Tiandi Baiju

The author has something to say: In Chapter 22, a part connecting the beginning of this chapter is added. It is recommended to read Chapter 22 first.

"Old Yao didn't think about it at the time. I understood him and helped him. I planned to donate his legacy to a scientific research organization that studies quantum effects. It is a Chinese research laboratory. This research laboratory was inadvertently contacted because of work. Afterwards, I thought about it carefully, and it is not impossible to operate this matter, although it may not necessarily achieve his intention..."

"Why?" Zhou Luoyang asked suddenly.

Du Jing was startled, and Zhou Luoyang said as if no one was there: "Why did you leave without saying goodbye three years ago, and after leaving, did you join an intelligence company?"

When the food was served in the restaurant, Le Yao silently swiped her phone.

Du Jing was silent for a moment, and then said: "Are you sure you want me to tell?"

Zhou Luoyang wanted to say "sure", but the words came to his lips, but he didn't come out.

"That's the kind of person you are," Zhou Luoyang smiled sadly, and said, "You can do whatever you want. In the middle of the night, you just want to sit outside on a whim."

Du Jing said: "Not really, I have my own logic in doing things, it's just that many times..."

Le Yao gently followed up with this sentence: "...ordinary people can't understand it."

Du Jingjing nodded, raised his palm, and patted Leyao with each other. Leyao laughed and said, "Brother doesn't quite understand my thoughts."

Du Jing: "But he always considers himself meticulous and considerate."

"Hey!" Zhou Luoyang said, "What do you mean by that?"

The atmosphere became a little more relaxed, Du Jing glanced at Le Yao, and cut him the steak in the sea and land feast, while Le Yao stared at the watch that Zhou Luoyang gave him on Du Jing's wrist.

Du Jing also said: "A person in charge of Changyi met me through that research laboratory. He happened to want to resign, so he recommended me to Li Liangyi and asked me if I was interested in coming back. The person who came to me happened to be Also surnamed Zhou."

"The surname also happens to be Zhou?" Zhou Luoyang said.

"The surname also happens to be Zhou." Du Jingting nodded, and handed the plate to Le Yao.

"Is that why you came back?" Le Yao asked with a smile.

Du Jing said, "It's one of them, mainly because I miss him." As he spoke, he gestured to Leyao, who was sitting beside Zhou Luoyang.

"So he became the star returnee detective in the company." Zhou Luoyang said in relief, and made a little taunt.

Du Jing didn't say a word, and accepted all the orders.

Zhou Luoyang asked again: "What kind of company is Changyi?"

"The informal organization under the National Security Bureau," Du Jing said, "has undergone a major and traumatic rectification, and the situation is much better now. The best thing about the domestic environment is that it is safe."

Zhou Luoyang understood what he said. Compared with the United States, Mexico, and Europe, the domestic security environment is quite good. Although after the reform, there have been more infiltrations and activities, the anti-espionage work in the mainland has been very perfect, partly because of domestic The system is relatively perfect, and another part is because China is full of yellow people, unlike other countries, which have a large number of immigrants.

"How long do you plan to do it?" Zhou Luoyang asked, this is what he is most concerned about at this stage.

Du Jing said: "It depends on the situation. I need money. The salary offered by Changyi is still very considerable, and there are not so many interpersonal relationships to deal with. I do things for them, and they pay me."

Le Yao asked, "Is it dangerous?"

"It's not dangerous," Du Jing said lightly, "risks and benefits coexist."

Le Yao's expression seemed to want to ask "Are you short of money?", but held back.

Zhou Luoyang didn't ask any more questions, and said relaxedly, "I found a job, and I'll go for an interview the day after tomorrow."

Du Jing frowned slightly, and said, "Are you sure? I still have money, and I'll give it all to you."

Du Jing was about to touch his phone, but Zhou Luoyang said, "No." Then he smiled and said, "You invited me to dinner."

Du Jing suddenly stopped, staring at Zhou Luoyang with a little strangeness in his eyes.Zhou Luoyang thought for a moment, and said, "I'll go to work and have a look first, let's talk if it doesn't work."

Du Jing said, "Are you serious?"

Zhou Luoyang nodded.

Le Yao sensed that the atmosphere was not right, and said, "Where do you live in Wanshi? Didn't you say you were going to move to our house?"

Du Jing didn't say anything, Zhou Luoyang was a little depressed, and his thoughts should have started again.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Zhou Luoyang asked.

"No." Du Jing replied, "Let's eat, I'll send you back after eating."

Le Yao glanced at his brother in surprise, Zhou Luoyang signaled with his eyes that there is no need to ask, he still has something to say to Du Jing, but he can only say it in private, and it is uncertain whether this is serious or not, and will it irritate Du Jing? scene.

During the banquet, there was such a sudden silence. After the low pressure ended, Du Jing paid the bill and sent the brothers back.After opening the door, Du Jing didn't follow in, but said to Zhou Luoyang outside the door, "Sorry, I hurt your self-esteem today."

"That's not the case." Zhou Luoyang finally waited for the time to clarify, and wanted to use this to say a few more words, but Du Jing said: "Stay with him more."

Speaking without giving Zhou Luoyang a chance to explain, he turned and went downstairs.

Zhou Luoyang rubbed the center of his eyebrows, feeling a little distressed.

"Is he in financial difficulty?" Le Yao moved freely, relying on his wheelchair to shuttle around the house.

Zhou Luoyang thought to himself: He is not in trouble, the reason he earns money is because our economy is very difficult.

"Leyao." Zhou Luoyang sat down on the sofa, motioned for his brother to come over, wanted to have a good talk with him, and massage his legs to prevent muscle atrophy.

Le Yao stopped, as if he had expected what his brother would say.

"Du Jing is my very good friend." Zhou Luoyang said.

Le Yao said, "Brother, do you remember our appointment?"

Zhou Luoyang said: "I remember, but I still care about your thoughts, because you are my younger brother."

After Le Yao woke up from the car accident that day, the first thing he saw was his brother, and he quickly realized that all his relatives were gone.

Zhou Luoyang stayed with him in the ward until one day, when he pushed his younger brother out in a wheelchair, and when he was walking in the garden of Tokyo University Affiliated Hospital, Le Yao asked him, "Shall we live together in the future?"

"Well," Zhou Luoyang said, "Brother will take care of you. Mom and Dad didn't actually leave, so they will accompany you."

"Then you have to promise me one thing," Le Yao said with a smile, "I can only promise you."

"What?" Zhou Luoyang asked.

"Whoever you want to be with and what you want to do, don't worry about me." Le Yao said.

Zhou Luoyang didn't even think about it, nodded and said: "I promise you, but you won't drag me down, don't think so, Le Yao."

In the living room, the two brothers were relatively quiet.

Le Yao suddenly asked: "I'm just curious, since you two have such a good relationship, why did you separate three years ago?"

Zhou Luoyang struggled to find the words, not wanting to cause any misunderstanding to his younger brother, and said, "Du Jing and I had a quarrel in our junior year, maybe he realized that his condition was a bit serious, or he didn't want to spoil the beautiful relationship. ? Anyway, he just left."

Le Yao said: "Did he realize that he was afraid that you liked him? That's why he alienated you?"

Zhou Luoyang: "..."

You are really fit for the FBI.Zhou Luoyang thought to himself, this used to be a problem between them, but Le Yao only found out after observing him and Du Jing getting along three times.

Perhaps in the last few days, Zhou Luoyang had already surpassed the limit of friendship a little bit.He felt it, so he tried hard to control himself and not think about it.

Du Jing also felt that their getting along became a little unnatural.

And Zhou Luoyang himself didn't quite know whether it was love, or he was used to each other's company like family.In the end he interpreted this relationship as some kind of emotional delusion.

Zhou Luoyang: "But I didn't, do you think we look like gay lovers?"

Le Yao said: "I can see that you have a very good relationship."

"That's because he has no one else to rely on," Zhou Luoyang finally said, "Emotionally."

"What about you?" Le Yao asked, "We've been talking about him, what do you think?"

Zhou Luoyang didn't answer, but was still thinking.

Le Yao smiled and said: "I will accept the person you accept, brother, you don't have to care about me too much, it's just... I just think..."

Le Yao was also struggling to think of words, his expression was exactly the same as Zhou Luoyang's.

Zhou Luoyang looked at his younger brother with mixed feelings, they were born differently.Leyao grew up in Japan and was deeply influenced by Japanese culture, and the most deeply rooted point of his childhood education in Japanese culture is:

Don't trouble people.

The idea of ​​"guilty" is stubbornly rooted in everyone's heart. From the derailment of the Shinkansen to the garbage sorting, everyone is trying to avoid causing trouble to others.Leyao has Japanese blood flowing inside, and outside he also maintains the politeness and politeness of the Japanese respecting each other as guests.

"Just what?" Zhou Luoyang pressed his palm on his younger brother's calf and asked, "You can say whatever you want. Brother won't mind, we are family."

"It's just..." Le Yao finally said, "Brother, have you been wronging yourself and living for others all these years?"

Zhou Luoyang looked at Le Yao in surprise, not knowing why he said that.

Le Yao looked at his elder brother uneasily, and said, "When you were studying, you had to take care of Du Jing; now you have to take care of me, it must be very hard, right? I mean, have you ever thought that if you don't have these ties and difficulties? Lie, what kind of person do you really want to be?"

"No, no!" Zhou Luoyang immediately explained, and then he was a little dumbfounded, and said, "Why do you think so? I've never thought of it that way! Whether it's you or Du Jing, you are all very important to me. Important people, I don't think you are..."

Le Yao interrupted Zhou Luoyang: "That's right, you're just used to it, including Grandpa's shop, you always feel responsible, 'what kind of person should be', not 'what kind of person do you want to be'... ..."

"No!" Zhou Luoyang said seriously, "Leyao, I know exactly what I want."

Le Yao looked at his brother quietly, Zhou Luoyang patted his head vigorously, and said, "Everything I do is my own choice, there is no situation of being forced by anyone, I am willing."

Le Yao said: "Well, I just think that if there are two patients to take care of at home, I'm afraid you will work harder."

"He doesn't do this often," Zhou Luoyang said apologetically, "Sometimes I can't help but think...forget it."

Le Yao said: "Are you afraid that you will bring him greater mood swings? But I think he knows this very well, but he still can't do without you. You are really important to him."

Over the years, Zhou Luoyang has always felt guilty. He sometimes thinks back to whether it was because they had such a deep relationship. Later, Du Jing paid more and more attention to his every word and deed, which eventually indirectly led to the aggravation of his condition. ?

"Let him move here," Le Yao said, "I'll get along with him well, besides, I'm not at home very much. If you think he won't affect you, that's of course the best."

"Yes." Zhou Luoyang nodded.Le Yao was obviously tired, so Zhou Luoyang pushed him back to his room.

"When will you meet again?" Before turning off the lights, Le Yao asked, "Has he contacted you since he returned to China?"

"What?" Zhou Luoyang was in a trance, and immediately understood, and explained, "On the day I went out to talk about partnership, September [-]th."

"Good night." Le Yao smiled.

"Good night."

Zhou Luoyang turned off the lights. For some reason, he felt that Le Yao was a bit paranoid in the last sentence.Could it be that he suspected that he and Du Jing had met long ago, so he sent his brother to live in school?But he dismissed the idea quickly, convincing himself not to speculate, and there was no explanation.

He lay down on the bed a little tired.

Yes, you have your own set of logic in your actions and speech, but this logic is often not understood by ordinary people.

Zhou Luoyang thought that he already knew Du Jing very well, but hearing Du Jing say that today still made him a little sad.

"What kind of person should be" and "what kind of person do you want to be"... Du Jing once asked him this question.

It was the winter when he learned about Du Jing's illness. Hangzhou was very cold that year, and the final exam came and ended soon.Zhou Luoyang had never had any suspense in his studies, so he easily got a high score in the exam, while Du Jing got the No.1 score in the whole department.

Zhou Luoyang seldom saw Du Jing brushing up questions—this roommate's IQ made him jealous. He only needed to read the book from beginning to end, and then use a pencil to do the exercises after class. He occasionally looked up at the blackboard during class. Write and calculate in a notebook, and you will understand everything.Zhou Luoyang's professional classes were often in the first or second quarters of the morning, and he couldn't get up, so Du Jing would occasionally attend classes for him. It turned out that he was an automation major, and his mechanical knowledge was better than Zhou Luoyang's.

For the CET-[-] exam, Du Jing didn't even buy the materials, and passed it in one go.Zhou Luoyang studied with him, and he couldn't help complaining.

Du Jing is a talented type, but Zhou Luoyang is a hardworking type. He feels that he is always chasing after Du Jing, running exhaustedly, so Du Jing has to stop from time to time to wait for him.

"Don't you want the scholarship?" Zhou Luoyang heard for the first time that someone gave up the No.1 scholarship.

"Leave it to those in need." Du Jing said.

After the last exam, Zhou Luoyang suddenly felt very reluctant to part with Du Jing for the whole winter vacation.

"Where did you go during the winter vacation?" Zhou Luoyang began to buy a bus ticket.

"I didn't think about it, what about you?" Du Jing's condition has improved recently, and after speaking to Zhou Luoyang, the relationship between them became much easier, and the two of them got along much more calmly.

Zhou Luoyang thought for a while and said, "I haven't thought about it either, or..."

Du Jing said, "Aren't you going to Japan?"

Both of them grew up in remarried families, and there was a certain tacit understanding between them. This tacit understanding goes without saying. Zhou Luoyang felt it the first day he met him.

"Maybe go to Nara for a hot spring? Or go back to Wanshi to see grandpa."

After Zhou Luoyang's father remarried, he lived in Tokyo, while his mother hardly had any contact with her. His grandfather and aunt lived in Wan City.In fact, Zhou Luoyang didn't really want to go to either place.

"Winter in Japan is very good," Du Jing said again, "I haven't been there yet, maybe go back to Southern California, or go to Barcelona."

Zhou Luoyang remembered that Du Jing had no place to live in the country and no family.

"Why don't you come to my house to celebrate the New Year?" Zhou Luoyang still invited Du Jing, saying, "I'm the only one at home."

Zhou Luoyang's family has a suite in Huizhou, which is left for him to live alone. At least there is a place to go during the winter and summer vacations. He can also invite classmates to eat and play when he returns home, even if he doesn't want to stay at home alone for too long.

Du Jing said: "No, you still want to ask out classmates when you go back, and occasionally you want to go out temporarily, and it's not convenient to move together."

A few days ago, Zhou Luoyang's high school classmate Fang Zhou called him, and Du Jing heard him.

"Then... I'll just buy my own ticket," Zhou Luoyang said, "I'll be back soon."

Du Jing: "Shall I take you back?"

Zhou Luoyang said, "No, no, look, I've bought the ticket."

Du Jing was silent, and after a full minute, he said, "Then I'll take you to the station."

Du Jing took Zhou Luoyang to the off-campus parking lot. Putting his hand in his trouser pocket, he pressed the key to get out of the car. The headlights of a Mercedes-Benz GLK came on and the door opened.

Zhou Luoyang was shocked, and said, "When did you buy the car?"

Du Jingyun said calmly: "The day before yesterday, you said this car was handsome, so I bought it."

Zhou Luoyang said, "We don't usually use cars."

"I wanted to drive you back to Huizhou," Du Jing said, "and play around along the way, but you've already bought your ticket."

Zhou Luoyang: "........."

"I refunded the ticket," Zhou Luoyang said, "come to my house to celebrate the New Year."

"No," Du Jing said, "You have already bought the ticket."

Zhou Luoyang: "You can withdraw..."

"I said, no need!" Du Jing repeated.

Zhou Luoyang felt Du Jing's irritability, so he stopped talking.

"I may have changed my stage recently," Du Jing said after a while, "The tone just now was purely unconscious, I couldn't control myself, I'm sorry, Luoyang."

Zhou Luoyang looked at Du Jing worriedly, and said, "It's okay, you got angry at me, you didn't forcefully control me, I feel better instead, is it manic now?"

Du Jingting nodded and said, "When things don't meet my expectations, I tend to feel uncomfortable. Leave me alone, and I'll get better slowly."

Zhou Luoyang said, "You should speak out first."

Du Jing insisted, saying, "Your tickets are all booked, but I'm very happy that you invited me to your home for the New Year."

Du Jing has lived abroad for many years, and his stepfather’s family did not have the habit of celebrating Chinese New Year. When he was a child, whenever Chinese New Year was celebrated, his mother would stand at the table with him, who was half-grown, and make dumplings by himself, which was a celebration.After returning to China, he didn't have much attachment to the Chinese New Year, he just needed to find something to do, and the winter vacation was over.

"If you don't go to Spain or America, you must come to my house." Zhou Luoyang said goodbye to Du Jing outside the station.

Du Jing nodded perfunctorily, and Zhou Luoyang said again: "You promised me."

"Okay." Du Jing said, "Go back and pay attention to safety."

Zhou Luoyang entered the station, and after checking the tickets, he walked aside in the huge waiting room and looked out through the three-story French window wall, only to see Du Jing still in a daze outside the station.

Zhou Luoyang called Du Jing and said, "Look back."

Du Jing turned his head and searched for a long time. When he saw Zhou Luoyang, his irritable expression immediately disappeared. He tried hard to return to normal and raised his eyebrows at Zhou Luoyang.

"Why don't you go back?" Zhou Luoyang knew that Du Jing must be very uncomfortable now, he was just pretending to be relaxed.

"There's nothing to do back in the dormitory."

Du Jing replied on the phone, walking towards the floor-to-ceiling glass wall, looking at Zhou Luoyang from the outside,

Zhou Luoyang said: "I'm still a little worried, how about..."

"I can take care of myself," Du Jing replied, "don't worry."

Zhou Luoyang raised his hand and pressed lightly on the glass wall. Du Jing also raised his hand outside the station and pressed each other with him through the glass wall.

"I love you." Zhou Luoyang said seriously, "See you later."

Zhou Luoyang was always straightforward, but Du Jing was still a shy person, so he replied in English: "Metoo."

Zhou Luoyang hung up the phone, worried, and returned to his home in Huizhou.Du Jing was still in the dormitory, so Zhou Luoyang would send him a message every morning and noon.Du Jing answered every item in time. Zhou Luoyang knew that he hadn't left school yet, lived alone, and would go to the library to read every day.

In the evening, Zhou Luoyang would make a video call to him to confirm that he was all right. Both parties put the phone on hold and went about their own business.Zhou Luoyang played games at home, while Du Jing took a shower, read a book, fed the turtle, and slept according to the dormitory routine.

On the evening of the twenty-seventh day of the new year, Zhou Luoyang and Fang Zhou were drinking and playing dice in the bar.Du Jing didn't wait for Zhou Luoyang's video, so he took the initiative to call. Zhou Luoyang replied after hanging up: I'll be home later today.

"Yo, are you in a relationship?" Fang Zhou asked after seeing Zhou Luoyang's video.

Zhou Luoyang explained: "Roommate."

"Who are you lying to? You're still making a video at this point," Fang Zhou said, "How could it be a girl? Show me."

"Really!" Zhou Luoyang said, "Can I check my phone for you?"

Fang Zhou glanced at the chat records between Du Jing and Zhou Luoyang, the boy's tone couldn't deceive anyone, and seeing that he wasn't in a relationship, the corners of his mouth twitched.

"The relationship is still so good." Fang Zhou said with a bit of taste.

Zhou Luoyang asked Fang Zhou to come out, and he actually had something to do. He asked, "By the way, I remember that your uncle is a psychiatrist. I want to consult him about something. Can you help me?"

Fang Zhou said, "Why are you looking for him? He's almost mentally ill."

Zhou Luoyang said: "Consult about...depression."

Fang Zhou was taken aback and said, "You don't feel right?"

Zhou Luoyang thought for a while and said, "It's a friend in our class... a friend who suffers from depression. I want to consult how to get along with this kind of patient." Immediately noticing Fang Zhou's expression, he changed his words: "One girl."

He didn't want Fang Zhou to know that Du Jing had this disease, and they might know each other in the future, so Fang Zhou wouldn't doubt it.

Sure enough, Fang Zhou said: "The girl you want to chase? Have you been diagnosed?"

"I don't really like it," Zhou Luoyang said guiltily, avoiding Fang Zhou's gaze, "I just hope that she will have a better life."

Fang Zhou said: "Hey, Luoyang, I didn't say that you'd better not fall in love with a depressed patient. It's very tiring. Once you make a decision, it's a lifetime thing and you can't give up."

Zhou Luoyang repeated: "It's not like I like it, I'm just a friend at the moment, it's okay, I know it."

Fang Zhou had no choice but to say, "Okay, I'll contact you for you."

Zhou Luoyang immediately guessed what Fang Zhou was thinking: "You can't convince me, let your uncle convince me instead, right? I really don't intend to fall in love with her, I just want to understand."

Fang Zhou didn't believe Zhou Luoyang's excuse at all: "If she is really an ordinary friend who has nothing to do with her, how could you bother to understand her? To be honest, have you fallen in love with her?"

Zhou Luoyang had no choice but to keep silent, so as not to be tricked out by Fang Zhou.

"What kind of girl?" Fang Zhou leaned over again and asked.

Zhou Luoyang drank some wine, looked up at Fang Zhou, with a threatening look in his eyes - if you keep asking, don't blame me for being rude later.