miss a useless name

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At that moment, Cheng Shen felt a chill running down his spine.

He looked at Yu Yan through the hot air, the boiling spicy soup was bubbling and bubbling, as if holes of different depths had been branded deep in his soul.

Yu Yan on the opposite side looked so strange, the always gentle and kind face in his memory was shattered by jealousy and whipping, he was torn, distorted, coated with cold and deadly venom, corroded beyond recognition by the pain he brought.

Cheng Shen's heart twitched violently.

He put his phone in his pocket and said reassuringly, "Are you full? If we are full, we will go back."

Yu Yan's forehead twitched, his palms were wet and sticky, and he was still shaking.He felt very hot, as if his whole body was being burned by fire, and the reason that told him to keep calm had just appeared before being burned to ashes by the inextinguishable fire.He had to hold on to the edge of the table to control himself, or he might go crazy here.

Cheng Shen saw that Yu Yan was not in the right state, and went to pay without waiting for his response.When he came back, he picked up the coat that Yu Yan took off next to him, wrapped him up from the back, and took him out with a half-hugging, half-hugging look, regardless of the eyes all over the shop.

As he got closer, he felt that Yu Yan's body was very hot, and his neck was wet with sweat.

He hailed a car on the side of the road and went back to the hotel. After getting in the car, he touched Yu Yan's forehead. If Yu Yan had a fever, he would choose to go directly to the hospital.

Yu Yan's hands were cold and his palms were covered with sweat.He was held by such hands, and the gloomy eyes of Yu Yan were reflected by the brightly lit lanterns.

Cheng Shen held Yu Yan's hand instead, and the big dry and warm hand completely wrapped him up: "Yu Yan, let me see you, you are very hot."

There was a very resisting force in Yu Yan's body pushing Cheng Shen outward, and the voice he made was so eerie that it made people shudder: "I'm not sick."

Cheng Shen's heart felt cold, feeling that there was something in Yu Yan's words.He simply hugged him, and tried his mouth to test the temperature of his forehead without letting him touch it. It was really not hot, it was warm, and it was a normal body temperature.

But he didn't feel relieved. Yu Yan's reaction could not be summed up by just "something is wrong". Cheng Shen felt that Yu Yan was like a lonely soul standing in front of an abyss, which might be wiped out at any time.

Arriving at the hotel ten minutes later, Yu Yan kept a distance from Cheng Shen when he got off the car. The rain was still falling, so he walked forward quickly, ignoring the people behind him, and scattered the drizzle over his shoulders.

When Cheng Shen paid the money, Yu Yan had already disappeared in the hotel lobby. He ran to chase after him, but one step too late, the elevator had already started to go up, so he had to wait for another one.

He felt uneasy, his heart was pounding. In the quiet car, bright yellow mirror, there was nowhere to hide his complex emotions.

Upon reaching the floor, Cheng Shen ran wildly on the thick carpet.A few steps away in the room, he heard the sound of the toilet being flushed, mixed with the sound of vomiting.

The door was open, showing that the owner was in a hurry when he came back.

Cheng Shen rushed to the bathroom and lay down on the toilet in a daze. The hot pot meal that night stirred in his intestines and stomach, and the burning sensation rose from his lower abdomen to his mouth.

Yu Yan felt that he was ignited from inside, his eyes turned black from vomiting, and the arm that was pressing on the edge of the toilet felt numb.

Cheng Shen squatted over, patted him on the back, gave him comfort, and watched Yu Yan vomit all his dinner, and finally he vomited nothing, and vomited water of unknown color.

Yu Yan's throat was stained with blood, as if he was about to vomit blood.He didn't know what Cheng Shen was thinking, anyway, he thought it was disgusting, dirty and smelly, just like going back to that night, he fell to the ground uncontrollably, tears and saliva flowing, it was really ugly.

Cheng Shen handed Yu Yan a glass of water to rinse his mouth, nervously supported his body: "Yanyan, if you feel sick to your stomach, we'll go to the hospital right now, don't hold back."

Yu Yan's hands were so numb that he couldn't hold the cup, he was fed in by Cheng Shen one by one, spit it out after rinsing, and then was wiped his face again with a hot towel.

The hot air was blocked in the nasal cavity, like a ball of cotton soaked in water blocked the airway.

Yu Yan turned his head to avoid it, and stood up while leaning against the wall.

He staggered to the sink, turned on the faucet, and the cold water splashed on his face, like a sprinkling of icicles from an endless wildfire.

Yu Yan rinsed for a long time, his cheeks were soaked with water, his brows were clouded, he had been groomed and groomed, and he drooped obediently.A drop of water fell from the long curled eyelashes, and the water droplets rolled over the pale outline and sank into the neckline.

A towel was handed in front of him, Yu Yan didn't look at it, didn't pick it up, and didn't move.He maintained the posture of supporting the water platform, looked at the "swish" flowing water, and asked hoarsely, "Who called you?"

Cheng Shen put the towel on Yu Yan's face, and the dry cotton cloth absorbed the moisture.He replied: "The negotiating party."

Yu Yan didn't believe it: "You don't save the number of the negotiating party?"

"The meeting in the morning was a little unpleasant, and the contract was not negotiated. I don't want to talk nonsense with them."

"What about text messages?"

The water on Yu Yan's face was basically wiped dry, Cheng Shen threw the towel aside: "A text message of apology from the negotiating party."

In order to ventilate, the hotel staff opened several windows after cleaning during the day. The rain outside was getting heavier, and the autumn wind turned and blew into the room.

Yu Yan couldn't help shivering, the hairs on his back stood up layer by layer, he turned around stiffly, and spread his hands: "Show me."

He has never made such a rude request. They have been together for many years. Out of absolute trust, they have always respected each other.Because of magnanimity, it is common to check the information and even reply to the other party with permission.

But today was different, Yu Yan took the initiative to reach out to Cheng Shen with suspicion and malice, as sensitive as a dandelion that would fall apart at the first touch.

Cheng Shen frowned.

Yu Yan seemed to have calmed down: "Didn't you tell me to believe you? Just show me your phone and I'll believe you."

Cheng Shen knew that it would be very difficult to convince Yu Yan after he had a criminal record. It took less than ten days for the incident to happen, and a random trigger could ignite the untimely bomb in Yu Yan's heart.But if he handed over his mobile phone today, there will be a second or third time in the future. Yu Yan will not be satisfied with the peace of mind at this moment, he will intensify his demands, and use love and guilt to nail Cheng Shen to the cross of judgment superior.

What he said in the hospital that night all came true, he could see Yu Yan's struggle, suffering every minute and every second.He saw that Yu Yan had been trying hard to get out, those forced relaxedness, concealed pain, and abnormal courtship, the more Yu Yan wanted to escape from such a predicament, the deeper he fell.He was like a deer falling into a swamp, sinking deeper and deeper as he struggled.

"I said I wouldn't lie to you, so I really won't lie to you again." Cheng Shen said, "You can call Zhao Fei if you don't believe me."

Yu Yan raised the corners of his lips mockingly, and smiled: "Your assistant, won't you help me?"

"Yu Yan, I told you before." Cheng Shen stepped forward and looked condescendingly into each other's eyes: "If you can't accept it, we can separate. I told you that day, what kind of life you will live in the future, is it right?" You continue regardless of your choice, and this is just the beginning."

Yu Yan was forced to the end, his lower back pressed against the marble countertop, the cold and hard touch stings his skin through the clothes.His face was pale, his eyes were red, and he looked back unwillingly: "So you can't stand me anymore, can you?"

Cheng Shen looked at him coldly: "If I were going to lie to you, I wouldn't be standing here now. I am going to give you a surprise. I came to Chongqing to find you, and I went to see you at the signing event. I didn't want you to doubt me. I promise to be with you." Well, I will give you absolute loyalty, and you will be free if you believe in it, but if you don’t believe it, you can only live in pain forever.”

Yu Yan was turned upside down by the cruelty and sharpness of Cheng Shen's words, and the oxygen around him was drained by the fire. It seemed that standing in front of him was not his persistent lover who refused to give up, but a scorched devil.He retorted viciously: "You want to be with me at the age of 17, and it turns out that your so-called 'absolute loyalty' is fucking fart."

He laughed again, coldly and chillingly, as if thinking of some hideous joke: "You're just waiting for me to give up, aren't you, you're waiting for me to break up, let you go free, and let you find that woman?" Yu Yan suddenly straightened his chest and back, his neck was raised proudly, his eyes were full of madness, and then he gritted his teeth and said word by word: "You, dream, dream."

"Yu Yan!" Cheng Shen grabbed Yu Yan's shoulder with such strength that he seemed to crush him.

Yu Yan shook off his shackles fiercely, and turned Cheng Shen against the wall. When the other party was astonished and had no time to react, he quickly put his hand into his trousers pocket, and grabbed the deadly mobile phone.

He ran away as soon as he got it, with blood surging all over his body.

Tried fingerprint, can't unlock.

It cannot be unlocked by common password.

Standing in front of the wide open window, Yu Yan finally collapsed completely.

"You fucking change the password?!" Yu Yan glared at the person chasing him furiously, leaned half of his body out of the window, and yelled frantically, "What's the password!"

Cheng Shen's face turned pale with fright, subconsciously bowed his body, pressed his hands down, and made a comforting gesture: "Yu Yan, you come here, it's too dangerous!"

Yu Yan was unmoved, and quickly tried a few passwords on the screen. Out of the corner of his eye, he caught a glimpse of Cheng Shen's figure moving over, and shouted, "Stop!"

Cheng Shen didn't dare to move immediately.

Yu Yan held up his mobile phone, the wind and rain hit his thin chest, more than ten stories high, if he fell, his body would be smashed to pieces.Unconsciously, he stretched out most of his body, precariously looking as if he might disappear at any moment.

"I'm fucking asking you what your password is!"

Under the light, Yu Yan's face showed an almost maddened grayness. He was full of blood, impulsive, tense, and angry. The tightrope walking in the past few days finally completely destroyed his mind that was suppressed to the extreme.His world was shattered, countless collapsing rock walls smashed his head and blood, his body was destroyed on the night before the Mid-Autumn Festival, and his unwilling soul, struggling to support it until today, finally fell apart.

He felt that he was not good, and was cut open from the middle with a knife, spreading out the dripping flesh and blood, and wantonly turning and digging.He was getting worse and worse, the wounds were rotting and stinking, leaving terrible scars on the wounded heart.

He finally became what he hated the most, resentful, ferocious, and full of ugliness.

Cheng Shen was also about to collapse: "Come here, I'll tell you when you come here!"

Yu Yan only thought that Cheng Shen wanted to get the phone back: "Don't lie to me again!"

"I didn't lie to you, Yan Yan," Cheng Shen looked at him earnestly: "Believe me, come to me, I'll turn on your phone for you, come here!"

Yu Yan hated him to death, tried another wrong password, and the phone was automatically locked for 5 minutes.Crazy emotions reached the peak at this moment, Yu Yan raised his hand, angrily wanted to throw away the phone.

"Don't throw it!" Cheng Shen shouted, "This is the [-]th floor!"

At this moment, the phone vibrated in Yu Yan's hand.

The thorns all over his body stood up, and he stared at the screen as if he was watching a scourge—it was still the same number without notes!

"It's still fucking over!" Yu Yan's veins popped up on his neck, and he was about to click to answer.

It was too late to say it, Cheng Shen seized the opportunity and strode forward, hooked Yu Yan's waist and dragged him back from the window.

The mobile phone fell to the ground, but no one took care of it.

Being hugged by Cheng Shen, Yu Yan first bumped into the table behind him, then knocked down the ashtray on the table, they staggered to the ground, but the anger born of fear did not stop.

Without even thinking about it, Yu Yan punched Cheng Shen, and the latter, not to be outdone, grabbed Yu Yan's neckline and knocked him to the ground, viciously hitting his opponent on the cheekbone.

Cheng Shen sat on Yu Yan's waist and lifted him up with his clothes. He was enraged and wished he could kill this ignorant lunatic one bite at a time: "Have you fucked up enough?"

Anger made him say nothing: "If you want to die, find a place where no one is around, don't fucking die in front of my eyes!"

Cheng Shen let go of his hand, the floor was covered with a blanket, and the back of Yu Yan's head hit the ground dully.He was still angry: "Dog thing!"

Yu Yan woke up and was woken up by a punch.

He stared blankly at Cheng Shen who was on him, and saw panic and fear in that man's brilliant anger.He suddenly felt happy, and his excited soul trembled slightly.

Cheng Shen turned down, stretched out his long arm to reach the still vibrating mobile phone, swiped open to answer, and pressed the speakerphone.

An angry male voice on the phone: "Hello, Mr. Cheng? You finally answered the phone. The morning negotiation..."

Yu Yan let out a long, long breath of relief.

He was slumped on the ground, limp and rotten, like a well-used rag, unable to lift his tired fingers.He didn't know if Cheng Shen felt the same as him, and he was probably quite tired, too weak to talk on the phone.

How can you not be tired?Yu Yan thought, how could he not be tired when he was with such a person who would lose his nerve at any time.

A few minutes later, the phone was hung up, and Cheng Shen threw the phone away annoyed.

He sat on the ground and turned to look at Yu Yan next to him: "Do you believe me?"

Yu Yan behaved right now, nodding calmly.

"You fucking..." Cheng Shen wanted to scold someone, but he didn't make up his mind after spraying a few words: "My hands are shaking, fuck it."

Yu Yan saw it, and Cheng Shen's hands shook like sieves.

"Ding-dong-"

Doorbell rang.

Cheng Shen resigned himself to his fate and got up to open the door.

The hotel manager stood outside the door and saw that Cheng Shen's hair was disheveled, his clothes were twisted, and there was a gap in the corner of his mouth, so he jumped his eyelids in a friendly way: "Hello, sir, some guests complained that your room is a bit noisy, may I ask?" Can I help you?"

Cheng Shen was too tired to deal with it: "No, I'm sorry for arguing with my friend."

The manager said in his heart, I believe you are a ghost, everyone is beaten like this.

But he smiled on his face: "Sir, the damaged hotel items need to be compensated according to the price. If you and your friend disagree, you can sit down and discuss it. We don't advocate force." Type something good or bad: "Excuse me, is your friend okay?"

"He's quite..."

Footsteps came from behind, and Yu Yan had already walked to the door. He stood beside Cheng Shen, squeezed the door frame, and said apologetically, "I'm sorry for causing you trouble. A little dispute has been resolved."

"Okay, then I have a safety commitment here, please sign it."

The two signed their names one by one. As soon as the manager left, Cheng Shen pressed Yu Yan against the door.

He lowered his head, stroked the bruise on Yu Yan's cheekbone with his thumb: "It's solved?"

Yu Yan replied dejectedly.

Cheng Shen broke Yu Yan's chin, and bit his lip hard.

"hiss--"

Cheng Shen warned sharply: "If you do such a scary thing in the future, I really don't care about you!"

Yu Yan realized that his behavior was extreme, but he really didn't want to jump off the building because he was afraid that Cheng Shen would come and snatch the phone.Now the misunderstanding has subsided, and I start to feel guilty, so I dare not say more.

After Cheng Shen bit it, he hugged Yu Yan, and stroked Yu Yan's protruding spine with his trembling hands just now.He sighed with lingering fear, and said slowly: "The password is 1010, Mid-Autumn Festival. I just want to remind myself not to make the same mistake again."

"I promised to have a good relationship with you, so I won't lie to you. I know you are afraid. I owed you a lot in the past, but...give me a little more confidence, beat me, scold me like today, and express what I think Tell me, don't torture yourself, okay?"

Yu Yan couldn't guarantee it at all, and he didn't want to fall into such a vortex and rub himself repeatedly. He only knew that at that moment, he seemed to fall into a bottomless black hole, and everything was out of control.He is afraid that if this continues, one day he will become a real madman.

Cheng Shen let go of him again, looking at the little powder on the white face with distress: "I've never hit you before, does it hurt?"

It’s like right now, Yu Yan can’t control his vicious thoughts——

You didn't hit me, but you almost strangled me once.

He didn't want to go crazy anymore, he avoided Cheng Shen's gaze and grabbed Cheng Shen's wrist: "It doesn't hurt, I'll do it first."

Cheng Shen smiled: "It's different after practicing Taekwondo, it broke the corners of my mouth."

"sorry."

Cheng Shen didn't bother with him, and went into the room to look for his mobile phone: "Where did you put your stomach medicine? You just vomited so badly, are you okay? Are you hungry? I'll order a takeaway."

Yu Yan leaned his back against the door and rubbed his face vigorously, he was a little exhausted, his limbs were sore.

"I……"

There was a rush of footsteps in the corridor, Yu Yan subconsciously stood up, and the next second, the doorbell rang for his death.

An Ning probably didn't expect Yu Yan to open the door so quickly, and she forgot what she wanted to say the moment she saw him.

Yu Yan saw that the other party was still holding the computer in a hurry, and asked patiently, "What's wrong?"

"Oh yes, Teacher Yu is terrible!" An Ning turned the computer screen towards Yu Yan: "You're on the headlines! Someone hacked you on the Internet!"

The author has something to say:

Mr. Cheng is arguing and wants to teach everyone not to throw objects at high altitudes!