Follow suit

Lu Qiansong was standing not far away, and Wen Chaoan saw it as soon as he looked up.

It's all right now, I can't leave even if I want to.

Lu Qiansong was dressed very youthfully today, with white short-sleeved jeans and a small jacket outside. If you don't look at your face, you will be the same as the students who just started class.

And Wen Chaoan was wearing white short-sleeved sleeves, so students would feel quite formal looking at him from across the podium.And he himself was tall and good-looking, so he was quite elegant in such clothes.

I didn't expect such an accidental stop, and the matching was quite harmonious.

Wen Chaoan didn't know what he thought of, his eyes darkened, and then he followed Lu Qiansong without saying a word.

They walked into the cafe one after the other and sat down in a place near the back.

Wen Chaoan ordered a sandwich and a glass of bottled orange juice. He didn't eat anything for lunch, and now he feels uncomfortable without something sweet.

The two of them sat there, Wen Chaoan would not speak first, he seemed to be alone, indifferent to everything around him.But his eyes fell on the plate, looking at the decorations drawn with chocolate sauce, he looked a little stiff and unnatural.

After all, there was still someone sitting in front of me.

Lu Qiansong waited for a long time before saying, "Sandwich, is it delicious?"

Wen Chaoan was taken aback when he heard the words, and glanced at him unexpectedly. In fact, if he was in Lu Qiansong's position, he would probably be a little short of words, but he really didn't expect to start like this.

"It's okay, you can order one if you want."

After Wen Chaoan finished speaking, he saw that Lu Qiansong was naked in front of him, and quickly added: "I still brought the meal money, you can order when you are hungry, although you came to me, but you don't mind getting a coffee .”

Lu Qiansong seemed to realize that he didn't order anything, ordered a cup of coffee and the same sandwich as Wen Chaoan, looked at Wen Chaoan and said, "I invite you."

"No need," Wen Chaoan pursed his lips lightly, "Let me please, just thank you for picking up Teacher Wang a few days ago. Teacher Wang asked me to thank you and pass it on to you."

Wen Chaoan's mood didn't fluctuate much, it was calm, much colder than that day.This is not even an ordinary classmate, the distance between them has gradually become farther because of their indifferent attitude.Lu Qiansong even felt that he was inferior to strangers, as if he owed him a lot of money, and was a villain who needed to be treated coldly.

"Are you tired from class today?"

"Not tired."

"A day, how many classes do you have to take?"

"Four quarters, two in the morning and two in the afternoon..." Wen Chaoan pointed to the building and said, "You saw it, it's there, the ninth floor, if you want to find a job like this, just go up and ask. Not much, it's pretty easy."

In the midst of silence and conversation, he ate everything, put down the knife and fork lightly, wiped the corner of his mouth with a clean paper, and said lightly: "I'm done eating, if you have nothing else to do, I'm going back .”

Wen Chaoan has never been so indifferent before, he keeps a line with everyone, he has a good temper, and no one will bully him and make him sad like Lu Qiansong.

A person who is always gentle with others has to be ruthless when he refuses or speaks harsh words.Because they have a gentle inertia, they don't want to be so absolute, and they don't want others to be unhappy.

In fact, it was all six years ago, Wen Chaoan can't remember the feeling at that time, only the concept of "being discarded" has become more profound.His many experiences of being discarded were repeated in his dreams. It was not the fruit basket with burrs when he went to the village chief’s house when he was three years old, or he heard a sentence from his neighbor saying that his grandfather was dying in the vegetable market that day, and sometimes there were father Wen when he was a child. A serious and indifferent face, or a broken wall in the village chief's office.

These things should not return to his dreams, at least in the first year of high school, when he became brothers with Zhou Rong, had some friends, and spent time with Lu Qiansong, he thought he could give up on them , You can throw away sad things like throwing out trash.

Sometimes a person moves forward because he is brave and optimistic, but backwards because there is nothing that makes him brave and optimistic.

Once upon a time, Lu Qiansong was the person who made him brave and made him happy every day. At that time, he thought that he had found a backer who would never leave, and as long as he relied on it, he could always feel at ease.

Therefore, there is no problem with the little poem I learned when I was a child.

Wen Chaoan's thoughts drifted away for a while, and he finally said, "Say it, I'm leaving if I really don't."

In order to prove that he would really leave with a firm heart, he said: "Although the class ends at four o'clock, the lesson preparation is quite tiring. I don't want to waste time on useless things."

Lu Qiansong's hand twitched on the table, as if he was suddenly shocked by static electricity.His throat moved, and he obviously didn't say anything, but his voice became hoarse: "If you have something to say, I asked you to come out this time because I have something to tell you."

So Wen Chaoan sat there with his hands clasped on the table, as if negotiating, with a trace of guard and the indifference of "then I'll see what you have to say".

Lu Qiansong didn't speak for a long time, he looked at Wen Chaoan with a soft gray gaze, like the shadow left by a cloud.

Wen Chaoan suddenly felt uncomfortable, he looked too deeply, for a moment, Wen Chaoan thought that there was something complicated and unspeakable deposited in those eyes.

But there is nothing difficult to say, even if Mother Wen disagreed back then, would mother let him transfer to another school?Said, you transfer to another school, don't study in the same place as my son.is it possible?Mama Wen is not a domineering person who thinks about it, and besides, she has no way to order Lu Qiansong.

Even if she said something similar, it was Lu Qiansong's freedom to leave or not.

So, to leave is to leave, the legs grow on him, and he can only walk if he wants to.Now who is looking like this?Do you expect anyone to be distressed?No one will feel bad!

Wen Chaoan waited silently for him to speak, he actually wanted to know what Lu Qiansong was going to say.

"I am." After waiting for a long time, Lu Qiansong looked at the pedestrians outside the window, seemed to sigh, and said softly, "I just want to come back to see you."

Look at me?Are you finished?Leave after reading?

What am I?Can it still be like this?

Wen Chaoan let out an "oh", spread out his hands, and tapped on the table with the back of his hand, "I'll just sit here, you see."

He looked at Lu Qiansong's expression, of course he knew that the other party was also looking at him, and felt a little strangely funny, but he still said: "Look, I want to add more money."

Lu Qiansong cooperated with him very much: "How much?"

"..." It's boring to be serious, Wen Chaoan shook his head, and smiled softly, "Forget it, at least I have dated. I will give you a discount today and don't ask for your money, but forget it later. Don't ask me out in the future."

His last sentence was very soft and his tone was gentle, as if there was nothing he could do with Lu Qiansong, and he thought about seeing each other for the last time, be more peaceful, and save each other some face.

In fact, he thought about this question when he was in a daze upstairs at noon.

He has liked Lu Qiansong since high school, because he is too lonely, he has always been lonely.He always thought that he was going to leave home one day - Dad Wen didn't care when he was a child, why should he care when he grows up?The mother who was good to him was not his biological mother, and his younger brother could not be relied on, so at that time, he wanted to give himself to Lu Qiansong, and it was just to trap him.

Wen Chaoan thinks that love is something that can bind people, at least it binds him, and he is still deeply trapped.

He still doesn't know what Lu Qiansong and Mama Wen said in the car that day, but thinking about it now, maybe he said at that time that he would leave school and himself, so Mama Wen acted as if she didn't know anything, and made life easier. calm.

Only I am the biggest fool, I thought my mother would agree.

Wen Chaoan suddenly felt a bit sore in his nose, and he had formed a conditioned reflex. For a while, he would cry whenever he thought about it, and he remembered that feeling physically. Even if he didn't want to cry now, he would have a similar feeling.

Let's get together and relax.

Wen Chaoan said this sentence to himself no less than a dozen times.It started from the day I saw Lu Qiansong again.

"No," but Lu Qiansong said, "If I want to ask you out, I'll find you, I..."

He paused, and said in a normal voice, "I never said I wanted to break up."

Wen Chaoan was a little bit down, he was still immersed in his sad and silent sadness, and suddenly he was taken aback by the sentence "I never said we want to break up", walked out of the sadness, and then walked out of the spring of resurrection as if playing a game , the person suddenly became energetic——a fire in his heart was "bass" burning.

Wen Chaoan almost laughed: "What do you mean?"

"I didn't say break up." Lu Qiansong didn't feel wronged at all, staring into his eyes, "I never said."

"Did you break up if you didn't tell me?" Wen Chaoan heard this kind of remarks for the first time, and his doubts ran ahead of his anger. He picked up his phone, "Lu Qiansong, you can't reply to a message from me for a year, am I right? Are you single? You..."

Am I a widow?Wen Chaoan thought in surprise, except that they are not married and he is not a girl, what the hell is the difference?Do you want to nod your face?

He suppressed his anger after a brief shock, and he felt like he was on the verge of tears.

"Lu Qiansong, why don't you tell me why you never reply to my message?" Wen Chaoan is more mature than when he was a teenager, and he will not think of various excuses for Lu Qiansong, because after such a After a long period of self-hypnosis and self-denial, he could no longer think of any reason why Lu Qiansong would not return him.

Unless he dies.Can't people just sit in front of them?

Wen Chaoan put the phone forward, panted with red eyes, and said, "Why don't you see how many messages I sent you, you bastard? Why didn't you reply? Why don't we break up? I'm almost forgetting you. "

Lu Qiansong's coffee did not know when it was served, but Wen Chaoan didn't even notice it.

The coffee is slowly getting cold by now.