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After the last dinner, I still didn't know whether Li Cu had won or lost playing mahjong.After dinner, he sent me to the school gate. It was just getting dark outside, and a few scattered people came in and out through the small gate next to the main gate.

I said to Li Cuo, "Tomorrow, I will have an evening shift."

He glanced sideways at me under the light of the school gate, let out an "oh" with a half-smile, and then restarted his car.

When I got home at eight o’clock, Mimi, whom I hadn’t seen for two days, ran over with her tail up and trotted over. This cat was injured and I don’t know who threw it into the trash can. When I threw out the trash, I found it was dirty. It raised its head and howled. This is a wounded kitten that was abandoned by someone.

So I picked him up from the trash can and brought it to Li Cuo.

It lived very well in Li Cuo's house.

After Li Cu entered the door, he went to the water bar and poured two glasses of water. I picked up Mimi who was wrapped around my feet, lowered my head and rubbed my face on its head.

A cat's body is soft and warm. I like cats.

"Drink water?" Li Cuo asked me standing in front of the water bar, I nodded, and he asked me again, "Do you need a slice of lemon?"

I shook my head, he poured me a glass of water, stretched out his hand and pushed it to the side, I sat there with the cat in his arms, Li Cu stretched out his hand and pushed the water glass down again.

Because the water in the glass moved, the surface of the water shook slightly, and the light on the top shone on the water in the glass, and the halo was vaguely like a moon.

I belatedly remembered that the Mid-Autumn Festival has passed.

Due to special reasons in our family, the eldest sister and second sister have already married and have their own home. My father is sick, so I live in the eldest sister’s house for a while, and live in the second sister’s house for a while, so things like holidays are meaningless to me. It's just a few days off for many parties.

A few days ago when I saw moon cakes for sale at school, I first thought of Li Cuo, and then I thought I should go see him.I took two packs of mooncakes from the shelf and went to the cashier to pay the bill. My roommate urged me to pay quickly and go to the cafeteria to eat at the door of the convenience store. I responded and saw the condoms placed next to the cashier.

Then I thought, I'm going to find Li Cuo during the Mid-Autumn Festival.

I said goodbye to my roommate, stuffed the mooncakes into my schoolbag and left school.

Me, I have enough time and reason to meet the person I want to meet, and I have enough courage to like the person I like.

Thinking of mooncakes, I asked Li Cuo, "Have you eaten mooncakes yet?"

Li Cu seemed to be a little confused by the turn of my topic, he hesitated for a while and laughed: "I don't like sweets very much."

Me: "Oh."

He asked me along the topic: "Do you want to eat moon cakes?"

I said: "I originally packed two boxes of mooncakes in my schoolbag a few days ago, but they were put in the schoolbag."

Li Cu hummed slowly.

I put Mimi back on the ground and looked at Li Cu: "I don't like to eat mooncakes either, but my sister told me that I eat those things during festivals because of the meaning attached to them."

The eldest sister looks like her mother in the past. She made offerings to Bodhisattvas in her own home, and was a vegetarian on the first and fifteenth day of the Lunar New Year. When her father fell ill and was hospitalized, she specially invited monks from the temple to perform rituals at home.

Eating moon cakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival and glutinous rice balls during the Lantern Festival, these things are generally not left behind.

Li Cuo smiled and blinked and asked me, "What is the meaning of eating mooncakes?"

I answered him: "Reunion."

Li Cu laughed, he approached me, and asked me with a smile: "Who are you reuniting with?"

"..." I knew he was teasing me, but I still stared at him and replied seriously, "Follow you."

Li Cu raised his hand and gently stroked his neck, he still smiled: "Then you eat mooncakes and ask for a happy reunion, the effect may be better than telling me directly."

"..." In my logic, it seemed that such words were not easy to follow, so I could only let out a shriveled "um" from my nose.

In fact, I am less obsessed with words like "reunion". When I was young, I was raised in my uncle's house. I don't know the definition of the word "reunion". Is it my uncle's home or my parents' home? My family, which family do I sit at the same table with to be called "reunion"?

I have a very vague definition of this term.

When I got older, as the only "useful" son, I was taken back to my home. The family was in a mess. Every day I either heard my mother cry or my father cursed. The "reunion" seemed even worse.

When Qu Qiuyi died and my mother died after the blow made her physical condition worse, this "reunion" sounded even more absurd.

For a long time, I completely dismissed this argument. After I went to high school, I seldom went home during the holidays.

I don't want to eat mooncakes for reunion, as Li Cuso thought.

Oh, maybe he was right too.

Because of him, I began to try to understand the positive meaning contained in the word "reunion".

Li Cu moved closer to me after laughing, he was very close to me, so close that I could see a very light brown mole on his cheek, and his well-defined eyelashes. You can see the tiny bloodshot in his eyes.

I think he may have played mahjong very late yesterday. He usually goes to bed early and punctually at home, like the work and rest time of middle-aged and elderly people.

Li Cu's life is very regular. He enters the bathroom to take a shower at about ten o'clock in the evening and then enters the room. He comes out of the room at about seven o'clock the next day. He makes coffee for himself, and then goes out for a morning run.

It’s really middle-aged and elderly. I raised my eyes and stared at the tiny red blood in his eyes for a while. I thought he should go to bed early tonight. I heard my sister complain that she couldn’t sleep at night after she turned 30. Fortunately, it will take many nights to adjust, otherwise the whole day will be muddled.

Li Cu stared at me for a moment, but he didn't move.I thought I had to take the initiative, so I actively raised my hands to hook the back of his neck, and then put my head against him.

Li Cu's lips were very soft. After he paused for a moment, he put a hand on my shoulder, and the laughter escaped from the lips that were pressed against me, even shaking his chest a few times.

After he finished laughing, he raised his hand and lightly pressed my head. After a while, he coaxed with a little helplessness in his voice: "Okay, okay, reunion." He backed his head back and looked at me. He narrowed his eyes slightly, and then said to me, "Healthy and happy."

Li Cu actually didn't know the meaning of his existence with me for a long time.

I don't know if he likes to watch superhero movies, but there is a big villain who is going to destroy the world you live in, and then the hero shows up to help you drive away the villain and restore your world to the peace it once was.

Li Cuo is probably such a role to me. He bestowed a blessing on me, wishing me health and happiness.

Then I will carry the blessings he bestowed upon me throughout my life until I die.

I don't believe in gods and Buddhas. Gods and Buddhas are useless. To me, it's better to believe in Li Cuo.

So from now on, every festival and every blessing will carry the gift that Li Cuo bestowed on me.

I actually feel pretty good.

And for many years afterwards, Li Cu and I would prepare corresponding food during the festival.

Eat glutinous rice balls during the Lantern Festival, eat rice dumplings at the Dragon Boat Festival, and eat moon cakes during the Mid-Autumn Festival...

Actually, Li Cu and I don't like food very much, but we always want to eat some.

I later asked Li Cuo if he said he didn’t like mooncakes, and why he specially prepares mooncakes for the Mid-Autumn Festival, and he would ask me in a little surprise, “Isn’t that what you want? What do you say to eat a little to symbolize reunion.”

I knew that when he talked to me when I was a teenager, he used to run the train with his mouth full of words, and he said things like "eating mooncakes for reunion, the effect is not as good as telling me directly", "If you miss me, I can do it in a second Immediately appear in front of you" This kind of similar words are repeated one after another.

But this is nothing, I have been with him is the best proof.

——End of Autumn Water——