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Li Cu doesn't know much about his new job. Most of the time he focuses on genetic diseases. He hasn't paid much attention to infectious diseases, but Ning Qi has a good relationship with him. He has worked under Ning Qi for a long time. For a while, he knew Ning Qi as a person, and cooperated with Ning Qi tacitly.

After the virus was isolated, he sent a message to Qiushui and Yan Lan, asking them to go out as little as possible during this time.When Yan Lan called him, he was busy, so he didn't answer the phone. Afterwards, he just sent a message to briefly explain the situation. It took a long time for Qiu Shui to reply to his message, which was simple and clear good word.

Li Cu was busy with work at the time, so he didn't pay much attention to it.

When the epidemic broke out on a large scale, Li Cu and a team led by Ning Qi could only stay in the dormitory building and could not get out. It was only when Li Cu took a shower and lay on the bed at night that he realized that Qiushui seemed to have been gone for a long time. Looking for him, he was a little slow to remember that when he left home, the kid seemed a little unhappy. He lay on the bed and tried his best to dial a voice message for Qiu Shui. After waiting for a while, there was no answer. , he sent Qiu Shui a message, "Call me back if you see it."

He waited for a while, because he was so sleepy, he fell asleep in a daze.

When he woke up again, it was already six o'clock the next morning. Qiu Shui dialed two voice messages and a phone call for him last night. Li Cu is used to silent cell phones, and he has been a little tired recently. He will be nervous. Although he stayed in the outbreak area, he has been staying in the laboratory, and he doesn't know the specific situation very well. He has a little anxiety because he doesn't understand. Physical and mental exhaustion make him sleep soundly at night. Waking up in the morning groggy again.He rubbed his hair and got up from the bed, went into the bathroom while sending a message with his mobile phone, he sent a message to Qiu Shui - fell asleep last night, wait for me to call you tonight.

After putting down his phone, he went to the bathroom to take a shower for himself, changed his clothes and went out without his phone.

Ning Qi has a 25-year-old girl who is a star chaser. When Li Cuo was eating in the cafeteria at noon, the girl sat next to him with her mobile phone and watched happily. Li Tuo asked what she was looking at, little girl Immediately stretched out the phone with great interest, and explained to him seriously, "Did you see, my sister's new drama, in which she plays a school bully, is beautiful and has an explosive aura, it's so beautiful!"

Li Cu took a look and was really puzzled, "This is your sister?"

The little girl raised her eyes and glanced at him, she was silent for two seconds without saying anything, and then said, "No, that's what we like to call her. That's right, brother Li Cu, you are from Shangmian Market, right? This drama was also filmed there, near the university town!"

Li Cu raised his eyebrows, and suddenly some memories came back, "What's the name of this show?"

The little girl pointed to the words on the phone screen, "We are young."

Li Cu said slowly, and then asked based on his own memory, "Is there a gangster who robbed the hero?"

The little girl thought about it seriously for a while, "Then who remembers—"

At night, Li Cu was temporarily called by Ning Qi to analyze the data. When he returned to the place where he lived, it was already ten o'clock in the evening. Li Cu turned on the light in the room, sat quietly on the chair for a long time, and then got up and poured himself a glass of warm water. The room was very quiet and not very popular. Li Cu turned on the TV while drinking water, wanting to make some lively noises. He stood in front of the TV and watched two commercials on the TV, and then started to play TV dramas.

The name of this TV series is familiar. When he raised his head to drink water, he caught a glimpse through the slits of his eyes. After drinking the water, he turned around and put the water glass back in place. Only when his tired brain remembered that he was going to call Qiu Shui.

Li Cu rubbed the back of his neck and picked up the mobile phone placed by the bedside. Qiu Shui called him before seven o'clock in the morning. After making a phone call, Li Cu stroked his hair and called Qiu Shui back.

He sat by the bed, glanced at the TV series with high color saturation, and when the phone rang for the second time, the call was connected there.

Qiu Shui didn't speak, and the sound of breathing became heavier.

Li Cu, "Zai Zai?"

"En." Qiu Shui's voice was muffled.

Li Cu smiled, "You don't want to talk to me?"

"..." Qiu Shui didn't speak.

Li Cu's voice was still unhurried, and he teased with a smile, "Then I'll hang up?"

Qiu Shui said with a muffled voice, "No."

Li Cu said, "Are you angry with me?"

Qiu Shui's voice seemed to be stuffed under the quilt, with a dull breathing sound, "No."

"Blame me for calling you back so late?" Li Cu's voice was still slow, never in a hurry.

"..." Qiu Shui didn't speak.

Li Cu said with a smile, "I'm busy, I just came back, and I called you immediately before entering the room."

Qiu Shui let out a soft "um" with his nose.

Li Cu glanced sideways at the TV, "Has the TV series you filmed at school already aired, do you know which episode you appeared in?"

"..." Qiu Shui's breathing became deeper and deeper.

Li Cu, "Autumn water?"

Qiu Shui's voice became hoarse, "Yes."

"What's wrong?" Li Cu frowned. As a normal person, he was in the epidemic area and watched the number of confirmed cases rise every day. He naturally became suspicious. He was lazily leaning against the head of the bed, his body He straightened up unconsciously, "You have a cold, and you have a fever? Where have you been recently?" He asked, and his voice became harsh unconsciously, "Didn't I tell you that it is best not to go out recently? Is it?"

Qiu Shui's crying voice became clearer and clearer after he yelled fiercely, "I didn't."

Li Cu breathed a sigh of relief, and then frowned again, "What happened? You don't want to tell me? Someone in the family is sick, sister or father?"

Qiu Shui whispered, "No."

Li Cu's fingers tapped on the bedside table irritably, "Don't want to tell me?"

It took a long time for Qiu Shui to speak word by word, "You called me at night, but I didn't answer. You asked me to call you back, but I called you three times and you didn't answer."

"..." Li Cu's expression paused, showing a little helplessness, "I explained Qiushui to you this morning..."

Before he finished speaking, Qiu Shui interrupted him directly, "You call me, and you don't answer when I call back, which will make me think that you are sick and have been sent to the hospital, and may even be unconscious Can't answer the phone."

He was very busy during this period, and indeed he had relatively few phone calls with Qiushui. He didn't expect Qiushui to be so insecure about his health problems. He sighed, "The laboratory protection measures are very good, and we can't go out. Before I came I'll tell you everything, right?"

Qiu Shui sniffed and said in a very steady voice, "I don't know what's going on with this disease, what you're going to do, when you'll come back, or when this shit will pass, I don't fucking know anything!" His voice trailed off with a bit of gnashing of teeth.

Qiu Shui seldom swears in front of Li Cu, Li Cu suddenly heard a muffled laugh in this serious atmosphere, he dragged his voice and coaxed slowly, "Zai Zai, it's okay, be obedient, okay?"

Qiu Shui exploded over there, and Qiu Shui, who had always been obedient, suddenly raised his voice, like an angry little lion, "I'm disobedient, Li Cu!"

He seldom called Li Cu's name, even his elder brother. When he saw Li Cu, he clung to Li Cu's body, turned his head when he spoke, and never mentioned his name. cluster said.

Li Cu was stunned by his yelling, he was silent for a moment, trying to reason, "Qiu Shui, I am very tired from work, I think you will make me feel relaxed, I called you because I miss you, you You can't lose your temper with me because I'm so far away from you, don't be unreasonable."

Qiu Shui burst into tears, "You always have a lot of reason, anyway, I am unreasonable..."

Li Cu sighed when he cried, and his heart softened, "Don't cry, be good."

Qiu Shui refuted him with a teary voice, "I'm disobedient and I'm not good."

"..." Li Cu, "I'll go back as soon as things are over, okay?"

Qiu Shui still had tears in his voice, "I'm disobedient, I'm not good, I'm very irritable, in the past when people bullied me, I beat him up, I like to lie, I have a bad temper, I'm selfish, I don't care about my family at all. Anyone who has no filial piety, no respect for elders, and never reason with others. When I think of you, if you are sick or dead, I hate myself. Why don't you just tie you up when you are about to leave, I don't want you to go , I don’t want you to leave my side, others have nothing to do with me, I just want you by my side.”

Li Cuo's expression was softened by his words. The light in the room was a warm yellow light, which shone on him. In such a quiet room, there was a hint of warmth in his voice. Also with a hint of warmth, "Qiu Shui, you are not like this."

Li Cu only now knows that Qiushui's understanding of himself is so unclear. He has a very bad image in his own eyes, which is very bad. No bad person can count out all his bad shortcomings one by one What's more, Li Cu never doubted his own vision. His Qiushui was a child who was misunderstood by himself, a child who was locked in a cage by himself, a good boy; a good boy who worked hard, studied hard, was kind and sincere Child; he is reluctant to walk away from him, but he will still pack all the luggage he needs.

So Li Cu slowly told the other party - you are not what you think, you are a good student who works hard, a sincere friend, a considerate lover, and a shining human being, your shortcomings cannot be covered up Don't be ignorant of your own strengths, and don't doubt my lover.

There is no sound over there, as if the microphone of the mobile phone is blocked, all the sound is gone.

Li Cu didn't mind the disappearance of all the voices on his side, he continued with a smile, "Okay, I was wrong, I shouldn't say you are unreasonable, and I shouldn't have promised to talk to you on the phone but fell asleep by myself OK, okay?"

There was still no sound from Qiushui.

Li Cu laughed, and continued slowly, "You can tell me what you think in the future, I am in love with you, I am your lover, I don't need you to make yourself obedient and obedient, okay? Okay, Qiu Shui, you have to have more confidence in yourself, I am fascinated by you, I wish I knew you ten years earlier, so that we can be together for another ten years."

Qiushui's voice came over, accompanied by his whimpering cry, he whispered over there, "I miss you so much, I miss you so much."

Li Cu laughed, dragging his throat, "I know."

Qiu Shui, "I miss you very much every day. If I see one more confirmed case reported, I will always be afraid that it is you."

Li Cu smiled, "You see, people like me should live a long life, right?"

Qiu Shui sniffed and muffled his voice, then said in a low voice, "Then I will live to be 87 years old."

Li Cu squinted his eyes under the light and smiled.

And love.

At the age of 33, Li Cu's life has undergone a lot of changes. It's hard to say whether it's good or not. He has witnessed many life and death events in this year. He is still very young and feels that he still has hope to do something. .

One day this year, when he thought of Qiushui, his heart softened a little. He began to taste the taste of missing him at a distance that was not too long. One hundred days and one thousand days, one day he will go home. The concept of home is not vague to him, but it has become more accurate and clear now.

He thought of someone waiting for him at home, someone who was thinking about him, and he was worried about it.

At the age of 20, Qiu Shui suddenly had a new understanding of himself, he was not a very bad person.

Because the sparkling Li Cuzai likes him and loves him, then he must also be a sparkling person. If there is no sparkling now, then there will be a sparkling one day in the future.