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On the last day of the Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, Li Cu and Qiu Shui stayed at home and did not go out. After breakfast, Qiu Shui was reading materials on his mobile phone. He said that he would apply for the exam, and he would pass the English Level [-] in December this year. The exam is over.

After hearing this, Li Cu immediately praised him for his hard work. Qiu Shui sat on the sofa holding his mobile phone. He stared at Li Cu for a while, and then asked him aloud, "Did you take the exam in your freshman year?"

Li Cu seemed to think about it seriously: "Freshman seems to be busy earning living expenses."

Qiu Shui let out a sigh, and then he might feel that his answer seemed rather cold, so he added: "It's hard work."

Hearing this, Li Cu gave a muffled laugh, imitating Qiu Shui's tone and said, "Yes."

Qiu Shui's eyelids drooped. Normally, he should have finished this conversation, and then he continued to study his own lessons, and Li Cu continued to do his own things. He looked down at the questions in the question bank, and finally raised his head. The eyes complained: "You are so annoying."

Li Cu blinked his eyes very innocently, and he reached out his hand in front of his mouth to make a gesture of shutting up. In order not to disturb Qiu Shui who loves to study, he turned and walked into the study gently.

Li Cu read the materials in the study for a while, then went out and poured himself a cup of warm water, Qiushui still huddled on the sofa, and Li Cu came back gently with his water cup.

As soon as he returned to the study, Li Cu thought of the doctors in his contacts before he sat down on his seat. Before he finished his glass of water, Qiu Shui knocked on the door outside, and Li Cu put down his water glass: "Come in."

Qiu Shui walked in wearing slippers. He didn't have a good impression of this study room. Last time he cried a lot because of some inexplicable reasons.

For a long time, Qiu Shui's self-impression was serious and indifferent. He didn't like to cry, and he once regarded himself as indifferent even when Mount Tai collapsed.He felt that there was nothing in this world that could make him feel great sorrow and joy, but he cried in front of Li Cu again and again until his face turned red and his neck was thick. He would always feel an indescribable shame when he recalled such things suddenly. feel.

He thought that he was always collapsed inch by inch in front of Li Cu, and he felt a little annoying. He wanted Li Cu to see that he was mature and rational, and could face landslides and tsunamis without changing his face, but what he showed I am not like this.

Even after complaining about Li Cu's annoyance just now, he was seriously thinking about whether he shouldn't speak like this.He was browsing the materials with a kind of anxiety that he had never felt before. He heard Li Cu enter the study room softly, and then came out softly after a while. Li Cu poured a glass of water at the water bar, and then walked away went back.

Qiu Shui looked up at the closed study door, jumped off the sofa and followed.

When Qiu Shui was knocking on the study door, he was thinking with some annoyance—it was so annoying.

He felt that he had changed from an adult who could calmly face landslides and tsunamis to a puppy who had just been weaned and could only wag his tail and walk around with his master.

"Come in." Qiu Shui gently wiped his clothes with his knocking hand. He opened the door of the study. Li Cu just put down the water glass with one hand. He glanced sideways at him who entered the door and asked him, "What's the matter?"

Qiu Shui asked him, "What are we having for lunch today?"

After Qiu Shui finished asking, he added a sentence in his head—it was a stupid stupid dog who just finished eating and wanted to eat again.

Li Cu was also taken aback when he heard the words. He raised his hand and looked at his watch. It was only 40 minutes since they had breakfast. His eyes fixed on Qiushui's face at the door for a while, and then turned to Qiushui's belly. Turned around: "Aren't you full?" He laughed after asking, "It's so edible, I can't afford you Qiushui."

Qiu Shui shrugged his nose, his expression was between disdain and no expression, he replied in a muffled voice: "I take care of myself."

Li Cu rested his hand on his chin, stared at Qiu Shui for a long time, and asked with a smile: "When you eat me and go bankrupt, can you take care of me?"

Qiu Shui muffled out a word: "Nurture."

After finishing speaking, he wondered why Li Cu liked to tease himself so much, he curled his lips and added in a low voice: "I don't eat much."

Li Cuo looked at him with a smile.

Qiu Shui changed the topic on his own: "I saw frozen shrimp in the refrigerator this morning."

Li Cuo nodded with a smile.

Qiu Shui turned his head slightly: "Do you cook seafood pasta?"

Li Cu said: "Yes." After a while he felt funny again, "Qiu Shui, do you start thinking about what to eat in the morning, what to eat at noon, and what to eat at night every morning?"

"..." Qiu Shui didn't speak, he thought it wasn't, although he always acted inexplicably in front of Li Cu that he didn't know himself.He doesn't care what he eats in the morning, noon and night. He doesn't care what he eats when he is too lazy to go to the cafeteria when the crowds are crowded on weekends in high school, and when he eats several instant noodles in a row.

It's just that he can't knock on the door of Li Cu's study, and then just stand at the door without saying anything, that would be even more stupid.

He not only asked what to eat, but also asked many, many questions. Standing at the door of the study, he found a very high-sounding reason for himself: "Eating and sleeping are important things in life."

Li Cu was amused by him again, Qiu Shui is obviously not the type of kid who is humorous, he even looks very introverted, but every time he says a lot of words that seem to be poking at Li Cu's weird smile, he holds a serious picture Seven or eight of the ten sentences out of the face can make Li Cu find it funny, and Li Cu thinks this is a very powerful skill.He smiled and waved at Qiushui: "It's indeed a big personal matter, but we can't just think about big things all day, right, we still have to do small things."

Qiu Shui walked up to Li Cu.

Li Cu pointed to the stool in front of the study window: "Come sit next to me on a stool, shall we read together?"

Qiu Shui nodded: "Okay." He felt good, walked over and hugged the stool, and placed it side by side with Li Cu's chair. After sitting down, he let out a sigh of relief, and told himself how many books he would put next time. My own book is in this room.

They do their own things in the same room without disturbing each other.

Qiu Shui flipped through the documents on the screen of his mobile phone for a while, feeling his eyes were a bit tired, he rolled his eyes, Li Cuo was sitting beside him holding a thick document book in his hands, he glanced secretly, did not quite understand, the mobile phone The middle class group news was vibrating again, asking about the registration of club activities, Qiu Shui turned off the group news.He rested his chin and looked at the things on the desk. Li Cu's desk was relatively clean. There were a few books piled up and a few pens, and there was nothing left. He was stunned for a while, and he secretly reached out and took out the pen, which was indeed a gift he bought for Li Cu.

He worked in a milk tea shop during the summer vacation. After the last day of work, he went to the mall thinking about buying something for Li Cuo. He even searched the web for what gifts to give to others, and bought a pen , When he bought it, he said what kind of joint name it was, but he didn't quite understand it, so he took it back after packing it.

He put the pen cap close to his nose, and he sniffed lightly.After putting down the hand holding the pen, he condemned himself in his brain, feeling that he was becoming more and more like a pervert.

He glanced at Li Cu, Li Cu was still reading, his fingers were lightly pinching the direction of the corner of the book, he turned a page slowly, without lifting his head, he said: "This is the book you gave me." That one, it’s very useful.”

Qiu Shui rubbed his fingers, and he let out a soft oh.

Li Cu stopped talking. He was very rigorous in his work and study, and he liked to finish one thing completely before doing other things. The reason why he got good grades in school was because of his high study efficiency. It's hard to get distracted by other things.

He frowned and read the published materials written by others. After sketching a few problems that he hadn't noticed before, he raised his head, took off his glasses and stretched out his hands to pinch the bridge of his nose. Qiu Shui immediately turned to look at him after feeling his movements.

Qiu Shui found that his study efficiency had suddenly become unprecedentedly low, and many things in this room were attracting his attention, including the big living person sitting beside him.

The big living man gently put his glasses on the table, turned his head and glanced at him: "I'm tired, do you want to take a rest?"

Qiu Shui asked him: "Did you get a scholarship every year when you were in college?"

Li Cu's answer was very natural: "Of course."

Qiu Shui said oh, he thought I would get it for nothing, and after comparing with Li Cu, he felt that he was really boring.

Li Cu glanced at him before he was about to speak, the phone on the table vibrated.

He sent a message to a doctor friend half an hour ago, and the other party took time out of work to reply.

He asked about Qiushui's ED problem and where to start to solve it. The doctor sent him a very detailed message.

The other party asked the patient whether it was the first time he had sex and had some obstacles. He said that most men will have it at the beginning. Most of the problems of ED patients are caused by too much pressure on themselves. , taking it easy in the process can improve.But if it is really organic ED, you have to go to the hospital to take a film and do angiography to see the situation.

Li Cu replied thank you, and looked sideways at Qiu Shui: "Qiu Shui, take it easy."

Qiu Shui, who sat obediently by the side and waited for Li Cu to reply to the message, was stunned when he heard this: "Huh?"

Li Cu asked him: "You did it with me twice, what were you thinking at that time?"

Qiu Shui's ears turned red first, and then his cheeks turned red. His hand holding the pen accidentally let go of the pen. The pen slid along the table for a certain distance, and was picked up by Li Cu's hand. Li Cu inserted the pen again. Back into the pen holder.

"Ah?" Qiu Shui buried his head, reminding himself in his brain that there is nothing to blush, it's not a big deal.

Li Cuo said, "Take it easy and tell me how you really feel."

Qiu Shui raised his head slightly, his face was still a little red, but there was still no expression on his face.

Li Cu said, "Let's talk about the last time I was in the room, the time you watched a movie in my room."

Qiu Shui frowned, and he blushed and whispered, "I think you are so annoying."

Li Cu narrowed his eyes: "Do you feel a lot of pressure, your spirit is very tense, what are you thinking in your mind when you usually relieve yourself?"

Qiu Shui licked his lips, the redness on his face slowly receded, he lowered his eyes and stared at Li Cu's fingers on the table, Li Cu's fingers were very long, probably because he likes to exercise. The skin is not white, and the knuckles of the fingers are slightly protruding. Qiu Shui pursed his lips, and he stretched out his hand and gently grasped the index finger of Li Cu's hand on the table. He held Li Cu's index finger and said, "I think nausea."

After finishing speaking, he added: "I feel disgusted by myself."

Li Cu's fingers twisted in Qiu Shui's palm. Qiu Shui felt a little uncomfortable at first, but Li Cu's fingers seemed to pluck a string in his brain, which made him hear a vibration with an echo. The sound made him dizzy.

Li Cu was silent for a while, he raised his hand and directly held Qiu Shui's hand holding his index finger, put it under his lips and kissed gently: "Go to the hospital and have a look, don't worry."

Qiu Shui said, "I'm not worried." He really wasn't worried at all, because he didn't care, he didn't care at all whether he was functioning normally.

Li Cu's eyes slightly bent: "I'm worried." He said, "If this continues, I might cheat."

Qiu Shui suddenly turned his head to look at him. Li Cuo always had this smile on his face and said everything he said seemed to be joking. At this moment, Qiu Shui couldn't judge whether this person was really joking with him. He even gave up on himself. Is it so important to think about doing that thing, and is it so important whether you can use the function normally?He had a rare emotion towards Li Cu that could be called anger.

Li Cu's expression didn't change at all, he just suddenly realized that Qiushui's pressure didn't come from the pressure of dysfunction at a certain moment.My doctor friend said that most people suffer from psychogenic ED because of the unsatisfactory first time, so the more they fail, the greater the pressure.Qiushui is obviously not stressed because of his inability, but more like he feels relaxed because of his inability. Li Cuo thinks that he needs a little pressure, not a lot, so that people who want to treat him and fight against him Negative thoughts are just fine.

Qiu Shui lowered his eyes and whispered, "I'll go to the hospital."

Li Cu smiled and said, "That's good."