meal.

When Li Linghan came back, he realized that something was wrong with Xu Rukui, and his mood was completely wrong.If you say you're in a bad mood... No one will be in a good mood when this happens. It's okay to feel sorry for your mother, but today's situation is different.

When he was driving to Xu Rukui's former home, the guests of Xu's family had left early, and there was still a table outside, which had already been cleaned up, and the lady inside the table was cleaning it up.

Li Linghan looked at the big "囍" on the newly posted couplet on the door, but said nothing. "Oh! You are late, which one is it? Come in and have a seat. Auntie will pour you a cup of tea and some sweets..." Li Linghan stood at the door with a calm expression, neither saying a word nor intending to enter. .Sister Yu was at a loss as to what to do, when Father Xu came out wiping his hands with a rag, "Xiao Li..." He stopped abruptly.Li Linghan turned around and left, without looking at his expression that he hadn't had time to adjust.He walked very fast, and when Xu's father came out, he had already gone a long way.

It turned out to be like this.He coaxed and forced him in the room, and it took him a long time to pry Ru Cui's mouth open. This was the reason.

When passing by the noodle shop that Ru Cui used to go to, Li Linghan thought about it, got out of the car and packed some noodles.

When he went in with noodles, Xu Rukui was still sitting in front of the window. "I bought your favorite noodles, come eat..." Li Linghan said softly, and went to get a bowl from the cupboard.After pouring out the noodles and bringing them over with chopsticks, Xu Rukui still sat there without moving. "Come on, or you'll be lumpy for a while, and I'm thinking of bringing you back to eat as soon as possible in the car." He continued to put the noodles on the small table in a good-tempered manner, and stood looking at Xu Rukui.Xu Rukui sat still and didn't move. "Don't be shameless."

After he finished speaking, he regretted it, and the cold tone frightened him.Xu Ruyu had a bad temper when he forced Xu Ruyu before leaving, and when he came back to buy noodles and wanted to coax him, he became like this again... Temporarily unable to lose face, he had to stand in front of the noodle bowl with a cold face.Xu Rukui by the window finally moved, thank God.

After eating halfway, Li Linghan went to get a glass of water and put it in front of him, "You don't like coriander, so I didn't put it in, and I put in less of your favorite chili oil." Xu Ruyu didn't say a word.He stretched out his hand to pull out the chair, put it on the side where Xu Rukui was sitting, and sat next to him, then hugged Xu Rukui's back and pulled it into his arms.Xu Rukui ate his noodles with his head down, and didn't respond to being hugged around his waist and hips. "Ruyu..."

"There is no right or wrong in many things, it's just that different people have different choices..." Xu Rucui recalled what his mother said, with a transparent look, but who can avoid it.Sad when encountering sad things, angry when encountering angry things, this is the mood, and it cannot be controlled at all, otherwise she would not have allowed him to come back for so many years... Can you completely let go of it after seeing it clearly?cannot.At the hospital, his father had admitted it, and his mother knew about it.He was shocked for a long time and couldn't digest it. He couldn't believe that such a thing happened.But when I asked my mother about it later, she did know, and she was very calm.At that time her mother was very weak, lying on the bed as light as nothing, she said, "'Fortunately' and 'very good' are not the 'best', when people meet the 'best' one, they will discover those' It's pretty good'''it's not bad' it's really far away, it's not even dust..." Needless to say too much, Xu Rukui already understood.This is a matter of the previous generation. If it was wrong, it would have been wrong a long time ago. He was not born so early. He shouldn't have emotions on this matter, but now he can't control it. When he came out, he would even think, would Dad wish for his mother to die quickly?That way you can marry that woman without stress.

Staying in the hospital for more than a month was too difficult. He didn't know how he got over it. Maybe if he endured it again, he would probably go crazy.My father didn't let him take care of it, and kept saying that we don't have to take care of our affairs, but the woman still flaunted openly in front of him and his mother, with an expression of embarrassment and gratitude.She is grateful to her mother and calls her sister-in-law.He didn't have a serious position to criticize them, and he himself was not much better. A comrade, he failed to add to the family, but almost broke the family apart.He owed the family forever in this matter, so in the end, Zhang couldn't open his mouth to accuse anyone.

When he went back to pack his things, there was no room for him to comment on this matter.They had a big fight, and my father said that I have no hope. I only have this wish when I am old, and you still want to stop me.It was no longer his home because the house was being vacated for the two of them.

"I didn't mean to kill you, but...sometimes I can't control my temper very well, so don't take it to heart."

Li Linghan rubbed against his back, and scraped vigorously with the tip of his chin.

"Don't say anything, you can tell me, we are 'husband and wife'..."

"Come on, wipe it off and drink some water." Li Linghan reached out behind his back and pulled a piece of paper, rubbing it on his mouth.Xu Rukui rubbed it twice by himself, then picked up the cup and took another sip. "Kiss one..." Li Linghan turned his face and kissed him on the lips again. "It's a bit spicy and numb."

After the cloud and rain at night, Li Linghan said, "Why didn't you tell me? I didn't go because I was afraid that you wouldn't want to see me, so I asked you to accompany me alone. Why don't you tell me when something like this happens? ,...Although it may not be of much help, it would be much better to have someone around to support you." Xu Rukui didn't speak, and lay on his back, covered in sweat. "People will grow up, and they will always lose something... Some people, be strong, and everyone must go on strong if they are gone, let alone you and me. The beginning of our... was not very good, but I really like you, can you feel it?" Li Linghan said that he was discouraged, and his head was stuck in his neck and he did not move.

It was dinner time, with the dim light, the closed wooden door, and the sound of chairs being smashed violently, it was like an absurd movie, which is still unbelievable in retrospect.He looked at the light in the window and couldn't imagine his mother smashing a chair inside.The eruption before was silent and depressing. If it wasn't for the fact that there was someone next door, Xu Rucui could imagine how mournful the cries and messy fights were, but they all suppressed their voices, and even the mother kept covering her mouth and nose to avoid crying .I still remember it.Xu Rukui never recalled that scene again, but it was always a little unnatural to meet so far.

"We have only one son, you!" It was very dark, he stood in front of the door for a moment, and walked out from the path he had always walked when he went to school.

"Do you think it's worthless?" Li Linghan suddenly asked in his ear.Xu Rucui moved his head slightly, but didn't speak. "I asked you to trade the rest of your life, but there is only such a short time..." "Stop it!" Xu Rukui suddenly said.There is no value or not, it has nothing to do with the value, he must do it!Li Linghan took a deep look at him, paused, and said, "I'm very guilty. Although I gave a patient all the care he should have, I didn't spare money on your mother, but... I'm sorry." "I know." Xu Rukui said softly.Li Linghan looked at him again, but said nothing.

He has always had knots in his heart, and it got worse year by year. He tried his best to ignore it, but it had already seriously affected him.He didn't dare to think about it, and he couldn't tell anyone, waiting for one year, three years, five years, nine years.

The author has something to say:

bow