Baima Weiyang

"Tashi Pingcuo, don't make trouble." I avoided his scorching gaze, and murmured, "You are my younger brother..." Before I finished speaking, Tashi Pingcuo grabbed my wrist, and I Startled, he was forced to take several steps back.He leaned over and snorted fiery breath.

"Dawa Dolma, do you really only think of me as a younger brother?" The slowed down voice came word by word, but when it reached my ear, it hit my heart like a thunderbolt.I raised my head abruptly, and looked into his oppressively dark eyes, a trace of coldness, a trace of stinging pain, were engraved in his eyes so deeply.Suddenly, his eyes flashed, and the corners of his thin mouth almost twitched mockingly.

"Zhaxi Pingcuo..." I took a dull breath and reached out to his cheek.Unexpectedly, before touching it, he opened it mercilessly.Tashi Pingcuo didn't even look at me, and rushed out the door.I suddenly fell down and sat on the cold and hard stone floor, my heart was torn apart like a ball of cotton wool.

After an unknown amount of time, I loosened my hair and sat barefoot on the cold stone floor, staring blankly at the moonlight shining through the window.The fine dust in mid-air floated weightlessly, dotting the white matter with the slowly moving silver.

The night was getting darker, and the coolness like water slowly spread up the legs and wrists.I wrapped my hands around my knees and curled up. Although the soles of my feet were already icy cold, I didn't want to wake up at all.It seems that only in this way, my heart will not be so cold.

The eyes are opened and closed from time to time, and I don't know if I fell asleep, but my consciousness is in a daze.When he fully woke up, the sky was already pale.I opened the window, blowing the wind without a trace of heat in the morning, and it was very cold, but my limbs were already so cold that I couldn't feel the temperature at all.Looking up, the sky is getting bluer and brighter.

I closed the window, went to the basin, wrung out a washcloth to wash my face, and caught a glimpse of myself in the water.The long hair is messy, the bags under the eyes are dark and heavy, and the complexion is as pale as lime, which is really scary.Touching my cheeks, the deep and shallow tear stains had dried up, and I was wrinkled and uncomfortable. I wiped it vigorously, but my face felt a tingling pain.Probably soaked in tears for a long time, the skin couldn't bear the saltiness.

After washing and dressing, I sat by the window in a daze.I thought it was an extremely unbearable night, but I stayed up until dawn in a daze.My heart was still a little heavy, if I was thinking about something while sitting, I couldn’t remember anything else, but Tashi Puncuo’s self-deprecating and suppressed eyes tormented me for a whole night.

Whatever it is, even the loneliness and helplessness of traveling to a strange time and space, the fear of many days, and the deliberate alienation of Cangyang Gyatso... converged into an invisible sword, stirring up the deepest bitterness in my heart.No matter how I thrashed and struggled, I couldn't get rid of the sinking feeling of drowning.

I leaned against the window frame numbly, until there was a soft "branch" not far away.I froze for a moment, as if it was the door next door.I hurriedly opened the door and went out, and sure enough, I saw Tashi Pingcuo stopped in front of the door. He turned around knowingly, but just glanced at me indifferently.Seeing that he turned around and was about to leave, I hurriedly ran two steps and grabbed his sleeve.

Zhaxi Pingcuo couldn't help frowning his thick eyebrows, and stared at me coldly with his black pupils, "What are you doing?" Seeing him like this, my heart felt a chill, as if a bucket of cold water had been poured from the beginning to the end.

"I..." I took a step back trembling, I looked at him with some sobs, my eyes slowly heated up.Tashi Pingcuo glanced at my cheeks, paused for a few seconds, and his frown relaxed.He stretched out his hand, and gently stroked my eyelids with his rough fingertips, "...have you been crying for a long time?"

I paused, holding back my tears and nodded.Tashi Pingcuo sighed softly, and slid his palm to my cheek.The thin callus on the palm was gently stroked, and an indescribable tenderness spread to my slightly aching skin.Suddenly, the chin was lifted.Tashi Pingcuo looked at me softly, "Just pretend I didn't say anything. I don't want to force you." After speaking, he leaned over and kissed my forehead.

I stared blankly at the fundus of his eyes slowly turning dark, and finally became black bottomless.He lowered his eyes, pulled down my hand, and the moment he turned and left, I felt all the blood rushing up in my body.Turning around suddenly, I rushed forward and hugged him tightly from behind.Tashi Pingcuo's back stiffened, but he just stood there without making any other movements.I leaned on his back, tears streaming out like a thread, "Zhaxi Pingcuo, I've figured it out, I've decided to marry you..."

He was startled, and slowly turned around, his dark eyes were bright, "Really?"

"En." I closed my eyes and nodded, and big teardrops rolled down my cheeks.Tashi Pingcuo put one hand on my waist, and with a little force, the distance between us was shortened.

I looked at him uneasily, but he didn't care at all. He stretched out his empty left hand and held my cheek.In the next second, a fiery kiss came down.But the strange touch only stayed on my lips for a second, and my body jumped up as if struck by lightning.I was stunned, and I stared at him in disbelief, "What are you doing?!"

"Didn't you see clearly?" Zhaxi raised his eyebrows in dissatisfaction, and seeing that I didn't reply, he said again, "Then I'll do it again." Then he bent down again. "Hey, hey!" I stomped my feet angrily, pressing my hands against his chest.

Tashi Pingcuo suddenly stopped his movements, his eyes flashed, and the corners of his mouth curled up.Seeing his evil smile, I really rubbed sparks in my eyes, and beat his chest bitterly, "Hmph! You bullied me again..." Before I finished speaking, I suddenly stopped my hand , almost forgot that he was still injured!

"Hiss..." Seeing him gasping, looking like he was in pain, I couldn't help but lean over guiltily, "How is it? How is it? Are you all right? Does it hurt?"

Tashi Pingcuo lowered his head, his shoulders trembled slightly, as if in pain.Just as my sense of guilt increased, he suddenly raised his head and gave me an annoyed look, "Idiot! The wound is on the right side!"Tashi Pingcuo kicked me for no reason, but he didn't even move his eyebrows.I gloated and said, "Hey! The bones are pretty hard!" Just as I was giggling, he grabbed me by the collar.

"Hey! What are you doing, what are you doing?" I screamed and was dragged into the house by him, and then "thrown" to the ground.

"Pack up your things and go back to Qiongjie tomorrow." Tashi Pingcuo said, there was no discussion in his tone.

I was taken aback, and leaned forward regardless of my messy clothes, "So fast?" He turned his head and stared at me, but didn't speak.My heart shuddered, as if I had been seen through by this cool look.

"Don't you want to go back?" Tashi Pingcuo suddenly softened his voice.

"No!" I shouted, but I shook my hand unconsciously, "I just... have something to do." Tashi Pingcuo turned his face sideways and looked at me expressionlessly.

"Tashi Puncuo!" I stared straight at him, "I'll solve it now, you wait for me." After speaking, I rushed out without waiting for his answer.

In front of the Tsochin Hall, flames jumped in the mulberry furnace, and green smoke rose up, filling the entire square.The vision in the main hall was dim, and the sound of the lama's morning prayer chanting came out from time to time, thick and low, accompanied by the crisp sound of the mani wheel.

I stood dumbly beside the tall colonnade, staring blankly at the exit of the hall.Occasionally turning his head and seeing the believers crawling on the long steps, an unbearable bitterness welled up his throat inexplicably.I sighed and leaned against the pillar.Just as he relaxed, he saw crimson figures coming out of the hall one after another.

I stiffened my back and leaned over to look into the crowd.

No matter how many people surround a person with his appearance, he will never be overwhelmed.So I found him at a glance... It's been a long time since I saw him, even from a distance.After staring intently for a while, he seemed to have lost weight, and his face was a little pale, but his eyes were still shining brightly, and his black eyes seemed to be shining with silver tide.

I unconsciously took two steps in his direction.As soon as he turned around, he talked to the lama beside him, saluted with clasped hands, and then walked in the direction of Ganden Podrang.

I was stunned, and hurriedly chased after him, but I didn't dare to call him out, I was really scared, as soon as he heard my voice, he would hide from me without hesitation.Probably he really walked too fast, with a "click", he tripped over a gravel.I fell to the ground suddenly, and there was a hard pain in my knee.

"Hiss—" I took a soft breath, and Cangyang Gyatso turned around upon hearing the sound, staring at me blankly, with residual heat in his eyes.I got up from the ground with my hands on my hands, and walked a few steps, but I was still able to walk, it should just be scratched.Just now he breathed a sigh of relief, but unexpectedly the crimson cassock flashed in his peripheral vision, and when he raised his eyes, Tsangyang Gyatso turned around and left without warning.I hurriedly chased after it, but my legs couldn't use all my strength because of the fall just now.

Cangyang Gyatso walked quickly, turned around several corridors, and turned back to the Tsochin Hall.When I chased to the Buddhist hall on the fourth floor, Tsangyang Gyatso had disappeared.I leaned on the wall to stabilize my body, breathed in and walked inside.In Juelakang, a tall statue of Sakyamuni is enshrined.The slightly kind expression comforted the obsessed beings in the world of mortals.Now it seems that it is inexplicably more majestic.

I swallowed dry saliva, a bitter taste in my mouth, and my eyes swept in a circle.I didn't see him, but I was pretty sure he was here.The breath that belongs to him is close at hand, pulling me like a rope.The mandala above the head, the silver pagoda next to the Buddha statue, the magic weapon... My eyes moved slowly, and finally stopped quietly on the thickly hanging thangkas.