Follow suit

There were neither too many nor too few people in the coffee shop in the middle of the afternoon. They were scattered in the shop, some were very close to Wen Chaoan, and some were far away from him.

The sunlight fell on the back of the hand through the window, half of which was bright and half dark.

Wen Chaoan recalled what he had said. Because of his uneasiness, he told Lu Qiansong over and over again not to break up.Even if his parents found out, even if he was about to be kicked out, he would absolutely never break up.

At that time, I only wanted him to be with me, just because I was afraid.

But if I knew it would become like this, living a single life without breaking up, then I would break up at that time!Who will stay until now? !

Wen Chaoan gets angry when he thinks about it, he just naively thought that he could face Lu Qiansong calmly just now, and he was thinking about some shit so that they can get together and leave, can this be easy to get together and leave?If it weren't for the cafe, I really want to go up and fight!

Instead, Lu Qiansong kept looking at him. He seemed to be terribly wronged, as if he was coming to admit his mistake, but now he calmed down, with the corners of his mouth slightly pursed, and looked at Wen Chaoan seriously.

What are you looking at? !

Wen Chaoan called the waiter to pay the bill, and planned to leave as soon as the money was paid.

He really didn't stay, didn't say a word, and had nothing to say.

From the distance from the seat to the door, he felt that someone was watching him, and someone should have heard him, curious to know what happened.Wen Chaoan suddenly felt uncomfortable, whether it was the vague gazes around him, Lu Qiansong's attitude just now, or his own questioning and grievance...all made him breathless.

He knows why he is sad.

He didn't want to be probed, he didn't want Lu Qiansong to come back, and he didn't want to tell him about his grievances.This gave him a feeling that "what has been painful for a long time is not a big deal, as long as Lu Qiansong apologizes, as long as he is willing to extend his hand, then all problems will be solved".

Whose suffering is unnecessary?Who wants their own sadness to be insignificant in the eyes of their lover?

What he wanted was never whether to break up or not to reply to the news.He just wanted someone who sincerely would not abandon him, that's why he didn't want Lu Qiansong to come over in such a magnanimous and false way, and said plainly, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for leaving suddenly back then, let's start over...

Should he start?Because the person standing in front of him is someone who still likes and still cares, so should he just agree with it?

Why don't we start?Let this relationship end completely?

That's right, one thing I have to admit is that Wen Chaoan still likes Lu Qiansong.As long as Lu Qiansong shakes his hand, he will pass by - isn't it too fucking pitiful?

This feeling of being controlled and being led sucks, like a lowly puppy.

So he didn't need to spread his sadness in front of Lu Qiansong, he didn't want to threaten him with his pity.Because everyone wants to be valued, but not the value they seek.

Wen Chaoan didn't get together because he wanted it to end, he just wanted to stay out of sight and out of mind because it was so annoying.

Well, I deserved to be the one left behind.

People who avoid problems instead of solving them deserve bad results.

So let's go, let's go home.too tired.

Wen Chaoan opened the door, the wind outside the door was still a bit cool, blowing on his face, the wind that usually felt refreshing was now blowing his eyes dry, he wanted to cry.

Wen Chaoan took a few steps forward, and turned his head as if feeling something, Lu Qiansong was still following behind.

"Don't follow me!" Wen Chaoan yelled at him, like a small cat with bright claws.

"Okay, I won't follow you."

But after Wen Chaoan walked a few steps, he was still behind him, and he followed suit. It was still a lie to say no to follow!

Wen Chaoan just walked forward, he didn't know where he was going, he just walked anyway, walked unconsciously through the commercial building, walked to the overpass not far away, he was about to go up the overpass, and remembered that he shouldn't go up, the opposite That way is the opposite of the way home.

So where should I go?

Wen Chaoan stood at the foot of the overpass in a daze, looking at the endless flow of the road and the crowd, and could feel the heat of approaching him behind him.

"Let's go, get in the car first." Lu Qiansong reached out to grab his wrist, "Aren't you angry? Get in the car and then scold."

Wen Chaoan looked down at the hand on his wrist, and shook it away silently, but Lu Qiansong sighed, hugged his shoulders, and took him to another place, Wen Chaoan couldn't break free, he was hugged, The wrist was also caught, and his posture seemed awkward. There were people paying attention on the road, and he just wanted to go home.

Lu Qiansong's car was in the parking lot not far away. It was a black Land Rover with shadows reflected on the black paint surface. Wen Chaoan saw himself standing there with a dull expression, like a haggard fool.

"Get in the car, I'll take you home." Lu Qiansong helped him open the car door and gave him a hand on his shoulder.

Let him deliver it.said a voice.

Let's run away.said another voice.

Wen Chaoan hesitated for a while, and dismissed both voices, but still got into the car.He sat in the back row, intentionally not letting Lu Qiansong see him, and buried his head low like an ostrich.

He was fierce and fragile at times, he was angry just now, and now he sat there pitifully and didn't speak.

Lu Qiansong didn't start the car, but opened the windows to ensure the air circulation in the car.

When Wen Chaoan seemed calmer, he still locked the child lock in the back row, ignored Wen Chaoan's resentful gaze, and said to himself: "I told her that I will not be going to school soon. In the future I won't see you, and after I leave, I won't take the initiative to contact you, and I won't reply to your messages."

"Why?" Wen Chaoan couldn't help asking.He heard what time Lu Qiansong was talking about, it should be the time when Mama Wen came to pick him up, the time they were talking in the car.

"No reason, she doesn't want us to meet."

At that time, the exam was about to be divided into classes. They were sitting at the same table.

At that time, Lu Qiansong was afraid that Mama Wen would find a teacher, so how embarrassing would it be if they changed their positions for no reason?How do others see them?What does the teacher think of them?At that time, Wen Chaoan was also the heart of the teachers of various subjects. If the teacher asked Wen's mother why she changed, knowing that they were together, what would she think of his little deskmate?

Just like the night when she was discovered, Lu Qiansong sat alone on the bench at the entrance of the kindergarten, thinking about these things silently.Originally, he thought that if Mama Wen scolded his little classmate and ran away from home, he would be able to pick him up at the door.

But sitting and sitting, Wen Chaoan called him after taking a shower, in a soft and pitiful voice, he changed from "how can we take Wen Chaoan away" to "how can... take Wen Chaoan away?"

It's hard to have such a good mother, and it's hard to have a complete family, but is it necessary to get stuck because of this little thing?Didn't study?So how will the obedient and serious little deskmate live in the future?

Lu Qiansong watched Shen Qinghu for a while, and felt that he was too depressed, so she persuaded him to open up.

Shen Qinghu asked him, if it were you, would you think about it?

Lu Qiansong thought for a while and said, if I were you and liked sister Ye Zi, I would pretend not to.

Fuck, coward.Shen Qinghu scolded him.

He sat at the gate of the kindergarten all night and thought about it all night.

No problem, he's just a coward, he's afraid of too many things.

That's why he said that to Wen's mother, he left, and begged his aunt to pretend that he didn't know anything.Don't blame Wen Chaoan, and don't be angry, he still has to get into a good school.

He had waited a long time for Wen Chaoan to graduate. He had long thought that when he graduated, he would go to see him. He had some money at that time, so there was no need for his aunt to disagree. If the little classmate was really kicked out , he will take him home in the next second.

Lu Qiansong did it many times to meet Wen Chaoan's dream.

But after graduating from high school, going to university, and seeing more people and things, Lu Qiansong suddenly thought, did he never explain to Wen Chaoan?So, if he really went to pick him up, would Wen Chaoan be willing to go with him?

Lu Qiansong wanted to ask him, but he didn't dare.He realized then that because of his so-called "cowardice", he seemed to be doing something self-righteous.Obviously always thinking about Wen Chaoan, but he ignored his feelings.

I was the only one who was like a cool "adult" who understood righteousness, arranged these without authorization, and picked a gentle night, rubbed the head of my little deskmate, and said goodbye.

His little deskmate was forced to accept everything foolishly.

To this day, Lu Qiansong only thinks that he can forgive himself, and that he will chase after him slowly, as long as he is willing.

But...Wen Chaoan didn't think so.

In fact, he looks pitiful, but inside he is not.

After listening to Lu Qiansong's two words, Wen Chaoan was silent for a while. He has been a little emotional these past few days, so he was irritable, his mood changed several times, and finally he couldn't bear it anymore.

"She doesn't want us to meet, right? Then we won't see each other."

Wen Chaoan suddenly said: "But I think my mother means that she will never see her in this life. Lu Qiansong, please be more obedient and don't see me!"

"..." Lu Qiansong turned to look at him.

"Why are you so talkative?" Wen Chaoan sat forward a little bit, grabbed the armchair with his hands, and looked at him with his head tilted, "Do you think that when I let you, you were scruples about this and that, and in the end you still fucked... ...So, my mother told you to stay away from me, so you will be scruples about coming and going, and finally come to me secretly?"

Wen Chaoan smiled: "You are quite smart, you listen to what you say, and you do what you say. You have to take advantage of both."

"..." Lu Qiansong seemed a little dazed, "No..."

"What's wrong?" Wen Chaoan stared at him seriously, as focused as he was when he was a student, "I'm not a fool, I can guess what you're thinking. But it's not fair to me at all. The lock is open. "

"...what lock?"

"Door lock."

Wen Chaoan knocked on the door with his hand, and opened it after a "da", and he went down halfway, then turned back.

"Lu Qiansong, rabbits can bite people too. I always think, if you can leave me once, you can also leave me a second time. I don't believe you."

As Wen Chaoan spoke, his eyes were a little red, but his tone remained unchanged: "Don't you want to chase me?"

Lu Qiansong is still waiting for his next article.

But Wen Chaoan suddenly turned around and jumped out of the car, closed the door forcefully, said "Don't follow me", and left quickly.

The inside of the car that just closed the door shook slightly, Lu Qiansong thought about it, it seems that this way will not work, the little deskmate is a bit wild now...