backstroke whale

Close your eyes and lock your ears.

In fact, it is not difficult.The students who know a little about the whole story are all savvy and don't talk to you, but they are friendly like Avon, and they are attentive companions.

The deliberate alienation and avoidance of you still cannot change your active approach.

Seeing the day when the green clothes fade away is approaching, I feel powerless to complain.The heart can only be slightly entangled.

Only at night when writing a diary and touching memories, facing the panic of being unable to restrain the self-split, is it difficult.

late at night.Cool as water.Under the yellow wax table lamp.

Quadrants melted and condensed in space.Seeing myself torn into two abruptly.

One, there exists a world that has never met you.

The other, live in only.have.you.in the space.

Continuous compression.

(Eight)

Life is salty, youth is priceless, I am willing to live like this.

Even squandering.

As the college entrance examination approached, Avon and I, who study, eat and go to and from school together every day, became more intimate and acquainted.

Inspired to become a journalist, she never forgets to set aside time to watch TV news reports during a day full of study plans.

As for me, I have no ideals and ambitions, but I can only seek national universities.

The joint entrance examination system is like a long conveyor belt. Students are the products on the conveyor belt, and they can decide when to leave the conveyor belt only after they have been honed and tested.At the same time, it is also the time to let go of the green wings and spread your wings to breathe freely.

One hot and boring afternoon, the two skipped their self-study class and slipped to the "Atlantic Ice Shop" at the back door of the school to eat ice.

Avon's face was flushed, maybe it was because of the hot and dry weather, the whole person looked extremely excited.

"Hey, Xueyi, I'll give you a newspaper clipping later, it's the first prize of the United Daily News short story!" Avon said without looking up, using a spoon to keep picking soybeans in the ice.

"The exam is coming soon, I have stopped writing, are you still cutting the newspaper?" I said.

"Oh...you'll know it when you see it anyway!"

At the next table came two high-spirited guitarists, who seemed to be members of the guitar club.

Avon glanced at them, and took out a flat newspaper clipping from her school bag and handed it over.

Haven't read yet, the schoolgirls at the next table are already chatting loudly, and your name is mentioned quite frequently in the conversations, almost all of which are "Sister Fiber has big and cute eyes, she plays the guitar really well, I want to be a Fiber" The seniors are directly under the juniors..." and so on.

Avon became more and more disgusted the more he heard, made a disgusted face at them and ran to the bathroom.

You are still the center of attention, I sigh to myself.

Fearing that I would fall into the feeling of inferiority due to longing, so I took the newspaper clippings, hurriedly checked out and left alone.

The embarrassing 03:30 in the afternoon is the moment when it is too early or too late to do anything.

Sitting alone in the library, I didn't read many books that should be read, but I finished reading the newspaper clipping of the first prize of the United Daily News novel in one breath.

No.13 United Daily News short story first prize: Maiden's Dance

Author: Cao Lijuan

This is a work on the theme of lesbians!I was surprised and shocked, and immediately thought of you.

So I copied a copy and put it in your class mailbox, and I want you to read this touching article quite selfishly.

I didn't think much about it. A good roommate and classmate like Avon would ask me to keep this newspaper clipping, which has special meaning.

Perhaps because of youth, selfishness, and carelessness, everything seemed justified.

The magical effect of mango obviously didn't work on me. After the hot summer, I was admitted to the university by the sea in Hong Kong.

In early autumn, I settled down in southern Taiwan with my luggage alone, becoming a freshman in freshman year.

This magnificent campus standing by the sea carries my final and deepest student years.

Half pushing and half avoiding, like an invisible man, skillfully avoiding all departmental orientations, intercollegiate orientations, and all kinds of fellowships, the university for me only has 10 credits of courses a week, and every night from 30:[-] to [-]:[-] The bookstore at [-]:[-] is work-study only.

The work and rest are very similar to the Canon that you must listen to before going to bed, with steady repetition and quiet continuity.When the weather is good, you can take a walk on the beach to bask in the sun, or go to the long island at the other end of the sea, and let your long hair float on the beach and among the waves.

"You're looking more and more like a cat!" Avon said as soon as she saw me.

Holding Tainan's famous "Zaifahao Meat Dumplings", she made a special trip south to visit me.

"Come to celebrate your birthday early," she said.

I looked down and saw that there was really a candle inserted in the big meat dumpling.

"Advance?" I wondered, it was my birthday in January, so the birthday was celebrated more than two months earlier?

"I'll be very busy then!"

"Then you are busy, you don't have to spend so much time."

"I'm afraid that if I don't come to feed you something, you will be blown away by the sea breeze!"

I smiled back, and sat side by side with her on the embankment to share the surprisingly expensive zongzi.

"You need to eat more. After you went to college, you became thinner and whiter. Unlike me, you have already gained five kilograms."

Avon gave me most of the filling.

"That's great, it proves that the seniors love you and take care of you so that they will take you to eat all the snacks in Tainan." I said.

Avon is obviously plumper than in high school, and she should have had a good life in Chengda.

"Where did the senior take care of me? Is it because I take care of others more? I managed the dormitory for my junior sister directly. University is not like high school. The relationship between people is very weak. You see when we were in high school I have such a good relationship with the juniors... Speaking of the juniors, hey, do you know where the juniors from the guitar club got admitted?"

The fragrant, soft and tender shiitake mushrooms that had just been steamed in the mouth suddenly choked in the throat.

"Did you forget? It's the big-eyed junior you gave me guava for three months, named Fiber."

Seeing that I was silent, Avon thought that I had forgotten the stupid persistence I had in high school.

It's almost time to forget, the days have passed for such a long time.I stared at the dotted shadow of the ship in the distance and thought.

The memory is stored in the chest for a long time, do you know if there will be a day when it will turn sour?

"Well, what about her, did she repeat the grade? Or retake the squatting cram school?" I said quite indifferently.

"It's not true. I heard that she went to a medical school in the central region, and her glasses are all over the floor. Can you imagine the appearance of a school girl carrying a guitar and patrolling the ward?" Avon said with a smile after taking a sip of barley tea.

The setting sun melted into the sea, and the wind blew up beside the embankment, and the hair was slightly off the shoulders.

I don't want to mention the past or you anymore, so I dragged Avon to the shore, "Let's go, Avon, I'll take you around the city."

That night, Avon borrowed the suite I rented on Gongyuan 4000nd Road for [-] yuan per month, including water and electricity.After hearing this, Avon yelled at the landlord for blood.

The convenience of working-study status in the bookstore made her staggered by the number of books in my room. After taking a shower, each of us took a book and read it next to the bed.

Chen Sheng's "Last Light" was broadcast repeatedly throughout the night.

"Xueyi...are you asleep?" Avon, who was sleeping first on the floor bunk, suddenly called out in a low voice.

"Not yet, why can't I fall asleep? Is the light too bright?" I turned off the bedside lamp, lay down under the quilt and closed my eyes, planning to go to bed too.

Avon turned over slowly, the sound of the quilt being caressed seemed hesitant to speak in the darkness.

"At the beach this afternoon, I mentioned that school girl... Will you still be sad? Will you be angry?"

"No, how could it be? It's been so long, don't mention this and go to sleep!" The voice in the night seemed a little thin.

"Then... did you meet someone who admired you in college? The same kind of appreciation as Fiber?"

"What does it mean to appreciate Fiber? Now I have no impression of this person at all. Avon, let's go to bed, okay?"

I turned over and yawned, but my sluggish consciousness instantly came back to life at the same time as Avon's question came out: "Actually, I've always wanted to ask you, why did you send that newspaper clipping to Fiber?"

Her voice was a bit bitter, like a whisper, but I could hear every word.

I didn't know what to do with this sudden question, so I could only pretend to be asleep quietly.

Seeing that I was motionless and breathing steadily, Yafang sighed slightly and turned over and fell asleep.

I don't know if Avon fell asleep in the end, but I kept my eyes open and didn't move, as the sky turned from black to white, and from gray to blue.

After waking up, Avon was the same as before, warm and friendly, as if last night was just a dream I had alone.

I took her to a ride, and when she was about to enter the platform, she approached me and gave me a light hug, and put a card into my coat pocket, saying: "Although it's an early birthday, no matter what, what's the birthday?" How about blessings without my card? Let’s go, take care.”

Avon, who turned around with a smile, was submerged in the crowd. For some reason, I always felt a little lonely when she disappeared.

I don't know why, but it makes me feel sad and lonely.

Stepping out of the station, Kaohsiung was still sweltering in November. I took out the card in my pocket, opened it carefully, and the beautiful handwriting immediately appeared:

These are all things that I have exhausted to get.

I always thought you should no longer need it

After seeing you, I realized that it is still useful

this is my birthday present to you

although……

I have always hoped that this gift would not constitute a gift one day.

Best friend Avon

On the left side of the paper card, there is actually a recent photo of you, with the words on the back:

Zhang Yiru, Class One B, Pharmacy, China College of Medicine

Standing helplessly in the noisy street, his nose is getting sore and his eyes are blurred.

After returning to your residence, look carefully at your photos.

You have obviously lost a lot of weight. You wear white jeans and a dark brown sweater. You have a sickly white face, but you still smile.

The smile and expression that once made me deeply infatuated are now only left with incomprehensible astonishment and pity.

Are you having a bad day?How can you be so haggard?My heart was full of waves, I was caught off guard, and my whole body was splashed again.

(nine)

It took a while to adjust to the sticky and torrential mood.

When I was sure that I could smile at you and care about you as a friend, it was already a month later.

So on Christmas Eve, I took the train to Taichung.

I want to see you, I want to make sure that everything is fine with you, and then let me give you up with peace of mind.

It's just that I never expected that what was waiting for me in that familiar city would be endless chaos, contradictions, and entanglements.

As if insisting on playing chess on the Go board, everything is wrong, and nothing that should be right is right.

Christmas Eve in 1996.

Walking alone in the small medical school district, looking for the pharmacy class while walking.

The figures beside him were in a hurry, and the fast pace was indeed the unique style of the medical school.

It was past four o'clock in the afternoon, but most of the students were still in the classroom. As I was walking, I stopped in front of a billboard for a guitar club activity.

Beyond the Strings Guitar Society Achievements Exhibition and Christmas Party

Location Zhongshan Hall Square

Time December 24th at [-]:[-]pm

I think, I know where to find you.

Fireworks, lighting decorations, and well-dressed crowds increase the temperature a lot at night.

I huddled in a corner wearing a light blue scarf, watching the performers shine brightly one after another.After standing silently in the cold wind for an hour, I couldn't help but miss the warmth of Kaohsiung. At this time, a group of little-known bands began to sing, causing a commotion in the audience.

Impatient with this blind chaos, I left and poured a cup of hot black tea in the beverage area.

"Sister?"

He raised his head reflexively and turned around.The hot tea spilled on my hand, I think I must be extremely panicked at this moment.

"Senior sister! You are a middle-aged female senior, right! That... I am Li Xiangyun! Do you remember me?"

She excitedly held my arm, and her palm, which was flushed red from the hot tea, was stiff because of being overwhelmed.

"Which department do you study? I study public health. Why haven't I seen you in school?"

"Uh... I'm not from your school. I study in Zhongshan, in Kaohsiung." I tried to break free from her encircling arms.

"Oh. So, senpai, are you here to find friends?"

"I just stopped by to take a look, I'm leaving soon, you continue to play!" I said with a blushing face, turned and left.

"Do you know about Fiber?" she yelled urgently behind me.

I didn't turn around, but my steps froze.The air has become mire, exhausted and still struggling.

Li Xiangyun hesitated for a while, then followed up and said: "You want to find Fiber, right? She won't be here tonight, but I know where she is. If you want to, I can take you to find her. If it’s too late, it might not happen.”

Seeing that she was already carrying a bunch of motorcycle keys in her hand.

The thought of seeing you is more important than anything else, I nodded silently and sat in the back seat.

The street was full of people. Li Xiangyun's motorcycle turned eastward and westward, riding fast, and finally stopped in front of a restaurant with a big dinosaur.

There is singing in the restaurant, the voice is hoarse and skilled, it is not your voice.

The moment the waiter bent down and shouted welcome, I saw you immediately.

You are wearing a white polo blouse, with long hair, lightly folded behind your ears, bowed your head and plucked the strings, your eyes flicked back and forth between the piano board and the score, and your shoulder-length hair shielded your already thin face. He looked even more haggard and pale.

So far, I can still find you in the crowd at a glance.

A familiar sense of dread seized me again.

"Fiber...is not in good health." Li Xiangyun glanced at you on stage and said.

"not too good?"

"Well, there was a physical education class in the third year of high school. She passed out on the track after running two laps on the playground, which frightened everyone. When she was sent to the hospital, her whole body was still purple. Panting also became thinner and thinner, I was so worried at that time.”

She stirred the yellow liquid in the cup, her viscous expression remained the same as before.

"What kind of disease is that?" My tone was unusually calm.

"Fiber has heart problems, do you know she is vegetarian? She has been vegetarian since she was a child."

"Heart problem?" I tried to ignore her nonsense.

"She always smiled and said to us: 'Look! My heart with personality, when I'm in a good mood, it beats four times and stops; when I'm in a bad mood, it only beats once in 40 seconds. Hahaha.' You know, she still You can laugh! Fiber is really the kind of person who is dying and remembers to tell jokes."

Is that so?Is this why you are pale?Gazing at you in white under the dazzling lights.Mood floating.

After singing a song, there was applause everywhere. Li Xiangyun not only applauded very loudly, but also called your name.

So you raised your head, glanced in this direction, and then looked away indifferently.

Maybe they don't recognize me anymore.I think.

After the concert, you tidy up and talk in a low voice to the girl who is the keyboard player and lead singer beside you.

It was the first time I saw you smile all night, the happy kind, and the kind I've never seen on your face before.

You pick up your guitar, leave the stage, and are hesitating whether to say hello before you leave, but you have already walked towards me.

As the figure gradually became clearer, my breathing became more and more suffocated.

haven't seen you for a long time.you say.

Three years of arming, persistence, adjustment, and self-deception all collapsed in an instant.

It is not as rich and rich as Van Gogh, nor is it as detached and sharp as Kandinsky.

you sit down.You are silent.Always smile.You are a painting of mysticism.

Li Xiangyun brought you a cup of coffee and ran to the bar to chat. I saw the worm-like scar on her left wrist.The scar hasn't faded away yet.What about memory?What should I use to whitewash it?

"It's nice. On you," you say.

His eyes fixed on the scarf around my neck for a long time.Only then drifted away again.coincidence?also?.The pendant hanging around your neck and my scarf are both comfortable blue.

I tried to talk, to chat lightly about my studies, my future, and college life.

And you are just like warming up, holding the coffee in your hand intently, quietly playing the audience.

It's a show that can't fault it.Never hesitate when it's time to nod, and never escape when it's time to stare.

full marks.no doubt.

The perfect listener.A humble trick that keeps me out of my heart.

There must be some unknown spiritual substance produced in your heart.

Make you like this!Both gray and heavy.

Frightening.Three years from now you will be like this.I love.Love it even more. "Talking for so long? Old friend?"

The lead singer and keyboard player came over and put his arm around your shoulders, whispering in your ear.

Her lips and your ears exist in an almost immeasurable distance.

"Don't take too long, there is still a dance waiting for you at the University of Tokyo!"

She smiled and kissed your cheek lightly.

If there is nothing like throwing a smile, it is like showing off, and it is enough to declare your ownership.

This scene made me feel cursed. "A madman, don't mind." You caressed her cheek.I struggled to swallow the bitterness. "Christmas Eve should be celebrated. I came from a long way, I didn't expect to meet you by chance..."

"Have fun, anyway, squeezing the night train back to Kaohsiung is the best thing I can do." I launched an offensive.

Go straight to your weak spot.overly kind.

A trace of tugging flashed in your eyes, and then you returned to your habitual indifference.Mood swings.First revealed tonight.

You put down your glass, got up and walked to the bar, and after talking to some people including Li Xiangyun,

Turn around and say to me: "Donghai dance party. If you don't feel noisy or tired, just come together.

Close up your clothes, it's cold.I leaned against the stone wall outside the hall.

It is no different from the students on the night tour in the impression, a group of people are waiting for the allocation and dispatch of locomotives and personnel.

Because I "extremely insisted" on sharing a motorcycle with you, the scene was a little awkward and stagnant.

The female lead singer named "Yu Zhen" is arguing with you in the corner.The confrontation picture can be so beautiful!

Beautiful like a tragic constant value.

She was tall, stylish, and bright.It suits you very well.

The incomprehensible eyes projected at me around me were further forgiven because of the beauty in front of me.

After a while, you came over with the guitar and gave me a key.The expression is calm, without any emotion. "JQM-918. Green Dijue. Let's go." You say.

Feel your weight behind me again.This is the second time.

I rode the car fast and quickly escaped from the car formation.Coveting to be alone with you.

That five-digit guitar stands between you and me, occupying that little motorcycle seat.

"People can fall, but guitars can't." You said.Soft yet firm.

Looking at you in the rear mirror.Keep putting it together in your mind and review it over and over again.My heart, which was conditioned at the first meeting, was in a frenzy.

(Didn’t I just come here after adjusting?) Looking at the afterglow of the streetlights filtering down from the street trees, I shook my head secretly at my own shadow.sigh.

This is a night sky without color.Can't think.my reason.It's easy to catch.

"I didn't expect you to study medicine." I said during a red light stop.

You looked up at the traffic light timer, silently waited for 45 seconds to count down.

In the cold wind, your nose is red from the cold.Immediately, I realized that your clothes were thin, so I took off the scarf and handed it to you.

You take it.Immediately around the shoulders.Without hesitation, without hesitation.

At this time, Song Yuzhen and Li Xiangyun were being carried by two boys, and they drove past me one by one.

Song Yuzhen shook her hands exaggeratedly, singing and laughing with the boy seated in front.When overtaking, don’t forget to turn your head and blow a kiss to you and shout:

"MarryChristmas... My Dear Fiber...."

Passers-by in China and Hong Kong were bustling with people and cars, and people in high spirits were everywhere.This excitement seems to have nothing to do with you.

As the sound of the music became clearer, people and vehicles became more and more crowded.

I parked the car near the school gate and put the keys in my pocket.Tonight, you are mine and I am your driver.

The lights light up the night sky beside the mountain.Music, cigarette butts, beer cans, .The burning point is different, and each burns youth in different ways.

Facing such a night, it is easier to experience it by watching it than being in it.At least for me.

Choose a grass with a higher slope to sit next to the tree trunk, the East China Sea dance is empty and cold for people like me

Tighten your body and search for your figure in the crowd from afar.A little line of blue.

You in my blue scarf.

"Why don't you go play?" A man walked out from the tree trunk behind him, a boy with a deep and pleasant voice.

I didn't look back, still staring at the touch of blue in front of me squatting next to the speakers and practicing.The man sat down next to me with his knees crossed.

"You are very different, really." He casually picked up the bottle on the ground and played with it in his hand.

Even though his magnetic voice impresses me, I've always had an unwarranted distaste for such uninvited characters.

"You know what?" He tossed the bottle far away. "I've never seen a fiber willing to be carried by someone other than Yu Zhen."

"so what?"

"It's enough to prove that you are a very different person. At least, for fiber."

"That's none of your business!"

"Don't be so absolute!" He slid sideways in front of me and looked at me and said, "If I like Yu Zhen, then I should just do my job!"

"Thanks to your "persistence" today I was able to carry Yu Zhen!"

At this time, your gentle and fresh acoustic guitar sounded on the distant stage.The figures in the square are in pairs, spinning in an ambiguous atmosphere.

Accompanied by your guitar, Song Yuzhen sang with all her heart:

Ev'rytimeItriedtotellyouthewordsjustcameoutwrong………….

So I have to say I love you... ina song...

With the flow of the notes and melody, the interaction between the two of you is intimate and natural.

For a long time, if you have a boyfriend, you will only treat the same sex around you with friendship.

However, at this time, Song Yuzhen is by your side, and your smile is so happy and happy.It's also strange.

Yes, by your side.

From the moment I met your eyes, Zeng simply wanted to be by your side.

Tonight, you show love's crowned smile, and let me be in the thin air of the sky.

"Even if they are really gay, they are very compatible, beautiful and comfortable." The boy stared at the performance on the stage and sighed.

Then go on to tell how you gave up countless flies around you for Song Yuzhen, and how Song Yuzhen got into disputes with other school girls because of you.

"Please don't tell me this tonight!"

I silently looked at the boy in front of me with a healthy body and long hair parted in slightly curly sides, thinking begging for mercy.

Withdraw his gaze.I stood up hastily and ended the topic by leaving.

"Hello!" He called me from behind. "Don't you think they're a good match?"

The crowd gathers to count down.I speed up my feet and run towards you.I want to congratulate you at the first time

"My name is Liu Yuanji. My nickname is 'repeat'. What about you?" the boy shouted.

"My name is Backstroke Whale." I said without looking back.

"Five, four, three, two, one. MerryChristmas!"

The sky is full of fireworks against the deafening cheers.You hugged her tightly beside you.Smile and look at each other.

Three meters away from you.I stopped with red eyes.

"Merry Christmas. My fiber" I said to myself.

You are cruel to me, with your invulnerable happiness.

Convergently---visual crowning

I was cruel to you, with my doomed love.

capriciously --- consciousness

Walking through the illuminated trees, I walked straight, struggling, away from the crowd.

Leaning slumped on the motorcycle seat cushion.The signboards, light, and shadows around him couldn't help shaking.

I'm dizzy.fear.The car keys in my hand clamped into my cold palm.

"You're hugging a girl! How-how-yes-yes!"

I bowed my head to the gutter and retched like a wounded animal.

"Your feeling, I have experienced it a year ago."

Li Xiangyun bent down and handed me a tissue.I did not refuse.it turns out.

"Probably no one is more suitable for fiber than Yu Zhen." She dragged her cheeks, and her eyes were misty.

"I admit that I like fiber as a friend. Since high school, I have been practicing piano with her, watching her on the court...

She always smiles, and I later learned that smiling is the way she keeps a distance from people. ..."

She flicked the sea on her forehead, and continued:

"It wasn't until Yu Zhen's appearance that Fiber's smile gave off the warmth of happiness."

The warmth of happiness.

yes!I should have known.Folk songs? The smile on the corner of your mouth in the hall.So soft.Good persistence.

That warm arc.Not for me.From beginning to end, it was never because of me!

Those who can speak out must be deeply affected by it.I looked at Li Xiangyun curled up in a daze and thought.

In the condensed time, thoughts spread like shadows against the ground.each spread.

You in the distance, walk out of the school gate slowly.You wearing my blue scarf.

The fingers of Song Yuzhen and Song Yuzhen were intertwined closely, and they were reluctant to take a cold break.

"Yuan Ji proposed to take a night tour of Dadu Mountain? Do you want to come together?" Song Yuzhen said.

The cold night seemed unable to dampen her high spirits.She let go of the hand that had been holding you all the time, and ran over to warmly hold Li Xiangyun and me.

"Let's go with Xiangyun! And this..."

"Jiang Xueyi." I said.And quietly withdrew the hand that was held.

"Xueyi, welcome to join." Song Yuzhen noticed that I was not at ease, gave me a good smile, and then chatted and laughed loudly.

When you place an order, you are immediately surrounded by a group of people in front of the convenience store, asking for phone numbers, names and the like.

Seeing you with an awkward expression, holding a pen in one hand and a guitar in the other, Ming Ming hesitated to deal with it and couldn't bear to refuse.

I took out the key to the engine car, and successfully snatched you away from the crowd.

I understand you.Always like this.

In about ten minutes, we are already in Dadu Mountain.Basin edges with less light pollution.

The scarlet sea of ​​flames on the right is a portrayal of the prosperity of the city.The Junbi Hanxing on the left is a remote symbol of the township.

I thought you would like the night view of the big city on the right, but I didn’t expect you to wear a coat and walk to the highest bunker steps on the left.

The bunker has a wide view, but the wind is also strong.I endured the cold and sat beside you.

"Thank you." You said suddenly.

"Thank me? Is it because I rescued you from the crowd?"

You shake your head and smile.Shallow dimples.Xingzi's eyes.

"Please accept these three words. Because I still have three words to say."

You reached out to take off the scarf and slowly wrapped it around my shoulders.

Slowly, cautiously, like a coronation ceremony.

The distance between my face and the tip of your nose is less than ten centimeters.The moment the hair is flicked, people hold their breath and indulge.

(Please let me indulge! Tonight!)

I stretch out my hand, wanting to touch your beautiful smile, wanting to feel the touch of my fingertips sliding across your cheek.I want to iron out the sickness between your eyebrows.

think.let you remember me.

then

I hold your face in my arms and imprint my kiss on the center of your brow.In tenths of a second.

The sound of the engine behind him stopped abruptly, and the originally noisy voice stopped for an instant.

After a moment of dead silence, a girl ran away crying.

You stand up coldly and walk down the bunker.Walk towards the girl.

"Fiber! Wait!" I yelled behind you "You still have three words left? Don't you?"

You turned to look at me, but didn't stop.You sighed slightly and said:

"Say, don't talk, talk and don't talk. It doesn't make sense to anyone anymore!"

So, you walked away without looking back.

Walk towards another girl with the gentleness that I copied on your eyebrows.

Greedy for that tactile sensation, as eternal and mysterious as a black hole.

In the cold air at the highest point of the bunker, my palms were slightly sweaty.

There are many hostile and contemptuous eyes under the steps.I was a target, a perpetrator of eye attacks.

Just for a tenth of a second kiss! ?The moral hypocrisy that has nothing to do with oneself makes people feel ridiculous!

"Is everyone learning about electric poles? Can you stop standing there?" the long-haired boy said. "I bought a bunch of firecrackers, does anyone want to bomb the stars with me?"

The boy's tone was relaxed and exaggerated.Successfully catalyzed the stagnant carnival atmosphere again.As the fireworks rise into the sky and bloom, the sense of harmony gradually wakes up in the air.I sat alone on the bunker, admiring the fireworks and noisy figures.It was as if the previous embarrassment never existed.I sincerely admire the remarkable forgetting ability of human beings.

"Hey, Miss Whale, do you still remember me? The one who talked to you in Dongda, my name is Liu Yuanji."

The boy who bombed the stars climbed the dirt wall behind me.He kept shaking his head to the side, as if he was curious about something.

"I think..." He picked up a stone and drew on the ground. "If you were a fish, you probably wouldn't be a whale."

"You're a shark. The deadly kind."

"Whatever," I said.

In fact, I don't disagree with his statement.Even, in a way, I kind of like being bloody myself.

"You are chasing fiber, I am waiting for Yuzhen. Obviously someone has taken the most important position in their love! But it's not you and me." He squatted down, looked at me strangely and said, "I'm curious what the power is Support your dedication to fiber? Are all lesbian relationships so determined?"

"I'll tell you the answer when you become a gay man someday."

"You don't have to wait until that day." Liu Yuanji laughed a few times and stood up straight. "Looking at your current appearance, the answer is almost ready."

Perhaps it was an illusion, but I actually felt that there was a lot of sympathy in his laughter.

A spark exploded in the dark sky, and the radial thread slowly passed the ground.Residual white smoke drags a beautiful parabola.

"Sometimes I wish I wasn't a boy," he said.Looking up, I can't hide my loneliness in an instant.

"However... even if Yu Zhen is a girl, she may not necessarily like me."

The firelight illuminates the left side of the boy's face, while the right side is sighing.

Let go of his repeated uninvited interruptions.After all, he is also a guy who suffers from climbing dangerous peaks.

Love cruelly and brutally tattoos us.A tattoo that is doomed to failure if you don't look forward to it.

The pointer on the watch pointed to a quarter past three in the morning.I struggled to move my paralyzed foot, and stood up with difficulty.

Follow Liu Yuanji's line of sight to search, and soon find the shadows of you and Song Yuzhen on a sloping grass.

You and him are back to back, cheek to cheek, right hand held tightly by Song Yuzhen.

"Why not let it all end tonight!"

I feel tired like never before, like the tipping point that must be passed before disintegration.

Step towards you.

"I want to go back to Kaohsiung!" I said to you.You both raise your heads.

"Now?" you ask.The thin shoulders were still held in Song Yuzhen's arms.

"Yes, it's now. But..." I saw a trace of concern for me in your eyes, and my heart ached to the point of convulsions.

You stand up from the grass, your hair blown like a gypsy.

"You guys talk, I'll avoid it for a while." Song Yuzhen said while helping you brush your hair.Don't even look at me.

"Please stay," I said. "I just have something to say, there is nothing to avoid."

"If you don't mind," she said.Fingers are still running through your hair.

"I saw you for the first time when I was 17, that afternoon in front of the auditorium. I said to myself 'Jiang Xueyi, we are in love with this person.'" I swallowed hard. "I use my own way to talk about a relationship that is doomed to fail. I know this very well. After I found out that you have a boyfriend in the guitar competition at Chung Cheng University, I was even more sure of you..."

"Sure I don't like girls, not lesbians, are you?" you continued.

"Yes, I really thought so at the time. I thought this unrequited love had come to an end with the appearance of Lin Jiayuan." You looked a little astonished.I took a breath of cold air and continued. "This time I came to Taichung, I didn't take any chance to meet you.