Red dust past

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The bizarre place is the entertainment industry,

Little ghosts often crouch down on the road, and devils come and go frequently.

The girl in the photo is called Xiaojiao. After we finished filming the movie together, we started dating quietly. I don't want the agency to know, because I'm probably the company's number one.The boss doesn’t want me to go to the mainland to develop, because after an artist goes to the mainland for a long time and finds good resources, they will terminate the contract with the company. There are several examples of this, so the boss is very wary of me, afraid that I will learn from other artists , Find another job.The company and I cooperate with each other and guard against each other.

However, I am very obsessed with her, and I feel like not seeing her once a day is like three autumns, so I often look for opportunities to go to the mainland, ranging from a few days to a month.I stayed in the mainland for nearly three months by filming a film, the longest time, as soon as I finished my work, I sent my assistant away, so as not to make myself inconvenient, and then I flew to see her.At that time, I also went to participate in the audition of several TV series invested by the mainland. Of course, it was not the company's lead, but my girlfriend at the time.She hoped that I could find suitable filming in the mainland, and also hoped that I would sign with a company in the mainland.On the one hand, the market is bigger and there are more opportunities; on the other hand, of course, I hope we can stay together forever; in fact, I understand her heart.It's just that things didn't go as expected.First of all, after auditioning for several plays, there was no reply, and my career development in the Mainland encountered obstacles; secondly, my boss soon found out that I had secretly auditioned, thinking that I wanted to terminate the contract.In fact, at that time, I didn't want to terminate the contract with the company, but I just hoped to have more space, maybe set up a studio in the Mainland, and take more jobs in the Mainland; It was because of my own convenience and other considerations that I didn’t want me to develop in the mainland. For example, my assistants, agents, and even my colleagues in the mainland didn’t want me to come and grab food, so everyone just worked together. Through their respective channels, blow the boss away, exaggerate, and make him think that I will fly away tomorrow.I talked to my boss a few times and told me that I wanted to set up a studio in the mainland, but he didn't agree with it at all, and told me to stop messing around, and even blamed me for forgetting his cultivation of me.He also said, it's best to listen to his arrangement, otherwise, it will be very bad for my development.At that time, I was also young and energetic, and I couldn't negotiate, and I was scolded a lot, and I felt very unhappy.

I'm starting to get a little tired of the turmoil in the entertainment industry, and I don't like how they are friendly when they meet, flattering wildly on stage, and stabbing in the back desperately. I am not a person who is keen on chasing fame and fortune. I am willing to sacrifice too much personal life and freedom for the sake of fame and fortune.So, I took a long vacation and moved to my girlfriend's city on the grounds of being sick. At that time, I only wanted to be with her every day.

At the beginning, I lived in a hotel. After a while, I kept begging her to live with me, but she refused to agree. She only wanted to come to see me every day.One day, I said to her: "I can't live in a hotel all the time, it's too expensive. You always come to this kind of place, and it's easy to be misunderstood. Moreover, we can't get to know each other deeply. After all, a hotel I can’t cook here, and I really like to cook for you---” In short, I said a lot of reasons that I don’t know right or wrong, and finally, she agreed to let me live with her temporarily. She told Me, the reason is: she considers that I don't have much to film for the time being, and she is still a person who has a notice to evict. In this way, I can save a little money and let her eat the meals I cook. The best of both worlds. You see, in fact, she is a little silly girl. She really wants to save me money! Thinking that I have no filming and will be short of money, she wants to help me. She is even more unwilling to spend my money , I have saved my living expenses. Although my business has not progressed, several auditions have not been successful, and there is no new job, but there are still a few previous advertisements that are still being executed, and those are basically clients that have cooperated with me for many years Among them, there is Ms. Zhuang. I used to have a high income and saved a lot of money, so I am not short of money. When I have nothing to do, I cook at home, exercise, and sometimes, even go to filming with her After several months of living like this, she enjoyed it, but I didn't think it was a long-term solution. At that time, I had the idea of ​​quitting the entertainment industry altogether and starting a new life.

One day, I suggested, 'We might as well go abroad, such as Canada, buy a piece of land to plant grapes, raise some animals, have a few children, live a pastoral life, of course, not a primitive life, I can buy a villa with you Living in the suburbs is also fine, I can find a simple job, for example, working as a bartender in a bar, teaching children to play ball, etc. We don’t need to live on wages, as long as we are not too extravagant and my savings are completely sustainable.You can also do what you like. 'When I told her the idea, she happened to be filming a film, maybe she loves acting more, she said, 'I can't do anything except acting. After going there, I can only be a housewife. Maybe, you are not qualified to be a housewife, your English is not good, you don’t know the way, you can’t buy things, you can’t cook, and you have completely become a waste. You will hate me.I don't want to. ' She didn't take it seriously.

Later, something happened again, because when she competed with a certain actress for a role, someone deliberately made some videos to discredit her, and even sent them to me. I mistakenly thought that she was having an affair with a certain director secretly, so she refused to go abroad with me.So, in a fit of anger, he left.

Maybe, I am a fragile and sensitive person. After leaving Jiaomei, I couldn’t keep up my spirits and stayed at home. During that time, my emotions were hit hard and I was in a daze all day long. Later, my mental state became very poor , At this time, the boss of the company and the mother and daughter of the Su family teamed up to play tricks again. Once, when the boss invited me to a party, Ms. Su poured some medicine into the wine and took a lot of photos of me and her in bed. They kept threatening me , it bothers me.I don't know whether the effect of alcohol mixed with drugs was too strong, or I was too fragile. Finally, a few days after the party, I had a nervous breakdown and auditory hallucinations.My brother sent me to a nursing home abroad for treatment and rest for a few months. After I was discharged from the hospital, I just went to play and relax, and I didn’t contact Jiaomei anymore. It seemed that I was instinctively afraid that I would touch the sadness. Anxiety and more intense emotions such as anger.Later, after another period of time, I was finally able to return to work. I am especially grateful to Ms. Zhuang, who gave me a chance to recover. Continued to work with me and even introduced me to some new clients after I fully recovered.The brokerage company saw an opportunity to make a lot of money in me again, and the boss's attitude towards me has also improved. For the time being, he didn't use Su Beita's matter to force me.

Jiaomei later found out that because of her incident, I was hurt a lot and I had a mental breakdown. She spent a lot of effort to find the person who was hired to make the smearing video and paid a lot of money. , to exchange for the edited video used to discredit her; she also entrusted the person who made the video to find me in Hong Kong, tell me the truth, and show me my mother, hoping to help me untangle my heart.To be honest, I don't blame her at all in my heart, but I blame this circle for being too insidious.That autumn, I went to Hangzhou to film a movie. After the work was finished, I left a message on her phone and told her that I was at the Xixi Hotel for the first date. She happened to be at the Hangzhou airport that day, so I drove to the airport to pick her up. .She was still filming at the time and could only stay for a few hours, and she had to rush to Shanghai again.However, we haven't seen each other for so long, and we have so many things to say, and we haven't finished talking.So, I went to Shanghai with her, and we talked for three days and three nights, making out all the time.We are back together again.

At this time, it has been almost a year since the last time we separated, and we seemed to be back in the past, still so sweet, but I think this time is even sweeter and more precious.I am the same as before, I go to accompany her whenever I have time, cook delicious meals for her, and she always turns down all private appointments, except for work, she basically does not go out to meet friends, she always laughs at herself I almost have no friends.

However, this peaceful and happy day was interrupted by an incident; at that time, there was news that a drama we were cooperating with suddenly came on the air and became very popular. The benefit of this incident is that our The acting skills have been affirmed by the audience, especially her.It brought millions of fans to both of us, which brought popularity and more opportunities.The downside is that we can no longer go on dates, shopping, and vacations as freely as before, and we even have to pretend to be two strange collaborators in front of the camera.However, I am not as good as her acting skills, so I often slip up, and my facial expressions will betray people.Sometimes, maybe because I was too tired of pretending, I completely forgot to keep a distance from her, and I got close to her naturally on stage.After I got down, she would criticize me in private, saying, "You are so stupid! You are so affectionate with me on stage, it will make your fans, especially those wife fans angry." "I don't care! You are My wife!" "But they will attack me when they get angry." "Okay! Okay! I won't make out with you on stage. How can I make up for it?" I asked her, and she said, " You can do whatever you want, but please don’t forget, don’t hug and cuddle on stage. You’re often jealous.” I got a little angry at what she said, and she started to coax me, kiss me, and then, I said, "Then I'm in a place where no one is around, so I can kiss you if I want to, that's fine!" That's how we are, the more we quarrel, the sweeter we get.

Soon, we started to really quarrel, this time the main reason was the special assistant and 'girlfriend' arranged by my company - Su Beita.The boss felt that I was getting more popular and needed to tie me tighter.So, began to move.

Not long after I broke up with Jiaomei, and when I was in the worst state of mind, my boss and the mother and daughter of the Su family planned an obscene and shameless drama.Then, I changed Subetta from a special assistant to my "girlfriend", and took pictures to leave evidence.Now, those photos come in handy.As long as I am disobedient, the boss can pull the rope tied around my neck, and the mother and daughter of the Su family will also cooperate with the demon.

I nodded while listening, at this moment, it seemed that in a corner of his heart, a dormant volcano was erupting slowly but continuously.

Subeta didn’t do what the boss said at the time, she was just a girlfriend in name, and she would leave when she debuted; she didn’t want to leave at all, and it was impossible to debut, because she didn’t have any chance, even if it was a small advertisement, she would leave. Can't get it.Once, in my advertisement, the company wanted to add her as a character, but the advertiser and the client disagreed, even if she didn't need money to show her face first, the client didn't agree, so if she wanted to mix in the entertainment industry, she could only She's behind the scenes; her mother thinks her daughter has no future, so she tries to marry her to me.However, I am very clear that this is absolutely impossible, my heart has long been occupied by Jiaomei.Even during the period when I was separated from Jiaomei, I hid her in my heart and never left any space for others.

If this drama can be aired earlier, there will be absolutely no such troubles in the future.However, it took four years for the drama I collaborated with Jiaomei to air.It’s not too late for a good show, it’s still a big hit, and various film contracts and advertising contracts are coming. My work is basically in the mainland, and my sister and I have already got back together. Naturally, I want to go more The mainland has developed, and it is best to be able to live in the mainland for a long time.However, the company is naturally even more unwilling to let go of me who has become popular at this time.After learning about this situation, the mother and daughter of the Su family became impatient. In order to achieve the goal of controlling me, they did not hesitate to ruin my image at the cost of creating various opportunities, taking various photos of me and Su, or taking some photos of me. Photos of me having fun with my so-called friends, and even deliberately PS some indecent photos and put them on the Internet.Not only did it create conflicts between Jiaomei and me, but it even scared off a few companies that didn't know what they were interested in, and even made some advertisers who had cooperated with me for many years no longer sign with me.

In addition, at that time, many fans made a high-profile pairing of me and Jiaomei pink, and any interaction news between me and Jiaomei spread quickly and was very sensational, which also indirectly stimulated the mother and daughter of the Su family, and they began to toss even more incredible.They forced me to introduce Subetta to my family first. If I disagreed, I threatened to show my parents the intimate video I took before, and said that I would sue: I molested an underage girl.You know how I can bear my parents to suffer these blows!In their minds, I am an obedient and promising son!If they knew that their son was actually connected with these scandals and even criminal acts, how terrible it would be!I also dare not imagine what will happen to Jiaomei after she finds out the truth.I had no choice but to agree first, and then try to find a way to delay it again and again, hoping that after the delay, they can give up.I love Jiaomei, how could I marry a girl I don't love.Doing so is the greatest harm to the person I love, and I am sorry for myself!Because of this, it would be easier for me to become a monk or die.This is my bottom line.So, from then on, the more popular I was, the more I thought about how to get rid of all this.

After dragging on for a while, the mother and daughter of the Su family realized that it was absolutely impossible for me to take the initiative to break up with Jiaomei.Millions of fans are so optimistic about our couple, and hope that we can become a fairy couple in reality. My family also likes Jiaomei very much. Even passers-by can tell that I love her very much.They were so jealous that they went crazy, and then they came up with some dirty tricks: directly sending pictures to Jiaomei to harass her, hoping that she would give up on me.They sent a few photos of their play together.Although, I had told her in advance that the company assigned me a special assistant and claimed that she was the rumored girlfriend for the sake of making Su debut, so it was considered a vaccination for her, but after receiving the group photo, she was still very nervous. sad.I am also very guilty.

Later, the mother and daughter of the Su family saw that Jiaomei and I still did not break up after their wave of offensives, and they began to make a big move: They bought and sold some of my friends and colleagues, asked them to organize some parties, and invited me to attend .Then, I called Ms. Su, and asked my unguarded friends to take some photos of me and Ms. Su alone. After successfully getting the photos, they felt like they had found a treasure, and immediately found someone to send to Jiaomei.Jiaomei gradually began to doubt me, and my explanations gradually became ineffective.You know, no one can stand it, and I receive these ambiguous photos from time to time!I was always slapped in the face by these ambiguous photos not long after I gained the trust of Jiaomei. I couldn’t even figure out where these photos came from. Some photos even couldn’t remember where they were taken. .I must admit that I have a habit of drinking, and that whenever a friend invites me, it is very difficult for me to refuse. For me, it is difficult to refuse a friend.Therefore, every year and festival, we have to get together; when friends have a happy event, they have to drink to celebrate; Singing the birthday song is just a formality, the highlight is drinking and taking pictures and so on.Gradually, as soon as I returned to the company, there were always various parties looking for me, and drinking was indispensable in the party, and I gradually developed the habit of getting drunk every time I got drunk; and my group of drinking buddies would always meet at this time Call Miss Su, she will always pick the right time to pour me some wine or some food when I'm about to die from drinking, so there are a lot of ambiguous photos, maybe, it's here Taken in this state.Afterwards, I really couldn't remember why I took such a photo. For example, I was lying in Miss Su's arms in a gaffe, she was sitting on my lap, and I was leaning on her chest.When I saw these photos from Jiaomei, I was both surprised and ashamed.I categorically deny the authenticity of these photos.But Jiaomei obviously doesn't think so.She probably thought I was covering up the truth on purpose.

That year, when spring came, after I went to Hong Kong to do a promotion, I came to Beijing to shoot a commercial. As soon as I got off the plane, I received a call from Jiaomei. She asked me to meet in a hotel.I'm very happy because, the last time we broke up, and because someone sent her an indecent photo of me, I was very upset. I thought she finally figured it out and forgave me.However, when I went to see her happily, I found that she was no longer as enthusiastic as before. In the past, even after we had quarreled, she was eager to hear what I had to say, to hear my explanation, and to reconcile. After that, he always couldn't wait to ask this and that, teasing me.However, now she seemed indifferent, and silently took out the photos that she had just received, the photos of me and those friends playing and partying, and of course the ambiguous photos of Ms. Su and me were indispensable in it.She looked at me and said calmly, "You always said that your friends dragged you to a drinking party before you met her. Maybe your friends think that you and her are very suitable, so they keep matching up." You two. If you don’t mean to, it’s impossible to attend so many parties together! There are so many group photos! It means that you still share the same taste, so let’s not be together!” When I heard this, I became angry, but I still suppressed it. Stopping the fire, I tried my best to explain, "I really didn't know they called her again. I can't see her coming in front of my friends, so I'll go! I can't tell my friends not to call her, This is so impolite!" My explanation seemed reasonable, but it seemed weak, Jiaomei obviously refused to believe it, she reluctantly sat on a chair far away from me; then, I swear to God, "I can leave This circle, as long as I can leave with you, the domestic circle is also very insidious, and I can't get involved. Last time, didn't you also get a smearing video? To be fair, let's go abroad to develop together and stay away from our circle. Everything will be fine." She looked at me and said, "You know I can't go, I don't have any hobbies, I just like acting, but you have so many hobbies, like drinking, partying, photography, Love to play ball... You can quickly build up your circle around the world, but what about me? I thought about it, if I really go out with you, I will completely lose myself." I said again, "You Have you forgotten that I love you? I will help you adapt and build your circle, and my circle is your circle!" Finally, she seemed to soften her heart, and said, "Although, you said you love I, I love you too. If, in a place isolated from the world, we can live happily together." I immediately said, "Okay! Okay! I have long wanted to live on a deserted island isolated from the world Only with you." Jiaomei's face became serious, and she said calmly, "But we all live in reality, and no one in your circle likes me. Maybe they treat me like this. , it’s because I don’t suit your way of life. Maybe it’s because you and your friends don’t have common hobbies, and we can’t play together. Maybe they think she’s more suitable for you, and she can play with them When we get together, we can run around the world with you! Maybe we shouldn’t be a couple in reality, we are only suitable to be a couple on screen!” I shouted loudly, “I don’t want a couple on screen!”

No matter what I say, she no longer believes it.Finally, she was silent for a while, and said, "I will be closed for a period of time to film, and it is inconvenient to contact you. Take care!" After finishing speaking, she opened the door and ran away, leaving me in despair. , In the abyss of pain.